go with you

Qin Shu didn't know when he fell asleep. When he woke up, it was dark. Looking at his phone, there was no news from Zhan Yue. Qin Shu sorted out the things Zhan Yue left at home, put them in one place, and sent them for a long time. In a daze, he called Zhan Yue.

Zhan Yue fell on the floor, and didn't answer the phone until it rang for a long time. At this time, Zhan Yue didn't want to answer anyone's call, let alone Qin Shu's.

Qin Shu looked at the phone and hung up by himself, then sent a message to Zhan Yue and said, "Zhan Yue, let's break up."

Zhan Yue burst into tears looking at the text message sent by Qin Shu, and finally Zhan Yue took the key and went out.

When Zhan Guoxiong returned home, the house was pitch-dark, and Zhan Guoxiong turned on the light with trembling hands. He was relieved to see the card on the table and the luggage next to the table, and began to wash his hands and cook.

Zhan Yue opened the door with the key and saw Qin Shu wearing an apron cooking in the kitchen, Zhan Yue walked over and asked, "What are you cooking?"

Qin Shu looked back and saw Zhan Yue smiled and said, "Cooked noodles, do you want to eat?"

Zhan Yue nodded and said "yes"

Qin Shu put some noodles in the pot again, and when it was cooked, Qin Shu put the seasonings well, scooped the noodles into a bowl and mixed them well, brought them to Zhan Yue and said, "I don't put much soup, eat it quickly, or else It will be blurry for a while"

Zhan Yue took the chopsticks and started eating, and said "it's salty" as he ate

Qin Shu took a bite and said, "No."

Zhan Yue turned his head to look at Qin Shu with tears on his face, Qin Shu smiled and said, "Tears are salty"

Zhan Yue put down his chopsticks, pulled Qin Shu over and put his head against his head and said in a trembling voice, "Qin Shu, I may...maybe be separated from you for a while, maybe a few months, maybe a few years, maybe... decades... ...Qin Shu...Qin Shu!" Zhan Yue hugged Qin Shu and cried bitterly.

Qin Shu smiled all the time, kept patting Zhan Yue's back and said, "It's okay, it's okay..."

Zhan Yue hugged Qin Shu tightly, and after calming down, he let go of Qin Shu, gently touched Qin Shu's nose, eyes, and lips, then kissed Qin Shu lightly and said, "I love you forever!"

Qin Shu nodded with a smile and said, "I believe."

Zhan Yue put the key of Qin Shu's house in Qin Shu's hand and said, "I hope this key will never have an owner again, but I can't be so selfish, Qin Shu, I only want you to live well, as long as you... happy, you Don't lose weight..."

Qin Shu held the key in his hand and said "OK"

Zhan Yue packed the dishes and chopsticks into the kitchen and started to wash the dishes. Qin Shu was watching from the side. When the washing was finished, Zhan Yue looked at Qin Shu and finally smiled and said, "I'm leaving."

Qin Shu nodded, Zhan Yue opened the door and went out, when he went downstairs, he looked up at the window where Qin Shu lived, and vaguely saw Qin Shu's silhouette standing there, Zhan Yue's tears flowed down his chin Into the chest, hot heart bursts of pain.

Qin Shu watched Zhan Yue look up at himself, held the key tightly in his hand, and kept telling himself not to cry, it would be fine, it would pass!

When Zhan Yue returned home, Zhan Guoxiong had hung up his clothes again, and the food was already on the table. Zhan Yue sat down at the table and smiled, "Dad, how do you make so many delicious food? Are there any guests?"

Zhan Guoxiong smiled and said, "There are no guests, just us, so we have to eat better."

Zhan Yue picked up a shrimp with his chopsticks and asked, "Will you often cook in the future?"

Zhan Guoxiong replied, "I'll come back and cook for you when I have nothing to do. Don't eat out all the time. The food at home is nutritious and hygienic."

Zhan Yue nodded, picked up a shrimp for Zhan Guoxiong and said, "Dad, you can eat too."

