So the pond will drown

If the angel's wings are broken, the angel will belong to the devil forever.

……

He was really glad that his mother didn't know what he was going through, otherwise he might go to hell and have no face to face her and his father.

Even if those painful or sad or sad things linger in his heart for a lifetime, Gu Chi doesn't want his parents to know.

It was so embarrassing... so embarrassing that he couldn't bear to look at himself.

Sometimes he also wondered what would happen if he hadn't met Jiang Yu?What should he do when his mother is gone?Maybe he will be at a loss, sad and sad, but he will definitely be able to come out. After all, everything was fine before Jiang Yu appeared. Everything here.

But now, the one he cares about will either never see each other or see him indefinitely. He doesn't even know how Chu Yang, Chen Ran, and Zhou Hong are doing now. He dare not know, if their life is not good , What kind of attitude should he face them?

Gu Chi only hated himself for being too small in this world, so small that he seemed so powerless even if he wanted to pull them back, and he lost his direction.

Even if he died immediately, probably not many people would care, but now he doesn't even have the right to die.

"Mom, I'm a little cold..."

Gu Chi lowered his eyes, and hot tears hit Cheng Liang's stone tablet, who's heart was hurt, and which piece of ice was melted.

He remembered that one winter, his father was away on a business trip and could not go home for the New Year. His mother missed him and was afraid that his father would be alone, so she decided to take him to his father's place.

That was the first year that their family had lived abroad.

It was cold in Luyao that year, and because the Chinese New Year was approaching, air tickets, train tickets, and high-speed rail tickets were all unavailable, so they could only take long-distance buses and make continuous turnover, which made my father feel very distressed.

This trip is really not that easy.

The waiting hall was full of people, bustling, and the environment was poor. The smell of cigarettes and instant noodles mixed together, making people very uncomfortable.

My mother is also a quiet person, and she doesn't like such noisy occasions, so she took him to wait outside the waiting hall.

In the cold winter, the mother and son were too cold to speak.

That's what Gu Chi said at that time.

"Mom, I'm a little cold..."

The mother immediately opened the coat and wrapped the little boy in the embrace that was small but warmed him all winter.

It was also on that day that little Gu Chi realized that his mother's heartbeat could be so warm and powerful, even better than the music played by the piano.

"I don't want to sleep, and I want to sleep with you and Dad forever."

The cold rainwater hit his pale and moist cheeks, like a few feet of sharp ice, which penetrated into one's heart and pierced one's heart. Gu Chi's clothes were thin and his health was not good. When the cold wind blew, he couldn't help shivering slightly , cold all over.

Gu Chi subconsciously gathered his collar, closed his eyes, and didn't intend to stay longer.

have nothing to say.

He had finished talking to her when his mother was alive, so he came here today just to see her, and let her see himself too.

Now Gu Chi doesn't pray for anything, he only hopes that his mother and father can feel at ease over there and don't have to worry about him.

When Xiaohan went to Fu Dong's place, Gu Chi entrusted him. Even if he died, he believed that Fu Dong would not break his promise. Fu Dong and Jiang Yu were not the same kind of people, and sometimes they would even understand him better, so now he treats him better. It doesn't matter anymore, and he doesn't care anymore.

It turns out that the road ahead is bleak, the world is cold, and people with warm hearts are as cold as frost in the end.

"Mom and Dad, I hope that one day, the warm sun will reappear and everything will go well. We can meet again and move forward hand in hand."

Gu Chi smiled, his tone light.

It's like letting go of everything, like taking on everything.

He finally has nothing, no one can save him...

"Little Pond."

A shadow was suddenly cast in front of him, and all the coolness was covered by the sudden darkness.

Gu Chi was stunned for a moment, but before he could react, there was a sudden weight on his shoulder—Jiang You took off his coat and put it on him.

"You don't need..." Gu Chi immediately brushed the corner of his clothes off his shoulders.

"I'm not cold." Jiang Yu said immediately, pulling back his clothes calmly.

