After the object of crush dies and comes back to life

Hearing the busy tone on the other end of the phone, Lu Xin was slightly taken aback, and slowly put down the phone.

She turned around and looked at Xia Qin: "She's at home now."

Xia Qin felt relieved, rubbed her temples with the knuckles of her index finger, and breathed a long sigh of relief.

She changed her former depression and anxiety, and gradually calmed down.

It was the same with Ji Ling in the past, when the two quarreled violently, Ji Ling said that she didn't want to see her again, so she would run home and hide without seeing anyone.

After a day or two, when Ji Ling's anger subsided, Xia Qin went to go to her to coax her a few more words, which made people laugh, and the two reconciled as before.

The more Xia Qin thought about it, the more she felt it was possible, and she relaxed.

Seeing this, Lu Xin frowned slightly, completely unable to understand her lack of tension.

Just now, Ji Ling's tone was very cold, without ups and downs, which was different from his emotions when talking to her in the past... It was obvious that the situation was very serious.But Xia Qin is like a stunned green sailor on a fishing boat, unaware that a storm is coming.

"She said she didn't want to see you, and she didn't want to hear your voice." Lu Xin emphasized, "Ji Ling seems to be very angry with you."

"Xiao Ji always behaves like this when she is angry." Xia Qin crossed her fingers and said nonchalantly, "It's normal, and it will be reconciled after some coaxing."

Lu Xin pursed her lips, feeling uncomfortable with her understated tone.

The atmosphere was slightly stiff, and there was only a "click", and there was a crisp door opening sound from the entrance.

Lu Xin's eyes lit up, she immediately left her behind, turned around and ran towards the door.

Qi Yuan was wearing a slim-fit black windbreaker, a round-neck T-shirt, and beige high-waisted wide-leg pants. He appeared at the door, bending over to change his shoes.

When she straightened her waist, she saw Lu Xin wearing a fluffy little dinosaur pajamas, pulling slippers and trotting towards her, and couldn't help smiling.

She habitually opened her arms, and embraced the rushing humans.

"do you miss me?"

Lu Xin's eyes were bright, and she answered frankly: "Yes."

Qi Yuan lowered his head and rubbed the tip of her nose, and caught a glimpse of the unfamiliar short boots beside him: "Is there a guest at home?"

"Well, Xia Qin is here." Lu Xin let go of her, tacitly took the windbreaker and hung it on the shelf.

The two walked into the living room together, Xia Qin wrinkled her pretty face when she saw them: "It's really getting more and more nasty."

Qi Yuan glanced at her and sat down on the sofa: "What are you here for?"

Xia Qin spread her hands: "I couldn't find Xiao Ji everywhere, I thought she came here from you."

"Run away? Did you find it?"

Lu Xin sat down beside her and said, "Xiao Ji has gone home."

Qi Yuan smiled: "Why, Ji Ling finally fell out with you?"

Xia Qin narrowed her eyes and said sharply: "...are you gloating?"

Qi Yuan didn't answer directly, but put his long legs up and said leisurely: "Tell me, what's going on?"

After Xia Qin briefly described the ins and outs, Lu Xin looked at her with more contempt.

"I think it's good, you might as well just let her go." After listening to Qi Yuan, he concluded seriously, "It also saves others from spending their heart and soul for you, and you won't get anything in return."

"I'm not bad to her." Xia Qin said gloomily, "I just... want to continue to be friends with her, is that wrong?"

She thinks that she treats Ji Ling well, never takes advantage of him, and instead treats her twice as well. Apart from being emotionally wronged, she really has no way to reciprocate.

Lu Xin said coldly: "From the moment she fell in love with you, you are no longer just friends. You are just relying on the fact that Ji Ling likes you so that you can tie her by your side and continue to play hand in hand with you." best friend game."

Her words are rarely so sharp and mean, which surprised both Xia Qin and Qi Yuan.

Xia Qin smiled instead of anger: "Then what do you think I should do?"

Lu Xin said without thinking: "Either let her go, or promise her!"

Xia Qin shook her head: "Let go? Will you give up your old friend who has known you for more than ten years because of this? Being with her? I can't do it either. We don't have a clean background like you and Qi Yuan, so we don't need to worry so much."

"If I really accept her, ten years, 20 years, 30 years... She is getting old, but I have not changed, her parents will think so? What will other people think? Ji Ling fell in love with her A monster, living together for so many years?"