After the two of them finished eating, Zhan Yue got up to clean up the dishes, washed and dried the dishes and put them in the disinfection cabinet. He went to the living room and sat next to Zhan Guoxiong to watch the news together. The two of them didn't mention anything about the day, just like Nothing ever happened.

Zhan Yue was lying on the bed. He looked fine on the surface, but he was suffering in his heart. He kept thinking about Qin Shu, wondering what happened to Qin Shu?Have you got a meal yet?Are you sad?Did you sleep well?You must be very disappointed in yourself, right?I promised myself that I would always be with him and not let him be alone, but I didn't do it. Zhan Yue has never hated himself like this, hated his incompetence, hated his failure, and even hated why he can act as if nothing happened. live.

Qin Shu sat in the bathroom, took the leaf on his neck and kissed it, closed his eyes and leaned against the wall, the coldness of the wall made Qin Shu feel cold all over, Qin Shu whispered, "Zhan Yue, Hug me, I'm so cold..." But Qin Shu knew that Zhan Yue would never hug him again, they had broken up and would never be together, no matter how cold he was, he would never let Zhan Yue know.

Zhan Yue opened his eyes and saw that the sky was already bright, and it was not until seven o'clock when he turned on his mobile phone. Zhan Yue called Qin Shu, and when Qin Shu answered, Zhan Yue said, "Qin Shu, what class do you have today? Let's go eat tonight How about baked tofu?"

Listening to Zhan Yue's voice, Qin Shu covered his chest with his hands and said coldly, "Zhan Yue, we have already separated, please wake up."

Zhan Yue was stunned for a while, as if he realized that he was indeed separated from Qin Shu. He listened to the phone call that Qin Shu hung up, and lay on the bed in a daze. After a while, Zhan Yue got up and went to the bathroom, and looked carefully at the mirror He looked at himself until his eyes turned red and tears fell, Zhan Yue wiped the mirror again and again with his hands, looked at himself in the mirror and said, "I am awake, I have always been awake"

Zhan Guoxiong was about to go out to work, seeing that Zhan Yue was still in the bathroom, he felt flustered in his heart, he clearly knew that Zhan Yue was a man, and he would not be like a little girl who would die when he broke up, but Zhan Guoxiong was still worried Zhan Yue did something terrible, Zhan Guoxiong went to the bathroom door and pushed the door, the door was locked, Zhan Guoxiong became even more flustered, and immediately slapped the bathroom door and shouted, "Zhan Yue! Zhan Yue! Zhan Yue!"

Zhan Yue never opened the door, Zhan Guoxiong turned around, raised his foot to kick the door, the door was pulled open by Zhan Yue, Zhan Yue looked at Zhan Guoxiong's raised foot and asked, "Dad, what are you doing?"

Zhan Guoxiong looked at Zhan Yue's foamy head and asked, "What did you stay for so long?"

Zhan Yue scratched his head and said "wash your hair"

With a dark face, Zhan Guoxiong pushed Zhan Yue away and walked to the bathroom, saying, "I want to go to the toilet! You want to suffocate your father!"

Zhan Yue asked strangely, "Isn't there a toilet in your room?"

The moment Zhan Guoxiong closed the door, he shouted, "I want to fuck again!?"

Zhan Yue laughed loudly, "Dad, do you want to have your kidney checked?"

Seeing that Zhan Guoxiong didn't return to him, Zhan Yue then shouted, "Dad, hurry up, I'm still washing my hair!"

When Zhan Guoxiong went out, Zhan Yue squatted in the bathroom holding his head full of foam and cried bitterly. Losing Qin Shuzhan would be painful for the rest of his life, and losing Zhan Guoxiong Zhan would be regretful for the rest of his life. Why should he let him be the most important thing in his life? There is a choice between two people, one gives him life, the other makes his life bright and splendid, if he loses his life, he will lose everything, but if he loses the color of his life, his life will fall into darkness, no matter which one he loses, Zhan Yue will be in pain!