There were wet raindrops on Gu Chi's eyelashes, so when he looked back at Jiang Yu, his eyes were blurred, and he couldn't know whether he was cold or not.

He quickly turned his head, pursed his lips and said nothing, propped up his knees and wanted to stand up, but his legs were still numb after squatting for a while, and when he stood up, his legs went limp, and he staggered uncontrollably. Unexpectedly, the soles of his feet almost slipped Falling down, Jiang Yu was startled. Since the other hand was holding the umbrella, he could only stretch out the other hand to wrap around Gu Chi's waist, pulling him closer to him. Gu Chi didn't expect it, and exclaimed With a sound, he subconsciously grabbed the clothes on both sides of Jiang Yu's waist, but he didn't grasp well, lost his center of gravity, and slammed his head into his arms in a daze.

At this time, the rain was getting heavier and heavier, and the sound of the raindrops hitting the umbrella surface was very clear. It was like each other's heartbeats, which unexpectedly crashed into the hearts of the two of them, causing ripples.

It will be very cold and windy tomorrow, but Gu Chi is standing here, but he feels that his whole body is heating up, and every inch of skin on his body exudes a dry and hot breath because of Jiang Yu's approach.

And Jiang Yu is not like that.

Gu Chi was too close to him, how could the two of them not be moved by such an intimate way of clinging to each other?

This is the closest time they have been close in this period of time, the distance between breathing and smelling each other... The warm breath of the man hit his cold collarbone, warmed the entire skin, and spread to all limbs and bones, even at this moment The sudden fall of frost and snow will not overwhelm this enthusiasm.

The two corners of the clothes at the waist that Gu Chi held in the palm of his hand rubbed against his skin indistinctly, the feeling of dry mouth constantly stimulated him, and gradually aroused the most primitive possessive desire deep in his heart, I wish I could hold him in my arms like this for the rest of my life.

But no, he knew he couldn't do it.

So he had to learn to let go, retreat into advance, and let Gu Chi take the initiative to break into his trap.

"...Xiaochi, are you alright?"

Gu Chi's slap just now was a bit sudden, Jiang Yu was afraid that his ankle would be sprained.

In fact, it seems to be a little bit, but he always likes to hold back in front of Jiang Yu, gritted his teeth and shook his head: "It's okay..."

Gu Chi numbly pushed Jiang Yu away, but he didn't say anything, he let go of the hand that was tied around his waist, and just wandered around uneasy.

Gu Chi had indeed overestimated his ability to bear, as soon as he let go of the supporting point, he seemed to lose gravity all of a sudden, his legs were so weak that he couldn't stand, and he almost fell down again, Jiang Yu's brows immediately sank when he saw this.

"Where does it hurt?" Jiang Yu stuffed the umbrella into Gu Chi's hand, helped him gather the clothes on his shoulders, and squatted down to check his feet.

"Which one?" Jiang Yu lowered his head and asked.

Gu Chi was stunned for a moment, and answered him involuntarily: "Right foot."

Jiang Yu gave a soft "hmm": "Hold my shoulder, okay? I'm afraid you won't be able to stand up."

Gu Chi hesitated, Jiang Yu didn't speak, and waited quietly, if he rushed to grab Gu Chi's feet rashly, what would happen if Gu Chi fell in fright, but he also knew in his heart that Gu Chi probably didn't want to touch himself, So he was willing to wait as long as he wanted.

At this moment, it seemed that time was frozen, and no one spoke first.

Gu Chi also didn't move, while Jiang Yu knelt on one knee on the ground, lowered his eyes, his knees sank into the stagnant water, and he didn't feel a piece of soaking water, the water was so cold, it seemed to crawl into his heart along the blood vessels.

It wasn't until a gust of cold wind blew past that Jiang Yu recovered from the long-term disappointment. He closed his eyes, and actually wanted to wait a little longer, but today's temperature was low, and Gu Chi was drenched in the rain just now, so he didn't wear much clothes. It will be even worse if you catch a cold.

"Is it cold? Otherwise, I'll take you down first, my name is Fu Dong..."

