The ex I killed is back

Title: The Ex I Killed Comes Back

Author: Bian Jiuhuan

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2018.3.4

Before I killed him, I thought I loved him very much.

After all, he saved my life, he took care of my food and clothes every day, and he would do his best to protect me every time I was bullied.

But he shouldn't have betrayed me.

So I killed him.

2023.9.1

He is back.

I have to kill him again.

Even if he kneels and says he loves me, it's useless.

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☆、Black Cat

1.

I almost died twice, but my luck was good, and I was picked up by Wen Rui every time.

When he picked me up for the first time, I thought I must be dead, because my leg was broken, my hand was broken, and there was a knife stuck in my stomach. I was scared when I saw that virtue.

At that time, Wen Rui was really frightened when he saw me, I thought I could scare him away, who knew that this idiot foolishly carried me to the hospital and spent all his savings on surgery for me.

I didn't even know him back then.

It really took me to meet someone who is stupid and has a lot of money.

2.

I asked him afterwards, are you afraid that I will blackmail you?The kind that is blackmailed to the point of squeezing money dry.

Wen Rui looked at me and smiled shyly, and said to me: "Okay, you can blackmail me."

In fact, at the beginning, I didn't like him, obviously he was pestering me like a dog every day.I don't want to have a long-term relationship with this stupid guy, after all, I have promised him that I will pay him back——

I don't want to owe anyone anything, let alone find any friends.I don't need friends.

I dumped him once, twice, three times. The last time I dumped him, I pushed him down two floors. When he fell, I finally breathed a sigh of relief: Mommy, I don’t have to return him when he’s dead. He has money.

As a result, the sky didn't obey people's wishes, and he didn't die.

He came to me with a broken leg. I thought he was going to send me to the police station for a few years, but he said he liked me.

At that time, I thought, this man is really sick.

Since that day, I've been planning on killing him quietly and throwing him in a gutter so I can get away.

2.

There are always some messy fantasies in Wen Rui's mind.

When we were together in the beginning—it was just his one-sided idea that we were together.Every day when I woke up, I packed up and left, and he wandered outside all day, found me, picked me up again, and forced me to sleep on his bed.

There is only one bed in his house, I sleep on the bed, and he sleeps on the floor.

He always told me that being a killer is not good, he wanted me to be a good person, and he raised me.

But I was so preoccupied with murdering him at the time that I didn't pay much attention to his stupid things.

I was pestered by him and had nothing to do but be in a daze every day.

He just likes to rub against me and annoy me, and when I am annoyed, I am impatient, so he just laughs, very silly.He asked me what I was thinking, and when I didn't speak, he kept asking annoyingly, I don't lie, just tell the truth: "I was thinking about how to kill you."

Where should the knife be cut first, and where should it be pulled out, how to wipe off the blood that spread on the ground, how to drag his body and throw him into the cold gutter.I told him this very seriously, and told him that it would be very cold after the first cut, and told him not to be afraid, because he would die soon.

Wen Rui laughed out loud after hearing this, patted my head and praised me for being cute.

Does this person have a brain?

3.

Later, Wen Rui became more and more annoying. I wanted to cut him with a knife every day, but the strange thing was that I couldn't find a knife at home every day.

I went to ask him: where is your knife?

Wen Rui asked me vigilantly, why are you looking for a knife.

I said I'll chop you up first, and then just kill myself, you are so annoying every day.

Wen Rui thought I was joking again, and the idiot started laughing again.

Really, this guy is so annoying every day.

I really want him to die quickly.

If he doesn't die... I probably won't bother him anymore.

4.

I hate living in his house.

In the beginning, he annoyed me every day at home, which pissed me off.But then he went to work and locked me in the house alone, and I got even angrier.

At some point, he also started sleeping on that bed.In short, I have to kick this idiot down every day, but when I wake up, this idiot climbed up without knowing when, it is very annoying.

At first he slept on the edge of the bed, and he pushed the edge of the bed to sleep every day, for fear of hindering me.I thought it was getting cold, so I reluctantly left him a small place.

People can't be soft-hearted, if they are soft-hearted, they will be bullied.The guy first slept on the edge of the bed, then on my pillow, and then I woke up and realized he was holding me.

Really annoying.

Kill him sometime so I can sleep in a big bed by myself.

5.

When I woke up, I realized that Wen Rui was touching me.His hand went all the way down, making me very uncomfortable.

Really, when will I kill him.

