hope for redemption

The whole house is not big, even if the door is closed, Lin Wang’s mother’s desperate and fierce screams can still be heard clearly. Wearing it on Lin Wang's head and playing soothing music, trying to make him unable to hear the screams outside.

There was no expression on Lin Wang's face, he hugged himself back without saying anything, and then fell down on the bed together.Lin Wang hugged him with great strength, as if trying to embed himself into his body, which made Jiang Xi a little out of breath.

But Jiang Xi didn't say anything and he still let him strangle him like this, because he knew that it was best for him not to ask or say anything at this time, just to accompany him quietly, just like he was at the beginning. It's the same as being with yourself.

I don't know how long it took before Lin Wang's strength gradually relaxed, and he hugged him vaguely: "Does it hurt you?"

"No." Jiang Xi shook his head, put his hands around his neck, and planted comforting kisses on his chin.

Lin Wang tilted his head to avoid Jiang Xi's kiss, and there was a little smile in his hoarse voice: "You make me very itchy."

After speaking, he took off the earphones, held the back of Jiang Xi's head and kissed him, gently grinding his lips to pry open his teeth.

"Do it?" Jiang Xi couldn't breathe from being kissed.

"Don't do it" Lin Wang pecked him on the mouth, turned him back to himself, and then hugged him into his arms, "Don't do this, I don't need to use this method to improve my mood. "

Jiang Xi hummed sullenly, then obediently nestled in Lin Wang's arms and remained still.

"I look like my dad. Every time my mom sees me, she often thinks of my dad through me. She has some mental problems. It's easy to be like this if I don't see me for a while. I just hang out in front of her more. It's gone." Lin Wang's tone of voice was very calm when he narrated the incident, which made Jiang Xi feel distressed.

"How long has Auntie been like this? Have you seen a doctor?" Jiang Xi asked.

He didn't ask Lin Wang about his father, because from what Lin Wang said and what he said before that he had quit the Lin family, it can be guessed that their father and son had a very unpleasant experience, and this experience was similar to that of Lin Wang's mother. related to mental illness.

If Lin Wang wanted to say something, he would have told him directly, instead of mentioning it in passing.

He didn't want to say that he had his reasons, and Jiang Xi wouldn't ask, the two of them already had such a tacit understanding.

"It's been more than four years," Lin Wang rubbed Jiang Xi's knuckles, "I saw a doctor and said it's best to rest, so I found a nursing home and hired a nurse to accompany her. Go see her for a while."

"Well, brother, you..."

Before Jiang Xi finished speaking, he was interrupted by a knock on the door, and Lao Zhang's voice came from outside the door: "Look?"

"Hey" Lin Wang replied, and Jiang Xi hurriedly got up from the bed, adjusted his clothes and opened the door.

After opening the door, Lao Zhang didn't come in, but stood by the door and looked at them for a while, and after confirming that there was nothing unusual, he asked, "Jiang Xi and you sleep in your room?"

"Ah... yes, there is no spare room," Lin Wang replied.

There are three rooms in this old house, one for Lao Zhang to sleep with Mr. Cheng, one for Lin Wang to sleep with his mother, Jiang Xi and Lin Wang to sleep is the best arrangement, we can't let people sleep on the sofa.

"Well, that's fine, let's go out for dinner." Old Zhang nodded.

"Eat? Did you prepare the meal so quickly?" Lin Wang asked in surprise.

"Uh...Old Cheng ordered food from Yipinju..." Lao Zhang replied with a guilty conscience.

Lin Wang twitched his lips helplessly: "This is only the first day back, Lao Zhang."

The implication is that you gave me takeaway on the first day after I came back, so wouldn't you want to go to heaven for the rest of the days.

The meaning of complaining and disgust is beyond words.

Lao Zhang clicked his tongue impatiently, turned around and rolled his eyes: "Jiang Xi hasn't said anything yet, what are you talking about here." Then he said to Jiang Xi with a smile on his face: " Jiang Xi, coming here is like your own home, don't be restrained."

Jiang Xi glanced at Lin Wang's expression, and replied with a suppressed smile, "Okay, Teacher Zhang."

"Hey, don't shout like that at home, just follow Lin Wang and call Lao Zhang."

Jiang Xi nodded and followed Lao Zhang to the kitchen.

The old house was an open kitchen, and the dining table was placed directly in the kitchen. When they arrived, Lin Wang's mother was not on the dining table. Only Mr. Cheng was setting the dishes. Jiang Xi counted four sets of dishes.

