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Lu Li stood stiffly behind Shen Xingze.He felt that the muscles all over his body were tensed into a fishing net, and his beating heart was wrapped in the net.

The reason why this heart beats is because it is full of sadness, love, anxiety and even a little bit of expectation.All of this mixed up and there's a cascade of tiny emotional explosions going on.

But at this moment, Shen Xingze continued to create more unspeakable tastes for him.

"It's been a long time since I lost him. I tried to look for his shadow in my heart and outside. But I know that there will be no two identical leaves in this world, so this search is actually nothing more than A kind of self-deception.

"...Until I met you, I suddenly discovered that there are some things that I can't explain—why are two people who are completely different in appearance, but have so many similarities in their hearts. The same name, the same dream. You Your behavior and habits are like him, your tone of voice is like his, the food you cook has his taste, you know my habits, and even understand my past life... The more I get in touch with you, the more I am attracted to you. I have also delusional, tentative, and circumstantial; I have wandered between reason and madness, but I finally chose to believe in you, and I believe that all of this is just a magical coincidence.

"Then... I tried to see you in a different light, seeing you as an independent and new individual. I could feel your concern and consideration for me, your careful emotions and your sneaky Close. And when you fell into my arms because of that gypsy thief, but miraculously unscathed, I suddenly felt... maybe you were sent by heaven to redeem me, and you would never be as unruly as he was. Say goodbye and suddenly disappear from my world."

Having said that, Shen Xing chose to throw all the last few talisman papers into the fire.The flames of the sacrificial pile suddenly shot up, like an ominous afterglow.

"But what is the truth? It was you who easily manipulated my feelings and turned me from suspicion to trust. Those 'coincidences' that confused me were all illusions you deliberately created. And the reason why you did this , it can only be for your own future, for self-interest, and there are more unexplainable calculations!"

The sudden accusation caused Lu Li to shudder several times, followed by bouts of heart pain, which was the pain caused by his most cherished emotion being wrongly crushed.

"No...it's not like that!"

He blurted out his defense, like the most instinctive struggle of a drowning man.

Hearing his sobs, Shen Xingze finally turned his head, but there was no trace of trust or friendliness in his dark eyes.

"Then tell yourself, what are you doing this for!"

Lu Li suddenly felt that he was cornered.

How did things turn out like this?At first, I couldn't hold back and wanted to get close to Shen Xingxuan again; then I wanted to help him forget the past and get out of the gloom; I even hoped to continue the old love with a new identity...

Lu Li originally thought that he was walking step by step.But he didn't expect that a well-designed exquisite pagoda collapsed suddenly because of a mistake in the first thought, and he himself was firmly suppressed by the broken bricks and tiles, unable to move.

Now, the only chance to "survive" is to confess my motives to Shen Xingze, hoping to get his understanding.

"I did it because...because I like you..."

Finally, Lu Li said that confession that seemed taboo.

He originally thought that the purpose of "courtship" was far more pure and noble than "seeking money" and "seeking power".Even if the other party can't accept it, at least they won't show too contemptuous eyes.

However, on the contrary, Shen Xingze's gaze was cold, even with a little disgust.

"sorry."

He refused without even a moment's hesitation: "But there is no way I would fall in love with a guy who uses my dead lover to get close to me."

Having said that, he paused for a moment, and satisfactorily read the astonishment, sadness and confusion on Lu Li's face.Then, a thunderbolt was thrown out unexpectedly——

"Unless you admit to me that you are my Lu Li."

Suddenly, Lu Li's jumping thoughts seemed to be frozen again.The tears on his face were still wet, and he just stared at Shen Xingze in a daze; and Shen Xingze also stared back at him.

Why did I get it wrong just now?Lu Li thought to himself in a daze - Shen Xingxuan's eyes were not indifferent, disgusting or contemptuous, but calculating.

There was clearly a fire in his eyes, a fire of annoyance, excitement, madness, revenge, and burning desire.It's just that it was covered up by his superb acting skills, and it was not revealed unscrupulously until this moment.

Therefore, all of this is actually Shen Xingxuan's trap.This wasn't some kind of temptation, he was convinced that Lu Li was the same Lu Li from before, that's why he revealed the secret past between them so brazenly.He forced Lu Li to confess his feelings for him, and then gave Lu Li two choices——

Either continue pretending to be a stranger and personally destroy this love that even death cannot destroy;

Either confess completely, and then passively accept any action Shen Xingze might take.

