If you bend me, you have to be responsible for me

"Are you still fighting?"

"Stop fighting, when are we going out for dinner?" I shook my head, really not daring to fight anymore.

"Otherwise I'll give you the money to buy the skin?" I hesitated, hesitated, but said it anyway.

"Stupid? If a few skins can make you happy, what does it matter? If you really feel ashamed in your heart, why don't you invite me to dinner later?" Liu Yingshan's smile made me shudder.

"Could it be that you want to eat Yunmen Jincui?" I looked confused.

"What are you thinking about? I just want to eat a bowl of pork liver noodles. It's next to Chuan Chuan. The pork liver noodles are delicious." Liu Yingshan smiled.

"Are you sure? There is no such shop after passing this village. If you want to eat, we will go to eat. I happened to bring a card when I went out today." Actually, I really wanted to eat. It has been a few weeks since I broke up with Yang Jin. I went out to look for food. As a foodie, my inner hunger and thirst can hardly be restrained.

"No, I'll save you money to buy a house."

I really laughed, "Liu Yingshan, you are such an idiot, let's go, I want to eat, I haven't eaten delicious food for a long time."

With my insistence, we finally went to Yunmen Jincui. However, when I ordered food, I really felt distressed. I knew that I should control the gluttons in my body and eat it when my mother came to see me.

The creative cuisine is exquisite, but it would be too expensive for two big men to fill up, and because of my distress, I only ate the taste of money for the whole night, but when I wanted to pay the bill, I was told that I had already bought it.

I looked at Liu Yingshan, "I bought it in the bathroom on the way? I will return the money to you later."

"No, I can't let you lose money and money." Liu Yingshan spread her hands slightly and said, don't be too grateful to brother, after all, brother is your best friend.

"I wanted to ask before, where did you get your confidence?" I said helplessly, but I still felt uncomfortable, "I recognize my friend, give me the list, and I will pay you back the money."

"Don't talk about money with me, it's too vulgar. You keep the money and buy barbecue at night. I eat a lot. By the way, we have night hoof flowers, which are super delicious, but the stalls don't open until after nine o'clock. , let’s turn around and go back? Otherwise, it’s too early to sell.”

I bought a bunch of miscellaneous things, and finally arrived at the most important part of the day, drinking and talking.

"Come on, tell me about your grievances, if you want to cry, I will lend you a shoulder to lean on."

"It's nothing, it's just a bad story, my first love, he hooked up with me first, then said he still loves his ex-boyfriend the most and dumped me." I took a sip of my drink and said.

"You went to see him today?"

"Well, I found him and had a fight. His ex-boyfriend is from the Sports Academy, but he couldn't fight." I laughed at myself.

"You got beaten because of this? My brother will vent your anger on you. Damn it, go and call back tomorrow." Liu Yingshan's furious look made me feel like he was the one being beaten.

"No, actually I didn't fight back at all, you know? Physical pain is really not terrible, heart death is the most terrible thing. I am looking forward to love. It is really not easy for people like us, so I want to Cherish it. And it wasn’t me who came to him first, I was careful before he confessed to me, but you know the relationship, once the valve is opened, you can’t stop it. It’s silly to fall in love with a rotten person.” Favorite The barbecue is right in front of me, but I don't have much appetite, I just fill myself up mouthful by mouthful.

"Then when did you know that you are..." Liu Yingshan asked cautiously, but I know he has no evil intentions.

"Is it gay?" I said the word he was ashamed to say, "Junior high school, at that time everyone was talking about the budding of first love, boys and girls wrote love letters to each other, and no one secretly wrote love letters to me and handed me notes. Less. And then I found out that I'm not interested in women."

"Then you've never been in a relationship before?"

"No, I've liked someone before, my classmate in junior high school, my deskmate in high school, I've liked him for many years, but unfortunately he's a straight guy, so I haven't said anything about it." I looked at Liu Yingshan's puzzled face and said, "Aren't you You also think I'm quite fake, saying that you like it, but at the same time refusing to tell the truth?"

"Who the hell says you're fake, if you have a crush on it, you have a crush on it, what's the big deal." Liu Yingshan anxiously defended herself more like a child.

"Have you ever done it?"

"With my ex-boyfriend?" I shook my head and drank another can of wine, "No, if I did, maybe we wouldn't break up."

"It's because of this? Damn it, scumbag, it's okay, I'll show you, I don't care if you don't want this kind of scumbag."

I smiled wryly, "If he really does it and he's willing to follow me well, I'm nothing special, the big deal is that it hurts a little at the beginning, even if the skin is broken and bleeding, I will recognize it. Do you know? It's very similar, he The ex-boyfriend also said that I was pretending to be innocent because of this. He said that I didn’t give a fuck for two months and deserved to be dumped.”

"Don't be sad, who doesn't like a scumbag when they are young. I can't comfort people, why don't you lie on my shoulder and cry for a while? If you can't get angry, I'll find someone to call back?"

"Crazy, how old are you? If you call back, I'll be fine a long time ago. But to be honest, I want to live in a different way. Now I feel too aggrieved."

