Selfishness

"Little master! You are finally back! Have you recovered from your injury? How did you get hurt? It's all because An Feng didn't follow! An Feng is ashamed of my little master." As he spoke, he began to snot and cry.

"Anfeng..." I said speechlessly, "I'm fine, let everyone go to rest."

My injuries haven't recovered completely, and I really can't stand the rush all night.

"Shuisheng! What's wrong with you!" Chen Hui caught my body that fell off the horse.

"I'm fine, just a little tired."

"Woo, it's all because of An Feng's nagging! Little master can't do anything!"

Chen Hui used his lightness kung fu and quickly ran towards the Mo residence.

"Xu'er, you're awake! You haven't moved." Dad turned around and shouted, "Xiaoyun! Xu'er is awake."

"Daddy, I'm fine, I'm just tired."

"Hey! You child, you really worried me to death! The princess scared me to death when she carried you into the mansion."

"I'm sorry, Dad, for worrying you."

Daddy lovingly patted my head and said, "Silly boy, I'm sorry for what you said to Daddy. Take care of your injuries and don't worry about other things."

"father."

Dad who was about to go out heard me calling her, looked back at me, and sat down again.In fact, I was a little scared, thinking that I almost died at that time, and I also thought of the killing on the battlefield.

"I heard you went to the battlefield." Dad really understands me very well.

"Yes." I whispered back.

Dad hugged me in his arms and said softly: "As expected of a descendant of my Mo family, so brave. Even better than your father and me."

"Really?" Dad is a famous "God of War" figure.

"The first time I went to the battlefield was 14 years old. I followed my father and was also at the border. At that time, a small group of enemies attacked a village outside the Great Wall, and we took people to rescue. I still remember very clearly that in that village the cry of the flames, the sound of the flames bursting, and the cries of my enemies who fell by my sword."

I grabbed my father's clothes tightly, and the sound of fighting on the battlefield kept echoing in my head.

"I was stunned for a long time. The enemy's knife swung at me, but I didn't respond. Then I was stabbed abruptly. The pain made me wake up, and I started to help my comrades kill the enemy." After a pause, my father Said, "Xu'er, no one likes to kill, we just have nothing to do. You don't need to blame yourself. Although it's a bit heartless to say this, it's good to get used to it. I got used to it when I went to the battlefield later."

"Daddy, I think killing people is disgusting."

"Yes. So every time I go to battle and kill the enemy, I will already take a good bath, and then sit in the courtyard with your mother, drinking tea and chatting. Every time I see your mother smiling and talking to me, I don't care about anything .” Dad laughed.

"Pfft. Good way."

Daddy laughed too.I suddenly thought of Qin Ling, and I had some doubts in my heart, so I asked, "Father, I met someone at the border. Although I didn't get along with her for a long time, I thought she was an interesting person. So I told her the recent things, hoping that she can Leave the border and come back to Zhonghu City with me. You also know that this border may not be able to hold. But she doesn't want to leave. I really don't understand why. She knows she will die, but she still wants to stay? She said no It’s not right to be concerned, she has a person she cares about in Midlake City, but even so, she didn’t come back with me. Why is this? Is such a sacrifice really meaningful?”

"Any death is meaningful. Xu'er, everyone on the battlefield didn't want to die, but when their fate came, they left. She must have a reason for not leaving."

"She said that if she left, the morale of the border would be unstable. Because she was Xiao Han's lieutenant, this time she was implicated and demoted to an ordinary sergeant guarding Youguan."

"Her position was once so high, so her prestige in the army is naturally not small. If she really leaves you, she will indeed lose the morale of the army as she said. And this will make her known as a deserter and lose her reputation. , it may be difficult to lead the army in the future. You have to know that in this army, reputation is a powerful weapon."

"How can this reputation be so important? It's so important that you have to defend it with your life?"

"Isn't it? As a soldier, she must care very much."

"Why don't you consider other people's feelings? What will her relatives think?" He Yuan still doesn't know Qin Ling's situation. If something happens to Qin Ling, what will He Yuan do?For He Yuan, Qin Ling is the only one to rely on.

"Since there is such attachment, why are you afraid of life and death?"

I thought of what I said to Chen Hui that day, love is not the only important thing.I said it so easily at the time, but now when I encounter Qin Ling, I still blame her for being ruthless.Is giving up love a heinous crime?I just don't want to see a beautiful woman mourning someone for the rest of her life.I can't bear to think of He Yuan's weak appearance. What if she never sees Qin Ling again?So, I don't care about military glory.Tied also tied her back!

Daddy stayed with me for a while, then Su Yun came in, holding the medicine.After taking the medicine, I told them to take a rest, so I let them go out first.After they left, I summoned the hidden guards of the Eagle Hall and told them to go to the border immediately and tie Qin Ling back.

"You have to keep her safe! If she doesn't want to, just knock her unconscious and bring her back."

The dark guard agreed and left, leaving me alone in the yard.

"Shuisheng? Why are you sitting here?"

"Huh?" My confused thoughts were interrupted.

"Don't you want to rest?" She came over, sat next to me, and put the shawl on me.

"Chen Hui, do you blame me? I'm talking about the conversation that day." I blamed Qin Ling's choice, did Chen Hui also feel resentment?

"Why are you to blame?" She said a little funny.

"I said love isn't the only thing that matters."

"You're right, how can I blame it."

"Then why, I blame Qin Ling. I blame her for choosing the border and giving up Heyuan."

"Since it is a choice, it will naturally not be exhaustive. It is a pity to be left with the choice."

"Pfft, Chen Hui will give up on me and choose something else."

"will not!"

"But aren't you going back to Langzhou? Then it will be very difficult for us to see each other again." I asked her with a smile, saying that it was a lie that there was no teasing.

"Take care of those things and I'll be back."

"Those? It will take a long time for the war to stop. The things you mentioned are all time-consuming and troublesome things. This world is not easy to come by, Chen Hui should concentrate on this."

"The world does not contradict you."

Whoops, I forgot how eloquent this woman is.Actually, I was just asking randomly and didn't expect to get an answer.

"Chen Hui, I still can't give you what you want." I've always been a spectator about love, I didn't understand it, and I didn't step into it.

"I just want you to stay by my side." She took my hand and said, "You once said you wanted to marry the emperor, then I can go to this world, how about you marry me then?"

I have almost forgotten the shameful words I once said.

"It's just a joke, don't take Chen Hui seriously."

After I finished speaking, her complexion began to look a little ugly.It hurts to say that, but how can I promise something that I can't be sure of.

"What you said, I take it seriously." She whispered, "I will leave at dawn tomorrow. If you are not in good health, don't come to see me off."

"You don't want me to send you off."

"Yes." She stroked my face and said, "I'll see you next time, and I won't be a little princess again." She emphasized the words "little princess" and smiled a little.

laugh. "Little Princess" has always been called by us in private, when did she hear about it.

"Yes yes yes, I have to call the little princess Your Majesty the Queen from now on." We all laughed, whether it was a happy smile or a helpless one.

I think she blamed me a little bit, so she didn't let me see her off, and it would be a lie to say that she wasn't disappointed.I have never quite understood my feelings, like now, am I sad or guilty?