Stand at forty

Regarding Yuan Tianyi's psychological problems, although Yu Jinhuan has real feelings, he has only a vague understanding. Yuan Tianyi's mind is very erratic and elusive to him.

In his cognition, the only thing he can grasp is that it is good to accept Yuan Tianyi and put forward his own requirements for the other party. Regarding the special kidnapping experience that Yuan Tianyi never mentioned in detail when he was young, Yu Jinhuan has always been reluctant. Being able to connect it more closely with his lover's current personality, he can only vaguely know that Yuan Tianyi has difficulty trusting others.

But there is one thing that he clearly knows, that is, Yuan Tianyi doesn't believe in other people's goodwill.

Whenever he thought of these things, his heart would be sliced ​​into pieces by a sharp knife, and he didn't know how to describe the heartache.

Seeing his lover smiling gently at him, he knew that what his lover depicted in his heart was a more terrifying hell, and in that conscious world, he was the master of hell, and his lover was the one who was punished.

Yu Jinhuan once again heard what Yuan Tianqing said: "For Xiaoyi, feelings are poison/medicine."

This night, he nestled quietly in Yuan Tianyi's arms, and waited motionless for the other party's soothing breathing, then he was troubled and couldn't fall asleep.

Dai Ansi's request made them all fall into silence. Yuan Tianyi's face clearly expressed his reluctance, but Yu Jinhuan faintly sensed that this was a rare opportunity. It is regarded as doomed in the dark.

It was destined that an accident brought them here, and it was destined that he and Yuan Tianyi would gain a new life here.

And Yuan Tianyi's new life may be right in front of his eyes, since he saw it, he couldn't pretend that he didn't see it.

On Yuan Tianyi's warm chest, Yu Jinhuan thought of all kinds of arguments to persuade Yuan Tianyi, his mind twisted and twisted, his mood was troubled, he fell asleep in a daze, and when he woke up, it was already high in the sun.

Yuan Tianyi was not around, so Yu Jinhuan got up, and after a simple wash, Yuan Tianyi's figure was not seen around, Yu Jinhuan searched for it, walked back and forth several times, finally Li Wei'an couldn't see it, and interrupted him Walk around like a headless chicken.

"Brother Yuan and Dr. Dai walked deep into the forest and told me not to disturb them."

Yu Jinhuan was taken aback for a moment before realizing that Yuan Tianyi once again helped him solve the problem that bothered him.

That's how Yuan Tianyi went to accept Diane's psychotherapy.

Yu Jinhuan suddenly couldn't tell whether he was happy or sad. He was obviously relieved, but he felt empty in his heart. It's not strange.

"Thank you, I see." Yu Jinhuan thanked Li Wei'an in a daze, and before he could respond, he turned around and walked towards the woods.

Halfway through, Yu Jinhuan came to his senses suddenly. What was he doing? Didn't he decide not to disturb the relationship between the two of them, and let Yuan Tianyi receive the treatment properly? Could it be——

Yu Jinhuan felt flustered for a while, and it was only at this time that he realized his feelings a little bit. It turned out that he hoped that Yuan Tianyi could become a normal person, but he was also reluctant to part with Yuan Tianyi who was the only one in his heart.

In the final analysis, he is also such a selfish person.

Yu Jinhuan raised his head and looked at the dense tree tops. Under the sparse sunlight, Yu Jinhuan felt both warm and chilly. Those split beams were like Yuan Tianyi who was by his side in the past. , What he saw was never the real thing, but there was no moment when he didn't desire the truth so much, and was so afraid of being burned by the truth of the matter.

He couldn't help but pessimistically wondered whether the warmth in his palm would slowly dissipate, then he shook his head violently, stomped his feet, and walked back to the residence with big strides without hesitation.

I will never let things go so badly, he kept repeating this sentence in his heart, and then smirked at his own stupidity. God will live a better life in the future.

