So the pond will drown

The monster is the deep sea,

A boy is a pond fish,

Pond fish can drown in the sea, but it is impossible to linger in the sea.

……

"It's...a fruit knife. When Gu Chi woke up, he said he wanted to eat an apple. I just found one and peeled it for him, but I forgot to take it away. Who knows...but it's not too deep, and he cut it on the wrong side. It fell on the wrist, and the knife was a little blunt."

Fu Dong was covered in cold sweat, his face turned pale and he explained in a pale tone.

Jiang Yu sat in the corridor with his hands clasped, and he hadn't said a word since Gu Chi was rescued.

Now even Fu Dong can only be thankful, fortunately Gu Chi just woke up and still has no strength, and the fruit knife is not sharp, so the knife is not deep, but it took a long time, he lost a lot of blood, and his body is not that strong. Well, it might be a while.

Let alone Jiang Yu, Fu Dong still has lingering fears when he thinks of that scene.

Who would have made such a determination if he hadn't wanted to die with all his heart?Cutting the wrists is undoubtedly one of the painful ways to die. The pain of feeling the long stream of blood loss and soul stripping is not something ordinary people can bear.

But it wasn't just this that they were worried about, the most important thing was Gu Chi's mentality.

This time it was wrist cutting, what about next time?

If a person wants to die with all his heart, there are not many ways.

Anyway, Gu Chi has nothing to worry about now, no one can keep him.

But Fu Dong couldn't imagine what Jiang Yu would be like without Gu Chi. When Jiang Yu met Gu Chi, it was like a bird returning to its nest.

After meeting Gu Chi, Fu Dong could feel obvious changes in both Jiang Yu's temper and character. Gu Chi was his medicine, his light, and his only salvation. If Gu Chi died, he would never live alone.

The family environment is different, the social influence is different, the standpoint is different and the views are different, no matter whether Jiang Yu is strong or not, it is very difficult to get together with Gu Chi.

One is as warm as the sun, but now it is as cold as ice; the other is as cold as a machine, but now it is as soft as water.

If Jiang Yu is willing to let Gu Chi go now, Gu Chi will definitely leave without looking back, and no one knows what hope he will have in his life ruined by Jiang Yu, and whether he will seek death.

"Fu Dong" Jiang Yu suddenly said hoarsely, "I regret it."

The voice was so low and hoarse that Fu Dong wondered if there was something wrong with his ears.

An extremely sick and paranoid person like Jiang Yu would never take the initiative to admit his mistakes, but because of Gu Chi, he apologized and admitted his mistakes again and again. His own situation is getting better, but time can't be turned back, he and Gu Chi probably are too... there is no longer that possibility.

In the current situation, Fu Dong has no way to persuade Jiang Yan to let Gu Chi go. It is the safest thing for Gu Chi to stay with him in the current situation, and let a person who wants to die face the blow The killer, he probably wouldn't even be able to resist.

This is a dead end.

Their encounter is doomed to be a dead end.

"What should I do?" Jiang Yu lowered his head, helpless and lonely like a child.

Fu Dong looked at Jiang Yu's thin figure, his heart was shocked, he gritted his teeth and suddenly wanted to cry.

Such a powerful Jiang Yan, the omnipotent young master of the Jiang family, when did he ever show such a vulnerable and fragile appearance?

what to do?Fu Dong didn't know either. He couldn't help him. If he advised him to let go of Gu Chi or not let go of Gu Chi, one of them would be hurt after all. This kind of bloody love was already overwhelming. Fu Dong, who was a bystander, would feel heartbroken looking at the two of them.

"Jiang Yu, this time, I really can't help you."

Jiang Yu didn't speak, and sat quietly with his head supported, with bright red blood on his hands.

He knew no one could help him.

From the moment Gu Chi scratched his hand with a knife, he understood...

He might never forget that scene in his life.

The blood-stained bed sheets and quilts, the bloody wounds, the thin and tender wrists that fell in a pool of blood, the blood-stained knife that Gu Chi hid in the drawer, and Gu Chi's quiet and pale complexion like white paper ... Gradually merged with the scene of Ye Xiuqing's ferocious face and blood all over the ground many years ago, hitting his heart again and again, making him breathless, as painful as if his heart had been gouged out and his flesh was picked out .

