I rob the heroine of the heroine

I am Sue.

I am a god, a god from birth.

From the moment I open my eyes, I can remember.

The first person I saw was a woman, and I still remember the exhausted and sweaty face of that woman.

The woman carefully hugged me in her arms, and even though she was so weak, she still insisted on wiping one side of my body.

It's what she named me.

Her soft voice called me softly, "E'er, E'er, from now on you will be Su'e."

"Cough cough..."

The woman started to cough, she looked so pale and weak, but she still held on to a smile, "E'er,...it's a pity...mother can't be by your side...forgive...forgive me...promise mother, from now on...in the future Be a good god..."

The woman spoke these unclear words intermittently, but the strange thing is that I heard them clearly at that time, and I have not forgotten them until now.

When a man in bright yellow clothes came to the woman, the woman fell completely on the bed.

The man stretched out his hand at that time, as if he wanted to hold the woman in his arms, but finally withdrew his hand, he hugged me, without any expression on his face, just said "Su'e... right? "

"I will be your father from now on."

It soon became clear to me, too, that this man was my father and the woman who had disappeared forever was my mother.

My father told me that my mother died because of me.

That woman, I know my birth was undeserved.

I live in one of the farthest side halls of the Heavenly Palace, and I have an old lady and a maid who take care of me.

In my childhood memory, I didn't meet my father a few times.

I only understand that I am a princess, a princess who cannot be described in words, my father said that I can't walk around, I can't tell my identity everywhere, I can't appear in front of my so-called "sisters"...

Oh, by the way, I have seven older sisters... It's just that I later realized that the seven older sisters are not the same mother as me, but the only wife of the father, the Queen Mother.

So I never dared to appear in front of my sisters and those gods. I live in the shadow of the magnificent Heavenly Palace, and I have nothing.

But I always want to prove something, I will take the initiative to find my father, I will act like a baby to him like a naive little girl, and even become more and more savage...

All the seemingly unreasonable troubles are just in exchange for pampering or a caring look from my father... But there is nothing, only indifference and slight disgust towards me in my father's eyes.

I don't understand, I really don't understand.What did i do wrong?Why can't I live in the brightest palace like my seven older sisters, under the doting eyes of my father?

I have no mother, and the so-called father is not mine alone.Even the so-called father doesn't treat me as a daughter...

I seem to be a superfluous item in the eyes of my father, something that shouldn't appear in this world.

I am doom, a doom that brings death to the mother at birth.

I used to always think that everything is my fault, my father treats me differently, it must be because I killed my mother, all the unfairness is only because of my mistake at the beginning.

... At that time, I was so inferior...

Later I learned a word - "illegitimate daughter".

I understood that my father had always had only one wife, and that wife was not my mother.My mother is a third party who intervenes, shamed by the world, and the daughter of a third party is hated by the world.

It turned out that it wasn't me who was wrong, it was my mother... It wasn't wrong for my mother to be wrong, it was only the world that was wrong.

But I was still not reconciled, I was so eager for the love of my father, and I didn't understand at that time that this world is cruel and cold-blooded.

Family affection will gradually fade over time, especially the kind of god with endless lifespan.

I'm still trying.

That year was my father's birthday again.

In the past, I never had the right to participate in birthday parties, and that year was the same.

But the unwillingness I had been suppressing all this time seemed to explode that year. I took the initiative to find my father and asked him to allow me to attend his birthday.

Childish and naive, I was full of anticipation. I thought that my father would soften my heart at least once, even if it was only once, I would be satisfied.

...But, not once.

The royal father's indifferent expression towards me finally changed, but with anger, he scolded me mercilessly.

He scolded me for not knowing what is good or bad, he scolded me for not knowing what to do... He was so furious.

I don't understand, what did I do wrong, because of the embarrassment I caused him?Then why didn't he just let me disappear at the beginning, why did he treat me like this?

Or does it mean that the affection he had for me in his heart disappeared the moment he left me?

At that time, I was still too young, my tears couldn't stop falling, and I ran out crying loudly, I still had a glimmer of expectation in my heart.

I look forward to my father's coming to comfort me, just like comforting my seven older sisters.

I have seen it before, I hid far away, watching my father and sisters enjoying the family happiness.

