If you bend me, you have to be responsible for me

That night, with the help of alcohol, I was full of fighting spirit and tried to take Liu Yingshan down.At the beginning, he was really cooperative, and he almost melted me with his enthusiasm, but after we expressed condolences to each other, he didn't get to the point for a long time, he just hugged me and kissed me.A thought popped into my mind at that time: He must have disliked me.After having this kind of thought, I could no longer devote myself to kissing Liu Yingshan, but was very discouraged. Gradually, I lost interest, so I simply pulled out, turned my face, and turned my back to Liu Yingshan.

"Baby, what's the matter? Do you have a stomachache? It's too spicy tonight, you shouldn't be allowed to drink. Just wait, I still have the medicine from last time." Seeing me curled up like a baby, Liu Yingshan said, There was a trace of concern, a trace of love, but it didn't move me.

"Your stomach hurts, daddy's stomach is healed." I really drank too much that night, so that my temper was much bigger than usual.

Seeing this, Liu Yingshan sat up with her head upright, "What's the matter? Did I offend you? Are you losing your temper?"

"Get lost." I don't want to talk now, very much.

"Siqi, what's going on at midnight?" Liu Yingshan was sitting, her tone was serious, but the corners of her mouth were twitching in a smile.

When I saw him like this, I was even more annoyed, "Get out, get out, I don't want to sleep with you anymore." While talking, I already tried to kick him off with my arms and legs.

At that moment, I seemed to have forgotten the fact that Liu Yingshan was a frequent visitor to the gym. In less than a minute, I was already unable to move under his restraint.

"Go away." I turned my head to the side angrily.

Liu Yingshan leaned down and stroked my hair, once and for all, gently, making my heart itch.

"Okay, baby, tell me, why are you suddenly unhappy? You have to have a reason to lose your temper, don't you?" Liu Yingshan's breath was right next to my ear when he spoke, "No, there is something wrong with that. There is no reason for you to lose your temper with me. But you have to give me a direction to coax you, right? Otherwise, I can only do useless work. Tell me, okay? How can I make you angry? La?"

Listening to Liu Yingshan's gentle soothing voice, I felt even more aggrieved, and asked in a low voice, "Why don't you want to fuck me?"

Liu Yingshan's body froze, and the next moment she laughed like a dog, "It's because of this? What do you think is the reason?"

I just felt that he was laughing at me, and I was overwhelmed with a sense of grievance. I immediately sat up and got dressed to leave: "If you dislike me, you should have said it earlier, there is no need to do this."

Liu Yingshan hugged me, faced me, and said with a serious face: "Siqi, what are you talking about? How could I dislike you? You can't even hurt you." He smoothed my hair, "But, This matter tells you, you may laugh, you have to promise me to be normal first, okay?"

"Can't you?" I looked at him suspiciously.

"Can I do it, you didn't touch it just now?" Liu Yingshan held his forehead, "It's not that I can't, it's just that I can't."

"Won't?"

"Yes, I just can't. I searched the Internet before, and I won't talk about the complicated process, and it's easy to get hurt. Aren't I afraid that I might hurt you?" Liu Yingshan pulled me back to lie on the bed, "When I was in Shanghai I found GV and novels to learn, but there is a problem that I find those things disgusting. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not talking about you. I really can't bear to see two guys doing this and that, so the progress of my studies has been dragging."

"Uh, so, it's not that you don't like me, nor do you despise me?"

"Of course not. If I disliked you, how could I have been so excited just now? Are you stupid, you?" After realizing that he didn't dislike me, I nodded slightly, and my heart finally let go, and sleepiness gradually came over me. I tossed around twice, and found a comfortable position, "Well, then you study slowly, I'm tired, so I'll go to sleep first."

Liu Yingshan...

In my life, the happiest thing is to sleep until I wake up naturally besides eating, but there is one exception, which is the natural awakening after a hangover.

I was woken up by my own bladder that was about to burst, and when I opened it, I realized that Liu Yingshan was no longer on the bed.After going to the toilet, he opened the door and bumped into Liu Yingshan.

"Are you awake?" Liu Yingshan had already put on her clothes and stood at the door, "I'm about to ask you to eat."

After walking out with full of expectation, I saw that there was white porridge on the table again.

"Can't you change the variety? You can even add two green vegetables." I complained to express my intolerance to the food.

"Siqi, I just came here yesterday, have you forgotten?" Liu Yingshan's voice reminded her faintly.

It seems that this is right, realizing that his performance just now was too heartless, he quickly took a sip of porridge, then smiled and nodded, expressing that such craftsmanship can be rated as Michelin three stars.

"Si Qi, I'm thinking about a question."

"Well, tell me." I drank the porridge without looking up.

"You are so forgetful, don't you remember what happened last night?"

"Last night?" In doubt, I suddenly remembered the attack I made against Liu Yingshan last night. "Cough, cough, cough." I choked on my porridge.

"Slow down, slow down." Liu Yingshan handed me a napkin, "How much do you care about this? Can you get so excited just thinking about it?"

