rogue flower

At this moment, Chi Lang felt that Bai Zizheng had tricked him.He was silent for a moment, and then smiled a little laissez-faire: "You, this is too foul, I can see it... I have some things to say. It seems that I really can't let you drink next time. What are you doing?" I can't hide my words, and even scare others out of their hearts... Xiaobai, I really lost to you."

Bai Zizheng said: "Foul? I learned from you." He lazily stretched his fingers, "I found out that night, you are so sensitive to the matter of 'going home for dinner'... What's so scary about eating? ? If you haven't come out of the closet, I might doubt your responsibility, or if you are serious, but now... I understand." He said bullyingly, but there was an unquestionable tone in his tone Firmly, "Chi Lang, do you like me that much?"

The breathing of the two is close at hand, and Chi Lang's gaze can easily meet his slightly trembling eyelashes as he blinks. He only feels that his embarrassment of being discovered by Bai Zizheng has gradually returned to reality, and his heart has also changed. Get soft.He couldn't help but kissed Bai Zizheng lightly on the lips, then took his hand and pressed it on his chest: "Yes, so I am very greedy, I can't tolerate you being hurt, but I am very afraid that you will be hurt." Leave me." His voice was like drizzle falling in the evening wind, with a sweet and intoxicating melancholy, "I don't care about other people's eyes, but I'm afraid that you will be rejected by your family because of this. My father has He didn't accept my sexuality, he thought I was a monster... Xiaobai, I don't want you to be in a dilemma, but if possible, I hope I can face it with you... At least give me someone who can protect you face to face This is my current attitude, and it will not change in the future... Sorry, I should have confessed to you earlier. I was not confident enough before, but I have never regretted my decision to chase you."

Bai Zizheng finally understands the crux of his problem in this matter. Xu Haiyang is right. Chi Lang is indeed an emotional person sometimes, but Lao Mai is also right. Sometimes he is enough to follow his heart wishes.At this time, Bai Zizheng's palm was pressed against his heart, and he could still clearly feel his beating heartbeat despite the obstruction of his skin.Bai Zizheng suddenly became emotional, and the two kissed in the car parked on the side of the road as if there was no one else present. With the gap between their lips parted, Bai Zizheng replied with a smile: "It's okay, I love you."

Chi Lang suddenly felt a heat in his heart, as if something gushed out uncontrollably.Maybe it was because Bai Zizheng's smile was too bright... At that moment, he actually had an illusion of worship.If Bai Zizheng is the sun, then he must be Kuafu day by day, even if he has to run until he is exhausted, dried up, and thirsty to death... He still can't resist the temptation of this light, maybe everything has happened as early as somewhere. It is already doomed.There was a slight embarrassment in Chi Lang's expression, but his eyes slowly recovered that kind of calm and magnanimous composure.After a while, Bai Zizheng also calmed down. He sat down on the co-pilot seat again, and said softly: "Chi Lang, I want to hear you talk about your family."

Chi Lang said: "Okay." He took a cigarette from the storage compartment, lit it with a lighter with Bai Zizheng's hand, then rolled down the car window on his side, and the cool evening breeze engulfed the summer breeze. The fragrance of Japanese flowers filled the car, "My father came from the army, and my mother passed away early, so I was taught very strictly since I was a child... At that time, I had to get up every morning for a morning run, and the quilt had to be folded into tofu. Block, the exam must be admitted to the top three... It is actually quite difficult for elementary school students, but I just have a feeling of being dependent on my father, maybe because I have no mother since I was a child. I found out when I was in junior high school I am gay, and it was not like now... The relationship between the two boys was a little closer, and others would not say much. If you said a few more words to a certain girl, it might become a big deal the next day. News. At that time, I felt that I was different from others. I didn’t have feelings for girls, and I wondered why it became like this... Later, I went to high school and opened a new Internet cafe on the way home. Haiyang and I would go in occasionally Go online, play games or something... At that time, I checked the Internet and found that I might be born to like men, and I was gay. Later I told Hai Yang, but I was cut off when I was ready. I didn't expect him to have no excessive reaction other than being startled, and thinking about him now really makes my heart really big."