"Auntie...won't you come to eat?" Jiang Xi asked tentatively.

Hearing his question, everyone in the kitchen paused visibly, and then continued to do what they were doing with normal expressions.

Jiang Xi could see that there was a turbulent undercurrent hidden in this calm, and it only needed a single opportunity to trigger it.

"She's resting, and I'll cook something light for her when she wakes up," Teacher Cheng explained, and then changed his tone a little more briskly, "Let's all come and eat."

Hearing what he said, Jiang Xi didn't ask any further questions, and sat down with Lin Wang to eat quietly.

At the dinner table, Lin Wang and Lao Zhang were basically talking. Teacher Cheng didn't talk too much, so he would interject a few words, while Jiang Xi silently listened to what Lao Zhang asked and answered, very harmonious.

"You can bring a few catties of pork to the godmother later." Lao Zhang said to Lin Wang.

Lin Wang picked up some green vegetables with chopsticks for Jiang Xi and asked, "Why don't you go by yourself?"

Jiang Xi looked at the green vegetables and gave him a hard look. This man clearly knew that he didn't like green vegetables, but he picked them for himself!

"Oh, she has too much mouth in that place, it's annoying to listen to." Lao Zhang wrinkled his eyebrows and said, "When your mother comes back today, when I go, there will be a bunch of people dragging me to ask questions, how pitiful it sounds. We actually don't know how to read the jokes behind the scenes, and we really don't want to deal with it after so many years."

Lin Wang thought about it and agreed.

Hearing what Lao Zhang said, Jiang Xi probably understood what was going on. Lin Wang’s mother was mentally ill, and his uncle was gay. Such things were simply absurd in such a small village. It interested the gossip and gossip middle-aged aunts in the village.Judging from today's posture, it is estimated that it is like this every year. It is not bad that Lao Zhang's impatient temper can cope with it for so many years.

Jiang Xi felt that if he had no patience for this, he probably wouldn't want to deal with it after a year or two, just like Lao Zhang today who directly chased people away and scolded them whatever they said.

After eating, Jiang Xi followed Lin Wang to the old kitchen to pick up the pork.

After the old house was renovated, the original old kitchen was still preserved. Half of the floor where sundries are piled up and the other half is a large pot with a stove, and there are several piles of firewood around it.

Jiang Xi only saw this kind of cauldron with a stove mouth when he was in elementary school at his grandfather's house, but it was later destroyed due to renovations, and now he sees it with an inexplicable sense of intimacy.

"Haven't you seen it?" Lin Wang asked while tying up the pork.

"I've seen it before, I'm just surprised, there aren't many such stoves now." Jiang Xi replied.

"No outside, every household in this village has them." Lin Wang smiled, "Every year before the New Year, we have to make New Year's goods, and we can't do without this big pot."

"Do New Year's goods?"

"Yes, make your own candy churn, sweet potato fries, etc."

"Stir candy?" Jiang Xi's eyes immediately lit up when he heard this, "Is that the kind of malt candy that you can eat with chopsticks?"

"Well, yes, why do you want to eat?" Lin Wang tied the rope and lifted the pork.

Jiang Xi immediately ran over and took a bundle of pork from him, and said excitedly: "Yes, I really want to eat this. This was my favorite when I was young."

When she was a child, Jiang Xi lived at her grandfather’s house for a while. At that time, Jiang Xi’s happiest time every day was when her grandfather came back from work in the evening, and took out a large jar of caramel-colored whipped sugar for herself from the tall wooden cabinet, and then Smilingly, he handed himself a chopstick to twist once.

Every time Jiang Xi used his strength to feed her milk, she wished she could wring out a whole can of candy and put it in her mouth to eat, but at that time she was too weak and didn’t have much strength, so she finally wrung out a stick sugar sized sugar.

But he will never forget the feeling of the dense maltose melting on the tip of the tongue, and the sweet aroma slides down the tip of the tongue and into the throat, making all the internal organs sweet.

"That's fine, then ask mother-in-law to do more tomorrow." Lin Wang rubbed Jiang Xi's head, and led Jiang Xi to her mother-in-law's house.

"Will mother-in-law still do this?" Jiang Xi asked in surprise.

In his impression, there are not many people who can do this. Even if they can do it, they don’t want to do it because they find it troublesome. This is the case with my grandmother. Make one pot.

