Greedy process

According to the weather forecast, the winter of Cheng Shu's third year of high school was the coldest in Rongcheng in 20 years.Before the holiday, Cheng Shu hadn't spoken to Fu Shiyu for a long time, after he told Fu Shiyu not to stumbling him.

But in the end, it was not Cheng Shu's turn to be recommended. After knowing the result, Cheng Shu stayed in the cubicle of the bathroom for a large class, and returned to his seat one minute before the class bell rang.

He didn't listen to anything in that class, but forced himself to focus on the textbook. When Cheng Shu heard the teacher call Fu Shiyu to get up and answer the question, Fu Shiyu's chair rubbed against the floor and made a soft noise. It was his voice.

Cheng Shu thought, it doesn't matter, if you do well in the college entrance examination, you can go to that university.

He was sad in that class, and no one knew that he had been sad.

He no longer thought about the missed recommendation spot, but kept thinking about the conversation he had with Fu Shiyu some time ago. The guilt had already taken root and sprouted from the moment he spoke, and quickly grew into a towering tree.

But Cheng Shu didn't know how to apologize to Fu Shiyu, he couldn't open his mouth, and Fu Shiyu no longer passed him the steps.

During the Chinese New Year, Cheng Shu bought Fu Shiyu a notebook, which was big and thick enough for Fu Shiyu to doodle for a long time.That year Rongcheng was extremely cold, with snow accumulating to people's calves, Cheng Shu hesitated for a long time at the door of Fu Shiyu's house, and then rang the doorbell a little nervously.

The aunt who cooked at Fu Shiyu's house opened the door for him. Cheng Shu grabbed his schoolbag and said, "Hi, I'm looking for Fu Shiyu."

The aunt said, "Shi Yu has returned to Zecheng."

Inside the room, Fu Shiyu's grandma heard the movement at the door and asked, "Is this Shiyu's classmate? Come and sit in the room?"

Cheng Shu shook his head and said goodbye politely.

At that time, he thought, let's give it to Fu Shiyu when school starts, and apologize to him properly.He clearly knew what kind of person Fu Shiyu was. Whether he was obsessed with ghosts or too scared, he shouldn't have doubted Fu Shiyu like that.

The day before school started, Cheng Shu had a dream that seemed real and fake all night. For a while, Fu Shiyu said it was okay, and for a while, Fu Shiyu ignored him with a cold face.

He waited anxiously all morning, but Fu Shiyu's seat was still empty. When Cao Yu walked into the classroom, Cheng Shu knew that Fu Shiyu had transferred to another school.

After school that night, when everyone in the classroom had left, Cheng Shu took the notebook out of Fu Shiyu's desk, stuffed it back into his schoolbag, turned off the lights and locked the door, and went home alone.

The summer of that year was also very hot. It began to rain two days before the college entrance examination. Some people said that it was artificial rainfall, in order to lower the temperature during the two days of the college entrance examination.

On the day of the college entrance examination, Cheng Shu woke up very early. The first thing he did when he got up was to check his documents again, and put them on the table after confirming that they were correct. There are muffins.

Cheng Shu took two deep breaths, and silently encouraged himself, Cheng Shu, you can leave in the last two days, come on.

He had never done this kind of conversation with himself, and felt a little embarrassed after speaking, he pursed his lips and locked all the things he took out into the cabinet, then got up and prepared to go out to wash.

When he failed to open the door for the first time, Cheng Shu thought that his hand had slipped. Before his consciousness could catch up, great anxiety had already enveloped him. He pulled it again, and a lock and lock came out from inside the lock. The crackling sound of holes colliding.

Cheng Shu's room was never locked, and Cheng Chong and that woman could come in at any time, so he always carried those precious things with him, for fear of being destroyed by Cheng Chong.

Cheng Shu was frightened, and shouted with a trembling voice: "Is anyone at home, can you open the door for me?"

There was no movement outside the door.

When Cheng Shu spoke again, he was crying unconsciously, and shouted: "Auntie, are you there? Please open the door for me. Cheng Chong, I will give you whatever you want, please."