If he chooses to confess, what will Shen Xing choose to do?Angrily accuse him of concealing it for two and a half years, and then find a more secret box to seal him up?

Then if he chooses not to confess, will Shen Xingze really let him go, and become strangers or even enemies from now on?

No, no matter which one, Shen Xingze probably couldn't do it.It's like playing chess, the aggressive person may not really have the upper hand.

Lu Li has completely calmed down, he knows how to answer.

"I'm sorry, but I'm not your Lu Li."

He backed up halfway, and looked at Shen Xingxuan's eyes without hiding anything.

"But don't worry, I will never tell anyone what you said today."

Sure enough, it was Shen Xingze's turn to be silent.The sacrificial pile in front of him was almost extinguished, and the white smoke was curling up, and it would soon completely turn into nothingness.

"I understand."

At the end of the long silence, he nodded, then pointed to the direction he came from: "Then you can get out now."

But Lu Li didn't turn around and leave.Instead, he bent down and picked up the bucket and rag that came with him.

"Brother Lu is kind to me. I want to visit his and his mother's graves."

Anyway, his face was torn, and he didn't bother to pretend.I went straight to a nearby water point, brought back a bucket of water, and began to scrub my mother's tombstone.

Throughout the whole process, Shen Xingze never said a word.Lu Li heard the sound of a lighter, followed by the smell of cigarettes, one after another.

By the time Lu Li finished scrubbing his mother's tombstone, the cigarette butts around Shen Xingzuo's feet had already formed a circle.And the new tomb is still surrounded by sacrifices, flowers and incense candles.Lu Li didn't bother to tidy up, anyway, these things are equally meaningless in the eyes of both of them now.

He simply poured out the dirty water, carried the bucket and tools, turned around and walked towards the exit of the cemetery.

There was no sound of Shen Xingze's chasing footsteps behind him.

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Although a spacious parking lot has been opened up in the east area of ​​the cemetery, there is no bus connection station such as the "grave-sweeping line".If you want to take a bus back to the urban area, you must first walk to the entrance of the South District, and then wait in a long queue for departure.

In order to save time, Lu Li chose another lesser-known method - first walk along the highway to a nearby town, and then take the town's shuttle bus to the nearest subway station.

The road from the cemetery to the town was the route they had just driven.Perhaps because the northern area of ​​the cemetery is still under construction, this road is full of construction vehicles all year round, not to mention the dust, and the road surface is also bumpy and bumpy.

Compared with those vehicles that were leaving in the dust, Lu Li's figure carrying a bucket really looked a little ridiculous and insignificant.After only walking 200 meters, his head and body were already covered with a layer of loess.Obviously, by the time he got to town, he would be no different from a terracotta warrior who had just been dug out of the ground.

The mask he wore to block the dust seriously obstructed his breathing. Just as he was about to stop to catch his breath, a black Mercedes drove past him, kicking up another burst of dust.

Lu Li squinted his eyes and couldn't see the license plate clearly, but when he turned a corner, he saw the car had stopped on the side of the road.The driver was walking towards him aggressively.

"boarding!"

Not allowing Lu Li to raise objections at all, Shen Xingze had already grabbed Lu Li's arm and dragged him forward like a chicken.Arguing on the side of the road would be a safety hazard, and it would easily attract onlookers. Lu Li had no choice but to follow him back to the car, and he was firmly restrained by him on the passenger seat with a seat belt.

The vehicle started again, and it was ejected with a kick of the accelerator.Lu Li's back made close contact with the seat, and at the same time, his heart started beating wildly.

Contrary to the calm and steady appearance when he came here, Shen Xingze seemed to be going crazy, racing wildly on the bumpy road.The roar of the engine greeted the sideways glances of oncoming vehicles and passers-by.

"Speeding! Slow down!"

Lu Li felt his heart was about to jump out of his chest.He reluctantly turned his head to look at Shen Xingxuan, but as expected, he saw a sinister, paranoid and even bewildered expression.

"...Shen Xingze!" Lu Li felt a surge of fear.

In an emergency, he couldn't care more, he reached out and covered Shen Xingze's right hand that was pushing and pulling the shift lever, but he didn't dare to use force, he just pressed his slightly trembling palm against the back of Shen Xingze's hand.

A second later, Shen Xing shook his hand away.

But the speed of the car has dropped after all, and it is no longer so crazily fast and frighteningly fast.