Kneeling and begging to live past the age of 18

"unfair?"

Miki Nozomi repeated this word, and asked in a calm voice.

"So, what makes Dr. Sen feel unfair to you?"

"many places."

With a slight hoarseness mixed in the voice, Mori Ogai babbled, one after another, as if he had already typed countless drafts in his heart.

"Whether it's name or behavior, or even when we get along, Xi-chan is always closer to others than to me, and even her heart is so biased, she even smiles at others more than me..."

Finally, he made a conclusion.

"When will Xi-chan be more partial to me?"

The man was still lying on the table, with his whole face still buried in his arms, and even the slightly hoarse voice made him look rare at this moment, even a little fragile.

This is really the first time that Nozomi Miki has seen Mori Ogai like this. In the past, even if the other party showed resentment or grievance, it was only a deliberate expression.

Miki Nozomi really knows what the real him looks like.

but……

Sighing helplessly, Miki Nozomi jumped off the window sill, took the initiative to come to the side of the other party, pulled out the chair and sat on it.

"If that's the case, I really have nothing to refute, because to a certain extent, my preference for children and girls must be greater than that of adult men, and the bias is natural, isn't it?"

It's only human to be kinder to the cuter pup than the prettier one.

Mori Ogai: "..."

Yes, she was right, and it was because she valued feelings more that she was able to keep him.

But not enough.

The more people who can make her pay her emotions, the worse it will be for her.Because what I can use, other people can also, and I am not the one and only in the other party's heart at all.

Every time he thinks of this, a deep sense of crisis emerges in Mori Ogai's heart, and even doubts appear from time to time.

When one day she loses interest in herself, will she abandon herself without hesitation, just like accompanying her for no reason now.

Can a mere last wish really restrain her?

Even those promises are not reassuring at all.He always wanted more, wanted to occupy more places in her heart, and wanted the other party to be inseparable from him.

If he could, he even thought about all kinds of dark thoughts, like, like a nervous person, always trying to use various methods to get her to say words of companionship.

You see, such a simple reason can also be the reason why she chooses someone else.

"That's too unfair to an existence like me."

At this moment, Mori Ogai chose to speak his mind truthfully.

"After all, when Xi-chan met me, I was already an adult."

An unscrupulous adult.

Then, he heard the answer from the child beside him.

"If it's just this level, I'm going to defend myself."

Turning his head to the right, the obscure eyes that were originally buried in the arms of the child were exposed to the child's sight. He only saw the other party wink at him, and there were even stars shining in the bent eyes.

"In a way, I'm already more partial to Dr. Sen."

Because she did choose to be by the other party's side, let herself be used by him, and was even ready to give her life.

Therefore, the more favored party is actually Dr. Sen and you.

"But people are always greedy."

With a hint of complaint, and like some kind of real worry, Mori Ogai watched Miki Nozomi with a sincere voice.

"But Xi-chan can't always give me a sense of security, which makes me always worry that one day you will leave me."

As he spoke, there was even a trace of "obvious" anxiety in his eyes.

"I don't even know why you chose me like this."

One's own cruelty, one's own ruthlessness, one's own interests above all, one's own unscrupulous means.

Mori Ogai is not a nice guy, not the type she would like.From the very beginning, he knew that once he was understood, he was actually the kind that would attract people's disgust.

When everything about herself was clearly seen, she did not choose to leave herself.

Too foul and scary.

"Is that so? Let me think..."

Also lying on the table and staring sideways at Mori Ogai, Miki Nozomi lowered his eyes and pondered for a while before looking at him again.

"It feels very natural to make a choice, probably because Dr. Sen always makes people worry too much?"

"Worried about...?"

He never expected Nozomi Miki to say such an answer, and Mori Ogai's expression was filled with bewilderment.

I... I should be very reliable no matter what, right?

"Because I really can't see such an insidious and cunning Dr. Sen always alone, so I made a decision to stay with you forever."

Speaking of this, her voice softened, like a feather falling in the air, gently, slowly, but precisely falling towards a certain hidden corner.

"It's okay to use me."

Mori Ogai's eyes suddenly widened, but Miki Nozomi bent down his eyes, looked at him calmly and gently, and spoke the rest of the words softly.

"Even if you give up on me one day because of interests, it doesn't matter. Before that, I will always stay by your side."

"Such a statement is foul..."

He murmured such words, but he couldn't say anything like "I won't use you" that only an impulsive teenager would say.

Because he really put aside his emotions rationally, and calculated everything with the gains and losses of interests, even himself, would become a pawn of interests.

He will use Chi-chan, and he will use her to achieve various plans.Use her emotions, use her abilities, use everything she has at her disposal.