Xie Kun was very surprised by Qin Shu's application to study abroad. In the past, Qin Shu would give up such an opportunity to others, but now Qin Shu took the initiative to fight for it. Xie Kun didn't want Qin Shu to go for further study. Kun is equivalent to losing one of the most important generals, but he can't help it. This is his future, and he can't cut off his future for his own selfishness. In the end, he signed it and waited for the document to be notified. .

Zhan Yue returned to school when he was half a month away from school. The day before he left, Zhan Yue secretly went to the hospital to read Qin Shu. He saw that Qin Shu looked as usual, in good spirits, not thin, talking and laughing with others , Zhan Yue felt sad and relieved, hid behind the door and looked at it with red eyes for a long time, then turned and went home to pack the things for returning to school.

When Zhan Yue arrived at the school, there were very few people, and it was still early to leave school. Zhan Yue had nothing to do, and spent every day in the Internet cafe. Later, he felt bored and went to the construction site to move bricks to play.

When Chen Liao and Zhang Huanlai saw Zhan Yue on the first day of school, they immediately showed horrified expressions. Zhang Huanlai asked, "Why did you go? You made yourself like this?"

Chen Liao really couldn't bear to look at Zhan Yue's dark and old face, covered his eyes and said, "Amitabha, what you can't see is pure."

Zhan Yue kicked Chen Liao and asked, "Where's Auntie?"

When Chen Liao heard Zhan Yue asking Xiao Yima, he immediately said angrily, "Don't mention this perverted thing!"

Zhan Yue "..."

Zhang Huanlai looked at Zhan Yue strangely and asked, "Are you okay? What did you do to make yourself like this? Cosplay Zhang Fei?"

Chen Liao retorted, "Of course it's Bao Zheng."

Zhan Yue sighed and said, "My name is work-study program, I'm going to move bricks to earn tuition fees."

Zhang Huanlai and Chen Liao almost died of laughter when they heard this, Zhang Huanlai covered his stomach and asked, "Is your brain broken by a brick? Move bricks? You didn't lie to me, did you?"

Chen Liao directly put the Coke bottle in his hand in front of Zhan Yue's mouth to interview and said, "Student, may I ask if you have any life insights from moving bricks? Share with everyone."

Zhan Yue actually said to the Coke bottle seriously, "I think the road of life is the Great Wall built with your own blood and tears. The more blood and tears you shed, the stronger the Great Wall you build. At that time, nothing can destroy the Great Wall.”

Chen Liao "..."

Zhang Huanlai looked at Zhan Yue for a while, put his arm on Zhan Yue's shoulder and said, "Since Lord Zhan has a salary, please have a drink."

Zhan Yue shook his head boldly and said, "No problem, let's go!"

Chen Liao kept watching Zhan Yue from behind, feeling that Zhan Yue was different from before.

As he was walking, Zhan Yue suddenly turned his head and said to Chen Liao, "Damn, I forgot to put on makeup."

Chen Liao expressed his confusion, and Zhan Yue continued, "Shouldn't I wear makeup when I'm on camera?"

Chen Liao: Still the original Zhan Yue!

The three of them came to a slow shake bar. It was early and there were fewer people. The three of them found a secluded place to sit down, called the bartender to serve the wine, and sipped it slowly.

Zhang Huanlai looked at Zhan Yue and asked, "What happened?" After asking, he pointed at Zhan Yue and said, "Don't lie."

Zhan Yue turned the wine glass in a daze, and when Chen Liao and Zhang Huanlai were about to run out of patience, he slowly said, "Qin Shu and I separated."

Zhang Huanlai didn't say anything, picked up the wine glass and touched Zhan Yue's wine glass, and drank the wine in his hand.

Chen Liao asked with wide eyes in disbelief, "Did you cheat or Qin Shu dumped you? Aren't you two always loving and harmonious? Why...how did you break up?"

Zhan Yue smiled wryly, "Because we are both men."

Chen Liao was stunned for a moment, leaned back and drank the wine in his hand.

The three of them just sat like that, didn't talk for a while, just kept drinking, you wish me a happy birthday, I wish you an early birth to a precious son, talking nonsense, with the intention of getting drunk.