"When she is with me, she will abandon her original life. Family, friends, social accusations, and strange eyes from others... Can a normal human being really give up all of this? I can watch her abandon everything with peace of mind. , just to be with me?"

She said, "I'm not making her perfect, but ruining her."

Both were startled.

Lu Xin lowered her eyes and felt a sore heart. She had indeed ignored these problems.

The separation of yin and yang, human relationship, family relationship, social morality... all kinds of hidden dangers lie between the long life span, stuck in the throat like fish bones, not up or down, subtle and difficult to ignore.

She and Qi Yuan are not immune to these necessary roads.

After Xia Qin finished speaking, she closed her eyes and said with a tired face, "I just want to stop the loss in time."

Qi Yuan was silent for a moment, and said softly: "If you really want to stop the loss, then let her go. You want to maintain the friendship, but she will suffer from the illusory expectations. In the end, both sides will suffer."

Xia Qin's heart skipped a beat.

She made Ji Ling feel pain... Should he really let go?

A word "good" stuck in her throat, but she found herself unable to speak out decisively.

Qi Yuan sighed, and patted her on the shoulder: "It's not easy to live a new life, try to follow your heart, don't be too influenced by the outside world..."

……

The two-day vacation time passed by in a flash, and Ji Ling had to go back to school.

Xia Qin never came to look for her once, Ji Ling couldn't help but wonder if she really didn't care.

Before leaving, Ji's mother prepared a lot of food and clothing for her. The suitcase was full, and she kept nagging, telling her to be careful on the road and call more often.

Ji's father gently embraced her shoulders, and said with a smile: "Don't be afraid, if you have any conflicts with Xiao Xia, Dad will always stand by your side."

Ji Ling looked at the crow's feet blooming at the corners of his father's eyes, and nodded in a daze.

She arrived at the school in the evening by bullet train and went straight to the teaching building.

Pushing open the dormitory door, the room was pitch black, and Ji Ling almost thought that no one was there.She soon saw Xia Qin sitting at the lamp-burning desk, slowly turning her head to look at herself.In front of the black hair like a waterfall is a pale face, the lips have lost their color, the peach blossom eyes are no longer as charming as before, and they have become haggard and sad.

"Xiao Ji..." She called softly, with anxiety.

Ji Ling's heart trembled, she forced herself to lower her eyes, walked to the bedside without squinting, and began to pack her things.

She dragged another suitcase from under the bed, rolled up the pillow and quilt, and tried to stuff it in.

Xia Qin stood up and looked at her in confusion: "Xiao Ji, what are you doing?"

Ji Ling's subordinates kept moving: "I'm going to move the dormitory."

Before coming up just now, she had already gone to the teaching building and applied to the counselor for changing dormitories.

Xia Qin's eyes widened suddenly, shock and fear instantly engulfed her.

"Wait...Are you leaving?" Only then did she realize that the situation had reached an irreversible point.

"Yes." Ji Ling didn't turn his head back, "I don't want to contact you for the time being."

Xia Qin opened her mouth blankly, the pain of losing Ji Ling instantly paralyzed her nerves.She clenched the box in her hand, her thin white fingers trembling slightly.

This was a small gift she bought at the gift shop on the way back to school just now, thinking that Ji Ling might like it, and wanted to give it to him as an apology.

But Ji Ling didn't look back at her.

Ji Ling was tidying up the things on the bed, when she touched a lump of softness next to the pillow, she dragged it out and saw that it was a big-bellied panda doll, and the doll smiled naively, but she was in complicated moods.

These were the dolls that Xia Qin had caught for her when she was a child. She had caught a dozen of them in total, and she kept them all at home, and only brought one to school.Over the past ten years, the fabric has been worn extremely rough and pilled.

Xia Qin once said jokingly: "Look at me grabbing a zoo for you!"

But later they seldom went to the game hall, and could only see Xia Qin's boyfriend grabbing dolls for her on the street from time to time.

She stroked the panda's soft ears, hesitated a few times, and finally put it on the table.

If you can't take something with you, just keep it, so as not to think about others again.

Xia Qin stared blankly at her movements as if struck by lightning.Rubbing her eyes, she staggered to her feet.

"Don't go..."

She stretched out her hand, as if she wanted to grab the corner of Ji Ling's clothes, but flinched back.

Ji Ling took a deep breath, swept the bed quickly, turned around and saw Xia Qin standing behind her, her eyes were scarlet and cloudy, which was a warning of the zombie's emotional fluctuations.

