say i love you again

96.

The wedding of Zhang Ruoxin and Xu Kaien was held on the lawn of the church next to the hotel in the suburbs.

The bright red long carpet stretches from the hotel to the guest room at the other end of the church. At the end of the red carpet is the small platform where the priest stands. At this moment, the bridesmaids and bridesmaids who have been prepared for a long time are staying here in the hotel. , Standing at the forefront of the red carpet, waiting for the moment to enter.

Waiting for the moment to enter the arena was still difficult for Mu Yan. The thick door in front of her seemed to be a wall that completely blocked the reality, but it definitely couldn't block the gradually noisy voices outside.

The wedding is about to begin.

It's just that Mu Yan's mood is still low, not stained with joy. She lowered her eyebrows and looked at the suit that was ironed on her body. The suit is a defense that makes her feel safe here, but it also undoubtedly reminds her That identity that made her feel ironic?

──She is Yann's fake boyfriend, even after last night's intimacy, everything is still the same as before, without any change.

Moreover, on the eve of the wedding, she met her ex-boyfriend who she once loved so much. The man wore a fake mask and extended a friendly hand to her. When Mu Yan took off the mask with sadness, she seemed to see the love in the past. How ridiculous is it to pay yourself?

The moment she understood, Mu Yan's whole body seemed to be hollowed out.

She wanted to escape, escape from here, escape from everything, but her sense of duty told her she couldn't.

──She couldn't leave Yann here alone.

"Why isn't Yann here yet?" asked Tony Bo beside her.

Beside Tony Bai stood a man who was taller than Mu Yan, with an elegant masculine aura, and he couldn't hide a bit of arrogance in his eyes.The man was also wearing a suit, and the bridesmaid velvet strip on the chest of his coat was exactly the same as the one on Tony Bai's chest.

The two met in the best man's lounge. Tony Bai introduced to her that the man's name was Daniel. He was a good friend of Kane and Ruoxin, and he was also the object of Tony Bai's relationship for many years.

Tony Bai is gay, Mu Yan is not surprised, she already has gay friends around her, but after thinking about it carefully, she realizes that she likes Yann too?

It's a pity that she fell in love with someone who wouldn't love her when she was just a fledgling, and got a relationship that couldn't be dealt with and could only let it end without a problem?

"Yan, she..." Saying that, Mu Yan pursed her lips. It was time for Yan, who was changing her dress in the bridal room, to come, but Mu Yan didn't see her courage right now. "She will come with her sister-in-law and the others... I think it will be soon?"

This time, Mu Yan answered Tony Bai absent-mindedly.

Unexpectedly, Tony Bo elbowed her down, looking interested. "I just slipped away to the bride's room and took a peek. The new secret is very powerful, and he took care of Yann well? How about it, after this wedding, when will you change your wedding wine?"

"We..." Mu Yan covered her lips. This is the moment when her tear glands are most developed since she was a child?Even when Tony Bo asked her like this, she felt the urge to cry?

Everything is fake.

At that moment, Mu Yan really wanted to say that to Tony Bai.

Just because she and Yann are married?Seriously speaking, they are nothing at all?At best, it's just two more "familiar" work partners, a parallel line that can only part ways after the end of the working relationship?

"I told you, take care of yourself and don't meddle in other people's business." Daniel interrupted him softly.

Tony Benu pursed his mouth, he didn't mean to accept it as soon as he was excited to ask, he whispered to Mu Yan endlessly. "...Well, if you dare not marry Yann, I can understand it."

"Ah?" Mu Yan was stunned.

"I've known Yann for a long time. Her ex-husband is deeply rooted in her heart. Before dating you, she didn't know how many blind dates she rejected?" Facing Mu Yan's surprise, Tony Bai calmed down explained leisurely. "Also, she has a bad temper and gets angry easily without saying a few words. Although she is a bit naughty and cute, but she will still make people worry that life will be difficult if she really gets married?"

"These... Actually, I don't really care about it." Mu Yan was embarrassed, and for a while, she didn't understand why Tony Bai chose to tell her these things at this moment?Unsure of her mind, she answered without thinking much.

Seeing her like this, Tony Bai smiled, rubbed his hands together and breathed a sigh of relief. "I also think you don't care. To be honest, when it comes to feelings, everyone has their own rules. After all, feelings are what they talk about? There is nothing that must be done, or must be done."

"For example, my boyfriend is very self-centered. He has to follow his rules in everything. He makes life like a monastic practice. Three steps, one precept, and five steps are the same. There is no change in the seriousness and rigidity. ...I still love him to death. In the final analysis, things like my own will can’t deceive anyone? Why not face it honestly, and it’s much easier to take one step at a time. It’s better than lying to yourself?” He said Pulling Daniel's hand, Daniel stared at him dissatisfied, and wanted to make trouble, but seeing Tony Bai talking excitedly, he sighed, and finally gave up.

"It's a small thing to lie to yourself, but it's a big thing to regret in the future... I heard from Yann that you confessed to him? Anyway, I think you are very brave. Not only did you bravely face your feelings for Yann, Ruoxin said that you also treated Zuo Zuo and You Yu is fine? Isn't this easy at all?" Concluding, Tony Bai patted Mu Yan's shoulder approvingly.

"That's it...thank you." Mu Yan replied weakly, facing Tony Bai's praise, she only felt frustrated.

Because in Tony Bai's mouth, she seems to be a character with a pre-set script, and she is the actor in charge of acting. After all, after the show, everything is fake?

But all of this is her own problem?

It was because she left Ge Zhongmai as if evading at the beginning that Ge Zhongmai had the opportunity to hurt her, and because she didn't have the courage to tell Yann her feelings for her, and the result that the relationship might be destroyed, let Ge Zhongmao have the opportunity to hurt her. What happened last night?As a result, she doesn't know how to face her relationship with Yann now?

She wasn't brave at all, instead, she was just a coward hiding in a safe haven?

Thinking about it, Mu Yan pursed her lips.

Just because of cowardice, Ji Muyu laughed at her dozens of times since she was a child, but Mu Yan didn't take it to heart as if she had never heard of it.

She always explained to herself before that it was because Ji Muyu's personality was too straightforward, too impulsive, and too assertive, so she felt that her devious approach was unnecessary.

But now, even she herself has to admit her cowardice?

──She is really a cowardly person, and for the first time, Mu Yan looked down on such a cowardly self from the bottom of her heart.

"What are you thinking? We are going to enter the arena later? Why do you still look so absent-minded?"

Hearing this voice, Mu Yan lowered her eyebrows, only to realize that Yann, who had approached her at some point, had already taken her hand as if nothing had happened.

"I..." Mu Yan frowned, seeing Yaen's appearance clearly at the moment, but she couldn't take her eyes off Yaen for a moment.