rogue flower

The sudden heavy rain made people inside and outside the store panic.Pedestrians outside the store were looking for shelter from the rain, while customers inside the store turned the topic to how to go home without an umbrella.Chi Lang had already got up and was about to leave, but he had to stop his steps because of the heavy rain.The rain wove a fine curtain of water on the floor-to-ceiling windows, like a pouring flood, washing the ground wetly after flowing.He was still holding the gift he had bought for Baimu, so he had no choice but to sit down opposite Shen Jianan again.

Shen Jianan stared at him with red eyes.There is still the noise of heavy rain outside the window, and every opening and closing of the store door brings the smell of rain and dampness, but under the warm light, he almost has the illusion that he is isolated from the crowd.His lips murmured several times, as if he wanted to say something, but because of Chi Lang's indifferent attitude like a stranger sharing the table, he didn't speak for a long time, and then fell into a long silence.At this moment, he began to feel that Chi Lang seemed to be more cruel than before.He is not afraid that Chi Lang will hate him, because he is ready to do everything to make up and repair the rift between each other, but at this moment, in Chi Lang's eyes, it seems that he is not there at all.

Does he regret it?He regrets it.Four years ago, he thought he could abandon Chi Lang cruelly, but now he found that Chi Lang had abandoned him.At the moment when he confirmed the encounter, he still felt that this was a chance for him to start again, but every word Chi Lang said after that was like a red iron imprinted on his heart. The sizzling sound made him completely lose the courage to refute.

He was afraid that Chi Lang would not hate him.

He was afraid that Chi Lang would completely forget him.

He was afraid that Chi Lang would treat him as a complete stranger.

Shen Jianan suddenly felt his whole body was icy cold, and the temperature lost rapidly, and the moment he closed his eyes, he burst out with a strong, almost desperate hatred towards himself.Four years ago, under the pressure of his parents, he left the apartment he and Chi Lang rented after leaving a long letter, and returned to his hometown to get married with the blind date he had arranged a long time ago.However, life after marriage is not as ordinary as he imagined—yes, ordinary, he has never had any extra expectations for this stagnant life, but in fact, every day of life is like a long, The never-ending Lingchi.

The original intention of getting married was just to fulfill the obligation of starting a family. He couldn't find the kind of tender love that could live together in his wife, but his wife was a woman who was far tougher than he imagined.The two maintain a false peace inside and outside the family. In front of them, they are a lover who respects each other like a guest, but even the daily care of the queen seems boring.He does the grocery shopping while his wife does the cooking. He doesn't say a word at the dinner table. He picks one day on the weekend to go to his parents' house, and the rest of the day his wife goes shopping with friends and colleagues. As the hostess of the family, she is impeccable in all aspects.However, he fears the night, suffers from chronic insomnia, and tosses and turns in the dead of night. Physical intimacy can only be hastily completed with the help of drugs.The wife noticed his indifference, and only showed an embarrassed and somewhat disappointed smile when the parents asked why they didn't have children yet.

He often feels that his wife should understand.

It's just that none of them can open their mouths, and they can't talk about divorce.

Long-term bedfellow dreams, separation, occasional quarrels, avoidance of sex | love, silent cold violence.

All of these, after life deviates from the peaceful track, he can often feel a hundred times more intense pain than the day before.

Until the beginning of the year, he and his wife came to Jinnan because of their work—the wife was transferred from work, and the two of them had no children. It was impossible for their parents to accept the separation of the two places, so he was also transferred to Jinnan because of the relationship. branch.He knew the relationship between Long Jiu and Chi Lang, and knew that Long Jiu had opened a bar in Jinnan. He even went near the black box to see if Chi Lang had been there, but every time he returned without success.Then this long suffering finally came to an end tonight - he came out of the bank after working overtime, and accidentally caught Chi Lang's back in the crowd.

Chi Lang is right, if he defines his current life as misfortune, it is all because of his own choice.

Shen Jianan blocked his eyes with his hand, the sound of rain outside the window was still urgent and dense.

After a long time, as if he had made up his mind, he said hoarsely, "Xiao Lang, I..."

Chi Lang was too lazy to correct him, "please call me by my full name".His feelings for Shen Jianan are very complicated, and love is also something that is unpredictable.When I love you, everything is fine, but when I don't love you, I don't even have the desire to talk.His father and Shen Jianan are the two nails in his heart. The former is a long-lasting ulcer, and the latter is like a scar after a wound has healed. It may be deep, and it looks scary. It may not hurt when you touch it again. Outsiders see Most will sympathize.Chi Lang really felt ironic at this time, the evil relationship between him and Shen Jianan - they can meet so easily in a city with a population of 630 million, it seems that God really treats the two of them kindly.At this moment, neither of them realized each other's situation. Shen Jianan thought he was here to visit Long Jiu, and Chi Lang thought Shen Jianan was here on a business trip. The former wanted to reunite with each other, while the latter just wanted to clear everything before Bai Zizheng came back. All resolved as soon as possible.

Shen Jianan began to recall the past again, saying that they met for the first time, dated for the first time, chose an apartment together, and furnished their new home together.Talk about the night movies they watched together, the warm meals at night when they came back late, the two of them went surfing together on the beach in the scorching sun, and he drove to pick Chi Lang home on rainy days.Chi Lang listened silently, these past events are not without sweet and tender elements, but it's strange, at this moment, he can't feel even a little bit of moving in his heart when he listens to Shen Jianan's narration of these past events .