I impatiently asked him if he was tired of living and wanted to die, but he grabbed me and refused to let go.

Wen Rui said, I don't do anything, I'll let you go after you masturbate.

You shouldn't have believed him.

Really shouldn't believe him.

Trust is an abyss. After you fall into it, you will never find it before you fall to the bottom. There is nothing in this abyss.

Since when did he start kissing me?I can't remember, maybe a week later in the morning?I used to never sleep with my eyes closed at the same time, but after being picked up by him, I started to trust because of laziness, and because of trust, I began to lose the city step by step.

I'm not interested in a fool like him, but in winter, that warm body is a good place to warm up. Whenever that time comes, I pretend to be asleep and let him do what he does.Those hands will swim around my body, and the hot lips will wrap around me and refuse to let go.

I knew that no one in this world would be nice to another person for no reason.He lacks someone who can do it, and I lack a heater, so I don't believe what he said that he likes me.

When spring comes, I will kill him.

6.

spring is coming.

We've tried it a few times and it sucks to get fucked, but the idiot just wouldn't let me fuck him.

I can only wait patiently until he is dead.

I've figured it out a long time ago, I'll just save him for the winter and kill him as soon as the weather gets warmer.

But I don't know where the knife should go in.I am used to holding him to sleep, curled up in his arms, if the knife goes out from the chest, it will leave a huge wound, and when I hold him again, there will be air leakage.

I thought about cutting it from his throat, but I have licked that warm neck and bit his Adam's apple. If that piece is broken, I will lick the bloody smell like knife embroidery.

Things seem to be getting a little dangerous.

I kind of don't want to kill him.

7.

Wen Rui saved money for the winter, and thought of taking me out to play in the beginning of spring.

I do not want to go.

He started to buy all kinds of clothes for me again, holding clothes on me like a fool, and I didn't want to wear them either.

Wen Rui started to waste a lot of time shopping for vegetables, he said he wanted to make delicious food for me, but I didn't want to eat anything.

He tried many ways to please me, but all failed.

Wen Rui started to feel sad. Now that he has learned to act like a baby, he will lean on me and ask me why I am unhappy.

I said, "You are so annoying, you are really annoying."

I really wanted to kill him, but I couldn't bear it.

I don't like myself the way I am, I don't want to have a weakness.

Weakness is a very dangerous thing. I started to have a dangerous place because of a fool, which made me very disturbed.

After he fell asleep at night, I took a knife and gestured at him. I wanted to kill him, but I couldn't bear to let him hurt.

Several times I could have killed him right away, but when he moved and turned over, I began to be reluctant again.I want to see those closed eyes open in the morning, revealing those silly pupils.

Damn it, I'm going to be killed by him sooner or later.

8.

I don't like him licking me.

That chilling itch was just the beginning, but it didn't last long, he always had a way to make me accept him.

I think this is very dangerous - opening up the body is the first step, and opening up the heart is a matter of time.Once I really accepted him, I couldn't kill him.

I can't let someone who can't kill me sleep next to me.

But he always has his way.Every time I kicked him, he would look at me with that stupid, stupid look, or show that nasty smirk, and then act like a cat, play tricks, and pretend to be pitiful Come beg me.

Every time I think, just indulge him this time, anyway, I can kill him the next day.

Yet once, twice, three times, I never knew when to fulfill my promise to myself.

I don't like his dog's silly eyes, his soft hair like a small animal, and the touch of his body, as long as it is everything about him, I hate it.

Yes, very annoying.

9.

In late spring, Wen Rui learned to cling to me and act like a baby, rubbing his head in my arms, asking me to go out with him to play.

I have always been too lazy to talk to him, and he started biting my wrist and wouldn't let me do anything.

What a fool.

Playing stupid in front of me endlessly every day.

I thought, that's a good idea, if I kill him while we're out of town, no one will think I did it.

So I could only agree to come down and go on a spring outing with him.

Spring is here, it's starting to warm up outside, and I don't need him anymore.

When he was kneeling on the grass and licking me, I was thinking about how to cut off the head that has bothered me for a whole winter, so that I can hang him on the tree so that he can never find me again.

Wen Rui suddenly raised his head, looked into my eyes and said, "Let's get married."

I suddenly smiled: "We stayed together for a whole winter, do you know what my name is?"

Wen Rui said, "I don't know, but I love you. Let's get married."

Like I said, I hate him licking me the most.

10.

Wen Rui answered a call and asked me to wait for him here. He said he would be back soon.

