So the pond will drown

When Jiang Yu was very young, he knew that he was an unwelcome child.

His mother didn't like him, and his grandparents were cold-faced when they saw him; the servants in the family also seemed to avoid him when they saw him.He didn't go to kindergarten, didn't have any friends.

The only person who is close to him is his mother, so he is afraid that his mother will not want him.

So he turned his mother's hurt into love.

He tried his best to please her, hoping to get his mother's pity or soft-spoken caress.

But not loving is not loving.

Just as the father does not love the mother, the mother will not love him either.

He was lonely until he met an uncle who later became his guru.

His name is Lu Shenyan, he is a very powerful hacker, a handsome middle-aged man who looks very extraordinary.

He lives in the unknown alley that Jiang Yu often goes to, but lives a little deeper than the family he listened to the story about.

Lu Shenyan had probably been paying attention to him for a long time, and he was very good at attacking and defending psychologically, so he didn't do anything, just asked him with a smile, "Do you want to become stronger?" Jiang Yu stopped his escape.

He didn't know why he temporarily let go of his guard against a strange man in that insecure situation.Probably because he has seen his mother hurt himself and the young him because of losing control.

At that time, he wanted to protect her more.

So for a long time afterwards, he would run to Lu Shenyan's place almost every day.

Lu Shenyan taught him a lot.

At that time, Jiang Yu was inferior and cowardly, and was used to avoiding and flattering. Lu Shenyan didn't like his character, and would always explain many things to him in a roundabout way, so as to correct some of his overly kind thoughts.

After a short trial, Jiang You began to trust him, and almost obeyed him.In fact, the master and apprentice did not have such a deep relationship.Lu Shenyan didn't treat him like a child, Jiang Yu's gratitude to him was more one-sided.

When they were together, they were more like ordinary friends. Lu Shenyan would chat with him about what he should say and what should not be said. Jiang You sometimes listened in confusion, and sometimes answered a sentence or two casually.

One day, when the sun was about to set, Jiang You saw that it was time to go home, Lu Shenyan suddenly stood at the door and asked him with a smile: "Do you like playing games?"

Jiang Yu nodded.These days, while Lu Shenyan is teaching him some self-defense skills, he will occasionally play games with him.

Lu Shenyan smiled and said, "Then I'll teach you something more fun than games?"

So Jiang Yu began to learn hacking techniques from him until his death.Unfortunately, the technology failed to reach the top in the end.

But what Lu Shenyan left for him paved the way for his subsequent relief.

Before he died, he touched Jiang Yu's head for the first time as an elder, and said with a smile: "Little Jiang Yu, let's live for the master."

In the following years, Jiang Yu, even though life was worse than death, cherished his life very much, just because of this sentence of his master.He knew that the master must have some unfulfilled wish, even if he couldn't help him fulfill it, he could still do it by living for him.

Until I met Gu Chi.Of course, this is all for later.

Lu Shenyan handed over his precious computer to him, and gave him a group of indescribable forces as a gift.

In fact, these forces are mediocre, and the main branch is with his senior brother, Ji Qingye, but it is enough to deal with those who chased and killed him, even the Ye family and the Jiang family cannot pose a threat to him.

It's a pity that until his death, Jiang Yu didn't know what his real identity was. Ji Qingye probably knew a little bit, but he didn't tell him, and Jiang Yu never asked.

Ji Qingye was his best friend at that time.

The two of them didn't care much about what these forces handed over.

Until one night, Ji Qingye came back with bruises all over his body, and asked him with red eyes: "Can you lend me the Ye family."

At that time, the only legal heir of the Ye family was Jiang Yu. At that time, all the shares of the Ye family belonging to the Ye family were also in his name, including many things that the Ye family had accumulated, both bright and dark. .He was young and was not interested in such things, so as soon as Ji Qingye asked, he gave it all to Ji Qingye without hesitation.

Even though the transfer was cumbersome, Ji Qingye had his consent and naturally had his own way.

After his mother died, the Jiang family reluctantly "taken" him back to the Jiang family for the sake of the Ye family, and thus let him know Jiang Ke.

This is his second robbery.