He yanked on the door like crazy and yelled, but there was still no movement.

Cheng Shu rushed to the window, looking down, their building was in the last row, and the building had been demolished, and most of the people had already moved out. Cheng Shu's family was considered a stagnant household, and few people passed by downstairs.

Cheng Shu was trembling all over, and when he finally saw someone passing by, his teeth were chattering and he could hardly speak: "Please, call the police for me, the door is locked, I want, I still have to take an exam... "

The man looked up at him, and left quickly. He didn't know if he didn't want to cause trouble, or he thought he was a lunatic.

The sun was rising high, and Cheng Shu was almost desperate. He was locked in this space of more than ten square meters and could not go anywhere.

Cheng Shu's gaze finally fell on the corner of the anti-theft window, where a wire sticks up, breaking a small hole.Cheng Shu staggered into the room, found a pair of scissors, and pinned the spot vigorously. His hands were scratched several times. Fortunately, the house was old and the anti-theft windows were badly corroded, and some iron bars were stuck by him. Now, the hole is bigger.

For many years later, Cheng Shu couldn't remember how he felt at that time. He seemed to be insane. He didn't know pain or fear. Stuck, and kept pushing down.

Several people gradually gathered downstairs, and someone shouted for him to stay still, saying that he had called the police.When the policemen broke into the door and helped him saw off the iron bar next to him, Cheng Shu kept holding his stationery bag in his hand, crying and asking what time it was.

A policewoman with red eyes told him not to be afraid, they would take him there in a police car when he was done, and he would definitely be able to catch the exam.Only then did Cheng Shu gradually feel the pain in his body.

Later, the doctor from the nearby outpatient clinic followed into the police car, and helped Cheng Shu with a simple bandage on the way.Cheng Shu was 10 minutes late for the first language test. With tears and trembling, he picked up the pen and started the most important test in his life.

The day's exams are over, and the class has to gather. Although the teachers of each subject have repeatedly told them that they are not allowed to check the questions until they have finished the exams, many students can't help but ask each other.

Cao Yu had long heard that Cheng Shu was 10 minutes late for the first game. Although he didn't know why, he was worried that it would affect his mood, so he didn't dare to ask. He just kept telling him, "It's okay, don't think too much. Just take the exam well.

Cheng Shu didn't spend much time with the crowd, he didn't know how he felt, he just didn't want to talk to anyone, and he didn't want anyone who knew him to see him.

He didn't go home that night, but went to a police station not far away.The policeman on duty asked him what was the matter. Cheng Shu held the stationery bag tightly in his hand, stood outside the window, and asked in a low voice if he could sleep in the duty room overnight.

The policeman frowned at him, and the dark sky enveloped him. The boy in his teens had an expressionless face, but it made people feel uncomfortable for no reason.

When Cheng Shu turned around and wanted to leave, the policeman stopped him and said, "Come in."

Cheng Shu slept on the bench in the duty room all night. The next day, Cheng Shu got up shortly after dawn, folded the thin blanket that was covering him and put it on the chair.

The policeman on duty had just had breakfast and called to him: "Student."

Cheng Shu stopped, and the policeman handed him a plastic bag containing a deep-fried dough stick and two eggs.Cheng Shu shook his head, and the policeman on duty stuffed him with a cup of boiling soy milk, smiling until wrinkles formed at the corners of his eyes: "The eggs are so lucky, I will definitely get [-] points in the test after eating, my daughter eats like this every time before the exam."

Cheng Shu was silent for two seconds, and said, "Thank you."

He walked out of the duty room, and when he passed by the window, the window suddenly opened, and the policeman said to him: "Take the exam well, and when you get into college, you will become famous in the future, and no one will dare to bully you."

The morning sun was dotted between the buildings, and the warm, golden sunlight poured down. After Cheng Shu walked a long way, he raised his hand to wipe his eyes.That morning he sat in a deserted place and finished his breakfast with tears in his eyes.Since then, no matter what happened, he never cried again.

