say i love you again

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"Hmm-"

Before she recovered, Ji Muyan instinctively responded to Yann's kiss, let Yann's soft lips touch hers, let the distance between the two of them get closer, and waited for her to return. Amazingly, she had unconsciously held Yan in her arms.

She opened her eyes and met Yann's hazy eyes. Yann's eyes were like a clear lake in summer. It seemed calm, but when she looked in, the clarity of the lake made her look deeper and deeper. , trapped and unable to extricate themselves.

──Or, in fact, she didn't want to leave either?

She didn't drink much wine but felt that her head was swollen enough, and the boiling lust was like a wave, rising up in waves, washing away Ji Muyan's last rationality, so her chaotic thoughts became more and more blank, and her body became hotter.

Yann's little hand was buried in her hair at some point, and when his lips left, Yann panted lightly.

"You dare not kiss me, but I dare."

In a vague consciousness, Ji Muyan heard her say, and also saw the stubbornness in her eyes that seemed to refuse to admit defeat. "Anyway, the relationship between me and you is just a working relationship, I know very well, so this kiss is just a part of the job content."

As she spoke, her face was blushing from the smell of alcohol.

"Yan..." Ji Muyan murmured, she lightly held Yan's face in her hands, looking at her, she couldn't help feeling a bit of reluctance in her heart.

That kind of kiss, that kind of Yann, undoubtedly made her reluctant to part with it. Now, seeing the lead singer approaching with a smile on the stage, Ji Muyan pulled Yann into her arms without thinking too much.

But unlike before, Ji Muyan, who was holding Yann, was clearly aware of her feelings.

──She couldn't bear to let go of her at all.

"What are you doing?" Yann protested dissatisfied when she was suddenly hugged into her arms.

"I know it's work, it's just a little short, let's just play it to the end?" Regardless of Yann's dissatisfaction, she comforted Yann softly.

"Oh..." Yann, who was stuffy in her arms, responded, and in that silence, Ji Muyan could clearly hear her own heartbeat, as if she heard Yann's too.

She stretched out her hand unconsciously, combing Yan's messy hair.

"It's itchy..." Yan, who was stuffed in her arms, protested again.

Hearing her words, Ji Muyan's heart felt warm for a while, she laughed, but she didn't give up and buried her hands in Yan's hair, she let her greed go, and was attached to the intimacy between the two of them at this moment.

It's just that the more this is the case, the more clearly aware of her mood at the moment, Ji Muyan pursed her lips tightly.

It's not that she hasn't been in love before, it's just that she has been with Ge Zhongmai for too long, and her love has been worn out by too many injuries, and the feeling of throbbing has long been worn away.

But even if this feeling is forgotten, when it reappears, it is still so real and clear, and there is no need to review it at all?

So so many considerations, so many ignorance, at the moment of seeing clearly, it is so obvious and unquestionable.

──She likes Yann, right?Before she knew it, she had already fallen in love with this straightforward and lovely woman.

Even though, this woman already has a man she loves deeply in her heart; besides her, there is already a woman who loves her deeply.

She has a nostalgia she can't let go of, and she has responsibilities that she must bear.

So everything can only be kept in my heart, hoping that one day this feeling will disappear, and the relationship between the two can be the same as before?

She should... can do it?Unconsciously, Ji Muyan frowned, and gently let go of Yan's body.

"So, we're reconciled?" Ji Muyan looked at Yan, and didn't forget to say the lines that should be in the script at the moment, but this line, before and after the stage, has a completely different mood.

"Well, we're reconciled again." Yann glanced at her, and there was an inexplicable melancholy in her beautiful eyes. Ji Muyan saw it and wanted to ask, but hesitated.

At the moment of realizing my feelings, how come those natural interactions suddenly become so difficult?Ji Muyan couldn't help thinking that she didn't understand the sentence she swallowed.

When the two of them were finally able to step off the stage amidst the lead singer's jokes to relieve the situation, when Ji Muyan led Yaen down the steps, she saw someone on the sidelines that she never thought she would see here.

She had only seen that person once, just once, but the impression of her was already so clear that it was hard to be unfamiliar.

Even though that person had never met her face to face, when their eyes met, her eyes never reflected the surprise of recognizing Ji Muyan.

It's just that when Ji Muyan looked at her, she thought of her responsibility and Shao Jingxuan.

──That person is Fu Weiran.

Standing there, she gave Mu Yan a slight smile because she looked at Mu Yan last time. Although it was a slight smile, speaking more seriously, it was just a softened smile on the corner of her frivolous mouth.

That kind of smile doesn't make people feel warm, but it just seems to add a touch of indifference to this noisy bar.

"Long time no see, Ayu." Ignoring Ji Muyan's surprise, she said to Ji Muyan with a smile. "However, if you are really Ayu, then it's really been a long time."