He paused suddenly, his voice stopped suddenly, and all the muscles in his body tensed up.

"It's a bit cold, so hurry up." Gu Chi said lightly.

Ecstasy instantly soaked Jiang Yan's limbs and bones, his whole body was as stiff as a piece of ice, but he greedily felt the touch of Gu Chi's palm lightly resting on his shoulder.

"Hands are a little cold..." Jiang Yu couldn't help saying, he was always very sensitive to Gu Chi's body.

Gu Chi pursed his lips tightly and said nothing.

Jiang Yu carefully lifted Gu Chi's right foot, his bare skin was cold, and his whole body was covered with frost, Jiang Yu frowned, took a breath of hot air into his palm before helping him up again, afraid that the cold on his body would scare him to him.

Fortunately, there was no obvious redness and swelling, it should be just an ordinary sprain.

"Does it hurt?" Jiang Yu asked in a low voice.

"No." Gu Chi said.

He breathed a sigh of relief, and let go of his feet. At the same time, Gu Chi's hand on his shoulders also let go, and Jiang You suddenly felt a little bit reluctant.

Take your time, he told himself.

Jiang Yu took a deep breath and stood up abruptly, but the two of them seemed to be a little close. Gu Chi didn't expect to retreat, and neither did Jiang Yu. The moment he stood up, Jiang Yu almost felt his nose brush against Gu Chi pool.

The heartstrings seem to be plucked by something, like the sky suddenly breaking, the sun is sucking up the dust, and the birds are screaming.

Emotions in the world move in an instant.

Jiang Yu is slightly taller than Gu Chi, calm and calm like him, but when he meets Gu Chi, he always panics like a kid, he slightly lowers his eyes and frowned, Gu Chi raised his eyes and opened his lips slightly , just staring at each other in panic.

The umbrella isolated the gloomy sky, and the rain became lighter again. It fell silently on the umbrella, for fear of disturbing the two people who were intimate in this corner, and even the sound of the wind blowing the leaves was muted, as if it was deliberately arranged , as if unintentionally close.

The moment Gu Chi met Jiang Yan's eyes, he was stunned. The boy's eyes were extremely black, as black as the dark night of the abyss, like a trap or a swamp. The light on Chi's body saved himself who was trapped inside.

Gu Chi didn't see Jiang Yu clearly before, but now he sees him in front of him very clearly. Only then did he realize that Jiang Yu didn't cover himself when he held up an umbrella for him, and gave him this small world that sheltered him from the wind and rain without reservation. , so there are still wet raindrops on the hair, which are more thoroughly black under the immersion of the rain, like spilled ink, sticking to the smooth and white forehead, thick and deep, and there are also leaves on the tip of the handsome nose. There are fine and dense droplets of water, and I don't know if it is rain or sweat.

The breathing of the two people intertwined, they looked at each other quietly and helplessly, lingering in the opposite corner, intertwined with each other, becoming the most beautiful dream under the gloomy rain.

"I..." Gu Chi wanted to say something, but he couldn't say the following words. He didn't know what to say, and nothing seemed appropriate, so much so that he forgot that he should step back.

Jiang Yu looked at the young man who was so close to him, thinking that he might have been obsessed with ghosts, and held Gu Chi's umbrella hand to the left like a madman - blocking the tombstone of Gu Chi's parents, and then lowered his head slightly , quietly kissed the lips of his sweetheart.

He didn't know how long it had been since they kissed, or if they hadn't kissed formally, Jiang Yu usually kissed him secretly, and Gu Chi never gave any response.

It seemed that they hadn't been this close for a long time.

But the boy's lips are still so soft, with the magic power and temperature that makes people intoxicated. This is where Jiang Niai went crazy, and the monster also enjoys this kind of indulgence crazily.

The two lips touched for only a few seconds, but Gu Chi felt as if more than ten minutes had passed, and the stunned heart was higher than everything now.

