This suitcase is really not mine

Qi Tiancheng, who threatened to "not rely on his family background", finally used the power of the Qi family.

Wen Junyuan never appeared in An Xuyu's sight again.

A newcomer who was said to be quite promising came to the company, and Li Juan was so busy that he couldn't care less about An Xuyu.

His private love affair is actually a manifestation of "disobedience" to the company.But An Xuyu was conscientious in acting and signed a long-term contract. The company weighed the pros and cons and simply let it go.

An Xuyu didn't feel anything special either.As long as there is a play to act in, he feels very happy.

"Dad, Mom, happy new year." An Xuyu returned home and took off his thick coat.

The house was a bit deserted. Father An was watching TV in the living room, and when he saw him, he just said "I'm back" indifferently. Mother An was cutting vegetables in the kitchen, but she didn't come to welcome the door when she heard the sound.

"Aren't you spending time with my aunt's house this year?" An Xuyu seemed to be used to this atmosphere, and went to pour a cup of hot water.

"He has his own family, what does it sound like when you get together." Dad An said forcefully: "You are not too young, I asked you to go on a blind date with a girl. One year younger than you, she is a primary school teacher, and the family conditions are good. , and looks Zhou Zheng. Over there, I promise not to tell about your blind date, so you don't have to worry about being secretly exposed by some gossip tabloids like last time."

"Dad," An Xuyu said helplessly, "I've only been back for two days, and I have to pack up and leave on the third day."

Mother Ann in the kitchen came out wearing an apron and said, "I told you not to take the performance test, but you have to take the test. Now you are so busy as an actor."

An Xuyu was silent for a while, and said: "I said, I can't marry a girl in my life. I was... harming others." Saying that, without waiting for An's father and An's mother to get angry, she went on her own He dragged his luggage back to his room.

The room was dusty and hadn't been cleaned for a while.The diary on the bookcase was pulled out to read, and it was spread out on the desk like this.

An Xuyu put away the diary without saying a word, and began to clean her room.

"The fireworks here are so beautiful!" On New Year's Eve, An Xuyu excitedly videoed Qi Tiancheng.He said loudly: "Did you hear it? The sound of fireworks!"

"Understood." Qi Tiancheng on the other end of the phone was so gentle that An Xuyu wanted to cry, "It's a pity that I can't set off fireworks here... Ah, I haven't seen you for a long time."

"Then I'll show you, and then listen to it!" An Xuyu said with a smile, unplugged the earphones, turned on the rear, and held up the phone in front of a large number of beautiful fireworks that bloomed and extinguished: "It looks good!"

"It's beautiful," Qi Tiancheng on the screen raised the corner of his mouth and said, "But no matter how beautiful the fireworks are, they are not as good-looking as my little senior. Don't turn on the rear camera, let me take a good look at you, okay?"

An Xuyu blushed again and turned on the front, and put on the earphones.

After chatting, he returned to the living room from the balcony.

The host of the Spring Festival Gala on TV excitedly said almost the same words every year, and the shrine in the living room has been plugged with newly burned incense.But An's father and An's mother just said "Happy New Year" to An Xuyu in a flat manner, then handed over a thin red envelope, and went back to her room.

An Xuyu held the red envelope, her happy mood gradually calmed down.

It seems to have been like this since childhood.

An Xuyu watches TV dramas and sees a warm family full of happiness and laughter.

An Xuyu watched the news and saw tragedies where children were cruelly abandoned and even killed by their own hands.

He was a little at a loss, not knowing what type of family he belonged to.

His father is a teacher, and his mother is a low-level civil servant. Although he is not rich, his family has no worries about food and clothing since he was a child.Xiao An Xuyu has been studying well since she was a child, and she also looks obedient and very good-looking.In the eyes of outsiders, this is a very happy family.

Only when An's father and An's mother talked about the excellence of their children in front of outsiders, and when they envied such a family, would they raise some real smiles.

"Oh, your family is really nice. One is a teacher and the other is a civil servant. Life is really secure."

"Hey, old An, your wife, at such an age, you are still so well-maintained. The soft-spoken Dosven is so dignified, not like that wicked woman in my family...I really envy you."

"It's really good if the husband is a teacher, how stable! He doesn't smoke or drink, you have met a perfect man, Mrs. An!"

"Your children are beautiful, smart, and obedient. Hey, what a wonderful family! If my son is half as good as yours, I will be thankful!"

Thank goodness?An Xuyu didn't think so.

I only know that when I came out with my family, they were very calm.

"I don't care if you like men or women, I don't care if you like a pig or a dog." Father An shook his body, as if he felt that this was an extremely embarrassing thing, and even lowered his voice in his own home: "You I don’t even bother with you about going to an acting academy secretly. But getting married and having children is something that all normal people have to go through. Your mother and I have already found someone to help you find out what outstanding unmarried girls are there , it’s better to be like us, either a teacher or a civil|official|official, no matter how bad it is to do business, a clean family is fine. You choose one to marry, and it’s best to give birth to a boy within two years. Behind the scenes, what do you love? What to do. Obviously, you have to pretend to me that the family is harmonious."

His parents were neither angry nor sad.Just tell him in all seriousness that homosexuality is not normal and that he must marry and have children—preferably boys.

Corrupt inside, warm and harmonious outside.The only happy time is the envious eyes of others.

An Xuyu didn't want such a life.

"I didn't listen to the doctor's advice to have a caesarean section. I had to give birth to you. I almost killed two people, just so that you would be a smart baby." Mother An accused her with sadness in her eyes: "Who would have thought of you?" Smart is smart, so stupid in this kind of thing. Are you worthy of the pain I suffered?"

no.An Xuyu wanted to refute, but knew it would be useless.

It's been so many years, and it's useless to say anything.

So he gradually excused himself from going home because of his busy career, and only sent money home every year.

But this year, as if he had finally made up his mind, he knocked on the door of his parents' room, telling them that he was gay, and saying in the same tone as when he told them that he was going to apply for the acting academy: "Mom, I have something to say to you." you say."

He paused, and heard a little noise coming from inside.I know my parents heard it.But no answer.

"I found someone I want to spend my whole life with," An Xuyu said slowly, "It's not a girl, it's a guy; it's not a teacher or civil servant, he's also an actor....Maybe there will be many accidents in the future, I can't guarantee [-]% that this person will stay with me until I grow old. But I think it's not a good thing to be with the person you like, live the life you like, and choose the one you want most at important forks. Disgraceful thing."

There was no sound in the room.An Xuyu continued: "I won't do anything wrong to anyone, but I don't want to live in the eyes of others anymore.... I came back to tell my parents this, not to make you angry, but also not to win Your agreement is just a notification." An Xuyu paused, and then quickly said: "I will remit the money every year, and if there is any problem at home that cannot be resolved, please call me."

After the holiday, the crew called to confirm.An Xuyu dragged her suitcase and stood at the closed door of her parents' room, just like she had done so many times before: "Dad, Mom, I'm leaving."