do not want to reincarnate

I met him in autumn. That day, I was still riding my bicycle slowly back to the rented house as usual.

When I turned a corner, I collided with his car, and I fell down with the car, and I was dazed for a while.

As he helped me up, I saw his nervous face, frowning and looking at me.

"I'm sorry, are you okay, do you want to go to the hospital?"

I listened to him talking and looked at him. He was much taller than me. No wonder he didn't fall when I fell. My thigh hurts and my hand hurts. I got a big scrape on my little arm.

I said, "Dude, why are you running my way at this turn? You almost hit my little brother. Your thigh hurts. Do you think there's something wrong?"

He was stunned by my blunt words, and asked me, "Then what should I do?"

I said, "Send me home, what should I do?"

He was confused at the time. I didn’t expect that he took all Grandpa Mao from his wallet and gave me them. I counted them when I returned to the rented house, and there were twelve. At that time, my daily salary was only 60 yuan, which was more than half a month’s salary.

He stuffed the money to me, took out a pen from his pocket and wrote the number, it was his number, and told me to call him if there was anything to do, and left me as an injured person.

For the sake of money, I dragged my bicycle back to my rented house without any complaints.

The injury looked serious. Her thigh was blackened and her knee was bleeding. The next day, she felt pain when she moved her leg. It cost more than 100 yuan to go to the hospital.At that time, I had no money to spend, so I went to buy a smart phone and sent my flip phone back home for my sister to play with.

I entered his number into my contacts with the heart of trying, registered the popular QQ at that time, and saw his number when I jumped out of the address book. Excited and excited by novelty, I clicked to add him as a friend.

I still remember when I remarked "the person you hit."

He agreed, and the first sentence asked me: "It's you, how is your injury?"

I took a photo for him, the thighs were so black and purple, I said, "It's okay."

He has a simple and cute personality, and immediately sent me a red envelope of 200 yuan. He said he didn't have much money, and he was very sorry for bumping into me.

I laughed at him stupidly at the time, and didn't tell him that he looked amazing and spent more than 100 yuan in medical expenses.

Later I learned that he chatted with me at first because he felt guilty about me, then he chatted with me because he thought I might be lonely, and later we were together because he loved me...

When I came back to work after the Chinese New Year, my mother made a lot of zongzi for me. I couldn’t finish them all. Personally, I was really lonely in my heart. Looking at the long-haired zongzi, I shed tears alone.

I thought of him. At that time, he was silly and simple in my impression. I cut the zongzi into pieces and boiled them, and sent a message to ask him if he had time?

He answered me quickly and said yes.

I sent him an address and asked him to come to me and treat him to rice dumplings. I was afraid that he would not come, so I took a video for him to prove that I am not a bad person.

He came, we met for the second time, he was wearing very good clothes, the kind of high-end clothes hanging in the cabinet in the mall, wearing a pair of black shiny leather shoes, stepping on the uneven concrete road, looking at me again A few square meters of house, I suddenly regret calling him.

He didn't dislike it, and sat on a plastic stool, which was out of tune with my environment.

He said, "You made it yourself? It's delicious."

I dare not say that the skin of this zongzi is full of hair. I said that the family can't finish it. He took one and ate it. He said it was delicious.

I was happy in my heart, after all, I didn't waste my mother's heart. I ate all the zongzi with him, and our friendship is no longer limited to the Internet.

On weekends, I would date him, mostly I would date him, thinking about it, every time he would date me, he would give me something, a bag of hard-to-buy fruit for me to taste, I always wanted to buy it but was reluctant to spend money Bought roller skates and more...

There are very good reasons and I can't refuse.

I don’t have many friends in my life, and I don’t talk much. In fact, I have low self-esteem. It’s not that I don’t look good. It’s just that I look good. My eyebrows are pretty, and my skin is white. Many girls have my eyes. Envious, big eyes and long eyelashes look like fake ones, for which my colleagues thought they were fake eyelashes and pulled them many times.

My inferiority complex comes from one time when I was a child. I was afraid of being discovered by others. I am not good at communicating with people, but I really long for a group of friends not to ignore me and fight around.

But I can't be a talkative person...

A girl in the department chased me, and I never paid her any attention. She quit her job because of my ruthless refusal.

There was also a girl in another department chasing me, and I ignored her, she didn't care about my ignorance, and always came to me.

For my birthday in June, the girl who was chasing me gave me a box of chocolates and forced them on me.

I was surprised when he came to me that night with a cake, after all, I've never had a cake.

When he saw the chocolate in my hand, he teased which girl gave it to me. When I was asked, I didn't know how to answer, so I gave him the chocolate.