Mori Ogai is such a person whose interests are paramount.

Burying himself into his arms again, Mori Ogai repeated, the feeling of being filled with something in his heart even made him not know how to face the other party.

"It's too foul."

The plan that originally wanted to show weakness has turned into such a result, should it be called Xi-chan?

"Yes, it's my fault."

There is something covering the top of his head, following it again and again, even with a soothing feeling.

"Don't worry, I won't talk about it in the future."

"don't want--"

Although they were nearly 30 people, but they brought some kind of childish rebuttal, Mori Ogai raised his hand to catch the hand that Nozomi Miki touched, and raised his head from the crook of his arm.

"Xi-chan needs to give me enough sense of security."

Straightening up from the table, he approached Miki Nozomi as if he was cheating, but what came out of his mouth was a request.

"So can I hug Xi-chan?"

"Doctor Sen, you really..."

Sighing softly, Miki Nozomi voluntarily jumped off the chair and came in front of the man.

"At this time, it is really impossible to refuse."

Even if you know Dr. Sen, you did it on purpose.

It was easy to confine the child in front of him in his arms, the body that was so petite and soft as if it could be rubbed into his chest was even warm.

With some kind of unspeakable satisfaction, Mori Ogai hugged Miki Nozomi in a regular manner, and did not make any extraordinary movements like wanting to kiss and rub against each other.

He just lowered his head and buried his head in the other's neck, sniffing the same smell as his own in the other's clothes, and let out a long sigh of relief.

"Please lean towards me more."

More, more emotional betting on me.

"Please be more tolerant of my greed."

It's my greed, it's my greed.

"Please keep an eye on your poor Dr. Sen."

All the time, it's best to just look at me.

As he said this, he slightly closed his eyes full of desire, and his voice was bitter and helpless.

"Because just now, he found that he couldn't leave Xi-chan anymore."

The only one, you have to hold on tighter and firmer.

It's a lie.

Miki Xi's slightly narrowed eyes were clear, but he still raised his hand and hugged this aggressive man, even his voice was still gentle.

she says--

"it is good."

is real.

……

...

Although Mori Ogai and Fukuzawa Yukichi, as adults, broke up after a fight due to the reason of poaching/backstabbing, but the friendship of other people is still the same as before.

"Jingzi, don't shake it."

Standing at a certain intersection, Edogawa Luanbu looked at Akiko Yosano who was dangling anxiously, and couldn't help but speak.

"Axi will arrive in one minute, even if you shake it, you won't make her come faster."

And most importantly!

"You're making me dizzy."

Really, just walking a few steps to the left and right in front of him, the shadow is also dangling.

"……Feel sorry."

He stopped his steps, took a deep breath with Yosano Akiko, and leaned against the wall as he learned to gamble.

"I'm so excited."

But I can't help but not be excited, this is the first meeting after three years!And Axi was taken away by that hot chicken doctor, she will definitely lose weight!Being tortured and exploited by that hot chicken doctor every day!

The longer it was, the more reasonable it became, Yosano Akiko watched the intersection eagerly, wishing to walk a few more laps.

As Edogawa Ranpo said, after only a long and short minute, a petite figure appeared at the intersection.

Except for a slightly higher height, there is almost no difference from before.Almost the moment the other party appeared in sight, Yosano Akiko ran up to Miki Nozomi quickly and hugged her.

"Ashi!"

She called this long-missed name excitedly, and blurted out a sentence subconsciously.

"Get away from that Spicy Doctor!"

Miki Nozomi: "..."

Ah, the first sentence of the long-awaited reunion turned out to be this. Sure enough, Akiko had a big opinion of Dr. Mori...

Miki Nozomi blinked, and saw Edogawa Ranpo following her through Yosano Akiko's shoulders. The two of them looked at each other and completed the handover in an instant.

Luanbu stabilized Akiko, very good, that is...

From the eyes of the other party, I can see some kind of "I'll wait for you to explain it to me!" What's the matter?

Could it be that Luanbu knew something? ? ?

Miki Nozomi, who was puzzled in her heart, could only temporarily put aside her doubts and hug Akiko, deciding to appease the one in front of her first.

"I haven't seen Akiko for three years and she's getting more and more beautiful."

Please pat Yosano Akiko, who is hugging herself tightly because of excitement, and there is a smile in her voice.

"Seeing that you are still so lively, Akiko, I can rest assured."

So the future will be better.

The author has something to say:

As expected of you, Mori Ogai, crumbly and inexplicably delicious_(:з」∠)_

ps Ran Ranran's long comment plus updates!

pps can't think of it?I added more at noon! (proud.jpg)