"Xiao Yu, you have to remember, you are the murderer who killed his mother." It was the first time in Jiang Yu's memory that his mother smiled so gently at him, and those cloudy but beautiful eyes stared at him as a young man. It's not like looking at her own son, but like looking at a puppet at her mercy, "You and Jiang Yang, one destroyed me and the other killed me with his own hands, both of you will die..."

She suddenly yelled, and after a while she smiled again: "But how could mom kill you with her own hands, mom wants you to come down to accompany me, and take him with you..."

He watched helplessly as his mother laughed ferociously, staring at those nightmarish eyes and gradually lost his breath...

Ye Xiuqing was right, he was the murderer, he was the murderer who killed her and Gu Chi, he killed his own mother and the boy who was as sunny as the bright moon with his own hands, he was a sinner.

After all, his life is so frustrated, he can't keep the one he loves, and all the people he loves don't love him. How can wishful thinking have a happy ending?

……

Gu Chi was taken back to the Jiang family to recuperate.

In fact, his injury is not serious, but he has lost too much blood and needs to replenish his body.

Gu Chi woke up quickly. After waking up, he didn't respond to the wrapped wound. He stared at the ceiling for a while and then closed his eyes.

As long as he closes his eyes, his parents will be there, and he is still a carefree self, without Jiang Yu and those bad things.

The whole person is in a daze and has no energy.

He didn't know how long he had been sleeping hazily, and suddenly felt someone calling him, he frowned, opened his eyes and saw a tall and slender figure standing by the bed, it was Jiang Yu, he knew it was him, if it was him, he would I didn't want to open my eyes anymore, so I tilted my head, a little irritable.

Jiang Yu was worried that his stomach would be unbearable if he didn't eat. Seeing that Gu Chi was a sign of waking up, he leaned over and called him in a low voice: "Xiao Chi, get up and eat something."

Gu Chi's eyelashes trembled, he pursed his lips and did not speak.

Jiang Yu knew that he was awake, and also knew that he didn't want to see himself: "I'll see you go downstairs and go out right away, okay?"

Gu Chi was a little annoyed, he frowned tightly, of course he knew that his stomach would hurt if he didn't eat, it was already hurting.

"Xiao Chi, go back to bed after eating, you haven't eaten for a long time, this is not acceptable." Jiang Yu still coaxed patiently.

But the person on the bed didn't move at all, and turned a deaf ear to his words.

His expression darkened, and he compromised: "Then I'll bring you the food, can you eat in your room?"

Gu Chi only felt that his voice was extremely harsh, coupled with the gradually painful wound on his wrist and the feeling of cramping in his stomach, it inevitably made him even more disgusted. He didn't want to say anything to Jiang Yu. torment.

"Xiaochi, is it okay to eat?" Jiang Yu was a little anxious. He was not a good-tempered person, but he knew that he couldn't lose his temper with Gu Chi, "Doesn't your stomach feel bad? Your body doesn't..."

"Get out." Gu Chi finally couldn't bear it anymore with a hoarse voice, "Get out!"

Jiang Yu was stunned for a moment, seeing the disgust in Gu Chi's eyes, his heart twitched in pain for a moment, the bitterness in his throat was unceasingly bitter, suddenly sad as if he was trampled underfoot.

"I'm leaving, can you eat then? I'll leave after you finish eating." He knew he was enduring it.

Gu Chi suddenly lifted the quilt, and he didn't know where the strength came from to push him away. Jiang Yu stepped back unexpectedly, staggering a few times, seeing that Gu Chi didn't speak, his expression was gloomy.

He didn't know how many times Gu Chi pushed him away, each time he was decisive and cold, and tried his best.

He tried his best to keep him, but he did not hesitate to force him to leave him.

"Why don't you kill me? It's good that you killed me. If I die, won't I stay by your side forever? You can burn the body if you want, and you can bury the ashes wherever you want. What you want is nothing more than This one is for you." Gu Chi's voice was terrifyingly calm.

Jiang Yu looked at Gu Chi whose eyes were like stagnant water, and remained silent for a while.

After recovering for a long time, there was overwhelming anger, like cold water poured down his head, and the heart that was riddled with holes fell into the ice cellar. The cold water stimulated every scar and nerve in him, and he was suddenly very angry, isn't it? The kind of anger in the past is the kind of resentment I like to be misunderstood.

To Gu Chi, his liking is so cheap and worthless.

Jiang Yu suddenly took a few steps forward, without the patience and tenderness he had just now, he directly pressed Gu Chi under his body, his eyes that were so dark and frightening could make one's heart skip a beat at a glance.

