lonely lonely

If you really want to talk about it, Lu Xin's life experience is quite tragic.

His parents died in a car accident when he was very young, and Lu Xin didn't even have time to remember their appearance clearly.The mother woke up once, but she just shed tears silently with half-opened eyes, and said Lu Xin's name over and over again until there was no more energy left to make a sound.In the end, she couldn't make it through, and when she died, there were still tears in the corners of her eyes that she couldn't shed.Of course, this is what Lu Xin's grandmother told him.At that time, he was still so young, held tightly by his grandmother, surrounded by relatives he had never met, with sad and gloomy faces, so strange that he was afraid.It wasn't until he grew up a little that he finally understood how cruel it was.In the vague memory, there are the white walls in the ward, the smell of disinfectant in the air, and the figure of the doctor walking back and forth, but there is no face of the parents.In the end, all these were drowned in the crying of grief and turned into a nightmare for Lu Xin for many years.

Fortunately, Lu Xin's family background is strong, so Lu Xin will not be reduced to the level of being homeless on the streets. Under the careful care of her grandmother and grandparents, she lives comfortably.Children should have all the toys and snacks, but there is no support.After all, the elders who take care of themselves are old, and they can only rely on themselves for the rest of the way.

When I was in kindergarten, I met children around me who always liked to show off where my parents took me to play during the holidays, or during the handicraft class, the teacher asked everyone in the class to make a greeting card and give it to my mother. Lu Xin would go to the toilet and cry secretly. , Crying hard, and returning home with a pair of red eyes, people can't help but feel distressed.Gradually, as the number of encounters increased, Lu Xin couldn't even cry.Later, when I was promoted to a new school, when curious people asked about it, Lu Xin slightly lowered her eyes and said with a blank expression: "Oh, that's right. My parents died in a car accident when I was 4 years old. I don't even remember. What do they look like?" The person who asked was surprised and didn't know what to do, Lu Xin added: "Did you believe it? I lied to you." Then she turned and left.Later, all the classmates in the class knew that Lu Xin's "joke" was true, and there was inevitably a little more sympathy in their eyes, and Lu Xin didn't care, with an indifferent and cold expression, rejecting other people's sympathy. on the outside.But no matter how calmly he concealed it on the surface, there will always be times when he can't pretend.

I don't know when it started, a few girls in the class took the lead in calling Lu Xin, and the more they shouted, the more vigorous they became.During the lunch break that day, a little girl in the class came over to ask Lu Xin a math problem, and Lu Xin answered her patiently, so the two of them had a lively discussion next to each other.Soon the girl learned it. She smiled sweetly at Lu Xin and said, "Thank you, class grass. I'll treat you to a Coke after school." Lu Xin also smiled lightly, waved her hand and said, "No." The girl said It must be, it must be, it is so enthusiastic that it is impossible to refuse.Zhao Cheng, who was on the side, saw this scene in his eyes and was quite upset.Zhao Cheng had chased after that girl named Yang Fei before, but the response he got was always lukewarm.Seeing her and Lu Xin's ambiguous expressions now, jealousy welled up, and she couldn't help mocking: "Lu Xin, you really deserve your name."

Lu Xin heard something in the words, frowned and asked, "What do you mean?"

Zhao Cheng proudly said: "A child without a mother is like a grass, and you are the only grass in the class, right?" These words were full of provocation, and hit people's pain points.The people next to him didn't make a sound when they heard it, waiting for Lu Xin's reaction.

In the end, before the smile on Zhao Cheng's face subsided, Lu Xin punched him hard in the face.

