The days when I lived with my 18-year-old schoolboy father

The prescription provided by Yan Qingcheng to Suzhou Bei could solve the problem of Suzhou Bei Ying's early death without accident. In previous lives, Suzhou Bei could only live until the year of Yan Yao's birth.

Suzhou Bei only knew in which year he would die, but not why.

In the history textbooks, Yan Yao can only know that Suzhou Bei was the professor of biology who cultivated a new type of ephedra herb and solved the mutant influenza virus in modern history. As for when Suzhou Bei died, the book did not mention it.

Therefore, only Yan Qingcheng, who recovered his memory, knew about Suzhou Bei's death.

Some time ago, Yan Yao insisted that the pillow in Suzhou North belonged to him, and this was also based on this.In the original fate, Suzhou Bei died of a family hereditary disease, and Yan Yao had just been born in the year of his death.As Yan Qingcheng's colleague, he gave Yan Yao a lot of small gifts, but the medicine pillow was mistakenly put into a gift box by a new housekeeping robot. It was actually not a gift, but a personal item of Suzhou North.

The medicine pillow was sent out due to an accident, so it was impossible for Suzhou Bei to go and get it back. Besides, he was already dying at that time, so he didn't have the energy to take care of such a small accident.Therefore, the medicine pillow has become Yan Yao's toy, accompanying the child until he grows up.

This time, because of Yan Qingcheng's intervention, Professor Su's fate was reversed, and Yan Yao also got a new medicinal pillow, which completely ended the tragedy.

Yan Yao likes the new medicine pillow sent by Suzhou North.

The size of the medicated pillow is just right, and the child refuses to let go when held in his arms, and walks around the room with the pillow all night.

Yan Qingcheng went to collect and fold the clothes, and he staggered behind.

When Yan Qingcheng went to the laboratory for an experiment, he hugged his father's leg with one hand and the pillow with the other, and was dragged around by his father. Get up and stand up again.

In the end, Yan Qingcheng went to put the bath water, and his son was still sniffing around like a small animal with the medicine pillow in his arms, his little face was almost buried in the pillow.

Only then did the father realize that something was wrong, he threw the towel into the bathtub, squatted down in front of his son, and took the medicine pillow away.

The child became anxious immediately, and stretched out his little hand to grab it, and shouted: "I want a pillow..."

Yan Qingcheng stood up and put the pillow on the clothes rack, squatted down again, looked at his son, and asked, "What is the medicine smelling? Smell the medicine?"

The child was dumbfounded when he heard the words, nodded his head slowly, and said, "It smells good. Yao Yao likes it!"

"But it's not Professor Su's own medicinal pillow. Didn't Professor Su have to make the medicine before?" Yan Qingcheng asked in deliberation.

This stopped Yan Yao from asking, the child thought about it a little confusedly, and asked in a low voice, "Isn't it the professor's pillow?"

"No."

After getting the answer, Yan Yao turned her head suspiciously to look at the pillow, and said, "It smells the same, you can feel it in the circle."

As he spoke, as if he was afraid that his father would not believe it, he stuffed his chubby little hand into Yan Qingcheng's again, and said, "Dad, hear it yourself."

A small hand was stuffed into the big palm, Yan Qingcheng turned his son's hand over as he said, and rubbed the palm gently.

Yan Yao was so itchy that she squinted her eyes and smiled foolishly, but she didn't forget to say: "Circle the duck."

As soon as the words fell, a small rotating black hole slowly appeared in the child's hand.

Yan Qingcheng's pupils constricted, he clenched his son's hand, touched it carefully, and then felt a very familiar suction attached to his fingertips.

"Is this the black hole that brought medicine back?" He asked in a low voice.

"That's right. Quanquan likes Yaoyao, and he also likes Dad." Yan Yao moved her finger, and the black hole flickered slowly.

Yan Qingcheng stared downcast for a long time before he said, "Professor Su also has one? So Yaoyao will be attracted by Professor Su."

He used an almost certain tone.

Yan Yao didn't hide it, and nodded honestly. After all, a three-year-old child doesn't know how to lie, and he will say whatever an adult asks.