I plan to take advantage of this time to prepare the knife and kill him when he returns.I can't procrastinate any longer, and if I procrastinate any longer, I'm afraid I'll really promise him.

What a joke, how could I get married like this?

Even if I like him a little bit, I will soon forget him when he is dead.Yes, I will soon forget him, and I won't be sad.

Anyway, now that winter is over, I don't need him to keep warm.

Yes... I don't need him anymore.

I can leave when he dies.I am free.

I have the knife ready, the plastic sheet ready, everything ready.

But he didn't come back.

I waited there, and waited, until the cold wind of late spring poured into my clothes, after dark, until dawn.

It was only at dawn that I suddenly realized that I was so stupid that I was really waiting for him.

Why am I so obsessed with killing him?As long as I leave at this time, he will never find me again.I'll buy another train ticket somewhere else, and I'll soon forget his name.

I started to find it funny, why do I have to wait for him to come back?

Then I suddenly figured it out, and I made a poor excuse for myself. I didn't want to leave. After he came back, I would continue to tell myself that I would kill him next spring.

It can't go on like this, it's too dangerous.

But I was not reconciled at first, he was the one who made me wait here, obviously he was pestering me like a dog, why did he just throw me away when he said throw me away?

I do not go.

I have to wait for him to come back and kill him.

I'm going to keep his head with me forever because he's so annoying, so annoying that I'm beginning to forget that I hate him in the first place.

I want to find him.

kill him.

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Just so capricious.

☆、Wen Rui

Wen Rui

1.

When I picked him up from the corner, I thought I'd picked up a black cat myself.

A beautiful little guy who always has a murderous look.

Ah, a very interesting little wild cat.

When I saw him crouching on the corner of the street, I was taken aback for a moment, not because his appearance was too scary, but because his appearance lying there quietly waiting to die was so beautiful.

The slender blood-stained neck, the beautiful slightly drooping eyes, and the vigilant light in the eyes that were about to close.

Almost at that moment, the tearing voice in my chest told me that I want to let him live, I want to keep him around me, and never let him go.

I turned him over and found that he was bleeding from his abdomen with a sharp knife sticking out of it.He frowned slightly, probably because of the severe pain, and a moan accompanied by blood leaked from the tightly closed lips.

So distressed.

I thought he must ask me to save his life, just like a wild cat outside would lick people's fingers and act coquettishly when he was hungry, begging me with a feeble voice, so that I could pretend that there was no way to save him. He, then keeps him around with feigned reluctance.

So please hurry up, I thought expectantly.

But he didn't seem to want to live at all. When he saw me coming, he even gave me a mocking smile.He had already lost his strength and couldn't move, but when I picked him up, he suddenly showed me a fierce and hideous expression, and then laughed out loud when he saw me in a daze.

Ah, he was trying to scare me away.

A cold and mischievous kitten is provoking me with slightly slanted eyes.

2.

I took him to the hospital and found the best doctor to operate on him. During the operation, I stood outside anxiously.

At that moment, I had a kind of fear and delusion: I will lose him forever, I will never see his cat-like eyes again, no more blood will flow from his delicate lips, that soft body And her beautiful body dried up like a pond, turning into a cold and stiff corpse.

I was almost insanely terrified by the assumption that there was no such thing.I haven't kissed his lips yet, the touch of his hair on my fingertips hasn't been remembered by my body, and those vigilant eyes haven't shown a look of dependence on me yet...

Falling into that fantasy, I began to understand what obsessions were taking root in my heart.

When he came out of the operating room, he was sleeping peacefully. For a moment, I thought he was dead. At that moment, I was almost crazy.

But he survived.

So I survived too.

3.

At first he refused to talk to me.

While I was feeding him, I asked him his name and address. He kept looking away and refused to talk to me, but he still ate obediently.

This way of getting along makes me very happy.

After all, he doesn't hate me anymore, and he is still willing to eat the food I feed him.

As long as he stayed in the hospital, I was with him for as long as possible.I lie beside his bed and watch him sleep quietly every day. When he is in a daze, I am in a daze with him. When he sleeps, I watch him sleep. I feel like I have fallen into a dream. In this dream, he is me. The cat I raised, sleeps docilely on the bed I prepared for him.

What makes me even more happy is that after staying together like this for a while, everyone thinks he is my lover.

It makes me feel very proud.

There is nothing better than patiently grooming him, grooming him, and bringing him the right clothes, while he is at my mercy like a doll.

