Greedy process

As the cold war dragged on, Fu Shiyu's mood changed from irritability to bewilderment, and the focus changed from "Cheng Shu and I quarreled, what should I do?" to "Why should I feel bad if I quarrel."

It wasn't until Fu Shiyu came across the goddamn dog food distribution scene by chance that a young couple kissed inseparably in the corner of the teaching building after school. Fu Shiyu knew the blushing person who was pressed against the wall. A boy in their class, named Sang Lin, was well-behaved on weekdays, handsome and well-bred, always smiling sweetly, and he was especially likable, even Huang He and his gang who were bullying and afraid of toughness rarely bothered him.It's just that Sang Lin's seat was far away from Fu Shiyu's, and the two of them only talked a few times occasionally, so they were not familiar with each other.

Fu Shiyu didn't have any opinion or interest in falling in love with obedient babies, except that the one who held Sang Lin's face and kissed him was also a man...

Fu Shiyu didn't move his feet for a long time, and when he finished the kiss and started talking stickily, he blushed and ran away quickly.

That night, Fu Shiyu tossed and turned, always thinking of that scene unconsciously. The appearance of the two men kissing and Cheng Shu's face kept switching in his mind. Fu Shiyu clamped the quilt tightly and blushed quietly.

A thought vaguely surfaced, making Fu Shiyu look forward to it and fear it at the same time. It was too shocking for him at the time. He didn't understand it, and he didn't dare to look at it carefully. If you stay inside, you can't come out.

Fu Shiyu fell into a rivalry with himself, so he didn't have much thought to deal with the cold war relationship with Cheng Shu, and he was a little cold towards Cheng Shu. Later, Cheng Shu was the first to pass the steps to him. When Fu Shiyu was in a trance and forgot to bring the after-school test paper from the previous day, he moved his paper to Fu Shiyu without saying a word.

This was already the lowest posture that Cheng Shu could put down. Who knew that Fu Shiyu would not show his affection, and propped himself up thousands of miles away from Cheng Shu. If Cheng Shu didn't know that there was nothing wrong with him, he would have thought he was farsighted.

Fu Shiyu and Cheng Shu kept their distance for half a class, and Cheng Shu took the paper back in a hurry, regardless of Fu Shiyu's life or death.

Fu Shiyu struggled for two days and made a phone call with Fu Shizhang. Fu Shizhang listened to him faltering for a long time, and when he finally figured out what was going on, he was very disdainful: "It's just such a crap thing, there's no need to waste it here. That much time?"

Fu Shiyu asked repeatedly: "Is this normal? It's not a big deal, is it?"

Fu Shizhang can't spit ivory out of his dog's mouth all the year round: "It's not important to like men and women, the important thing is whether someone can fancy you?"

"..." Fu Shiyu was not in the mood to choke with him, and asked, "Won't others find it strange?"

"Who are the others?" Fu Shizhang was obviously impatient, "It's none of their business? What do they think, and it's none of your business? It doesn't matter to my parents or me. Who can hold your head and keep you from letting you go?" Falling in love? I'll be the first to kill him."

Fu Shiyu was almost moved, and Fu Shizhang answered: "Oh, it's only for our side, the other party doesn't like you, so let's talk about it, I guess it can only kill you."

Amidst Fu Shizhang's continuous personal attacks, Fu Shiyu's heart finally fell to the ground, he was refreshed and suddenly realized that he remembered that his messy entanglements in the past few days were really stupid. I don't know what kind of dead end he got into , I was so excited that I just wanted to ask Sang Lin, who I didn't know very well, about his love experience, and I wanted to go to school to meet Cheng Shu at dawn.

Fu Shiyu's first heartbeat when he was a teenager was a bit shocking. He was really too young at that time, he didn't see many things clearly enough, and he would shrink and be afraid of unconventional things.The reconciliation between him and himself also dissolved the last secular shackles on him.

Unfortunately, Cheng Shu did not.

Fu Shiyu was lying on the bed thinking wildly, those things have passed for too long, and life is too complicated and diverse, there are countless new things to occupy attention, Fu Shiyu has not recalled the year in Rongcheng for a long time , thinking that they have long been yellowed, obsolete or even blurred in memory, but now it seems that this is not the case, at least the things related to Cheng Shu are still very clear.

Fu Shiyu's gaze stayed on a large bookcase against the wall. The top two floors were full of textbooks, which were neatly placed in it from elementary school to high school.

Fu Shiyu got out of bed, took out a physics book from the second row, and flipped it to the middle with ease. Next to the vast star map of the universe, a villain was drawn with a hash mark on his forehead. He looked angry and vivid. There are two words on it - "Cheng Shu", and a heart is added at the back in a very coquettish manner.

Beside the villain is a pig's head, the lines are strong through the back of the paper, one can tell that the person who wrote the pen was in an extremely unhappy mood, the lines are scribbled, one side of the pig's ears is big and the other is small, the round face is very distorted, only the nose plus two dots Accurate, below are three angry words - "Fu Shiyu".Fu Shiyu coquettishly added a heart on the back, and when Cheng Shu saw it, he snatched it and put a big cross on it.