He smiled and stuffed it into his pocket.

The birthday present he gave me was a watch, and I kept it with me until it broke by itself, and I cried out of sight, so I put it away.

Putting on the short sleeves, the scar on the forearm was exposed. When I went to the park with him that day, he grabbed my hand with guilt, reminding me that I spent his 2000 yuan in vain. Give me 600 yuan.

During the Mid-Autumn Festival of that year, he told me that he was going to go to work in other places. He said that there were better jobs in other places.

He gave me a box of mooncakes during the Mid-Autumn Festival. For the first time, I bought a box of expensive mooncakes for him.

Later, he sent me a message, saying that he was on the car going to another city, and attached a photo of the car. I suddenly felt that the air around me was oppressive and uncomfortable, and I didn't understand why I was crying.

Time will make people get used to many things. After a month passed, I got used to chatting with him on the Internet again, but the messages I sent were getting less and less replies, and slowly disappeared.

I thought he gave up our friendship. I knew that he and I were people from two different worlds. He and I were incompatible with each other. When I bought a catty of apples, I cared about how much it cost, and when I bought a cantaloupe, I picked the rotten ones that were left over. a lot of.

I thought he disliked me. I thought about calling him many times, and finally decided to call him, but a woman answered. " mechanical sound.

I understand that I'm just his ordinary friend who can't be more ordinary. I always look for him. He didn't refuse me to talk to me. What he asked me to give me was just to make up for me because he bumped into me.

I cried again, crying that I was too self-righteous, crying that I was pathetic.

He called me shortly after that day, I was at work and the signal was bad, I knew it was him and I was agitated, but the damn internet disconnected me before I could even hear a word from him.

I have never been so anxious to get off work, and I look forward to him calling me when I get off work. I think he will call me again and I will definitely answer.

Yet he didn't fight.

It didn't take long to meet again. That weekend, I slept late, and someone knocked on the door early in the morning. It was his voice!I woke up instantly, and I didn't have time to take care of myself. I wanted to see him so much, so I hurried to open the door.

With messy hair, I scratched his eyebrows a few times in embarrassment when I saw him frown. I felt his eyes changed and became sharper. I knew that he had grown from simplicity to maturity after being tempered by society.

I didn't even know how to receive him, I didn't know why he came, he looked around when he came in, and asked me: "What happened to the phone that day and the message didn't return to me, and no one answered the call today."

I only had the word "message" in my mind, and I looked at my phone hurriedly, because I was afraid that the alarm clock on my phone would disturb me, so I turned off all the sounds. There were more than [-] missed calls. I looked at the phone in shock, and saw more than a dozen unread messages.

After I explained his question, he frowned again, and I suddenly felt unreasonable fear, the man I thought was innocent, matured to scare me.

I took care of myself. The clothes I was wearing were bought last year. Because they were yellow cuffs, they were a bit dirty. He asked me if I didn’t buy any clothes this year?

I said last year that you can wear it and don't buy so many.

That day, I was dragged by him to buy clothes, the kind of clothes that I would never dare to buy in the cabinets of the mall.

He was angry for the first time, and with a serious face he didn't want me to try it on and buy it directly. I felt that my self-esteem was humiliated.I'm a man, I don't have money, I can use my own money to buy clothes that I can afford, I don't need him to buy them for me, I can't afford such expensive clothes.

He looked at me coldly, I was afraid, I was afraid that I would lose him as a friend because of this, but he just looked at me and dragged me to a high-end barber shop for a haircut.

With a completely new look, I was amazed by myself in the mirror, so delicate, the girl in the barber shop praised me as prettier than girls.

I don't like some words that remind me of bad memories from my childhood.

He slept in the same bed with me that night. It was the first time I slept with someone else. It was very uncomfortable. I was afraid. It’s okay to say that I’m a bit persecuted, even if that person treats me well. When I knew it, there was a person sleeping next to me.

I didn't fall asleep until the middle of the night. The moment his hand touched my face, I opened my eyes in horror and hid aside.

He was stunned, and I could see clearly that he was also stunned.

I said I'm not used to sleeping with people.

He apologized to me: "Pull down the quilt for you, I didn't expect to scare you."

I nodded with lingering fear, a little embarrassed, he seemed to see my embarrassment, and suggested that he make the floor by himself.

I was really scared, watching him laying down on the floor, I dared to lie on the bed again after lying down, and I was worried that the secret would be discovered in my heart.

He was leaving the next day, and I had to go to work. He said he had something to call, and I nodded blankly. That's it, I didn't send him to the station, and my heart was empty on the way to work by bike.