It's not like I haven't heard such sarcasm since I was a child. If I can calm down a bit, I can ignore it.Maybe it's because Lu Xin has been suppressed for too long, the blood in the boy's bones is still there, and it burst out accidentally.Zhao Cheng didn't expect that Lu Xin, who is usually gentle and gentle, would make a move. He was stupid for a while and didn't hide. He was hit in the face directly, and he was sweating coldly from the pain.How could a boy at this age be reconciled, he immediately fought back with all his strength when he regained his senses, his eyes were so angry that his eyes would burst into flames.In an instant, the two wrestled into a ball. Lu Xin was a novice in fighting, but after a while, he gained the upper hand and was pinned down by Zhao Cheng, unable to move.Zhao Cheng choked his neck and said, "Didn't your mother teach you that a gentleman should talk and not use hands? Oh, yes, I almost forgot, you don't have a mother." Lu Xin struggled desperately, and childhood memories came up piece by piece. Come on, the eyes are gradually blurred.Although he gritted his teeth and tried hard to hold back, the tears still poured out uncontrollably.

Hot tears dripped onto Zhao Cheng's hands, Zhao Cheng froze for a moment, and actually panicked.

"Zhao Cheng, stop!" The head teacher's voice rang out, "What's the fight?" Looking at the two students who caused trouble, the head teacher said with a headache: "Come with me to the office." Zhao Cheng let go and stood up, patted his clothes The dust on the bed came out of the classroom.Lu Xin wiped away her tears and stabilized her emotions just now, and followed silently.

After entering the office, it was nothing more than a long lecture of great truth.When the head teacher asked the reason for the fight, the two of them kept silent in unison.

"Who did it first?"

Lu Xin said, "Me."

The class teacher sighed slightly, and said to Zhao Cheng, "You go back to the classroom first, and I'll see you later." Zhao Cheng left obediently. At this time, Teacher Li, who was teaching chemistry at the next table, came in with a student and saw them. With a wry smile, he asked, "Hey, are you talking too?" The teacher in charge replied helplessly, "Yes, the students in the class had conflicts and fights, how about you?" Teacher Li pointed to the students behind him, "What a coincidence, This is the master too." Lu Xin stayed there, and the class teacher asked again: "Why did you do it? I know you must have a reason, now that Zhao Cheng is not here, the teacher won't blame you if you tell me." Lu Xin pursed her lips, still Not a word.The lecture at the table next to him had just begun, and Teacher Li sat down in a chair and said angrily, "You are quite capable, you dare to fight them in one-on-three, if I didn't happen to see it, how would you plan to end it? The reprimanded student was indifferent, and Teacher Li went on to say: "The last time you fought, you broke the opponent's bones. If your father hadn't tried everything possible to suppress you, the punishment would have been issued long ago. At this moment, the man's plaster cast has not been removed yet." What, are you itching again?"

Lu Xin looked up at the boy.He looked sideways out of the window, with a haughty and stubborn expression on his face.

The boy noticed Lu Xin's gaze and glanced back with a disdainful look.

Lu Xin looked down at her toes for a long time, and said to the head teacher, "It's my fault, I shouldn't have done it first." The head teacher patted him on the shoulder, "It's fine if you don't want to say the reason, but luckily nothing happened. , remember to calm down when you encounter something in the future, and don’t get too angry." Lu Xin nodded, and the class teacher said: "Lu Xin, your performance has always been good, I believe you didn't do it on purpose. How about it, you don't need to review it Write it, come here, help me sort out these homework books and bring them back to the classroom to distribute."

Lu Xin was sorting out her homework, and Teacher Li's voice came from over there.

"It's their fault that they blackmailed you, but you can't use this kind of violence to solve it. What if something happens outside the school gate? What if they have a knife on them? How dangerous is it? Do you fight them hard? You are Too impulsive."

"Why don't you talk? Are you not convinced?"

"Are you listening to me? Stand up for me and see what you look like."

"Forget it this time. Next time you dare to fight and make trouble, you will be punished. Don't expect your father to save you."

Lu Xin left the office with a stack of notebooks in her arms. She just went down the stairs when she turned her head and saw the boy coming down the stairs just now.Lu Xin smiled slightly at him, the boy was puzzled and pretended he didn't see it.Lu Xin called him subconsciously, "Hello."

He asked: "Why?"

Lu Xin said seriously: "Teach me how to fight."

However, the answer I got was: "Neuropathy."