At that time, Jiang Yu didn't officially return to the Jiang family, but the Jiang family opened up the authority to his illegitimate son, and he could come back after Jiang Yang's permission.If Jiang Ke didn't exist, Jiang Yang would not necessarily go back when he came to invite him in a sedan chair.

Jiang Ke, he is for his cocoa.

Jiang Ke is his half-sister.Bai Nennen's little face is always full of lovely pink, a small one looks easy to bully, but the whole Jiang family will only smile at him.Probably because he was used to being bullied, so he was afraid of the Jiang family.

Jiang Ke likes to follow him, chasing and calling his brother foolishly, as long as he comes to Jiang's house, she will immediately let go of those vigilance, and she will pounce on him like a kitten, and the smell of milk always makes him soft-hearted , how can there be any words of refusal.Later, the little girl gradually figured out the character of her brother, and murmured to Jiang Yu without any exception, and what she wanted would come as scheduled when Jiang Yu came again the second time.Jiang Ke would be afraid of the things Jiang Yang gave her, and only those given by Jiang Yan would be regarded as treasures, and she would look at them several times a day.

At that time Jiang Yu was happy.

She let him experience the warmth of his loved ones for the first time.

It was the second time in Jiang Yu's life that he wanted to protect someone so well.He didn't protect his mother, so he wanted to protect his sister.

At that time, Jiang Zihang was still alive, so Jiang Yu was not eligible to stay in the Jiang family, and was still homeless.

Jiang Zihang is older than him, with good looks and a noble temperament. He can be regarded as young and promising. At the age of 16, he was made an exception and allowed to intervene in Jiang's affairs. Lifen, he was undoubtedly the best heir at that time, and also Jiang Yang's proudest son.

It's a pity that he was too ambitious, and his jealousy perfectly took over his narrow-minded mother, so he attacked Jiang Ke when he couldn't deal with Jiang Yu.

At that time, Jiang Yu was still thinking about how to rescue his sister, but he didn't expect that what he was waiting for was the news of his sister's death.

He went mad, went mad, and that was the first time he had it.

Ji Qingye helped him capture Jiang Zihang, who had prepared countless powers for him at that time. He killed him in the most cruel way, spilled his blood into the river where his sister drowned, and threw his body into the wild. The woods were later eaten into carrion before someone came to collect the corpse.

But the pain will not be lessened by revenge.

Later, it was Ji Qingye who found out that something was wrong with him and found Mo Hanxin.

So he started therapy.

Fortunately, it was the first time at that time, and it soon stabilized.

However, the heart disease still stuck in his heart like a pimple, and he never dared to get close to anyone again.

If he hadn't appeared, Jiang Ke might not have known him, and if he didn't know him, Jiang Ke would have no threat to Jiang Zihang, who was already bound to win at that time, then she would not have died.

After all, it was because of him.

So Jiang Yu blamed himself, felt guilty, and suffered. He began to have nightmares day after day, and tortured himself mercilessly in countless nightmares, just like killing Jiang Zihang in the past, his vitality was delayed.

But he couldn't die, he agreed to the master.

After that, he was begged by Jiang Yang to return to Jiang's family as a matter of course, and directly enrolled in the best high school in Nanyang through the Jiang family's influence in Nanyang.It wasn't until now that he followed the trajectory of a normal person and stepped into the campus.

Why do you want to study?Probably because there is nothing to do.

And the campus was the place he had always dreamed of when he was a child.

Then he met his scorching sun where he yearned for.

The appearance of Gu Chi directly rescued Jiang Yu from the bottomless abyss at that time, he stretched out his hand unintentionally, and brought him into the world.

That innocent young man replaced the endless nightmare, from then on, only the slender figure and the smiling face with squinted eyes and curled lips remained in his dreams.

Just as a man imprisoned in darkness for a long time sees the light of day, and a traveler in the desert finds water.

The first time I saw him, I wanted him.

In fact, he didn't know his name, nor did he know which class he was in. He only vaguely heard that he was a school girl, and there were many, many girls chasing him.

But he always felt that the time hadn't come yet, and since it hadn't arrived, he would wait.

He is like a beast that has been lurking for a long time, hiding in the dark, waiting for an opportunity when he sees an opportunity.

His first crush.The throbbing of that kind of affection penetrated into his heart full of holes like sugar, and made him realize what it means to be young.