Gu Chi gritted his teeth and pushed him, but his previous push had exhausted all his strength, this push was no different from a soft punch, it had no damage to Jiang Yu at all.

Jiang Yu didn't do anything excessive to him, just looked at him condescendingly, like looking at his beloved doll.

"Xiaochi, in this world, I am the only one who treats you best, and now I am the only one who can protect you," Jiang You looked at him and said in a deep voice, the tone was obviously so low, but extremely gentle, it was a devil crooning.

"So don't leave me. I like you. I like you. It's Gu Chi. It's just Gu Chi. It will always be Gu Chi. I'll just stay with you when you die, but this life is still so long, I always want to work hard Let you like me a little bit, I will give you time, will you give me a chance?"

Gu Chi thought that he would be furious, and the moment he rushed over, he even felt that he would kill himself, but when he said that suddenly, it was extremely hateful and speechless, it didn't seem like a threat or coaxing, it was The plea is his plea to put down his body.

He suddenly didn't know what to say.

Gu Chi can resist any negative emotions of Jiang Yu, but he can't deny his liking, and he can't respond to his plea to let go of everything.

It's not wrong for him to like him, but it's not wrong for him not to like him.

"Then can you let me go?" Gu Chi looked at him.

Jiang Yu was taken aback, lowered his eyes, this incident was his fault, if he hadn't provoked these people, Gu Chi would not have fallen into this bottomless net like him.

But Jiang Yu would not let those people cause any harm to Gu Chi, he could not take any risk of losing him, so how should he explain to him?

The two were silent for a while, then Jiang Yu walked away from Gu Chi as if admitting defeat, sitting on the edge of the bed a little helplessly, he said, "Except for this... okay?"

"..." Gu Chi took a deep breath, he knew this would be the result.

"But I don't want anything but this."

He already wanted nothing but freedom.

"sorry, I……"

"Okay." Gu Chi turned his back to him.

Jiang Yu looked at his back that suddenly became thinner again, feeling a little dazed.

He remembered the first time he saw Gu Chi, the young man was full of vigor and gentleness, but now that Jiang Yu looked at him, he showed his indifference and indifference.

"The meal..."

"Come down later." Gu Chi said coldly, without any ups and downs in his voice.

Jiang Yu gave a soft "hmm" and said bitterly, "I'm not in a hurry."

Not long after Jiang Yu came down, Gu Chi did come down, changed his clothes, washed up, his complexion was still pale, and the black hair on his forehead almost covered his cold eyes.

Sitting in the hall, Jiang You smiled when he saw him coming down, and went to the kitchen to make a cup of hot milk.

The dishes tonight are not as light as before. There are fish and meat, all of which are Gu Chi's favorites. They are not heavy, and they are well controlled.

"Drink milk first to warm your stomach." Jiang Yu put the soaked milk by his side.

Gu Chi didn't respond, Jiang Yu knew that he didn't like being too close to him, so he turned around and went to the living room after pouring the milk, only dared to glance at him from the corner of his eye.

The first floor of the huge villa was terribly quiet, neither of them opened their mouths to speak, Gu Chi didn’t eat much, and went upstairs after eating, Jiang Yu watched his figure gradually disappear at the corner of the stairs before standing up and heading over there After leaving, Gu Chi found that the glass of milk hadn't moved at all, it was still in its original position, and it wasn't very hot anymore.

Jiang Yu frowned, picked it up and drank it down, it was still warm, but he felt his internal organs hurt from the cold.

Afterwards, Gu Chi has been very obedient, no suicidal behavior, eat as soon as he calls to eat, and sleep after eating, silent like a machine that is always on standby, sometimes he does not speak for several days in a row, but Jiang Yu is also a piece of wood, he can't coax He was happy, afraid that he would hurt him if he said it, and also afraid that Gu Chi would not talk to him.

Gu Chi was silent, and he could only follow Wuyan.

When going back to sleep at night, Gu Chi started to lock the door. He probably didn’t think it was necessary before. In Gu Chi’s mind, Jiang Yu was probably the kind of person who came in whenever he wanted. Came over to see him secretly in the middle of the night.

That's a pervert, Jiang Yu doesn't want to be a pervert in Gu Chi's heart.

But Jiang Yu was frightened by the scene in the hospital last time and left a lot of sequelae. Sometimes when he dreamed of that scene, he would be so frightened that he couldn't sleep all night, for fear that he would see Gu Chi covered in blood when he opened the door the next day. It was blood, but he couldn't stop Gu Chi from locking the door, so he could only guard the door and listen to the movement inside for a while before he dared to go to sleep.