Yan Qingcheng pulled his son into his arms and hugged him, thinking for a long time in silence.

He thought of the ubiquitous protection occasionally revealed in words and deeds when Suzhou North faced his son, and the faint distressed and guilty eyes when the other party looked at his son, and of course, in most cases, When Suzhou Bei looked at others...that extremely cold and compassionate gaze.

That kind of aloof gaze is really not what humans should have.Just like a person, facing the same kind, and facing an animal, the attitude and eyes shown are completely different.

As far as black holes are concerned, earthlings are indeed aliens.And the opponent is a species that is powerful enough to resist time and is close to a god. When looking at ordinary people, it will naturally have the compassion of the strong facing the weak.

This kind of compassion does not mean pity, pity, or contempt, but the pity expressed in the face of human beings' too short life and insignificant vitality.

Of course, what Yan Qingcheng cares about is not this, but Suzhou North as the carrier of the black hole in the world. Why does he feel guilty about his son?

Yan Yao was hugged for a long time, but she didn't hear a word from her father, so she stretched out her small hand and patted his father's face to wake him up, saying: "Father doesn't take medicine."

Only then did Yan Qingcheng regain his senses, held his son's hand, and asked, "Yaoyao knows that Professor Su is a black hole, so why should he compensate you and save you, do you know?"

"The professor did something bad." The child whispered, "Didn't Daddy remember?"

Yan Qingcheng's eyes darkened when he heard the words, and just as he was about to speak, his son suddenly closed his eyes slowly, and fell limp in his arms.

Before he could carry his son out of the bathroom, the child suddenly woke up rubbing his eyes again.

"Yaoyao, take a look at Dad. Is there any discomfort?" Yan Qingcheng hurriedly picked up his son, strode out, and turned into the laboratory beside him.

Yan Yao yawned tiredly, as if she didn't hear what his father said.

After Yan Qingcheng hugged him and sat on the hospital bed, and fed him a small bottle of medicine, the child coughed twice with a bitter face, regained consciousness, and opened his eyes to look at his father.

As soon as he opened his eyes, Yan Qingcheng instantly noticed the difference in his son.

Yan Yao herself was obviously a little confused, she stared blankly at the man for a while, and then called softly: "Dad."

At this moment, Yan Yao still looks like she is three years old, but her eyes are obviously completely different, she looks a little naive, but it is more wood, a kind of dull wood, and the long-lost quietness and harmony. Clever.

Yan Qingcheng was too familiar with this look, it was the most common look of his son with autism when he grew up.

Yan Qingcheng's hand holding his son trembled suddenly, and he responded in a low voice, his Adam's apple trembled for a while, then leaned over to hold his son tightly, and said in a hoarse voice: "Good boy, Dad is here."

Yan Yao didn't move, and obediently hugged his father back, and slowly jumped out word by word: "Daddy hasn't hugged me like this for a long time. I'm very happy. I miss dad very much."

Yan Qingcheng's voice was suddenly so hoarse that he couldn't speak, he subconsciously tightened his arms and patted his son's back.

In his life... the ones he has faced the most are his younger sons, who are 12 years old, 8 years old and 3 years old, but he has never faced the 16-year-old Yan Yao who watched him die with his own eyes in the previous life. .

I thought they were all the same, but now that I really saw such a son, I suddenly realized that the feeling of bleeding from my heart never left.

The son who has become smaller can make up for it, and he will be pampered for a long time. Without memory, the son will not feel the sadness and grievances he once had.

But for such a 16-year-old Yan Yao who has endured all kinds of hardships and remembered everything, as a father, Yan Qingcheng is still at a loss what to do.

"Father misses you very much too. It's Dad who is sorry for Yaoyao." Yan Qingcheng was silent for a long time, his arms around his son were a little stiff, then he touched the child's back, let go of his arms, and looked down at his son.

He put his palm on his son's head as before, and stroked his son's white and tender forehead with his thumb, with a sense of warmth and comfort.