Sometimes when seeing him from a distance, he would stop for a long time until he disappeared completely.

But the more you observe him, the more you like him.If you don't like it, you like it so much that you will dream of him even if you sleep soundly.

He was even more dazzling than he imagined.

He saw girls confessing to him frequently. Although he couldn't hear what they were saying, the boy would always keep a slight distance and smile at the girl every time, and politely reject the girls' gifts and gifts. Mind, leave calmly.

Every time Jiang You sees this scene, he can't stop feeling uncomfortable. He can't tell what it feels like, but seeing those people approaching him and seeing him smiling at those girls, he is unhappy, unhappy, and wants to put This man takes it for himself.

He was afraid, he was really afraid that the boy would agree to someone's pursuit.He was afraid that he would belong to someone else before he appeared.

A young man is like a moon in the stars and water in the sky, unattainable, nothingness like a dream.

It's a pity that he will always be an insignificant existence in the eyes of young people. At that time, almost the whole school knew him and knew that he was the young master of Nanyang Jiang's family. The school leaders avoided him three points, but he didn't seem to know him at all.

The last time he and Gu Chi got close was on the tree-lined road leading from the teaching building to the comprehensive building in the school.

The weather was very hot that day, and the sun was very dazzling. That young man was so bright that he dazzled wherever he went.

The boy was holding the registration book of the student union in his hand, and he was walking while recording something. He was always focused when he was immersed in something.

Jiang Yu happened to pass by that road, and suddenly saw the person in his dream, and even forgot how to walk.

His whole body was stiff, his heart was beating wildly, his blood was boiling and cheering, driving Jiang Yu to approach him involuntarily.

But he didn't have the courage for now.

The young man has red lips and white teeth, warm and dusty.Wearing a black and white school uniform of the attached high school, the sleeves of the coat are loosely rolled up to the forearm, revealing a lean and fair part, with prominent wrist bones, and slender fingers with well-defined knuckles holding the pen loosely. the itch.

That's weird, he looks good in anything.

There was a faint fragrance on the boy's body, like wings lingering around his fingertips, soaking in the river drowning crisply, but in this severe summer, there was a faint coldness.

The smell fascinated him for the rest of the night.

He wanted him almost madly.

But he didn't expect that the first time Gu Chi noticed him would be in such a bad situation.

He knew that he would meet Gu Chi many times in the cafeteria, although he couldn't get very close to him, as long as he could catch a glimpse of him from the corner of his eye, he would be satisfied.

It was just an unfortunate day.

He waited for Gao Xuan to order food for him, leaned lazily by the window and smoked a cigarette, others would consciously avoid him when they saw him, but Jiang Yu was not deaf, he could vaguely hear the chatter and laughter of people at the table.

At first Jiang Yu didn't care, until someone said: "...he hasn't come here yet, anyway, he looks really good-looking, even a man like me thinks he's so good-looking, he's recognized as a school girl, and he's also the president of the student council."

Jiang Yu became interested in an instant, and listened to what they said about him, and he was also very happy to get some information about him from other people.

It's just that the conversation that followed wasn't as pleasant.

Only one boy sneered, and said sarcastically, "Isn't it just good-looking, girls are so superficial now, even the teacher is partial to him."

Jiang Yu frowned, forgetting to smoke the cigarette at his fingertips.

The person sitting next to him laughed dryly, "But his grades are really good..."

The boy said again: "Who knows how he got here, it's just a vase. Besides, no matter how good-looking he is, no matter how good his grades are, his background is doomed to be inferior..."

He couldn't finish the following words, because Jiang Yu had already swung the man up by the collar.

When beating someone, he didn't say a word, the boy probably didn't know what he did to offend Jiang Yu, and even Gao Xie and his party who followed Jiang Yu were fooled.

But when the boy's face was bleeding to the point of numbness and almost lost consciousness, Jiang Yu whispered in his ear: "Do you know who you were talking about just now? Is he someone you can casually belittle?"

The boy fainted in horror.

Jiang Yu was relieved, and his heart was much clearer, but when he raised his head slightly to meet those clear eyes full of fear and astonishment, he was suddenly at a loss, and when he looked back, he was flustered, and no one was there. I know the sound of his jumping wildly and the slightly awkward movement when wiping his hands.