For a period of time, Fu Shiyu nervously flipped through all the high school textbooks in the bookcase, looking for the traces left by Cheng Shu inside, there were very few, Cheng Shu was indifferent to his troubles most of the time, and only reacted when he was really anxious .After many years, the things related to Cheng Shu that he can leave behind are only a few sporadic things.

Fu Shi accidentally dialed a phone call.The phone rang and was hung up. Fu Shiyu persevered and dialed again, this time it was connected.

Thousands of miles away, Fu Shiyu could feel the evil spirit on Fu Shizhang's body: "30 seconds."

Fu Shiyu deliberately softened his voice and called out "Brother", the biting cold air from the other end was subdued, but he was still angry: "3 minutes."

Fu Shiyu: "Forget it."

Fu Shizhang sneered: "If you still want to keep a whole body, I advise you to think about it."

Fu Shiyu stared at the ceiling and was silent for a while, but Fu Shizhang seemed to have guessed something, and sneered, "Troubled by love?"

"That..." Fu Shiyu snorted, "Cheng Shu, do you remember?"

Fu Shizhang let out a heh heh, and became interested: "The one who dumped you."

"..." Fu Shiyu, "You fucking fart!"

Fu Shizhang was in a good mood to eat melons, so he didn't care about him, and said with a smile: "Do you dare to say that you dumped him?"

Fu Shiyu still has a bit of conscience. It's okay to do it once against his conscience, but he's a little embarrassed to do it twice, and he muttered guiltyly: "Is it okay to negotiate a breakup?"

"Since we are separated, it has nothing to do with you. Why mention him?"

"I'm suspicious..." Fu Shiyu snorted, "I don't mean that to him, do I?"

Fu Shizhang said lazily: "Okay boy, let me tell you, you are feeling uneasy after being dumped. You stumbled on this person in 30. Can you pay more attention to him? You can talk about it later. The few boyfriends I had, all broke up just after the period of passion, why?"

Fu Shiyu humbly asked, "Why?"

"Because you can't accept the stability after the passion, you take it as a precursor to breaking up, so the two of you quickly withdraw as soon as the relationship cools down. In the final analysis, it is the sequelae of being dumped once." Fu Shizhang sighed sincerely, sympathizing Said, "It's miserable, who made you fall in love at the age of sixteen or seventeen, and you didn't enjoy much of the beauty of love, and you were dumped so miserably."

Fu Shiyu nodded, thinking it made sense, and humbly asked again: "Then how do you know under what circumstances I broke up?"

Fu Shizhang paused with a schadenfreude smile, and said viciously, "3 minutes is up, shut up!"

Fu Shiyu's mood suddenly improved a lot. After all, it was a pleasure for him to make Fu Shizhang feel embarrassed.

Fu Shiyu smiled and said, "Okay, brother, goodbye."

The opposite party didn't hang up the phone immediately, Fu Shiyu was a little strange, and was about to ask what's the matter, when he heard Fu Shizhang's sudden and serious voice: "Fu Shiyu."

Fu Shiyu hummed suspiciously.

"Don't forget, it was the dog that died."

Fu Shiyu was silent suddenly, and Fu Shizhang's next sentence followed immediately: "If you should let go, let it go, your next shit is waiting for you."

Fu Shiyu gritted his teeth: "Fuck you." He hung up the phone first.

The phone was hung up, and the room fell into silence for a while. Fu Shiyu sat on the floor leaning against the bookcase, thinking of his anger, injustice, irritability, viciousness and all the abnormal bad emotions in the past not long ago, and finally frozen in this morning In the bathroom, Cheng Shu looked indifferent, looked at him in the mirror, and said, "Fu Shiyu, you don't have to do this."

There's no need for this... It's true, Fu Shiyu also understands.

He has seen a lot of people and understood some truths, and he will no longer impose his own standards on others as a matter of course. He is free and willful, but he also understands all snobbery and snobbery. And flattery, many people and many things can be called Buddhism, and it should not be targeted at all by Cheng Shu.

It was the dog that died, Fu Shiyu thought.

Fu Shizhang has used everything to ridicule Fu Shiyu since he was a child, but Fu Shiyu almost never avoids him in many things. On the one hand, Fu Shizhang has been perverted since he was a child. When Shiyu told others what happened first instead of telling him first, Fu Shiyu could be tortured by him. On the other hand, Fu Shiyu knew that Fu Shizhang was right in many cases. Shi Zhang knew him better than anyone else.

Fu Shiyu closed his eyes and sighed in his heart, I am becoming Walter, I am becoming that dead dog.

His anger is not only hurting Cheng Shu, but also imprisoning himself.

The pages of the book rattled, and the handwriting from many years ago was twisted and crumpled. Fu Shiyu let out a deep breath, threw the book into the bookcase, climbed onto the bed and rolled lazily.

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*It was the dog that died.

"Elegy: Mourning the Death of a Mad Dog": A man saves a dog, but later the dog turns against him, the dog bites the man, and the dog dies instead.

Somerset Maugham's "The Veil": Walter found out that his wife Katie was cheating, and tried his best to torture her psychologically. In the end, Walter got sick and said before he died: "It was a dog that died."