Greedy process

Fu Shiyu was very angry when Cheng Shu put down the bowl and turned his face, but he also vaguely knew in his heart that this was what Cheng Shu did.Fu Shiyu's feelings for him suddenly arose, but Cheng Shu never showed any intention of developing an improper relationship with him. It is rare to indulge Fu Shiyu's closeness a few days ago.

After Songta was sent back to his home in the city center by Fu Shiyu, Fu Shiyu returned to the life of an older urban boy.

On Sunday night, Xiang Du, who had been out of contact for many years and didn't know where he was drifting, called Fu Shiyu. Fu Shiyu opened the curtain to see the dark night outside, and cursed, "Are you fucking okay?"

Xiang Du's hoarse voice was caught in the howling wind: "I'm back to Zecheng, come to see me?"

"Where is it?" Fu Shiyu frowned and opened the closet.

After reporting the address to Du, Fu Shiyu finally knew where the wind came from. This lunatic never had a normal time.

When Fu Shi came across the roof top floor of Zecheng's tallest building, Xiang Du was lying on the railing smoking a cigarette. Under his feet was Zecheng at night, with lights flickering and traffic constantly flowing, and tiny spots of light were connected into pieces.

Fu Shiyu leaned silently on the railing next to him, and also lit a cigarette. The night wind was so strong that the coats of the two of them rattled.

Xiang Du half leaned out of the railing, turned his head to Fu Shiyu and said with a smile, "Do you think this little broken railing is designed just to make it easier for people to seek death?"

Seeing him go crazy, Fu Shiyu remained indifferent: "You can go down and ask the person in charge of this building."

Xiang Du withdrew his body and snorted, "You are really boring."

Fu Shiyu cupped his fists in a fake manner: "I dare not compare with you."

Xiang Du couldn't stop laughing. He had been traveling between deserts, mountains and seas all year round, and his voice became hoarse, as if he had been rubbed into wind and sand.

After the wind blew for a long time, Fu Shiyu felt that he would have a fever if he stayed any longer, and it was no different from seeking death, so he was about to retreat, Xiang Du laughed and followed him down from the rooftop: "You are too cowardly. "

Fu Shiyu said: "No, I'm afraid of death."

"Brother, be frank." Xiang Du held Fu Shiyu's shoulders, "Then find a place for you to stay. I haven't been back for a long time, so I feel awkward everywhere."

Just after midnight, Fu Shiyu drove Xiang Du to the bar. The two asked for a private room. The fingers on the top are rough, covered with fine cuts and calluses.

Fu Shiyu asked, "Did you find what you were looking for?"

Xiang Du closed his eyes, like the lunatic who laughed wantonly on the rooftop not long ago, said hoarsely: "I can't find it."

"If you can't find it, come back."

"I can't come back either." Xiang Du sighed.

Xiangdu continued westward along the edge of the Taklamakan Desert where they had been last year, crossed the border, and reached the border of Central Asia. He continued to walk westward, walking just on two legs.

He was stubbornly looking for something, Fu Shiyu didn't know what it was, maybe even Xiang Du himself didn't know what it was, he only knew it should exist, and he wanted to find it too.

"I went to believe in religion, listened to the Buddha's voice, and went to Jerusalem to worship, and found that it was not, it was not. Then I returned to the secular world, went to the countryside, to the mountains, and guess what happened."

Fu Shiyu asked, "What's the matter?"

"There is the most simple human nature in the mountains, and I believe in fucking evil." Xiang Watanabe smiled and scolded, "Poor people are even more deceitful."

Fu Shiyu rubbed the tobacco in the cigarette playfully: "What did you lie to you?"

Xiang Duyi was filled with indignation: "Give someone else two cents a catty of vegetables, and his mother wants me two yuan a catty."

Xiang Du laughed, but Fu Shiyu didn't. Xiang Du was different from ordinary people. What others saw as a laughable thing might be a kind of destruction to him.

After a while, Xiang Du stopped smiling. "The more I look at people, the more I hate them." He lowered his eyes, "So, I still want to go back to those places where there are no people at all, and go to those places to have a look."

Fu Shiyu opened his mouth, but in the end he only said, "Then remember to come back." It doesn't need to be too frequent, maybe once every three to five years, at least remember to come back.

Coming out of the bar, Fu Shiyu didn't ask for a substitute driver. He drove Xiangdu slowly around the city and north of the city. He looked out the window and said nothing.

The city at night is much quieter than in the daytime, but the lights are gorgeous. Xiang Du knew that Fu Shiyu wanted to show him more about the city, and wanted to tell him that, if you look at this world, it's actually not that bad. poor.

Xiang Du asked, "Do you really think life is good?"

"At least it's not that bad." Fu Shiyu replied, "Like the vegetable seller you mentioned, when you didn't see it, maybe he distributed the leftovers to those who couldn't afford the vegetables. It's not so bad to think of it that way, is it?"