Yan Yao tilted her head, quietly looked at her younger father, and said slowly: "Dad has reconciled with me for a long time. Don't think that I am different from 3-year-old Yan Yao. I am indeed At the age of 3, I just released my memory. I remember the things in my previous life, and I also remember the things my father did in this life. So don’t blame my father, my father has worked hard to change.”

"But I'm your father. No matter how old Yao Yao is, it's you that my father always loves. It's not that you can pretend it never happened if you make up for it." Yan Qingcheng embraced his son and kissed his forehead reassuringly.

The kid who was originally dumbfounded was kissed like this, as if he was suddenly infused with life and vitality. He hurriedly covered the position where he was kissed, opened his eyes and said, "Dad, you kissed me again! Although I am 3 years old, but I'm actually 16, I'm an older child, my father can't just kiss me casually."

"?" Yan Qingcheng was almost laughed angrily. His original heavy emotions were swept away by this silly son, and he said helplessly, "Father treats you like a child and spoils his son. What's wrong with kissing him? Let's talk about the last life Dad just kissed you before he left, and other times he thought that you should be independent when you are a teenager, and you rarely even hold hands, don't you?"

Other fathers and sons even kiss on the mouth. What taboos can a three-year-old child have?Yan Qingcheng is already a very serious old father in this respect, he never expected his son to mature so precociously, obviously his son looks stupid (evaluation from Qi Yue's old father).

"..." Asked by his father, Yan Yao clutched her forehead and thought about it blankly, only to realize later that...it seems that this is really the case.

In his previous life, his father liked iron and blood education, and he was particularly authoritarian. He advocated that boys should be self-reliant and self-reliant. Since he was ten years old, let alone kissing his forehead, he was reluctant to even lead him when he went out. He secretly scolded him at that time For several years, I even wondered if his father had other children, so he refused to hug him.

Now that the old matter was brought up again, the child also felt that he was being unreasonable, so he put down his hands, pinched his soft fingers and looked at his father expectantly, and whispered: "Yaoyao forgot about the past. I like my father."

Yan Qingcheng couldn't help smiling a little, rubbed his son's head, and said in a low voice: "Isn't that stupid, doesn't daddy love you? You are my only son. In the previous life, it was my dad who had a problem with his education, not you. It's your fault. In this life, Dad just wants to give you the best. When you grow up and want to be independent, I won't hold you back."

"Yeah." The child nodded his head obediently, and then complained softly, "Isn't it because Dad hasn't been close to me for a long time, and suddenly released the memory, the things in this life seem unreal. In the previous life, Dad was really very cold. As if I owe you 100 million..."

Yan Qingcheng let his son whine and scold him secretly without interrupting him, but calmly watched his 16-year-old son through those round peach eyes that belonged to a child, that lonely, beautiful, Sensible, beautiful and poignant child.

Perhaps it was the father's gentle gaze that calmed down the remaining grievances in the child's memory. After Yan Yao finished scolding, she crawled into his father's arms, wrapped her arms around Yan Qingcheng's neck obediently, and pressed herself against his father's chest.

Yan Qingcheng embraced his son with one hand, pressed his chin against the child's round hair, and hugged him quietly with his eyes closed for a while, before asking: "Is there a limit to the time the medicine releases memory?"

"Well, it's only half an hour." Yan Yao thought for a while, estimated the time, and said, "When my father was not sick, I was kidnapped by bad guys and fell into the sea. At that time, my father came to save me , do you remember? At that time, the black hole followed me home, and it used to live in the deep sea."

"Why did it choose to follow you?" Yan Qingcheng asked.

"Because it needs a carrier. The body of the black hole is in the universe. It is too huge. It is impossible for it to come to the earth with its body. So it can only come here in the form of consciousness.

It has been living in the deep sea all the time, because its ideological energy is insufficient, and it doesn’t want to directly fight against time, so it can only find a dead human body as the carrier of its remaining consciousness.

I was the first proper human it had encountered.A medicine jar that is easy to die at first glance like me, it can easily wait until the day I die.

However, I am my father's son.Blood relationship is the most intimate existence. That day when my father carried me into the ambulance, its energy was not stable at that time, and I couldn't control myself. When it touched you, it was attracted.