After the last exam was over, Cheng Shu went home, facing a messy room.

His locked cabinet was pried open, and the jersey that he had treasured for many years was cut into tatters. It was bought for him by his mother before her death, and it was specially bought a few sizes larger, saying that it would be okay when he grew up. Dressed to play basketball.

The muffins were also cut in a mess, and the fluff stuffed inside was everywhere. Cheng Shu squatted on the ground and picked them up bit by bit in silence.

Cheng Chong stood at the door and watched him laugh. Cheng Shu couldn't figure out why a child of twelve or thirteen years old could be so vicious since he was a child.

Cheng Chong's mother, Cheng Shu's nominal stepmother, said without the slightest bit of shame: "I thought you had already gone out yesterday, didn't you always hate Chong Chong to come into your room casually, so I just locked it, and something happened later So I rushed out the door. Auntie didn't do it on purpose, so she won't lock it in the future."

Cheng Shu said, "It's okay."

"It's good if you don't get into any university. What's the use of going to school? It would be nice to help out in the hardware store with your dad. I told your dad before that he just doesn't want to take care of you..."

Cheng Shu packed her schoolbag silently, then got up and said, "No matter what university I am admitted to, I will go there, and then I will never come back."

Before Cheng Shu went out, Cheng Chong wanted to grab the muffin rags he was clutching in his hand, Cheng Shu suddenly turned around and kicked him on the stomach fiercely, Cheng Chong didn't expect him to fight back, he was stunned by the kick, and didn't cry , bared teeth are about to come up to fight Cheng Shu.

Cheng Shu didn't know when he took a knife in his hand. There was no expression on his face, but he just said calmly: "If you take a step forward, I really dare to kill you."

The woman screamed what are you going to do, while pulling Cheng Chong back, Cheng Shu glanced at them, turned and left.

He went to find work at a construction site, and the injury to his shoulder was severe, and later festered and inflamed, rendering his right arm almost completely useless for a long time.

Cheng Shu knew why he didn't leave the city completely, and he had a little hope for his father, he was waiting for some warmth that he might have.

Later, it was Cao Yu who found him first, took him to the hospital to re-bandage the wound, helped him find a lighter job, and would pick him up for dinner every weekend.

Cheng Shu seldom speaks, and some people who are not familiar with him even suspect that he is dumb. Except for occasionally hearing him say "thank you", Cao Yu has never heard anything from him, except once, when Cheng Shu asked him, Where did Fu Shiyu go?

In fact, Cao Yu didn't know much about it, he only knew some vague information, saying that Fu Shiyu transferred back to Zecheng's high school and should go abroad after the college entrance examination.After a long time, Cheng Shu asked again, where to go.

"England," Cao Yu said, "it seems to be."

Cheng Shu nodded, and never mentioned Fu Shiyu since then.

When the results of the college entrance examination came out, Cheng Shu was about [-] points lower than usual, and could only take a very ordinary one.Cao Yu asked him if he wanted to resume class, Cheng Shu shook his head, he didn't want to stay in this city any longer.

A month later, Cheng Shu saw his father at work. Cheng Yi asked him when he would be home, and Cheng Shu asked, "Do you know what happened?"

Cheng Yi nodded, threw the cigarette on the ground and crushed it, and said, "Go home and apologize to your mother, you scared your brother into a fever."

Cheng Shu said: "They locked me up and prevented me from taking the college entrance examination."

Cheng Yi was impatient: "What's so important about an exam, if you don't do well in the exam, come back and we will open a shop together."

Cheng Shu said: "They also ruined the jersey my mother bought for me."

Cheng Yi spat: "It's not a big deal if you break it."

"She's not my mother, and Cheng Chong is not my brother." Cheng Shu looked at Cheng Yi, as if looking at a stranger, "You're not my father either."

Cheng Yi was so angry at his words, there were many people not far away, and it was difficult to do anything, so he finally cursed: "Wherever you fucking want to go, I will treat you as my son."

Since then, Cheng Shu really never went back.