Xiang Du laughed so hard that he coughed up tears, "You..."

"That's it, it's fine."

None of them can convince anyone.

Xiang Du was still wiping tears from his laughter, but Fu Shiyu suddenly turned the steering wheel, slammed on the brakes and stopped the car on the side of the road. Before Xiang Du could ask what was wrong, he opened the door and got out of the car.

Xiang Du saw Fu Shiyu running towards a person on the bench by the street, he probably knew someone, that place was outside the range of street lights, and it was dark, Fu Shiyu could see someone there, Recognizing it, Xiang Du gave a thumbs up in his heart, awesome.

Cheng Shu was sitting alone on the bench smoking. He drank a lot of wine and his mind was a little confused. He could only rely on continuous smoking to refresh himself a little.

Suddenly a familiar voice came from his ear, Cheng Shu raised his head and saw Fu Shiyu walking towards him.

Fu Shiyu asked, "Why are you here in the middle of the night?"

Cheng Shu pointed to the hotel [-] meters away, and Fu Shiyu saw that he was a little well-behaved, and knew that this person was probably unconscious again.

Fu Shiyu squatted in front of him: "Did you just finish eating at the hotel?"

Cheng Shu nodded, then shook his head again, his voice hoarse: "It's been a while since the end."

"What are you doing sitting here?" Fu Shiyu frowned, "Drinking when you've recovered from your injury?"

Cheng Shu was only wearing a shirt, and Fu Shiyu reached out to touch it, and the wind made him completely cool.

Cheng Shu avoided his hand, took the last puff of the cigarette, threw it into the trash can beside him, frowned and said, "I don't want to move."

Fu Shiyu wanted to pull him up, but Cheng Shu was a little annoyed, and said angrily, "Don't touch me."

Fu Shiyu's face instantly turned cold. He was still a little bit angry with Cheng Shu, so he didn't want to be like a drunk, but the drunk couldn't see the situation clearly and didn't appreciate it.

Fu Shiyu grabbed Cheng Shu's arm and pulled him up to walk into the car. Cheng Shu struggled to shake off his hand, but Fu Shiyu turned his head and said coldly, "Don't move!"

Fu Shiyu was quite bluffing when he got tough, Cheng Shu pursed his lips, the two confronted each other for half a minute, Cheng Shu pulled Fu Shiyu's hand away, and said, "I'll go by myself, don't touch me."

Fu Shiyu didn't force him anymore, and followed him, Xiang Du leaned against the car door and whistled: "Why, did you pick someone up in the middle of the night? Yo, she's still a beautiful woman."

Fu Shiyu threw Xiang Du into the driver's seat: "Shut up, go and drive."

Xiang Du watched as Fu Shiyu opened the back door and sat in, and went to the driver's seat without complaint, and he didn't forget to remind: "Let me tell you first, I haven't touched a car for three or four years, so I might be a little unstable at the beginning. "

As soon as he got off the car, he jumped out of the car. Fu Shiyu was almost dodged from his seat, and hurriedly touched Cheng Shu's forehead that hit the glass just now: "Are you all right?"

Cheng Shu shook his head, only then did Fu Shiyu have the heart to scold Xiang Du angrily: "You fucking drive well, three people will die in one car, brother still wants to live well."

Xiang Du gestured that there was no problem, and slowed down the car: "For the sake of my brother's love, I will not drive to seek death for the time being."

Cheng Shu's skin was fair, and when he hit the glass just now, his forehead immediately turned red, which was very obvious.Fu Shiyu's heart ached so much that he wanted to rub his hands but was angry, Cheng Shumu closed his eyes and leaned on the car seat to rest.

Fu Shiyu endured and endured, and finally scolded himself in his heart as if he was giving up, then took off his coat and covered Cheng Shu.Cheng Shu didn't move. After a while, he reached out and grabbed the coat, and buried his face in it.

Fu Shiyu heard Cheng Shu muttering something softly. Cheng Shu had nothing wrong with being drunk, just chatterbox.In the cold wind blowing drunk and still able to suppress it, but now he can't hold it anymore, and his presumptuous mind is boundless.

The car was very quiet, although Cheng Shu's voice was soft, Fu Shiyu and Xiang Du could hear it clearly.

"Zhang Hua was admitted to Peking University, Li Ping entered a secondary technical school, and I worked as a salesperson in a department store: we all have a bright future."

This sentence was popular in their class for a while. When the Chinese teacher gave an example in class, there was booing and laughter. After that, several versions came out. Bai Lai often said: "Cheng Shukao I got [-] points, sister Qiu got [-] points, I got [-] points, we all have a bright future."