"...Are you going to leave me too?" Xia Qin murmured with red eyes.

Ji Ling's heartbeat stopped, and she instinctively recalled Xiao Xiaqin who sat alone in front of the house when she was young, with a lonely face.The way she looked at her was like a driftwood in the abyss, a ray of light.

Recalling the past, she instinctively softened her heart, her eyes flickered: "Xiao Xia..."

Xia Qin stared at her, with a hint of anticipation remaining in her dim eyes.

Looking into her eyes, Ji Ling gradually became clearer, she became more determined, gritted her teeth and said, "I'm leaving... Take care of yourself."

She will gradually leave Xia Qin's life until she forgets the past and the wound heals.

Xia Qin felt as if the bones and veins of his whole body had been smashed and broken, and the dead body gave birth to a real pain out of thin air.

She closed her eyes with difficulty, and the box in her hand fell to the ground with a bang: "Is there no room for change?"

Ji Ling no longer looked into her eyes, trying to let go of the nostalgia that was constantly cut and messed up.

"No more," she said, "We're done, Xiao Xia."

"I hope everything is fine for you. If you find someone who understands you and tolerates you, I... I won't accompany you anymore." Ji Ling said, "I just made myself sentimental about everything yesterday."

She thought to herself, Xia Qin is actually good at everything, but she doesn't love her. It's a pity that things about feelings can't be achieved by force.

"No." Xia Qin turned against the light, her facial features were blurred in the orange-red afterglow, she said softly, "No..."

She hung her head, like a piece of barren wilderness, withered and decayed, forgotten in the darkness of the world.

Now the only ray of light that shines in is also leaving her.

"I'm just... afraid that you will get hurt."

The 19 years have passed by in a flick of a finger, the spring and autumn cycle, everything flies, like a dream that ends without a problem.

The Ji Ling who stands in front of her when she is in danger, the radiant Ji Ling; the Ji Ling who is obedient to herself no matter how angry she is; the Ji Ling who accepts her at all costs even knowing that she has become a monster...

Scenes of memories, like a heart-piercing knife, slowly cut away all the remaining emotions in her body.

She doesn't love humans, and zombies are always stingy in giving love. She left almost all the good emotions to Ji Ling, but it hurt her because of it.

She couldn't tell how she felt about Ji Ling, she just felt as if she had melted into a part of her flesh and blood, a rib pulled out by God from her body, seamless and intimate.If Ji Ling were to leave, it would be as painful as being separated from his own flesh and blood.

Ji Ling lowered her eyes, stepped forward involuntarily, and gently stroked her hair as usual.

"You...too selfish." She sighed softly, "Always act for my own good, but never ask me if I want it or not."

"On the one hand, you hurt me the most, and on the other hand, you said that you don't want me to be hurt. You have exhausted all the good things."

A little warm wetness dripped on the back of Xia Qin's hands, she was stunned for a moment, then raised her head hesitantly, just in time to see Ji Ling's smiling eyes, but the eye sockets were filled with trickling tears.

The crimson setting sun reflected on her face, like the kind of picture only seen in old TV sets, peaceful and sad.

So did I do something wrong?Xia Qin thought, I don't know, I actually hurt her so deeply...

She held her breath, and felt as if she had touched some trick in a trance, she suddenly came to her senses, opened her eyes wide in a daze, and hurriedly said: "I, I understand, I regret it..."

"You don't understand." Ji Ling said, "You don't love me, you just don't want me to go. At the beginning, as long as you nodded, I could give up everything. I have more courage than you imagined, but you dare not, And I pretended not to understand until I exhausted my emotions."

"And if you look back now, I don't want to."

Ji Ling pressed her chest, feeling that it had become numb and blank.

She passed her and walked to the door, the setting sun dragged the figure into a sharp and narrow one.

"Goodbye." She said from afar.

The author has something to say: Thank you for dropping the nutrient solution and Lei!

The deputy cp is too tangled, it makes me feel sad and cool orz...

Xiao Ji's knot is hard to untie, and it will take a long time for Xia Qin to recover her with complete relief. These two people hurt and torture each other, and their ideas conflict, which is really too difficult555

Let's stop here for an open ending, I'll write about Qi Yuan and Lu Lu's episode and relax 5555

感谢在2020-07-0122:45:21~2020-07-0418:03:37期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel who threw the mine: Idk? 2;

Thanks to the little angel of irrigation nutrient solution: Idk? 30 bottles;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!