There are no shops and markets here, and everything has to be done by yourself, but it is just for livelihood, tanned skin, rough hands, ill-fitting clothes, and a savage life.Yu Jinhuan didn't have more time to think about Yuan Tianyi and Dai Ansi's meeting and treatment, and hurriedly started a busy day.

In fact, it is not considered busy, but it is just collecting some edible fresh fruits and wild vegetables, checking whether there are any animals that have accidentally fallen into the trap, going to the beach to try your luck, and then preparing lunch.

Among the few of them, Yuan Tianyi was the best cook, but Dai Ansi and him were both average, and even Li Wei'an had excellent barbecue skills.Even so, cooking is still the responsibility of each person in turn.

Maybe it's because the ingredients are delicious, maybe it's because the environment makes people let go of their particularity, Yu Jinhuan's ordinary stew was delicious for everyone.

After agreeing but not to ask, Yu Jinhuan still looked sideways at Yuan Tianyi frequently, wondering if he felt a little uncomfortable, and finally put down the bamboo chopsticks, Yuan Tianyi took the initiative to pull Yu Jinhuan to a quiet place.

"Ayi, I, I..." Yu Jinhuan was a little annoyed at his distrust, but couldn't hold back the various worries in his heart.

Instead, Yuan Tianyi laughed.

"Don't worry, I'm fine. Although Dai Ansi's idea is a bit special, I communicated with him all morning, and it was quite smooth. Now it seems that I have gained something. Trust me, I will get better."

Yu Jinhuan was confused at first, and then repeatedly retorted: "Nonsense, Ah Yi has always been very good, and now he is very good."

Yuan Tianyi's eyes suddenly darkened, and he said in a very solemn tone: "But I can still become better, right?"

Yu Jinhuan nodded stiffly.

"The me that will become better, you also have expectations?" Yuan Tianyi's tone became more relaxed, "I also have expectations, Xiao Huan will witness these changes with me."

Yu Jinhuan smiled foolishly, feeling that under Yuan Tianyi's gaze, his brain could not think.

Yuan Tianyi's behavior was very normal, and it didn't look like there was anything unusual. Of course, when Yu Jinhuan really realized this, the sun had already covered the seaside with red clouds.

This kind of chaotic time was led by Yuan Tianyi, he was always embarrassed when he recalled it, and he felt a little happy in his heart, as if on the magical island, not only Yuan Tianyi was changed, but he himself felt a little strange.

So this day, Yu Jinhuan spent worrying in the morning, ignorant in the afternoon, and awkward in the evening.What Yu Jinhuan didn't expect, and what Yuan Tianyi and the other two didn't expect, was that Yu Jinhuan's state didn't get any better.

Every day after that, he spent the morning restlessly, and then waited for Yuan Tianyi's arrival, then he just clung to Yuan Tianyi, his consciousness was always half a beat behind, and finally he woke up again before sunset, awkward, uncomfortable, Various emotions such as shyness and helplessness disturbed him, and finally he always fell into a deep sleep in Yuan Tianyi's patient words.

Waking up early in the morning is a new reincarnation.

"You are more like the patient who urgently needs a doctor's treatment than Brother Yuan. Your ups and downs of emotions seem to be torturing Brother Yuan."

Li Wei'an stopped Yu Jinhuan from traveling, and directly accused him.

Yu Jinhuan stopped in his tracks, glanced at Li Wei'an impatiently, and said in a bad tone, "It has nothing to do with you!"

Li Wei'an's face turned ugly for a moment, and he said angrily: "You think I want to take care of it, if you continue like this, it's hard to guarantee that Big Brother Yuan won't get bored, I'm just worried that he will give up the treatment halfway."

"As for you," Li Wei'an looked him up and down with serious eyes, "the man has 41 flowers, but it's a pity that he is a delicate flower with ostentatious appearance. He used to have some skills, but now he has lost both talent and color, and it's even worse. What's more, the IQ has suddenly returned to the age of a child."