Fu Shiyu thinks it makes sense, using Mencius's "Born in Sorrow, Died in Peace" "Shunfa is in the farmland, Fu Shuo is in the middle of the board, Jiaoge is in the fish and salt, Guan Yiwu was promoted to the scholar, Sun Shuao was promoted to the sea, and Baili Xi was promoted to the city" to stand for the Chinese teacher and Xinhua Dictionary.Besides, there is nothing wrong with being a driver, a mechanic, or a salesperson.

Cheng Shu picked up a pen and erased the last two sentences of the sentence that Fu Shiyu wrote on the paper, and only circled the first sentence.Fu Shiyu said that he was discriminated against by profession, but Cheng Shu looked at that and didn't answer.

Cheng Shu opened his eyes, reached out and grabbed Fu Shiyu's arm forcefully.

"I was admitted to university, went abroad, became a teacher, and bought a house..." His voice was choked with inaudible sobs, "Do I have a bright future?"

Fu Shiyu didn't know why his heart felt sour, and he wiped Cheng Shu's red eyes with his fingers: "Yes."

Cheng Shu let go of him, leaned back in the chair and closed his eyes.

Fu Shiyu heard him say, "I don't believe it."

Xiang Du went to live in a hotel, and when he got off the car, he glanced at Cheng Shu who was asleep in the back seat, repeated "We all have a bright future", smiled self-deprecatingly, and waved goodbye to Fu Shiyu.

Fu Shiyu parked the car downstairs in his house, opened the window and smoked a couple of cigarettes silently, then opened the rear door, Cheng Shu nestled on the back seat in an awkward position, if he slept like this, he would definitely have a stiff neck.

Fu Shiyu looked at his uneasy sleeping face, but was a little reluctant to wake him up, and finally coaxed Cheng Shu to lie on his back, and carried Cheng Shu home.

After entering the room, Fu Shiyu put Cheng Shu on the bed, then went to wash his hands and got hot water for him to wipe his hands and face. The redness on his forehead had faded by most of it, leaving only some inconspicuous traces. Fu Shiyu By accident, I leaned over and kissed it, and a voice in my heart said, it's fucked up again.

Cheng Shu's attraction to him was so strong for some reason, one wave finally calmed down, and another wave easily rose again.

"what are you doing?"

Fu Shiyu froze, and found that Cheng Shu was staring at him. He was extremely embarrassed for a while, "this" and "that" for a long time, but Cheng Shu suddenly raised his upper body, wrapped his arms around Fu Shiyu's neck, and pulled him towards him. She pulled down a little, and then kissed Fu Shiyu's lips.

There was a faint smell of cigarettes and alcohol in their mouths, mixed together, Fu Shiyu reached out to protect Cheng Shu's shoulders, and after being surprised, he kissed back more actively.

Cheng Shu squinted at him and called out, "Fu Shiyu."

Fu Shiyu hummed.

Cheng Shu sighed reassuringly, and stretched out his hands presumptuously to pick up Fu Shiyu's clothes. Fu Shiyu had already been rubbed hard by him, panting heavily, and licked his lips again, and then grabbed Cheng Shu's clothes. Hand, kiss the little mole on his finger.

"Not today, you are drunk, we have to wait until you wake up."

Cheng Shu was dissatisfied: "I'm not drunk."

He muttered: "They all poured wine for me. There are many people and the teacher is here. I have to drink, and I can't make them angry."

Fu Shiyu changed him into his pajamas: "In the future, don't drink if you don't want to drink, or call me to drink for you."

"You're not here, I went to look for you at that time, but I couldn't find you..."

Fu Shiyu's heart was pounding: "When did you go to find me?"

Cheng Shu ignored his questions, and talked about his roommates in college, about the embarrassing things when he was studying abroad, how much he had to repay the mortgage in a month, how much the light in the corridor had to be repaired when it broke down, and in the end he even recited the money. He woke up the mathematical formula, and looked at Fu Shiyu after reciting a series.

Fu Shiyu forced a smile and said, "You recited it really well."

Cheng Shu was praised, and started to memorize the table of chemical elements again. Fu Shiyu smiled and kissed his chattering mouth: "Speaking a few words on weekdays seems to kill you, why do you talk so much when you're drunk?"

Cheng Shu seemed to say that he was tired, so he called out "Fu Shiyu" again. After Fu Shiyu agreed, he stopped talking, hugged Fu Shiyu's arm and closed his eyes. Fu Shiyu asked: " about to sleep?"

Cheng Shu responded, and obediently pulled off the quilt to cover herself, which was very worry-free.

Fu Shiyu rubbed his earlobe, and said softly, "Don't sleep yet, I'll ask you a question."

Cheng Shu closed his eyes and snorted dissatisfiedly, Fu Shiyu asked, "Do you like Fu Shiyu?"

Cheng Shu pursed his lips.

Fu Shiyu continued to coax: "Be good, tell me, do you like Fu Shiyu?"

