give

I watched Master silently, watched him cut his own wrist, watched him pick up the Zhuyu he picked out from his mother's mouth and put it into a bowl...

"Drink it, Yue'er, you will be cured after drinking it..." Master's words are so gentle, so gentle, the master I know is never willing to hurt me, he said he loves me.

But his love is too scary, most of the time when I am with the identity, all I can feel is scary.

"Drink it and you can walk..."

"Drink it and you can continue to bully others..."

"Drink it and you'll—live."

Master is like a seductive ghost constantly, constantly speaking, constantly speaking...

I know I can live by drinking it, I need my life because I want to be free, and the master needs my life, he only needs my life.There is a huge conflict between me and Master. Master is unwilling and will not regress, but I have no way to regress because there is already a cliff behind me...

I used to think that my life is more important than mother's happiness, and then I decided that mother's happiness is more important, but Master opened his mother's coffin without hesitation. Begging for a mother who has been asking for it but can't get it, but the master has it, but he doesn't cherish it so much.

I envy Master and hate Master.

I don't have a mother, but Master does. Even though it's just a corpse, he does.And my mother kissed?I don't even know where her body is decomposing.

Master killed her, killed my mother, and I saw it with my own eyes.

More than one person told me that Master is ruthless and ungrateful. I don’t believe that Master is a heartless person. I never believed and never dared to believe it. Now I doubt my insistence on my thoughts.

No... Maybe it's not that I don't believe it, but I have always believed it, but I have never dared to believe it.

Now I understand that Master has always been humble in front of me, humblely begging me to love him, humblely begging me to live, humblely afraid that I will be angry, humblely using his own way to solve the problem secretly question.

I have always known that I am very afraid of death, I am afraid of going to hell, I am afraid of being fried in a frying pan...

I looked at Master without saying a word, and I knew that I was starting a war with Master, and in this war, there are only losers.

Master doesn't love Master's wife, because he and Teacher's wife are apart from each other, they have no feelings, and they don't trust... So is Master's mother?Is it just because I need that vermilion jade?So the master opened her coffin without hesitation, and without hesitation let that noble woman lose face.Did Master do this because he loves me?No!no!

No one understands Master better than me. Master has no love for me at all. He just thinks that I belong to him. I was brought up by him. I am unique because the moment when I appear is unique. I am his.

For a long time, Master has regarded me as his child, as his most important person. He even said that Master thinks my life is more important than his own. He will feel distressed, every time I smile he will be happy...

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remember my home is not here

Unfortunately, I forgot, I forgot my home, my parents only remember my name, my name is Qiuyue.

"Please read, your master is calling you!" I sat on the back of the bull and listened to the children's impolite words. I turned around and saw that the master was standing behind me.

The master looked at me anxiously, "Yue'er, come down quickly!" I chose to ignore his words while riding a bull, and hit the bull's back with a bull stick—"quick horse" gallops forward!

Master anxiously followed behind me, I like to see Master at a loss.

After I whipped the bull's back again and again, Master still followed me.

Master is always like this, always gentle and always.

I don't know who the master is, not even the master himself.

So I stopped under Master's pursuit again and again. Master saw me stop and ran over quickly to hug me off the back of the bull.

"Yue'er, you're not good..."

I shook my head confidently, and finally Master looked at me and sighed helplessly.

I'm not bad, I just like the feeling of riding on the back of a bull, which makes me feel that I am also a high-ranking young master.

——The young master riding a big horse.

I climbed on Master's back and counted how long it would take for me to go home. I know Master likes to carry me.

"Yue'er, I can't go out tomorrow." Master said to me, I know Master likes to lock me up

I hate being in one place, it makes me so uncomfortable!

I live in a valley with Master, which is far away from here, but Master can get there very quickly by carrying me on his back.

The meal was ready and still hot, Master had set the bowls and chopsticks before, and as expected, the door was opened and Master put me in my proper position and went to serve the dishes, leaving me alone to ping-pong the empty bowls!

I remember that I should have an enemy, I remember that I should have a mother...but I can't remember, they say I have been with the master since I was very young.

Master came out with dishes, and there were wild rabbits...

Like me, Master likes to eat meat and hates to eat vegetables, but Master never competes with me. No matter how much meat I try to eat, Master can always keep an extra plate.

"Yue'er, eat."

I picked up my chopsticks and started eating.

"Yue'er, eat more, Yue'er is not fat."

I don't want to listen to Master, I want to be not fat but I know that I will definitely not be thinner than him at the same age.

Master always kept what he said. The next day I opened the door and looked at Taniguchi. Sure enough, Taniguchi had been sealed by a big rock.

Only me and Master in the valley...

I don't like this feeling of being controlled, very much.

Master said: "Yue'er, be good." In Master's eyes, it seemed that I should obey him in everything.

"Master," I said to Master, "I hate you!" Sure enough, Master's face suddenly turned pale. Over the years, Master's illness has recovered a lot, and even Master is smarter than many people, but I know that as long as I say If you hate Master, Master will satisfy all my conditions...

But Master came over and hugged me, he said: "Yue'er, don't, I hate it, Master."

I feel the master's fear, feel the master's trembling, I know that only one of me and the master can listen to the other, and I hate to compromise...

He said: "Whoever made Yue'er hate Master, he should die." Then I saw Master's eyes were red, I don't like this kind of Master.

They said that Master's illness has begun to improve, and perhaps soon Master will be able to completely remember the past.

Things from the past... I know that Master, like me, has forgotten a very important thing. I think it would be great if Master could remember it, because I also want to remember it so much.

I thought Master was crazy again, but Master broke the leg of a stray dog ​​that often came to the valley after releasing me from confinement, saying that it taught me to hate him.

The master is sick. As long as he is sick, he will go crazy, and he will go crazy for no reason.

I can’t remember how long Master and I have lived in this valley. Many times I feel that Master and I are going to rot. I am rotten, and Master is also rotten. It’s just that our rottenness is different.

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Today, when I went to the market, Master sold the prey he hunted in the valley. Master put the prey in his hands and put me in a back basket and carried me away.

They say Qiuyue's master is very beautiful, they say Qiuyue is average, but because of Master's illness, I know that probably no one will marry him in his life, in fact, I don't think Master is beautiful, I think , Master, is not as beautiful as me.

Because the master also said that he did not walk as fast as the master, and the people by the valley said that the master walked faster than they ran. I sat in the back basket and rested for a while, and soon the market arrived.

Master put me in a specific position to sell prey by myself. The position Master chose is very strange. Usually, I can see others, but others cannot see me.

I quietly watched people pass by me and they didn't notice me, I saw a man in white clothes walk by and his things dropped...

I think he should be a young master...

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