"I can do it. There are many things she can do. You will know tomorrow." Lin Wang said, "From tomorrow onwards, we can no longer sleep on the bed, we have to get up early to help our mother-in-law."

"Stop? What are you going to do?"

"Hmm.. chopping pork, grinding chili and so on.. too much to talk about in a while. Preparing new year's goods is still a troublesome thing."

Also, Chinese New Year is the busiest time of year, but this busyness is what everyone wants.

My mother-in-law's house is just opposite the old house, across a small lake.

The overall environment of this village is pretty good. There are stretches of terraced fields, and trees and flowers are planted in front of every house. It’s just because it’s winter and it’s hard to see anything, but Jiang Xi feels that if he is in spring or autumn If you come, the scenery must be very beautiful.

When they arrived, Uncle Yun was sweeping the melon seeds and peanut shells all over the ground with a big bamboo broom. The yard was full of chairs, and it looked like everyone had just dispersed.

"Coming?" Uncle Yun asked with a cigarette in his mouth, and raised his eyebrows in astonishment when he saw Jiang Xi following behind, "Why is Jiang Xi here?"

"His parents aren't here, so I'll take him to celebrate the New Year with him," Lin Wang explained, and then he called in, "Grandma, I brought you some pork."

"Hey, here you come!" The voice of the mother-in-law came from inside, and after a while, the mother-in-law came out wiping her hands with an apron, "Xixi, you are here."

"Yes, mother-in-law," Jiang Xi replied with a smile.

"When you come, treat this as your own home, you know?" said the mother-in-law, "Take everything to the kitchen, I just prepared all the seasonings."

The two of them nodded and followed their mother-in-law into the kitchen.

There are several large pots in the kitchen, several of which are filled with bacon, cured fish, etc. that have been smoked to a yellowish black.The remaining pots were filled with prepared marinade, surrounded by garlic skins, ginger skins and the like, and it was obvious that they were preparing to marinate.

Jiang Xi followed Lin Wang to remove the rope from the pork, and threw them into the basin piece by piece, while the mother-in-law spread the marinade on the pork thrown into the basin, so that every part of the pork was fully covered.

"Have you eaten?" asked the mother-in-law.

"Eat," Lin Wang replied, and then he poked the pork in the pot and said, "This year, it's a little bit saltier. I have a strong taste recently."

The mother-in-law glanced at him and replied, "Okay, go to the shelf and get me a few bottles of soy sauce."

Jiang Xi was standing next to the shelf, quickly handed a few bottles to Lin Wang, grabbed his hand and whispered, "What are you doing, you..."

"Hush" Lin Wang patted his hand and took the soy sauce away.

Any strong taste is a lie. I have been with Lin Wang for so long, so I know that his taste has not changed.He said this for himself, Jiang Xi likes to eat salty food.

But this is made for everyone to eat together. It is impossible to let the mother-in-law cook salty because of my own taste. Although Jiang Xi feels it in his heart, he still feels that it is not good to do so, but he can't say it directly, so he has to stand aside. Quietly tugging at the corner of Lin Wang's clothes.

"It doesn't need to be too salty, just a little taste." Lin Wang knew Jiang Xi's anxiety, and quietly held his hand.

The mother-in-law nodded, and poured the amount of soy sauce more lightly, and did not pour it in a bottle so boldly.

"Do you want to make candy this year?" Lin Wang asked.

"Let's do it," said the mother-in-law while wiping the seasoning, "I just ordered a few buckets of sugarcane water from Li Gong a few days ago."

"Well... that's okay," Lin Wang thought for a while, reassured that he might be able to do a lot, and asked again, "Is there anything else I can do for you?"

"No, you guys go back, just get up early tomorrow." The mother-in-law waved her hand.

"Okay, let's go then." Lin Wang smiled and let go of Jiang Xi's hand.

"Grandma, then I'm leaving." Jiang Xi also said.

"Go and rest early."

At this time, Uncle Yun had just finished tidying up the yard, and came in with a bamboo broom and asked, "Going away?"

"Yes." Lin Wang nodded, "Drink less and get up early tomorrow."

Hearing what Lin Wang said, Uncle Yun drove away with a smile: "Let's go!"

Lin Wang sideways blocked Uncle Yun's attack, pulled Jiang Xi and ran out the door, Jiang Xi smiled and dragged Lin Wang back and said, "Uncle Yun, let's go."