Sometimes when I was scrubbing his body, I would stare at the scars on his body in a daze.I always feel that those scars are vivid words, as long as I read them carefully, I can peek into his past.

Later, when he was discharged from the hospital, I took him by the hand, like a child, and brought him home.

4.

After he got better, he stopped being in a daze so frequently. I always wanted to listen to him, so I kept teasing him, and sometimes I would think of ways to bully him. He started to bother me.

He's getting more and more annoying to me, but I'm getting happier.

In the past, when I talked to him, he never paid attention to me, but now he starts to dislike me, which means that I have gone from outside his world to inside his world.

After so long, he finally saw me.

5.

It was late at night, and when he was sleeping, I lay on his bedside and stared at him, seeing his cat-like soft hair hanging gently on his forehead, and seeing his drooping eyelashes.I am used to looking at him like this, and he is also used to falling asleep under my gaze. I just look at him like this, and when I see that I am sleepy, I will fall into a deep sleep.

He didn't allow me to sleep with him, so I watched him quietly under the bed.

Once I was sleepy, half asleep, and saw him slowly open those eyes.

Eyes that are as agile as a cat, watching timidly like a cat—he doesn't know that I'm still awake.

Just like I was looking at him, he also looked at me quietly. I don’t remember when I really fell asleep that day, and I can’t even tell if it was a dream, but those gentle eyes in the dark night But imprinted in my brain.

He started spying on me.

Timidly, secretly, maybe even he didn't realize it.

So happy.

6.

When I opened my eyes the next day, I really wanted to see his eyes, I really wanted to see his eyes looking at me.

With anticipation, I opened my eyes, only to find that the bed was already empty.I sat up and searched the house.

He is gone.

I finally understood that he was saying goodbye when he looked at me, that he knew I was awake.

I sat on the empty bed, life returning to the way it was before he came, and yet I was caught in a vision that bordered on ghastly.

He'll be picked up by another man, loved by another man like me who will trim his nails and hair and take him by the hand and take him home and he'll be homely Cat, follow him back.

At that moment, I was seized by a pain that was almost suffocating. I couldn't breathe, I couldn't even make a sound, and I was almost killed by my imagination.

There will be other hands stroking his hair, other lips kissing him, other eyes watching him in the middle of the night——

No, no.

I want to find that person, cut off his hand that touched the hair, goug out the eyes that stared at him, and never let anyone touch him again, never let others look at him again.

I started to go into a kind of bewildered madness, and I ran out like crazy to find him, I didn't know he was going to be there, but I had to find him.

From dawn to dusk, and from dusk to black clothes, I was looking for him like crazy.

I must find him before he is taken away by others, catch him, and bring him back as I did when I brought him home from the hospital.

He will come back with me, he will.

At that moment, I suddenly realized that I didn't even know his name.

So what can we do?

I'm already in love with him.

7.

I didn't even recognize him when I looked for him.

Long before I saw him, I fell into my own hallucinations. At first I thought he was everywhere, and everyone I saw was him, but I chased them one by one, but found that they were not.

He was standing there, looking at me while smoking a cigarette. At that moment, I seemed to hear him complaining: You are so slow, how did you find it?

I walked over, grabbed his hand tightly, took him into my arms, and begged him to come back with me.

I heard him say impatiently: "Wen Rui, you are so annoying. You are so annoying."

But he still went back with me.

I held his hand, and he followed me, smoking a cigarette and hanging his head, like an obedient child.

He's still muttering, "You're so annoying."

8.

At night, I am always afraid that he will disappear as soon as I close my eyes.I hugged him and refused to let go, and was kicked out of bed by him.

It hurts when I fall, but I'm afraid he will lose it.

I was too scared, too scared.

I'd probably go crazy if he disappeared.I don't even know his name yet.

I lay beside his bed and thought wildly, and finally fell asleep without knowing it. I woke up after a short sleep, but he was still lying there, sleeping deeply.

Still very scared, I could only lie quietly beside him, grab the corner of his clothes, and then fell asleep peacefully.

It's okay, I'm holding him.

9.

When I woke up he was still gone.I searched all over the house and again couldn't find him.

He still left me and walked away.

Once again I was in that panic of losing him and I ran out to find him again, thinking I would never find him this time.

What I didn't expect was that he was still at the place where I found him last time, standing there smoking a cigarette and looking up at me.

He said, "Wen Rui, why are you so annoying?"

I ran over and hugged him tightly, no longer begging him, just pulling him and me back forcefully.