Among the noisy crowd in the bar, Ji Muyan vaguely heard Fu Weiran say, but she was pushed away by the crowd before she could hear clearly.

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"Oh, you said you met Fu Weiran...it's reasonable, because she was the drummer of the band before, and it's normal to come to the performance, so why didn't you run back immediately with your tail between your legs?" Listening to Ji Muyan's words Talking nonsense, Jim Muyu sat up from the sofa, he scratched his sleepy hair, and stroked the beard stubble on his chin that he was too decadent to shave off.

Ji Muyan was startled, she kicked away the empty McDonald's boxes thrown by Ji Muyu at her feet. "Escape back, huh? Why do I have to escape?"

"It's you, you really aren't worried about being misunderstood that Yann is your girlfriend?" Realizing that he had said such a long paragraph, Ji Muyu only focused on Fu Weiran, and Ji Muyan teased him.

"It doesn't matter, it's fine for them to misunderstand, otherwise they would like to joke that I actually love men. I don't know that no matter whether it is a man or a woman, I just can't love anyone. I am very wronged." With a light tut, the old god Ji Muyu was in Zai glanced at her and lay down again, and the sofa that had been so weak by him let out a weak moan.

"That's okay, that's okay, at worst, I'll be asked seriously and say we've broken up." As he spoke, he lazily scratched the itch between his necks. "Compared to worrying about me when you have time, you should worry about yourself. Kissing other girls ended up being seen by the ex-girlfriend of the date."

Speaking of this, Ji Muyu added with a wagging finger. "To be more precise, it's your ex-girlfriend who's still in love?"

Listening to Ji Muyu's question, Ji Muyan suddenly had the urge to tell Ji Muyu the truth.

──Should she tell Ji Muyu that she actually likes Yaen, not Jingxuan?

But what can Ji Muyu help her?Speaking more seriously, how could she have the heart to tell Jing Xuan that she didn't love her when Jing Xuan was so sad?

When she agreed to Jing Xuan, she should have been mentally prepared to be with Jing Xuan, not to mention, Yan Yan already had Li Hengyi in her heart, and to Yan Yan, Li Hengyi was the only one in her heart?

Then she should be with Jing Xuan properly?What's more, feelings can be cultivated, can't they?

Repressing the idea of ​​telling Ji Muyu, Ji Muyan couldn't help persuading herself.

Thinking about it, she couldn't ask Ji Muyu after all. Ji Muyan was determined to face her responsibilities seriously. "Tell me clearly what it means to have an old relationship, and when she was in the bar, she seemed to realize that I'm not you..."

"Fortunately, you're not stupid, you finally know that this matter is serious." Ji Muyu said with a smile.

Seeing Ji Muyan's serious expression, he sighed just thinking that Fu Weiran seemed to bring back a lot of memories for Ji Muyu. "She is a very thoughtful person and very smart, so you may be able to tell that you are not me. You are different from the stupid geese in our band. After all, our personalities are very different, so it is not so difficult to recognize."

"But since she hasn't met you, I'm afraid she doesn't know that you are Jing Xuan's current girlfriend? Then when you meet her, just think of something to explain." Ji Muyu raised his eyebrows. "You should be fine with that, right?"

"Hmm." Listening to him, Ji Muyan nodded cautiously, but she was a little nervous. "I'll figure it out then."

"Hmm." Ji Muyu responded, scratching his face, judging the current situation, but sighed again after thinking about it. "It's just that she came back and made me worry about Jing Xuan... You know that she and Jing Xuan have separated and reunited many times, each time Jing Xuan cried and begged her to come back... only this time, but I can see that she I still miss her a while ago..."

"I feel sorry for Jingxuan and want to protect her, but Jingxuan is not interested in me, you know that too." As he spoke, Ji Muyu added a sentence as if remembering something, but when he said this, he didn't It's rare to be serious.

"To be honest, it's a good thing that Jingxuan is dating you now. I know you too well. You have no special advantages in your whole body except for your devotion to emotion. But compared to others, Jingxuan is with you. , I feel much more at ease..." He said so seriously.

Just listening to him, Ji Muyan looked at him, but involuntarily avoided her eyes. She was surprised because this was the first time she couldn't look directly into Ji Muyu's eyes since she was a child.

"What's wrong with you..." Seeing her like this, Ji Muyu was confused.

"It's okay, I suddenly realized that it's very late, I should go to bed." Ji Muyan said, she stood up, and walked into the bathroom with a blank face.

Looking at her back, Ji Muyu frowned, and once again realized that Ji Muyan didn't have any aura of love in her body.

──Does she like Jing Xuan?Ji Muyu pinched his chin, and a big question mark appeared in his mind unconsciously.