Chi Lang dusted the ashtray in the ashtray, and continued: "Yang Haiyang and I were young, and our two families are neighbors. The two of us grew up together, just like brothers. Although I know that I like men, but I don’t have that feeling about Haiyang yet, and I don’t want to bend him to prove it. Later, I went to a university in other places, and I met the teacher and Brother Nine—teacher, you know, Brother Nine is the real black box bar. My boss, you should have asked me before. They were very understanding of my sexuality and expressed their support. Haiyang even helped me hide my boyfriend from my family. It was really free during that time. Graduated from university At that time, the teacher wanted me to stay and work in the provincial capital, and I also felt that this was an opportunity for me to have a showdown with my dad. I have never violated his will since I was a child, but who I like and whether I want to get married in the future are at least up to me. It may be because it has been so smooth all the time, and the people around have not expressed clear objections. At that time, I really thought that my dad would put himself in my place and think for me. Others can understand that I am his son. , Now that I think about it... I was so naive at the time." He paused suddenly, stubbed out the cigarette butt, and lit a new one, "You asked me about the injury on my head before. My dad beat me at that time. My feelings towards my dad are actually quite complicated, because I was too strict when I was a child, so it is inevitable that I complained to him, but he is my only relative after all... So he said I was disgusting and called me a pervert At that time, I was still very uncomfortable. Later he said that he thought he had never given birth to my son and drove me out. It has been almost seven years now, and I have never been back.” He said, “Xiaobai, you and The relationship between my parents is better than my father and I, so I don’t want to think about this problem. It doesn’t hurt to be stabbed by someone else, but I’m afraid that someone will do it to you. Sometimes I’d rather the first person you meet is not me ..."

He sighed a long time, then turned his head and smiled again: "I'm done talking, do you have any special thoughts?"

Bai Zizheng said: "...I didn't want to force you, sorry." Although he guessed that Chi Lang's uneasiness should be related to his family, he never thought that his father would really beat him to death he.He has also seen the wound on Chi Lang's head. The one with more than a dozen stitches is not a minor wound at all. Let alone the reason why parents greet their children directly on the head. It will only increase and not decrease. No wonder Chi Lang is so nervous about coming out.Bai Zizheng didn't know if it was appropriate to comfort him at this time, put his hand on Chi Lang's elbow, wanted to speak but found that he couldn't say a word.Chi Lang's expression was calm and relieved, and he quickly said: "It's okay, it feels much better to say it."

His gaze seemed to be far away: "Actually, not many people knew about it, because it was at my house. After I came back, I was embarrassed to tell people that I was beaten by my dad for coming out of the closet." , when someone came to ask me, I said it was a brave act. After a long time, I didn't hide it, and everyone gradually knew that I was GAY, and the process was quite peaceful..." He seemed to sense Bai Zizheng's intentions , wrapped Bai Zizheng's fingers with a warm palm, and whispered in his ear, "Xiaobai, if you really love me, just say you love me a few more times in the future..."

Bai Zizheng was almost bewitched by this overly gentle tone again.He managed to calm down, and repeated again: "I love you." He added, "It's my fault today, let's make it up, find a place you like, and I'll have a drink with you."

Chi Lang said: "Aren't you afraid to speak your mind?"

Bai Zizheng said: "I'm done talking." But there were still some doubts in his heart that had not been resolved.However, now is not the time to get entangled in these details. After hearing Chi Lang's personal experience, Bai Zizheng also feels that it is necessary to make some detailed adjustments to his plan, but no matter what, he can at least be sure of one thing, that is Papa Bai. Absolutely will not hit him.Father Bai is a very upright and extremely protective guy. When Bai Zirong was a child, his toy was robbed. He could personally chase him to the other party's house and press the bear's head to make him apologize to Bai Zirong.But even with such a brilliant record, Bai Zizheng rarely saw his father get angry at his family.Old couples are newlyweds who mix oil with honey every day, and Bai Zizheng is the type that makes people feel at ease since childhood. Bai Zirong is bright and innocent just relying on that face.In view of the fact that coming out of the closet cannot be rewinded, and the number of internal rehearsals may not be consistent with the actual situation, Bai Zizheng can only adopt the strategy of seeing and tearing his father. Who told him to always instill something in himself? "True love is greater than the sky" theory...