He was led by me and walked behind with his head down, docile like a child.

I'm finally relieved - it's okay, I can find him here next time.I turned around and saw him walking behind with his head down, with a strange smile on his lips.

That trace of smile was too shallow, and it disappeared quickly, probably without even noticing it himself.

He has been lost many times since, and each time I find him in the same place.

Sometimes he will pretend that he is walking far away, but if I don't chase him, he will slow down, as if he is waiting for me; sometimes he will hide so that I can't find him, and then watch me go crazy , If I really can't find it, he will deliberately make some noise, and then reluctantly go back with me with an expression of "it's unlucky to be found".

He kept saying to me every day: "Wen Rui, why are you so annoying? Do you know that you are annoying to death?"

I don't know that I'm still annoying, I just know that I'm on the verge of fear and breakdown every day.

I was so afraid of losing him.

I dare not close my eyes at night, and I can only fall asleep if I hug him tightly. As long as he moves, I will wake up, for fear that he will disappear again at this time.No matter what I do, I have to take him with me. When I cook, I can only feel at ease when he is beside me in a daze. When I wash clothes, if I can’t see his shadow, panic will strike again.

He finally stopped.

Sometimes when I bother him, he will tell me what he is thinking.He said he wanted to kill me, and then described to me very seriously, where the knife would pass through, where the blood would flow out, and how I would die.But I thought it was fun--everything about him was fun.

My fear of losing him has long been greater than my fear of death. I listened to him telling me this like a story and laughed.

Ah, he's starting to miss me.

I used to sit next to him and he was thinking about something else.

I finally walked from his eyes to his mind.

He told me that every day he kept thinking about how to kill me, and every time he said that, I laughed.

So as long as I live, he's not gone, right?

☆、Wen Rui

Wen Rui

1.

My ex-girlfriend came to see me a few times, but I wasn't there.

When I went back, he had already left. I thought he would just scare me like he did in the past, but I went to the place where I found him many times to look for him, but I couldn't find him.

I stood there for a long time, I waited for him to make a sound, I waited for him to follow me back with an annoyed face, but he didn't.

I think he might be angry, so it doesn't matter if I ignore me, he will remind me sooner or later.

So I sat there and waited for him, and waited, and waited for a long time, before I realized that he was really gone.

Why am I so stupid?How could I leave him alone at home?

Well now, he's mad at me.I was happy for a while at first because he would be mad at me too.He used to not be angry because of me, he would only annoy me and only think about how to kill me.

I thought he was mad because he liked me, so I waited for him to remind me, but he didn't.

He's not here anymore.

I was in that madness again.I managed to get him to remember me, and I lost him, and I may never find him again.

Just the thought that I would never see him again sent me into an uncontrollable dread, and I searched for him for days and everywhere, but I couldn't find him.

I see--

I used to be able to find him only because he was waiting for me to find him, but now he doesn't want me to find him, so I can't find him.

How is he now?Where do you live and how do you eat?He didn't take the money I put in the cabinet, and the money I left him for urgent use didn't move. How would he live?What should I do if I am injured? What should I do if I am sick?

I dare not think, once I think so, I will fall into madness again.

I asked a few friends who were cops, and one joked with me that he might be dead, and I almost killed him.

I became more panicked.

But fortunately, I still found him in an abandoned floor. When I walked through that dark place, I saw a flash of sparks above my head.

2.

I was so excited, I even forgot he was still angry.I ran up to hug him and begged him to go back with me, but he never looked up at me.

In the end, he said to me: "I will return the money for the operation later, and you can go."

He doesn't want to go back with me.

No matter how much he bothered me before, he would go back with me in the end.He won't let me grab him, won't let him hug him, and won't listen to me.My cat got mad, he started to really hate me, but I had a hard time getting him to remember me.

I said a lot, even I couldn't remember what I said, until he stood up abruptly, picked me up, pulled me to the edge of the sky, and said to me: "You are so annoying, go to hell. "

He pushed me down.

At that moment, I fell from the stairs, forgetting the fear of death, and just watched him get farther and farther away from me.

There was a faint flame near his mouth, and I realized that he was smoking leisurely.

Maybe I should hate him, but there's only one voice in my head:

"What to do? I can never find him again."

I don't remember what happened next, but someone called an ambulance and I woke up in hospital.

3.

When I was recuperating in the hospital bed, I found that I had no way to recuperate.

