Bandits at night

The author has something to say: I don’t mind pulling a light

The next morning, I still went to class.

Before leaving, I cooked a bowl of porridge for him, wrote a note and put it beside the bed.

My heart is actually mixed with satisfaction and regret.

What is satisfying is that my long-cherished wish finally came true——When Jiang Lei lay under me last night, his expression was enough for me to recall for the rest of my life. What I regret is that it is difficult to explain to the old man by doing so. Besides, it is not me who provokes Jiang Lei at this time style.

After the morning class, I bought Jiang Lei's favorite dishes based on previous observations. When I returned to the apartment, Jiang Lei was sitting on the sofa watching TV as if nothing had happened.

This time it turned out to be an animation.

I raised my eyebrows, threw my backpack on the sofa, walked to the kitchen with the ingredients, and asked, "Do you like watching cartoons?"

"..."

I also expected that he would not answer, this kind of question always seemed boring to him.

I turned on the induction cooker and was about to take out the ingredients and seasonings and start cooking, when I felt a pair of hands around my waist from behind.

Jiang Lei hugged me from behind, resting his head on my shoulder: "Just looking around."

I realized that he was answering my question just now.

Cursing the corners of my mouth, I reached out and turned off the induction cooker, turned around and leaned in to kiss him.

Jiang Lei didn't refuse, and responded attentively.

Looking at the rare active man, a thought suddenly popped up in my heart, if it goes on like this, it seems not bad?

I forcibly suppressed this unreliable thought, cupped Jiang Lei's face with one hand, and kissed him more forcefully, and gradually explored irregularly with the other hand.

……

The days passed in peace day by day.

Jiang Lei and I seem to have broken the routine life before. Sometimes I would buy him supper after returning from self-study, and watch TV together while eating and chatting. I also started to teach him how to cook a few simple and easy-to-cook dishes , Occasionally rolling 'sheets at night...

However, in fact, there will always be a day when the calm will be broken.

Although it's not that I haven't imagined this day, but when this day comes, the situation is still beyond my expectations.

On Saturday, due to tomorrow's holiday, we all drank more than usual, and this time it was more intense...

As a result, halfway through, he suddenly said to me, "I'm leaving."

I looked up at him.

He said: "My injury is almost healed, and they haven't stayed around recently. It's time for me to leave. Staying any longer will drag you down."

I was speechless for a long time.

I also feel a little uncomfortable in my heart.

Before I figured out how to explain to the old man, he took the initiative to help me make a decision?

drag?Why didn't I see him worry about this before?

"Jiang Lei...don't leave, okay?" I kissed him rather unwillingly, then moved my lips from his mouth to his cheeks and ears, and asked vaguely.

He gasped in a low voice, didn't answer, only hugged me harder.

When he woke up the next day, Jiang Lei didn't leave.

He smoked silently by the bed.

I rested my hands on the pillow, rested my head on them, looked at the ceiling and said nothing.

I waited for him to ask me that sentence.

After a while, he really asked.

"Who the hell are you?" He exhaled a puff of smoke, looking tired.

It is not surprising that he would ask this question.

"How do you know my name? I never told you." He said slowly.

Last night, I hugged him and called him Jiang Lei.

He hadn't lost his mind, there was no way he hadn't heard.

As he said, he never told me his name.

Jiang Lei's expression was hidden in the smoke and he couldn't see clearly, and his tone couldn't hear any joy or anger.

"Do you know those people that day?"

It took me a long time to say, "Let's get to know each other..."

He seemed to laugh at himself: "Is Yu Ze your real name?"

"..."

"Tang Yuze, is this your name?"

I didn't say anything, it was the default.

Jiang Lei sighed, and put out the cigarette in the ashtray on the bedside table.

"Why are you hiding it from me? Have you been waiting for this day?" Jiang Lei told me bit by bit what I was thinking: "I have played with me enough, now I am satisfied, my goal has been achieved, are you going to hand me over?" ?”

"The first sentence is right, I was waiting for this day, but I really didn't want to play tricks on you." I said honestly, "I don't think you betrayed my dad, you are not that kind of person."

"How well do you know me? How do you know I'm not that kind of person?" Jiang Lei looked at me and sneered, then took the clothes from the bedside and began to wear them.

"Are you leaving?" I asked.

He sat on the edge of the bed and didn't speak, but his every move gave an affirmative answer.

"Let's take a break before leaving..." I hesitated, and said, "You... it should still hurt..."

His body froze, and his face suddenly sank.

I quickly fell silent.

"Why didn't you tell Boss Tang?" He quickly regained his composure, and after getting dressed, he turned his head to ask me.

I heard him address the old man, and thought to myself, if he is really a traitor, why would he still call the old man the boss?While pondering in my heart, I said, "I said yesterday... I like you."

Jiang Lei smiled: "...do you like me?"

"Yes."

"How much do you like me?" He asked suddenly.

"..."

I froze for a moment, realizing that the other person seemed to be asking a difficult question for me.

Before I could speak, he interrupted me.

"Yu... there is something that I may not have said to you." Jiang Lei looked at me seriously.

"what?"

He was silent for a long time, I thought he was going to scold me in the next second, but what he said made me stunned for a long time.

He said, "I love you."

"..."

"I love you... Tang Yuze, I love you too when I know who you are," he spoke slowly, but I felt that these words passed through my ears quickly, without leaving any traces in time: "I thought about why, But I can't tell the reason specifically, it may be because I have never had such feelings for others before, and no one has treated me like you and said those words to me."

I watched him open his mouth, but didn't know what to say.

"You heard what I said just now, do you have anything to say?" He asked again.

"I..." I vaguely guessed what he wanted to say.

"...I've always known how serious you are to me," he sighed softly, leaned over and kissed me, and then whispered in my ear: "You said you liked me, I believe you."

"Your liking is like a child liking a toy, like many people liking a movie or a book."

Jiang Lei continued: "Sooner or later, you will forget one day, but I can't. Tang Yuze, let me go now."

The man has not been with me for a long time, but he understands me unexpectedly.

I've dated a few times before, but I've never said love to them.

I seldom even say I like it.

On the first day of being with them, I had already imagined the breakup scenario, and it never took it seriously.

But one thing, I think he was wrong.

He is different from anyone before, if only in terms of weight in my heart, he is far better than others.

But he was right about one more thing.

I can't be with him forever, I can't pass the old man alone, I can't let the old man down for him, and I never thought of spending my whole life with a man and bearing the public opinion of the society for the rest of my life.

Never thought about forever, how could it be possible to say love easily?This word is too heavy for me.

After Jiang Lei hugged me and said these words, seeing that I hadn't answered for a long time, he gradually let go of me, stood up and looked at me, and said, "Yuze, I'm leaving."

He called me Yuze, maybe it was the last time he called me that, right?

I looked at him, opened my mouth, and finally did not make any excuses, but told him what I had learned: "A few days ago, my father was attacked, and that ghost acted again, and now he seems to think it's not you Yes, you go back to the gang, and he will definitely check it out for you."

"Jiang Lei, you won't suffer innocent injustice." Seeing that he didn't respond, I continued, "I will help you."

"This is my business. I will find out the ghost myself." He was silent for a long time, shook his head, and gave me a last look: "Leave it alone..."

After speaking, he walked out of the room.

So, Jiang Lei left the apartment this morning.