Time is really a good medicine that can smooth everything out. Chi Lang habitually lit a cigarette and interrupted Shen Jianan: "You don't need to say it, I don't want to hear it. We have been separated for four years, not four days. The story of carve a boat and seek a sword has been told in elementary school. , I am a human being, not a piece of wood, why do you think I will waste so much time on you."

He pointed to his heart, and smiled again: "Mr. Shen, I already have someone here, who is very important to me."

Shen Jianan originally wanted to say something more, but was instantly speechless because of Chi Lang's action.He finally found that whether it was confession or confession, Chi Lang's attitude of turning a deaf ear made him feel almost suffocating heart palpitations.

He moved his lips with great difficulty: "Yes...is it?"

Is that right?

He should have expected that for more than 400 days and nights, it was impossible for Chi Lang to stand still and wait for him, but he still didn't want to admit it.

This sudden awakening made his mouth bitter, and he reluctantly said: "It turns out...it turned out to be like this, I, I'm sorry, I...Xiao Lang, I really, you, you...Can you, can you cannot……"

His voice trembled, and he struggled for a long time. He repeated a few vague particles back and forth, but he couldn't even say simple "I love you" and "forgive me".

Shen Jianan let go of the fingers he had been holding tightly, and a long sigh emerged from the depths of his heart. The moment the light flickered, he suddenly wanted to kiss him like before.

This kind of desire from the heart made him involuntarily lean forward, but Chi Lang avoided it without a trace.

Sensing his resistance, Shen Jianan felt as if his heart had been stabbed sharply by a blunt knife, and a long and deep pain arose from it. He slumped back to his booth and said softly: "I... "

Chi Lang said: "Mr. Shen, there are some things I don't want to say too harshly."

Shen Jianan said: "...I, I understand."

There was another long and awkward silence between the two of them.

Until a woman's voice let out a small exclamation from behind: "Ah, Jianan!"

Shen Jianan raised his head as if frightened, the tears on his face were dry, and his eyes were still slightly red, but he subconsciously avoided the woman's slightly concerned eyes.The woman's left shoulder was already soaked, but fortunately she was wearing dark clothes, so she didn't show much.Chi Lang noticed the wedding rings of the same style on their hands, and he understood it. Although he was a little concerned about why Shen Jianan's wife suddenly appeared here, he didn't say much. Hearing the sound of the rain outside, it seemed a little quieter. Pick up your things and prepare to leave.

However, Shen Jianan didn't know what to do, so he hurriedly called him: "Xiao Lang!"

The woman seemed a little surprised: "Hey... is it someone you know?"

Shen Jianan was at a loss for words for a while, and could only murmur: "Yes... it was my former friend, a friend."

The woman tidied up the damp hair on her sideburns, and introduced herself generously: "Hi, my name is Zhou Muyun, and I am Jianan's lover."

Chi Lang had no choice but to reach out and shake her hand, and responded concisely: "Chi Lang."

Zhou Muyun's palms were wet and cold, and his face was not covered with makeup, but upon closer inspection he was still a very delicate beauty.Seeing that Chi Lang had already got up, she advised, "Hey, are you leaving now? It's still raining outside, why don't you sit a little longer."

Shen Jianan said, "Why are you here?"

Zhou Muyun said angrily: "I went out to watch a movie, did you forget? It's too cold outside, I wanted to come in and buy something to drink, but I didn't expect you to be here."

On the outside of the commercial building diagonally opposite the coffee shop, there is a big character light sign of Jiahua International Film City.

Shen Jianan let out a "huh", seeing that his wife's shoulders were already wet, he glanced at Chi Lang with some hesitation, and took off his coat and put it on her shoulders——Zhou Muyun is still willing to cooperate with him in performing a show of raising eyebrows in front of outsiders. illusion.Shen Jianan stood up and said, "I'll go buy you a cup of hot cocoa."

He is running away.

Zhou Muyun smiled, didn't seem to notice anything strange about him, gathered his clothes, and said to Chi Lang: "I didn't expect Jianan to have friends in Jinnan, and I haven't heard him mention it before."

Of course his "friend" cannot be mentioned, Chi Lang said perfunctorily: "We haven't been in touch for a long time."

He had nothing to say to Shen Jianan's wife, but he couldn't expose Shen Jianan as a scumbag who cheated on marriage.Kang Zhenying saw early on that he was easy to act emotionally, otherwise he would not have to wait until today four years later if he really wanted to take revenge on Shen Jianan.He was still in the provincial police at the time, and it was easy to find out who Shen Jianan was marrying. He ran to the wedding scene and exposed him as gay. When he came over, he decided not to waste any more time on Shen Jianan.Long Jiu almost wanted to kill Shen Jianan because of him, but he stopped him in the end, and Long Jiu scolded him solidly for this.He really softened his heart back then, and he is still the same now, he can't be a saint, it's very dangerous to fall into it, so he doesn't want to have anything to do with Shen Jianan anymore.He had suffered from Shen Jianan's body before, and his instinct of seeking advantages and avoiding disadvantages made him not want to make another somersault again.If he had to say that he was not reconciled, it could only be that he allowed Zhou Muyun to step into Shen Jianan's pit of fire.

When facing this woman, he felt somewhat powerless.

Zhou Muyun smiled very kindly, and then asked: "Is Mr. Chi from Jinnan?"

Chi Lang said: "No, I work in Jinnan."

Zhou Muyun said: "What a coincidence, Jianan and I are also living in Jinnan now, so come to our house for dinner if we have time."

The author has something to say:

I got my graduation certificate_(:зゝ∠)_ so I just graduated...

The writing of this chapter is very unfeeling, as I wrote it, I found a bug in the originally planned plot...