I began to understand that I didn't simply love him, that I was more possessive than I had pity for him in the first place.I don't want him to be happy anymore, I just want to possess him, I want to kiss him, I want to fuck him, I want to imprison him forever.

I never knew there was such a crazy and dark obsession in my world. Before I met him, I thought I was just a mediocre person doing the same good things as everyone else.

So I will save him and take him to the hospital instead of locking him in the house when he is badly injured.

So I will beg him and coax him instead of demanding him.

But now I'm starting to regret it.

I love him so much, I don't allow myself to lose him one day.I'm going to find him——I'm going to find him as soon as I'm done. I have to find a way to lock him up and hide him so that no one with evil intentions can find him.

4.

My leg isn't healed yet, but I can't lie down anymore.At first, I looked for him in the city with a wheelchair, and later, I looked for him with a cane.

I dare not go to the place where I found him so many times, I have to save that place for last.If I go to that place again and don't see him, I might really go crazy.

I searched for him in the city for more than a month, looking for him day and night, but I couldn't find him, I couldn't find him.

In the end I went to that place anyway.I think if I was crazy, I might be able to see him in a hallucination.

At that time, it was close to dusk—I saw a spark in the darkness, and it was him smoking a cigarette calmly.

When he saw me, he turned around and left. I was limping and couldn't catch up with him. I chased him until I fell to the ground.

In that instant, he was gone, and I couldn't find him.

Whether the spark I saw just now was a hallucination or not, I couldn't tell.

After I got up, I walked hard along the road he had walked, and I imagined that I could still catch up with him, although I knew it was impossible.

But what I didn't expect was that I turned a corner and saw him calmly lighting a cigarette there.I threw away my crutches and rushed over to grab him, and heard him say, "Oh, what a pity, it's just a matter of lighting a cigarette."

I hugged him and started laughing, I knew he was waiting for me, he must be waiting for me.

He looked at me and said, "Damn, you look so ugly when you laugh and cry. Wen Rui, how can you be so annoying?"

I hugged him, sniffed his breath, and watched him flee in a hurry with satisfaction.

If I get close to his neck, he gets nervous, he doesn't even know he's going to blush, and then he pretends to be sick of me and walk away.

It was clear to me that he was a killer and made a living killing people.When I scrubbed his body, I saw his lean muscles. I knew that I would not be able to beat him with my strength, but every time I hugged him, he would definitely struggle, but he would never struggle away.

I am delighted by this special treatment.

I know that he will push me away again and again in the future, but I am sure - he won't really push me away.

It's really like a cold cat, the appearance of wanting to greet but still refusing makes people's heart flutter.

I took him back again and again.

This time I told him that I like him.

He said, "Wen Rui, I've never seen such a disgusting person like you."

But in that faint and dark night, I saw that his pale face was dyed a blush, like a cold bouquet finally blooming, emitting a seductive fragrance in the silent night.

When he was led back by me, he lowered his head and muttered to himself: "No, I have to kill you as soon as possible."

5.

When spring comes, he will kill me.

He said this to me over and over again.

He described to me the scene of killing me very seriously, touched his cold fingers on my neck, and then slid across from there, pointing to my chest, saying that there will be a hole here, a hole through the heart .

He said the blood would spurt uncontrollably, and then my warm body would cool off, and then he'd throw me in any gutter and let me sink in the mud and die.

He said it over and over again, as if forcing himself to remember, repeating it over and over again.

Sometimes at night, he would sit up suddenly, lay on top of me, and put a knife on my jaw.I didn't dare to move at the beginning, I was very afraid that he would really attack, but gradually, even with the knife stuck to my throat, I could sleep peacefully, because I realized that he was not willing to do it at all.

So he said, when spring comes, he will kill me.

If I don't die in the spring, I hope he can marry me.Maybe I'll know his name then, maybe I won't, but it doesn't matter.

6.

Spring came, but he still didn't do anything.

Days continued as usual, he was as docile as a cat and would let me take care of him.I can take him in the bath, comb his hair, and choose new clothes for him.

I can still kiss him, touch him, make wet noises from him.

He whispered every day that he wanted to kill me, but he didn't do it for a long time.

Maybe it was because I lived too happily in this kind of life, or maybe it was because those teary eyes were too tempting because of forbearance, I made a fatal mistake.

I took him out.I took him on spring outings, picnics, kissing him in the sprouting meadows, and even asked him to marry me in a moment of loss of control.

Maybe it's the way he looks so good when he smiles, which makes me relax my vigilance.

I got a call that my mother was critically ill and I had to