"I don't remember what happened last night." I forcefully ignored my blushing face, "This matter is considered a remake, we won't talk about that in the future, I haven't done anything, so don't worry about it I'm full, go take a shower first, you can do what you want, do what you want." After speaking, he ran away quickly, it was so embarrassing, so embarrassing.

As a gay man with good qualities, I have always held prejudices against straight men, such as rough nerves, sickness will only make you drink hot water, such as poor clothing, and the strange way of wearing a suit with sneakers is unbearable. Another example is forgetfulness, he will not remember what he said after the front foot.However, in the past two days, I really hope that these things can be fulfilled in Liu Yingshan's body.

For that night, he teased me so often that I wanted to run away from home.In fact, I did this too, but every time I couldn't get to the door, Liu Yingshan would drag me back and forcefully admit my mistake. This went on and on, and my heart was really tired to the point of breaking.

One week after I started school, Liu Yingshan also went to practice.Because the company is formal, he is obviously busy, and he can't come to school to harass me from time to time, not to mention, even the time for sending messages has dropped sharply.Taking this opportunity, I invited my military adviser, Guo Yuan, to have dinner, and told him the problem between me and Liu Yingshan in a tactful but straightforward manner.

"You, let me tell you, what you have to do now is to go all out and take him down, take him down!" Guo Yuan swiped his finger in a circle and made an exaggerated movement.

"I know this, but I also need to know how to take it. I don't have any experience with that. Do I have to take the initiative to do something to myself and let him directly..."

"This is very simple. Let me tell you about this kind of thing, as long as you have feelings, you can learn it by yourself. All you need is a chance."

"Chance?"

"Yes, opportunity." Guo Yuan smiled confidently at me.

Under the guidance of Guo Yuan, I went to Taobao for the second time for a shameful online shopping, and bought all the things that should be prepared.Thinking of the tragic experience I faced when shopping online last time, I even became a believer for 10 minutes, praying to Buddha, Jesus, God, Allah, and all the gods that can exist in this world. Don't ever make me go through it again.

On the night before October [-]st, I went to Liu Yingshan's house early on vacation to pack our luggage, and chatted with Guo Yuan on the computer.

Guo Yuan: 【Ky, you must remember to take them well, otherwise it will hurt.

Relax, remember to relax, the more relaxed you are, the more relaxed you are. 】

Me: [Don’t worry, I’ve bought a lot, take a tube with you when you go out, and keep the rest at home to use slowly later. 】Guo Yuan: 【You wait, I'll send you some photos and clips, these are my treasures, they are definitely suitable for you, wait, I have to look for them. 】Me: 【Okay, take your time looking for it, don't worry.I'll treat you to dinner when I come back from a successful hit. ] At this time, Liu Yingshan just came in after get off work, "I'm exhausted, the last blow before the holiday."

"Drink some water and take a break. I bought packaged vegetables in the supermarket and I cook."

Liu Yingshan hugged me and kissed, "Honey, you're so kind. I have to get an email, you do it first, and I'll help you right away. If there's anything difficult to do, just leave it there and I'll do it."

I rubbed against him, feeling that I couldn't be happier, happily wrapped around an apron and started cooking.

"It's time to eat, it's time to eat." He put the dishes on the table one by one, and shouted in the dining room while wearing an apron.

No echo.

"Liu Yingshan, it's time to eat, hurry up, your father's cooking skills are not waiting for anyone." He yelled again and there was still no response.

I thought of how tired he seemed recently, and thought of all kinds of karoshi. I was afraid that something would happen to him, so I hurried into the bedroom to see him, but as soon as I entered the door, I felt that the atmosphere seemed not right.

Liu Yingshan was sitting on the bed with my computer, and next to me was the pile of things I bought online and put them in the closet.

"Ten precautions for doing shou/attack for the first time, what does it feel like for the first time, a complete list of male and male poses, first play.avi, baby, you communicate with your classmates very deeply." Liu Yingshan looked at I laughed meaningfully.

On a hot day, I suddenly broke out in a cold sweat: "Well, there may be a misunderstanding between us, I, I'll go to eat first, you can do what you want, the food is getting cold."

After speaking, he wanted to run away, but before he could get out of the door, Liu Yingshan pulled him back and threw him on the bed.

"What are you doing?" I trembled.

Liu Yingshan stroked my hair: "Fulfill your wish."

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The author has something to say:

I am off the list, and fewer and fewer people read the articles. I am really heartbroken, but I still have to keep writing. Today I wrote a sad thing about myself. It is Chapter 40. It is not about the two of them, it is about family.

Have you heard of Chengdu?I was very moved. The circle of friends has maxed out these days, saying that Chengdu is not a small city, and the lights will not go out.

how to say?This is just a joke. I think it is relatively speaking that Chengdu is a small city, because it is easy to find a sense of belonging in Chengdu.I remember when I first went to Shanghai, the feeling of not being able to blend in no matter what was very uncomfortable, but Chengdu is different. People say that once you come to Chengdu, you don’t want to leave. This is true, because you can easily find your own rhythm .

As it happens, I'm grateful for the group of people I met in college, so I love the city and I love the song.