It seemed that Seventh Sister was crying, and the father at that time comforted Seventh Sister so gently.

In the same way, at that time, I also hoped that my father would treat her like that.

But I was still too naive.

I ran to a side hall, I hid in a bush, I cried loudly, as if I wanted to cry through the whole world.

I never knew that I could cry so well, and I didn't even know how long I was crying.

I was very sad, I was so helpless at that time, how I hoped that my father would come to me and comfort me.

But there was nothing, not even anyone in the side hall.No one knows my existence, no one will come to comfort me...

As if to vent the suffocation that has accumulated slowly since birth, I cried loudly, crying regardless of anything, at least in this way, tears will make me feel better.

I don't know how long it took until that voice appeared.

"What are you crying for?"

It was a soft, soft voice.At that time, I had never heard such a voice, so joyful to me.

But I was just crying at that time, and didn't pay much attention to the stranger who came suddenly.

I buried my head in the crook of my arms, not wanting to see or listen to anything.

"Why are you crying?" The soft voice was really persistent.

"...It's none of your business." Unable to bear it, I said in a sobbing voice.

"It's none of my business, but you are crying very sad." The voice said again, but what I didn't expect was that this person actually touched me!

Subconsciously, I raised my head and hit that person's hand, feeling a little sullen in my heart.

Just raising his head, he finally saw the person who came. Is it a small "white ball"?

At that time, I thought such a child was really cute.

Just one glance, it is so unforgettable.

If it is the father, the father should like such a child.

"Who is allowed to touch this princess!" But I still cared about the touch of the "little white ball" at first.

But what I didn't expect was that the child actually laughed, and the smile was so sunny.

Later, I cried louder on purpose, but I didn't expect to make "little white ball" flustered.

She tried so hard to comfort me.

I also successfully took the bait for the temptation of dim sum, and I was really hungry at that time.

I like "Little White Ball", maybe I have been from the first time I saw it.

Because there are so many things I want in "Little White Ball", she is so cute and caring... And "Little White Ball" is also the first person who will comfort me... Let me be the first person at that time Feel the warmth again.

That day, "Little White Ball" played with me all the time, and I also knew that she was a fairy beast, and her name was "Yu'er".

I want to keep her, I want her to accompany me like this all the time, I really want warmth so much, when a little bit of warmth appears in front of me, I can't wait to grab it.

But I didn't expect that the "little white ball" already has a "master".It is Changsi, Chang'e Shangxian of Guanghan Palace.

I know this fairy, I overheard my father talking about it before.

A god who is about my age is already a god, how much has "heaven" given to this person?

At that time, I knew that it was impossible for me to like Changsi, even without Yu'er.

I really think it's unfair, why can you have high-strength mana with long thoughts?Why does Chang Si still have Yu'er? ...

Why am I so much worse than her?

I am unwilling.

Looking at Yu'er at that time.

A seed called "obsession" was planted in my heart.

I must have Yu'er.

From then on, I finally realized that when a person is not favored by "Heaven", then don't expect anything for nothing.

Everything must be fought for by oneself!

I will always remember that happy time, the short time with Yu'er at that time.

And I'm working on it.

I worked hard to practice spells, tried to please my father in a more rational way, I became smooth, I became a little treacherous, and I no longer resembled myself.

Or maybe I never had a "me".

Happiness is short-lived, and that Chang'e deprived me of this happiness.

From seeing each other less and less to not seeing each other at all, I'm going crazy...!I persevere in waiting, I believe that one day I will see my Yu'er again, and one day Yu'er will only belong to me...

I also gradually lost my mind, and I also know that I lost my mind.

That day I finally met Yu'er again.

I thought she would be willing to be with me, after all, Yu'er is so gentle and soft-hearted, and she also likes me, doesn't she?

Although I don't know if Yu'er's liking is the same as mine.

When she said she didn't want to go with me, I was really dumbfounded.

How can you do this?How can she not be with me?I obviously liked her for so long, I obviously waited for her for so long...

I finally lost my mind completely, I don't know where to take Yu'er, but I just want to take Yu'er away.

So much so that I didn't know that I entered the Shura domain by mistake, until Yu'er disappeared bit by bit, and I finally woke up.