"it is good"

When they came out of the mother-in-law's house, it was already dark, and the street lamps on the side of the road were already on, and the dim light was sprinkled on the lake in pieces, like pieces of gold falling all over the lake, which is really beautiful.

There are no recreational activities in the village. Everyone eats and washes up early, and then sits by the grill while chatting and watching TV. No one comes out.

So the two of them had nothing to hide, they just walked on the road holding hands so openly.

At this moment, everything is silent, only the occasional 'dong dong' sound of slight water waves crashing into the embankment can be heard. Fingers clasped together.

The distance is not very far, and it will be there in a few minutes. When he walked to the door, Jiang Xi was still a little reluctant to leave, and wanted to go back and walk again.

Lin Wang sensed his thoughts, patted his head comfortingly, pecked his lips and coaxed him softly: "From now on, I will leave every day."

"Um"

Jiang Xi was about to open the door, but saw Lao Zhang and Teacher Cheng kissing at the cooking table through the crack of the door, and immediately retracted the hand that had just touched the door.

"How.."

As soon as Lin Wang asked, Jiang Xi covered his mouth and dragged him away until he reached the small bamboo forest next to the old house.

"What's wrong?" Lin Wang asked suspiciously.

Thinking of the scene just now, Jiang Xi blushed inexplicably. Although he knew that Teacher Cheng was on the top one, and he and Lin Wang had done so many times, but when he saw Lao Zhang being pressed by Teacher Cheng on the side of the cooking table, he kissed him. He just blushes when he's talking, a mixture of excitement and embarrassment.

"Uh...that...Old Zhang and the others are...kissing inside...uh, you know that's the one." Jiang Xi stammered.

"Kiss?" Lin Wang frowned first, then caught a glimpse of Jiang Xi's red ears, and asked with a smirk, "Why are you shy?"

"I didn't!" Jiang Xi turned his head and growled guiltily.

Lin Wang smiled and pinched Jiang Xi's chin, turned his head, leaned closer and asked, "The tips of your ears are red, huh? Tell me why are you shy? You've made me so frustrated, kid Jiang Xixi."

"I..." Jiang Xi didn't understand why he was shy, and shouted angrily with lowered eyes, "I don't know, I...I just feel embarrassed."

Lin Wang smiled lowly. It should be that Lao Zhang and Mr. Cheng have too deep an image of elders. Jiang Xi must be embarrassed to see this scene all at once.

But like myself, I’m used to seeing the big ones since I was a child, so I don’t think it’s a big deal. After a while, Lin Wang recalled the first time he saw this kind of scene. It is estimated that Jiang Xi is now the same as himself at that time. The same, I understand it.

"You'll get used to it after watching it a few times. The two of them are just like that, so they have nothing to worry about." Lin Wang said.

Okay, now the image of Lao Zhang and the others in Jiang Xi's heart has completely collapsed.

"Well," Jiang Xi replied with lowered eyes, but his heart was still a little confused. He didn't know how to face Lao Zhang and the others, and now when he thought of Lao Zhang, the scene just now would flash in his mind.

Seeing Jiang Xi like this, Lin Wang let out a 'tsk' in displeasure, cupped his face and kissed him.

Jiang Xi was stunned for a moment, and then immediately came to his senses, his hands naturally clung to his neck to respond to the kiss, their lips and teeth intersected, and their cheeks rubbed against each other from time to time, feeling the warmth of each other.

While they were kissing, little snowflakes fell on their heads and shoulders, and gradually melted as their bodies swayed.

The coming winter will no longer be cold.

The author has something to say:

Recently, in order to sign a contract, I have published a lot of articles that bow to the market, and the original intention of writing articles has also changed.I also don't want to write more and more. Mr. S discovered this problem and chatted with me for a long time.I also know that my original intention has changed. I don’t want to do this, so I don’t want to care about it anymore. I don’t want to write articles that cater to the market. Danmei, I want to take every child and every story in my writing seriously, so let’s do it like this, it doesn’t matter if you sign or not, I can squeeze out more than 4000 words a day.

After calming my mind, the joyful feeling of writing came back. I think it’s good, except that no one reads it, but I’m still very grateful to the little angel who has been reading the article. I will work hard to update it. One book, write my story carefully, and will not stop updating because this is what I like to do, thank you for your support.

I recently got someone back to do the cover and I want my first baby to look good.