It was rare for Gu Chi to be obedient.

Jiang Yu was flustered.

After a while, he felt that Gu Chi's condition had improved a lot.

He was able to eat, sleep and read, so he asked Fu Dong to call Su Pingchuan over. Although the changes were great, Gu Chi still seldom spoke. Jiang Yu was worried that he would become depressed and ill. He is the same person.

What surprised him was that Gu Chi didn't refuse, nor did he show any resistance. Does this mean that Gu Chi is still willing to accept?

……

The next day Su Pingchuan arrived as scheduled.

He was probably really idle, always on call, and resigned at work.

The two seem to have a doctor-patient relationship on the surface, but there is a deeper level of cooperation behind the scenes.

But they didn't have a close relationship, and Fu Dong basically communicated among them, and Fu Dong didn't know about the cooperation behind them.

"I didn't expect that Young Master Jiang would sometimes ask for my help." Su Pingchuan adjusted his glasses with a smile.

Jiang Yu glanced at him, with a cold expression: "I didn't ask you to come, you can get out."

Su Pingchuan chuckled: "Don't, Young Master Jiang, I'm licking my face, isn't it okay?"

The news of Ji Qingye has not been obtained yet, besides, who knows that that guy still owes Jiang You a Ye family, and his father will pay the debt... Su Pingchuan shuddered when he thought of Ji Qingye's face.

"Doctor Su."

When Su Pingchuan was about to go up, Jiang Yu's voice suddenly sank, and he paused in his footsteps, inexplicably feeling that the voice was inexplicable.

"what happened?"

Jiang You pursed his lips, and after deliberating for a while, he raised his eyes that were like traps in the abyss, and his tone was flat: "The matter of Gu Chi... Please..."

Su Pingchuan's head thumped and he almost fell down the stairs.

Although he doesn't have much contact with Jiang Yu, he also knows that he is not the kind of person who can say "please". Besides, he is a psychiatrist. Jiang Yu is so arrogant and unruly, cold-blooded and loose. It's not likely that he will say such things in his death.

Su Pingchuan was silent for a few seconds, and suddenly his heart throbbed for this young man, but he couldn't lie to him, and after a long time he lowered his eyes and said, "I'm sorry, Young Master Jiang, this kind of thing is not for me, and I can't control it. It’s still the same sentence, no one can stop a person who wants to die.”

After speaking, he didn't look at Jiang Yu's reaction any more, and went straight upstairs.

Jiang Yu is the sea, Gu Chi is the fish in the pond, and the sea insists on keeping the fish in the pond, there is no other way but to hurt both sides.

Su Pingchuan walked to the door of Gu Chi's room, and politely knocked on the door.

"Please come in."

It was a very pleasant voice, with the characteristic deepness of a teenager, and it sounded extremely clear.

From the word "please", he could probably tell that Gu Chi was a well-educated person, and it was really embarrassing for him to fall in love with a ruffian like Jiang Yu.

The master bedroom is very spacious, tidy and clean, but inexplicably empty and lonely. Su Pingchuan saw the young man sitting by the French window reading a book at a glance, and he was really taken aback for a moment.

The young man has a top-notch face, red lips and white teeth. His skin is pale because of his bad spirits, but his eyelashes and hair are thick and black. It's a pity that those eyes are so beautiful, but there is no gleam of light. They are as quiet as the deep sea. , people can't help but feel sad.

It shouldn't be like this, Su Pingchuan thought.

"Hello, Doctor Su."

As soon as Gu Chi saw him, he immediately sat up from the sofa, but there was no expression on his face, even the politeness was omitted.

Su Pingchuan smiled, waved his hand to signal him to sit down, and sat opposite him without any notice.

The two were relatively silent for a while.

At that time, the sun was shining outside the window.

"What book are you reading?" Su Pingchuan suddenly asked with a soft smile,

Gu Chi raised his hand to show the cover, and said, "Book from Heaven."

There was nothing on the cover, it was pure black, Su Pingchuan glanced casually, and found that the page that Gu Chi turned was also blank, with nothing on it.

"Can you tell me what you are looking at?" Su Pingchuan asked curiously.

Gu Chi closed the book, gently put it aside, looked at him for a few seconds, but did not answer his question just now, but asked directly:

"Doctor Su, can you give me some sleeping pills?"