Father Bai didn't know that he was already missed by his eldest son, and he tried his best to imagine that he could take advantage of the wind of other people's wedding to meet his true destiny since Bai Zizheng went out.In the Bai family at this time, on the one hand, Bai Zirong was restless because he had spied on his brother's secret, and on the other hand, Bai's mother was also seriously thinking about the changes of the eldest son in the master bedroom separated by a wall.Although it was well concealed, but out of female intuition, Bai Mu still keenly noticed that Bai Zizheng was different from the past.But this change made her feel an inexplicable uneasiness, and even a premonition that something was about to happen.

And Bai Zizheng, who left the wedding banquet, didn't realize that he was on the verge of being exposed.Perhaps because of the night show, the Black Box Bar was extraordinarily lively tonight.Long Jiu wasn't in the store today, and Awei and Awu didn't show up either. Lao Mai was playing a game of truth or dare with a group of young people near the bar. Seeing this, he invited them to come over and draw cards together.Chi Lang was originally a regular customer of the bar, and most of the people present at this time also knew each other. He asked Bai Zizheng for his opinion with his eyes, and seeing that he had no objection, he switched to a social mode and started to introduce for everyone.

Because this time it was a "date" with Chi Lang, and there were no strangers with malicious intentions coming to strike up a conversation, Bai Zizheng himself didn't hate this kind of atmosphere of gatherings of peers, and the atmosphere was quite harmonious for a while, and someone suggested that Bai Zizheng Zheng was in charge of the first round of shuffling.Bai Zizheng took the poker handed by the other party, and at this moment he still reminded Lao Mai not to tell Chi Lang that he had been there that night.Lao Mai Xin nodded understandingly, and went behind the bar to get the beer out.Today is the middle day of the Dragon Boat Festival holiday, and most people don’t have the pressure to go to work tomorrow, so most of them think that they don’t get drunk and don’t go home and have fun when they want to play.In order to attend Meng Jianbin's wedding, Bai Zizheng asked Fu Yunsheng for a break two days ago, and he didn't have any worries about getting up early tomorrow. The situation before him reminded him of the KTV gathering with his classmates after the college entrance examination, under the fiery atmosphere Unconsciously drank a few more glasses.After several rounds of games, there were winners and losers, and finally a boy with yellow hair shuffled the cards.Bai Zizheng finally got the trick this time, with two hearts in his hand, someone soon laughed and said, "Then Xiaobai chooses the truth or the big risk?"

Bai Zizheng thought for a while and replied, "Then let's take a big risk."

Everyone was a little disappointed at the same time. They originally wanted to take the opportunity to gossip about the inside story of Bai Zizheng and Chi Lang. After all, the latter is a celibate in their opinion. They have known him for several years and haven't seen him. Whoever cared so much, who would have expected that Bai Zizheng would not play the cards according to their routine, and he could only express his deep regret in desperation.The person was brought by Chi Lang, and Bai Zizheng is not the type who is familiar with himself. In this situation, it is really impossible to make any excessive jokes, so someone suggested: "Haha, why don't you just sing a song." This is already the gentlest of all great adventures.

Bai Zizheng said: "I won't sing any more, I'll go dance."

Chi Lang: "???" Everyone also had a "stunned.JPG" expression on their faces.

Before Chi Lang could realize what was going on with the sudden attack of dancing, Bai Zizheng's shirt covered his head.He leaned over and exhaled lingering hot air in Chi Lang's ear, and said, "Look carefully." Then he got up and jumped onto the high platform.

The author has something to say:

Ah, don’t expect too much from Xiaobai’s dancing, my action scenes (?) are pretty badly written (maybe I just took it on a whim hahaha)

One more thing

That day, the class group suddenly received a notice from the blue sky saying that the first draft of the thesis will be handed in on the 25th... I have written about one-third of it now, so the time for the next update will be random. QAQ Although I am writing the thesis, I will definitely do it Looking for time to update...