That was the first time he felt flustered.

He should... be afraid of him.

Jiang Yu only found out after the beating that the boy had just entered school, he was a freshman in the same class as him, and his grades were good, so he was praised very highly.But just because of his arrogance, he is not a little bit worse than Gu Chi.

It was also after that time that Jiang You began to slowly plot a conspiracy to trap the boy in his arms.

At first, it was just a prototype, and he only dared to think of him in the dead of night through the photos he secretly saved on the forum, thinking of him being with him, and thinking of him staying by his side.

So that scorching sun afternoon, when he ran into him again on the playground, he began to make up his mind to intervene in his world.

He was really afraid that he would miss him.

Just as Chen Ran once thought: no one would be willing to miss Gu Chi.

How many Gu Chis can one meet in a lifetime?

In other words, can they still meet Gu Chi?

Jiang Yu was not reconciled.

However, he doesn't know how to chase people, he doesn't know what it's like for others to chase people, and he doesn't know what excuses he should use to get close to him, and he is even more afraid that if he directly expresses his heart to Gu Chi, he will be rejected like those girls before. It may even be because he is a boy, so I feel more disgusted and escaped from him.

Jiang Yu didn't dare to gamble with his courage, so he simply locked him by his side without doing anything.

Later, he touched him, kissed him, and possessed him physically, just as he had dreamed and thought in countless nights.But he found that the boy was getting farther and farther away from him.

He couldn't forget the vigilance and disgust in his eyes.He would laugh at many people, but he was not among them. He probably used all the resistance in his life on him.

So much so that he belatedly realized that he had wiped out all the brilliance on the young man, including the light that had attracted him madly in the first place.

It is said that the stars look bright from a distance, if they are really held in the palm of their hands, they will not have the brilliance they yearn for, but the moment Jiang Yu carefully catches him who is sluggish and falling, he finds that he still likes him. A back-and-forth love without a bottom line.

So he wanted to hang him on the sky again.

That young man was gentle and elegant, and he would always poke the softest part of his heart in the small details. He was born to be an exile.

He thought, this is the real god who broke away from the secular world.

He and Gu Chi are far apart, they are different in everything and no one thinks that they will be together.

After all, one is the bright moon, and the other is the underground dirt.

The dirty soil was buried in the ground, and the light of the moon would never reach him.

So he is not even eligible to be redeemed.

But he was always too obsessed with liking Gu Chi, and he always thought that it would last a lifetime.

However, when he gradually discovered that Gu Chi's dislike for him was getting stronger day by day, he thought, it would be good if he was by his side for the time being.

Two years later, Gu Chi still didn't seem to like him.

He gave up.

So he thought, as long as Gu Chi lives to be a hundred years old.

The four years of waiting were undoubtedly tormenting and painful, but every time he closed his eyes and saw the smiling young man, expectations and hopes, pain and difficulties would all surge up, and each would not admit defeat in his heart. His rampage often tortured him so much that he could not survive but could not die.

He struggled for four years, but after losing Gu Chi, he relied on his determination to kill Gong Yu and the hope of waiting for Gu Chi's return to come here in a daze.

Unbelievable.

He thought he was dead.

But he won.

He waited.

That was the first time he wanted to kneel before God to thank him for his mercy.

He has since believed in God.

He even secretly went to Xiushan and the temple where he once prayed for Gu Chi to fulfill his wishes several times.

In the following decades, he would go to the temple with Gu Chi to burn incense and worship Buddha whenever the season was good. His every wish was the same, and the content was consistent:

"Gods bless, please let him and I be together safely and happily this year."

The gods heard it, and they loved it passionately until death.

But later, when he was old, he staggered up to the mountain temple and added another one:

"Gods bless, please let me and him be together safely and smoothly in the next life."

He drowned himself in a jar of mellow and thick fine wine, so drunk that he couldn't control himself, even if he drowned in a trap, he would still enjoy it.

My boy, how lucky was I to meet you.

The author has something to say:

I wrote it temporarily, it feels a bit messy haha.

Next, there will be more episodes of Mo Yanshu and Fu Dong.

I just finished the official application, and I will start a new one for the remaining episodes (because there are too many).

Thanks for accompanying me all the way.

Goodbye.