Cheng Shu turned around and buried his face in the gap between Fu Shiyu and the bed, still silent, obviously resisting answering this question.

Fu Shiyu followed Cheng Shu's back, feeling that his breathing quickly calmed down and sprayed warmly on his waist and abdomen.Fu Shiyu sighed, pampered Cheng Shu's unhealthy hair on the back of his head, and lowered his head to kiss his slightly opened lips when he was asleep.

Facts have proved that Fu Shiyu was not fooled by Cheng Shu's drunken beauty, but he wanted to be Liu Xiahui even though his lower body was so hard, he was very prescient.

Cheng Shu is the same person when he is drunk and when he is awake, and when he opened his eyes, he turned his face and denied anyone.

Fu Shiyu was dissatisfied and said, "You were not like this last night."

Cheng Shu's eyes seemed to kill him: "How did I feel last night?"

Fu Shiyu tore off his pajamas as if showing off, and showed Cheng Shu his neck, which had two red marks on it: "Do you want me to reproduce it for you?"

Cheng Shu looked down at him, smiled suddenly, but his voice was still cold: "Didn't it be what Mr. Fu said, we are all grown up, it's just a flirt, what's the point? Mr. Fu is not such a person who can't afford it." Bar?"

Fu Shiyu withdrew his hand: "I'm sorry, I really am."

Cheng Shu got up and straightened his clothes: "Sorry, I'm not."

The door was closed by Cheng Shu with a bang, but the smile on Fu Shiyu's face disappeared, he stared at the closed door and gritted his teeth, he's drunk, shit, wait for you to wake up, he should have uncooked and cooked rice last night, without saying a word Cheng Shuqian died on the bed, making him unable to get out of bed today.This grandson is owed.

Fu Shiyu regretted so much that he began to think about the possibility of getting Cheng Shu drunk again and then abducting him to bed.

Fu Shiyu went to school in the afternoon and went to the School of Mathematics. Cheng Shu was indeed in the office. Fu Shiyu knocked on the door. Teacher Li saw him first and exclaimed enthusiastically: "Mr. Fu! It's been a long time since I came here. How is it, do you have any interest in dating recently?"

Fu Shiyu originally wanted to refuse, but when he saw Cheng Shu, he suddenly changed his mind and said with a smile, "Yes."

The unexpected answer made Teacher Li startled for a moment, and then delighted. Just as he was about to speak, Fu Shiyu said, "I met someone recently, and I want to fall in love with him."

Teacher Li was a little disappointed, and immediately cheered up: "Who is it from our school? Is it the teacher?"

Fu Shiyu: "I guess so..."

Teacher Li was obviously dissatisfied: "Yes, yes, no, no, what's going on? We've only known each other for a few days, and you don't know your profession very well?"

Cheng Shu suddenly put the document in his hand on the desktop, stood up and interrupted the conversation between the two: "Did Teacher Fu come to see me?"

His voice was calm, but Fu Shiyu could barely hear a bit of gnashing of teeth, and smiled immediately: "I almost forgot, I came here to see Mr. Cheng for something, Mr. Li will talk about it next time."

Cheng Shu unceremoniously squeezed away from Fu Shiyu without even looking at him. When he arrived at the corner of the empty stairs, he stopped and asked, "What do you want to do?"

Fu Shiyu pretended to be stupid: "I didn't want to do anything, what's wrong with me?"

Cheng Shu said coldly: "It's best to be like this. I just came to Zeda, and I don't want to have anything to do with you, and I don't want to get involved in any homosexual rumors."

After talking too much, the smile on Fu Shiyu's face gradually disappeared, Cheng Shu felt that he had finished what he should say, and was about to walk away when he passed him, but Fu Shiyu grabbed his arm.

Fu Shiyu's face was a little gloomy: "Are you gay?"

Cheng Shu didn't speak.

Fu Shiyu asked again, Cheng Shu shook off his hand, and said in a low voice, "Don't keep mentioning that fucking word."

"Why can't you mention it?" Fu Shiyu stared at him, "What's so shameful about homosexuality? You should take it for granted, but you can't mention it?"

Cheng Shu's hands were tightly clenched into fists, trembling because of too much force, he whispered: "I don't want to quarrel with you here."

Fu Shiyu asked suddenly: "Cheng Shu, do you really want a bright future so much?"

"Who doesn't want it?" Cheng Shu looked at him and said word by word, "Of course I want it."

Obviously, when Cheng Shu asked him with a trembling voice last night if he had a bright future, Fu Shiyu said yes, he really hoped and believed that Cheng Shu had one, but now these five words seem ironic and despicable.

"Fu Shiyu, don't you know this better than anyone else?"

After Cheng Shu said this, he turned around and left. Fu Shiyu stood there for a long while, unable to help but want to laugh. Indeed, he knew this better than anyone else.