"Okay, how do you want to live, let's talk about it."

"First of all, you have to give me a cigarette." I stretched out my hand to Liu Yingshan, he stared at my open palm in shock for a long time, until I got impatient and began to press.

He took out a cigarette from his bag and gave me one. I wonder if I drank too much. I always feel that he hesitated when he took it back, and even seemed to pinch me.

I picked up the lighter on the table, lit a cigarette, took the first sip, sucked it down my throat and spit it out, followed by the second and third sips, and one was gone after a while. I was a little angry at the time, "Did you Did I fake a cigarette? It doesn’t feel right, I heard people say that newbies should be dizzy and choked if they smoke, you’re not good at it.”

While talking, I picked up another one and lit it.

"Small and old, if you smoke fake cigarettes, I'll give you another pack. My pack is expensive." Yang Jin snatched the cigarette from my mouth and started to smoke by himself.

"I can't bear it anymore, so I'll smoke it." After speaking, he took out another one and lit it. This time, he made up his mind. He took it in one gulp, made a swallowing movement, and swallowed it directly, and then he was choked as expected. , My head finally felt the impact of nicotine, and I was stunned.

"Stupid you." Liu Yingshan handed me water, "If you don't know how to smoke, don't smoke. Why do you have to learn to smoke? Can't you just learn from others?"

I took a breath after drinking water, and continued to swallow the second sip, which was smoother indeed.

"Don't force yourself to swallow, follow your breath, and when you inhale, go down smoothly." Liu Yingshan probably saw that my swallowing was too hideous, and couldn't help being my smoking instructor.

After smoking one, my head finally felt dizzy and groggy. At the same time, I also felt my stomach. I suffered internal and external injuries one after another throughout the day, and finally couldn't bear it anymore. I quickly ran to the toilet and vomited for a while. Then he rubbed his twitching stomach.Liu Yingshan went to the toilet with a cup of hot water, "gargle."

I take it, rinse my mouth, and thank you.

"Are you OK?"

"It's okay, it's just a pity. The high-end cuisine I ate tonight is all money."

"You are crazy, people are not more important than money?"

I followed him out of the toilet one after the other and sat down, but the second round didn't start. My stomach began to twitch violently. For a moment, I lost all sleepiness and sweated in pain.

"What's wrong with you? Drink hot water?" Liu Yingshan saw that I looked quite painful, but she didn't know what was wrong with me.

"Hot water again, you're such a straight man." That said, but I'm so thankful that he's here at my side and handing me a cup of hot water.

"What's wrong with you, or I'll go out and buy some medicine for you?" Probably because of my loss of consciousness, Liu Yingshan offered to buy medicine.

"No, you'll be fine after a night's sleep. It's already 11:30, and there's no 24-hour pharmacy nearby. Where are you going to buy it?"

"Are you sure you're okay? I think you're miserable like that. My place is very close to the provincial hospital branch. Forget it, I'll go buy medicine for you. If you die here, I can't bear the responsibility."

"Can you stop being so wicked? It's just chronic gastritis, and you'll be fine after a night of sleep."

"Okay, then you pack up and go to sleep. I'll pack up and go to sleep."

I was supposed to help pack things up, but my stomach hurts really badly, so I could only tidy up hastily and rolled onto the bed clutching my fragile stomach.

I lay on the bed with my front feet, and Liu Yingshan entered the room with a thermos cup in his hand, "I'll put this on the bedside for you. If you feel uncomfortable, drink a little. It will be hot all night, but be careful when you drink it." Blow it."

I nodded, then closed my eyes, and Liu Yingshan turned off the light for me when I went out.People who have had stomach problems probably know that when the stomach hurts, it is useless to do anything. Drinking hot water, taking medicine and infusions have to go through that, so even if the lights are turned off, even if it is quiet, I still cannot fall asleep.

Probably because of drinking alcohol, after struggling repeatedly, sleepiness finally came, my hands were still covering my stomach, my eyes slowly closed, and I heard the sound of the door opening, Liu Yingshan entered my room and turned on the bedside lamp , patted my face, and said: "Siqi, get up, take some medicine before going to sleep."

I struggled to open my eyes, and saw Liu Ying's hair disheveled by the wind, and her flushed face from drinking or running.

When I took the medicine from him, I touched his hand, it was cold, probably because I had been outside for some time.

"Where did you buy the medicine? Your hands are so cold." Looking at Liu Yingshan's face, I was in a daze.

"Provincial Hospital, don't worry. I told the doctor about the symptoms and what you took today. This medicine won't kill you. It's too cold outside and it's not easy to take a taxi, otherwise I'll be back early." Liu Yingshan looked at me. The medicine is finished.

"You can sleep now. I'll go and change the water for you. Remember to drink it. Call me if you have anything to do. I won't sleep upstairs tonight. Before going to bed, I will go to the girl's room. If you can't wake up, call me , I will not turn off the phone."

In fact, I really wanted to say at the time, why is it so troublesome, why not just sleep on the same bed, but I thought he probably still took my orientation into consideration, so I could only express my gratitude again, and then buried my head in sleep.