[Comprehensive] One-eyed king with different abilities

"For being human, I'm sorry."

Mr. Mafia's prospective cadre, sitting at his desk, wrote this sentence on the first page of the book.

This sentence seemed to penetrate his whole life.

[Disqualification in the World] is his innate supernatural ability, and "Complete Suicide Manual" is the "Life Enlightenment Book" that he regards as a sacred scripture.

Some middle school students like to write their academic goals on the first page of the book, just below the title.

And he wrote his "life" under the words [complete suicide].

As if to prove something.

Perhaps [Complete Suicide] is my academic goal.he thinks.

To be more specific, his motto is [suicide that is clear and full of vigor].

His good friend Oda Sakunosuke dreams of becoming a novelist.He is constantly working hard for it and has his own unique persistence.He adopts orphans and never kills.In the eyes of others, he is a strange person who wastes all his knowledge.

In his short life, he met many strange people.

For example, Ango Sakaguchi, who likes to write down the life of the deceased and bind it into a book, puts it in the report and forces the leader to read it.

For example, Ye Shenyue wants to create a new world without crime, and does not hesitate to associate with demons.

For example, Chuya Zhongyuan, who is not human but values ​​love and righteousness.

For example——the "he" who was rescued from the river by Odasaku with him.

Among these strange people, Oda Sakunosuke and Sakaguchi Ango became his friends, Yagami lost his game with the world, and Nakahara became his partner who hated each other but had a perfect understanding.

What about "he"?

What role will he play in the future?

Just by looking at each other by the river, he heard the essence of the boy's eyes.

"To be alive is such a difficult thing to breathe."

Strong longing for freedom, but can only sob silently.

At this moment, his heart was clamoring, resonating, and screaming silently—it was him!

The one who can go to the abyss of loneliness together——is him!

He lowered his eyes and looked cold.

So what?

What about the same kind?

Leaving aside the repulsion of the same kind, I feel sad when I see myself. Can seeing a similar guy still be redeemed?

Nonsense.

He felt a lack of interest.

But he sat on the edge of the bed and waited for him to wake up.

How would you feel when you woke up and found yourself alive?

He thought maliciously.

He woke up under his gaze, and when he opened his eyes, he was helpless, confused and soft.

Only there was no look in his eyes that he wanted to see.

Why?

What is it - let you pick up the hope of life again?

Oh, so it turns out that you lost the memory that made you want to die?

What kind of experience can make people fall into the abyss?Perhaps it was a great misfortune.

There was no mercy in Dazai's eyes.

There are always all kinds of unfortunate people in this world—no, it is no exaggeration to say that there are all unfortunate people in this world.

Compassion, which is useless and weak, is an emotion that the mafia does not need.

So, in front of you, what kind of wish do you live with?If you regain your memory, will you fall into despair again?

If only I could cry with a red nose.

What a pity, in the river of sorrow,

Only met me.

tell me--

Exactly why—

Whether it's you in despair, or you in hope.

Do you always have the desire to become human in your eyes?

Ok.

Just let me see if you can re-enter the [human] world.

— along with my share.

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The author has something to say:

A very short episode, mainly because I wanted to write about Osamu Dazai's thoughts, so I came up with it.