"You..." He only felt that annoying hotness spread from his neck to his limbs, with a terrifying temperature. Gu Chi pushed Jiang Yu violently, and the umbrella in his hand almost slipped out. A push just happened to push Jiang Yu out from under the umbrella. The rain was like feathers that had been polished into powder, and fell on his thick black hair. Jiang Yu was not annoyed by being pushed, and smiled happily He said innocently: "Uncle and aunt didn't see it, I blocked it..."

"Shut up! Cough, cough, cough..." Gu Chi was so angry that he didn't know where it was affected by the loud voice, and suddenly coughed, and almost missed the umbrella in his hand.

"Xiaochi!" Jiang Yu was frightened, his smile subsided instantly, he quickly caught the crumbling umbrella, leaned over and patted him on the back lightly, "Are you all right, what's the matter, what's wrong? Do you have a cold?"

Gu Chi's face was flushed from coughing, and he gave him a hard look, trying to distance himself from him, but the umbrella was so big and it was still in Jiang Yu's hand, how could he let Gu Chi get wet in the rain.

For now, the only way is to admit mistakes.

"I was wrong, I will never do this again, just now... I couldn't hold back..."

"You still fucking say..."

Gu Chi has always been polite, and probably dedicated all the swearing in his life to Jiang Yu.

Of course, Jiang Yu could only suffer: "Yes, I won't talk anymore, I'm sorry... don't talk for now, okay, let me carry you down, okay? It's too cold here."

"Go away, I'll go by myself...cough cough, go by myself!"

Now that he is still asked to recite it, isn't that giving him a chance?

But Gu Chi sprained his ankle just now, got caught in the rain, and is still coughing now, how could Jiang Yan let him go down the stairs by himself.

If he didn't do anything, Jiang Yu couldn't let him go when it came to Gu Chi's body, so he immediately picked him up with his hands, Gu Chi was startled, and was about to struggle to get down immediately.

Jiang Yu paused, still holding the handle of the umbrella tightly in his palm.

"Don't move..." He looked at Gu Chi deeply, "Otherwise we're all going to fall."

Sure enough, Gu Chi didn't move much, he just pushed his shoulder with his hand, and said in a cold voice, "Put me down."

"Xiaochi, be good, okay?"

Jiang Yu held the umbrella in his hand, and he had to prevent the umbrella from being blown away by the wind. The road here was really slippery, so when Gu Chi moved, he had some difficulty. It didn't matter if he fell, what if he broke his small pool.

"You let me down, I'm not disabled." Gu Chi was still struggling to get down.

Jiang Yu frowned, dissatisfied with the appearance of those two words: "My heart aches."

Gu Chi was taken aback.

"I don't want you to be hurt, is it okay?" Jiang Yu's eyes were as dark as smeared thick ink, "Xiao Chi, I will never hurt you again, so you don't want to hurt yourself anymore, okay?"

He was negotiating with him.

Jiang Yu also thought that he could live and die with Gu Chi, live and die in the same acupuncture point, although he was afraid of Gu Chi's death, but the more terrifying thought in his subconscious at that time was to hope that Gu Chi could leave this place with him A world of uninterrupted joys and sorrows.

He wondered if there really was a heaven and hell after death.

But so what?He can set off a bloody storm there at all costs, he will pull Gu Chi down from the high place, and then be firmly trapped in his own prison.

If the angel's wings are broken, the angel will belong to the devil forever.

They no longer have life and death, only infinite life, permanent encroachment.

But when he saw Gu Chi who was so lively, kind and bright, and Gu Chi who was as clear and clean as frost and snow, he suddenly had only one wish...

Even if Gu Chi doesn't love him and hates him forever, what's the problem?He wanted his Xiaochi to live, not only to live with his own hope and eagerness for the future, but also to live for Jiang Ni, who had longed for all of this.

He hoped that Gu Chi could see the mountains, rivers, blue sky and stars for him, and he also hoped that he could truly feel the warm sun when the sun rises in the east, and the sunset when the sun sets in the west.

He has experienced all kinds of suffering in this world. If he can't get his own god, the meaning of living will no longer exist.

But what does that matter?

God lives for the world, and he is also the world.

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