"You—" Yu Jinhuan had never been said that before, and the person who said this was his potential rival in love. The anger burned from his heart, his eyes widened, and he spoke fiercely.

Li Wei'an quickly interrupted what he was about to say: "I'm not wrong, you are now worrying about gains and losses, like a boy who has just fallen in love, disorganized, at a loss, only knows to occupy his lover, and will not stand up at all. It’s really not like a 40-year-old man to think about things from the other party’s point of view.”

Yu Jinhuan was speechless by Li Wei'an's words. He really wanted to say that he didn't do this, but what Li Wei'an said was just the truth, and he didn't know how to defend himself.

However, before he could think of a suitable explanation, Li Wei'an walked away with a bored expression.

Yu Jinhuan was reprimanded by Li Wei'an, and his heart was full of turmoil. He searched his guts and couldn't find a proper reason to explain his inexplicable actions, but he also intuitively felt that what he did was right, but he didn't have a formed theory to act. credentials.

But the effect of these words is also remarkable, at least he didn't go wandering in the woods for a while, but started a new day's work directly.

He was still waiting for Yuan Tianyi's return at noon. On the firm and flat grass that he had trampled back and forth, there was a seat with a missing leg beside it. Bamboo tube, he had never sat on that chair, but he did not refuse Yuan Tianyi's insistence on putting a chair there.

Yuan Tianyi used to walk this path back with Dai Ansi before, but after seeing Yu Jinhuan's clinginess many times, Dai Ansi sensibly opened up another path to detour back.

Yu Jinhuan saw Yuan Tianyi's figure from a distance, and flew towards him like a bird returning home.

Diane always said that his enthusiasm really blinded his eyes.

Yu Jinhuan didn't care about these things, and when Yuan Tianyi's arms hugged his body tightly, his heart that had been half-hanging all morning finally settled down.

"How is today?" This is what Yu Jinhuan would ask every day when it was almost noon.

"Very well, don't worry." Yuan Tianyi always replied like this, and also gave him a shallow smile.

Dai Ansi had the honor of meeting them many times, and repeatedly emphasized that such conversations between them are superfluous, just like routine, without content and not nutritious enough.But Yu Jinhuan couldn't help but ask, and Yuan Tianyi cooperated tirelessly.

When Dai Ansi continued to complain about the stickiness of the two of them, Li Wei'an hit the nail on the head: "You are just jealous. When your boss comes, I can imagine how crazy you will be."

Suffering from such an embarrassment all of a sudden, Dai Ansi blushed and stopped talking.Yu Jinhuan and Yuan Tianyi were also there, and Yu Jinhuan smiled at Dai Ansi, and said, "Have you noticed that Li Wei'an has become more tempered recently, and his tongue has become merciless."

Li Wei'an turned his head silently, as if he didn't hear Yu Jinhuan's joke.

Yuan Tianyi had no expression on his face, and after listening to Yu Jinhuan chatting with Dai Ansi for a while, he led the people away.

Back in the shed, Yu Jinhuan was caught off guard by Yuan Tianyi's deep kiss, and an inauthentic laughter came from next to his ear: "Xiao Huan performed very well today."

The second monk Yu Jinhuan was puzzled, there was no difference between today and every day before.

Yuan Tianyi didn't explain, "As a reward, I decided to satisfy your emotional heart and write a poem for you tomorrow night."

Yu Jinhuan looked up at Yuan Tianyi's vague outline, and was kissed by Yuan Tianyi again, only to hear the other party sigh in his ear: "However, I can't be too disadvantaged, you don't have to move tonight, just enjoy it."

The author has something to say:

After reading "Journey to the West: Volunteering the Demons", I didn't feel anything unexpectedly. Could it be that the taste has been spoiled, or the feeling is out of order, but I also laughed, which is still somewhat rewarding.Happy reading!At the same time, I would like to thank the little angel Hayakawa who threw mine before, (*￣3)(ε￣*)