Later, it was found that something was wrong, and it could only choose to come back, but the human beings who had been boarded by the black hole consciousness could not bear their energy, and their body functions would rapidly decline until they died.

If you want to survive, you can only carry it all the time.At that time, it had no way to conjure up a second small black hole to stay on my father, so it could only choose to return to me.

So the person infected with the unknown virus became a father. "

In other words, what Yan Qingcheng was infected with was not the virus on the earth at all, but the harmful substances brought by the black hole.

The black hole can only save one person's life, because Yan Yao is a cub, fragile and innocent. Although the black hole was unconscious at the time, he still had a sliver of conscience, so he chose to keep Yan Yao, and Yan Qingcheng could only die.

"After Dad passed away, Yaoyao couldn't survive for two years. After that, did the black hole use your body? Continue to live as Yanyao?" Yan Qingcheng asked cautiously.

"No. It intended to replace me after I died, but it killed Dad. It felt sorry for me and Dad, so it sent me back, and it followed me back." Yan Yao pointed to the palm of her hand. That tiny black hole.

Yan Qingcheng stared at the black hole for a while, then said: "So, can I understand that the small black hole is on you now, it is a black hole from the future. And Suzhou North is a black hole from this era? The two of them, Is it actually the same?"

"That's right, there can't be two identical people in an era, and there can't be two identical black holes. So I bring the black hole of the future back here. As long as I don't die, this black hole won't die either. So Su The professor will die prematurely.

He hadn't healed himself before, not because he was not good at medicine, but because he chose to let me live and die by himself.So I don't blame Professor Su. "Yan Yao said seriously.

"I will be reborn soon. When I am reborn, there will be no black hole on my body. Professor Su will survive. As long as his illness is cured and he does not die, the black hole will remain on him forever. , 16 years later, even if I fall into the sea again, there will not be another black hole waiting for me in the sea, and my father will not be infected."

This is all the truth that Suzhou North is hiding, and it is also all the secrets that Yan Yao knows through the black hole in his hand.

Originally, Suzhou Bei planned to sacrifice himself to let Yan Yao stay.But later he discovered that Yan Qingcheng's death was related to himself, so he had to choose to have Yan Yao reborn.

Only by rebirth, the black hole in Yan Yao's body will die, and without the black hole, Yan Qingcheng will not die.

As for the body of the black hole on Suzhou Bei's body, he originally planned to wait for Yan Yao to be born. After his own body died, he would leave the earth and no longer insist on staying here, but Yan Qingcheng suddenly gave him a prescription to let him live. down.

"Did you choose to tell Dad the truth because... Dad gave Professor Su that prescription at night?" Yan Qingcheng looked down at his son.

Yan Yao looked a little guilty, and said timidly: "Dad gave the prescription just to save the professor. It shouldn't be the professor's fault, so I told dad."

After all, it was an accident that the black hole infected Yan Qingcheng. Later, the black hole tried its best to make up for it, and even completely saved the father and son for atonement, and chose to die by himself and leave the earth.No matter how big the mistake is, it is offset.

Yan Qingcheng didn't react when he heard this, he picked up his son calmly and walked out of the laboratory.

It wasn't until he returned to the bathroom that he looked at his nervous son, curled his lips slightly, and said, "Dad, like you, doesn't hate black holes. Because what really caused all this is not just accidents, but people themselves. .”

The black hole can only cause Yan Qingcheng to die, but it cannot influence how he teaches his son.What was really wrong was himself and his wife who rashly let their son come into the world, and his wrong way of educating him in those ten years. A lifetime to make up for.

He never feels that it is others who are wrong, and he is always the one who owes his son the most, and he will spend his whole life correcting his mistakes and rebuilding an ivory tower called father for his son.

This obsession has never changed, and it has never been stated clearly.

作者有话要说：感谢在2020-04-1123:52:47~2020-04-1223:07:12期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel who threw the mine: 1 single Yinsheng;

Thanks to the little angels of irrigation nutrient solution: 5 bottles of Nansheng; 1 bottle of Sanshu;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!