But she watched Yuer soberly disappear bit by bit.

I panicked, but there was nothing I could do.

I was in so much pain, but there was nothing I could do.

I can only cry, the tears I cried have dried up, and I also understand that I am so powerless, I can't do anything...

I can only watch helplessly as the person I like disappears little by little before my eyes.

Changsi came, and she also looked so desperate.

She hates me, her eyes are full of hatred, but she left without even scolding me. In fact, at that time, I hoped that she could scold me a few words... Maybe it would make me feel better .

In the following days, I lived in a muddle, thinking about Yu'er like crazy.I also know that Chang Si is looking for Yu'er's scattered soul, but I am watching as a bystander, and I naturally hope that Chang Si can bring Yu'er back to life.

After all, I am still obsessed too deeply.

When he heard that Changsi was going to use the underworld system to gather Yu'er's soul, the idea that had been silent for hundreds of years came up again.

I want Yu'er.

So I found a way to insert it into the plot of each world, and blacken the collector bit by bit.

In the end, as long as Yu'er has completely entered Jingxin Lake, I can tamper with Yu'er's memory, and at that time Yu'er can also be resurrected.

According to this idea, I think I will succeed.

But now I understand that maybe this plan was doomed to fail when it was first conceived.

Changsi appeared, and she asked me, I like Yu'er, is that why I like it?

Is this what I call love?

Do I still want to repeat the mistakes of hundreds of years?

Do I still want Yu'er to disappear?

no i don't want to...

really don't want to...

So maybe that's when I finally understood something.

I completely let go, really let go.

What I call love may just be obsession.

I accepted the punishment from heaven without any complaints.Maybe Tianling is my final destination.

It is time to let go of the obsessions of hundreds of years.

Yu'er, I'm sorry...

I've always wanted to say this to you, but I couldn't.

I will atone for my sins, and I also know that these hundreds of years are not enough for me to atone for my sins...

I hope to never see you again in this life.

Cleaning the fallen leaves on the bluestone slabs of the Tianling Mausoleum.

Tianling is very quiet here, except for the bones of the dead gods who are still here, I am the only one here.Spells cannot be used here, and there are restrictions belonging to "heaven".

Maybe only here can heal my heart.

It's okay to be a mortal.

I have nothing anyway.

It has been like this from the beginning.

"Hello, E'er."

It's just that the sudden voice made me frown, who is it?

Can't it end even here?

A pair of gold silk painted phoenix boots appeared in my eyes, I couldn't help but slowly raised my head, my eyes were full of doubts.

At some point in front of me stood a woman wearing a light yellow fairy robe. This woman was so beautiful and cold, but she smiled at this moment, like an ice lotus blooming in winter, so beautiful and moving, so beautiful. Breathtaking.

This woman looks familiar.

"Why don't you remember me?" the woman asked with a smile.

I thought about it, searched the memories of the past, and remembered it in a flash.

"Seven...Sister Seven?" I asked with some uncertainty.

She rolled her bright eyes and nodded with a smile.

I was about to ask her why she came here, but she spoke first.

"E'er, you put it down?" She said like this.

But I was taken aback, why did she ask such a question?What does she know?

I don't want to think too much, because it doesn't make any sense.

I nodded.

"Then... anyway, I'm bored, how about I accompany you for these 300 years?"

Her overly bright smile made me dazed, and I simply nodded subconsciously.

By the time I realized it, I had no chance to refuse.

"Seventh sister,...why?"

"No reason, if I have to say it..."

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"I am your sister and you are my sister."

The author has something to say:

Thank you Deep Sea Deep Forest, Jin, Jesus saw the Buddha's mine (*??.)~?

Su'e, she is actually like a wayward child, her nature is not bad, but her obsession is very deep.

Therefore, I don't want to give her a tragedy, she is just a lonely child longing for warmth.

Everything is just an accident.

Her feelings for Yu'er are not so much "love" as obsession.

An obsession that makes you feel purposeful and hopeful.

If this is not a fast-paced text, some feelings should be made better.

(?˙︶˙?) In fact, I haven’t decided what to write about Yu’er and Chang Si…

It feels like the whole heaven has been written by me to write Lily (╭￣3￣)╭?

Lily Dafa is good!