Kneeling and begging to live past the age of 18

The little girl in her arms was small and soft, with a fresh breath that belonged to a child, even so clear that it was unbearable.

Even the immature little hands that tightly hold his own haori, as if holding hope tightly, make people unable not to soften their hearts.

After all, how many people will not feel fear when they know their own death date?What's more, Xijiang is still a child.

No matter how mature she looks on weekdays, she is still a child.It's different from Dazai's kind, but more gentle, loves life more, and likes life more.

And I would always pamper her, not letting her face too much darkness, not to mention what could be more bloody than the battlefield?

Every time facing each other, the part belonging to Lin Taro will always easily gain the upper hand and convince himself with various reasons.

Even if that's just in little things.

"Don't be afraid."

Mori Ogai stroked Miki Nozomi's soft hair again and again, even his voice was so gentle that it didn't look like it.

If it is heard by other people, it will even cause deep doubts, and even feel that you are hallucinating.

How could it be possible for a cold-blooded and cruel mafia leader who relied on killing his predecessors to have such a gentle voice that truly made people feel sincere?

However, that voice actually reverberated in the room, resounding in the time that only belongs to this moment.

"Your Rintaro is always there."

He is here, so you can complain to him no matter what, even if it is too much, even if it is hurtful words.

No matter what it is, he will listen, Rintaro will listen.

Even if it was due to interests at the beginning, after such a long time together day and night, he really paid for his emotions.

At the moment when he began to feel possessive, at the moment when he wanted to control everything about the other party, at the second when he couldn't stand the other party being out of his sight.

Therefore, Lin Taro, who wanted to imprison Miki Nozomi, was also bound by Miki Nozomi.

The net woven by Mori Ogai tightly caught the prey he wanted, but when he didn't find it, he was also trapped in the net by the prey.

But originally this was nothing, because there was no need for maintenance, and the other party would not get out of the net, and I could stay here with the other party forever, so there was no hindrance at all.

It should have been like this.

But why, this kind of thing is about to happen to the other party who should have a community of destiny with him?

Shouldn't she be here with me forever?

The desk lamp that was originally turned on just because I wanted to have a little chat seemed even dimmer now. The dim yellow light faintly illuminated only the area of ​​the sofa. Beyond that, there was only a piece of darkness, ready to move in the light. The edge seems to be waiting for something to come.

Mori Ogai looked down at the little girl in his arms. At the moment, the other party was so quiet that people felt that she seemed to be asleep, but the hand that had been holding his haori never let go let him know that the other party was still awake.

Just don't want to leave.

Xi-chan doesn't want to leave her embrace, what a beautiful fact?

"Rin Taro..."

The little girl's soft voice sounded from her embrace, and there was even a feeling of being coquettish in her ears.

"By the way...you should be talking about something serious, right?"

After even some pessimistic emotions passed at the beginning, Nozomi Miki quickly suppressed the emotions in her heart to the bottom. She took a deep breath and raised her head from Mori Ogai's embrace.

"It's late."

If we don't discuss it, it will be midnight.

"It seems that Xi-chan, you also know that it is very late."

Just relaxing his confinement so that the little girl in his arms could leave a little bit, Mori Ogai, who was still circling her, tapped Miki Nozomi's forehead with his right hand as if nothing had happened before, teasing with a chuckle.

"I thought Xi-chan was fascinated by my arms and didn't want to leave."

As he spoke, the smile on his lips deepened.

"That would be great."

"... Then Lin Taro, you think too much."

Miki Nozomi, who knew that the other party intended to make the atmosphere easier, rested his left hand on Mori Ogai's leg, supported the other's arm with his right hand, bent his eyes, and cooperated as if he was disgusted as usual.

"Also, hurry up and let go, you've been hugged by Lin Taro for so long, it should be enough anyway!"

"How can such a thing as Baoxi sauce be enough?"

Without any intention of letting go, Ogai Mori even hugged Nozomi Miki in his arms, then stood up and walked inside.

"Hey—? Wait a minute!"

Unprepared to hold Mori Ogai's shoulder, Miki Nozomi glared at Mori Ogai who did such a thing suddenly.

"Aren't you going to talk about something serious? Rintaro, what are you doing?"

How to maximize the benefits of a good discussion?Why did you just leave? ? ?

the most important is--

"I can walk by myself! I don't need your hug!!!"

"Yes, yes, but isn't Xi-chan also tired?"

While walking non-stop, while still responding helplessly, Mori Ogai even lowered his head and blinked at Nozomi Miki.

"We can talk about it tomorrow, but it's very late now, if you don't sleep, you can see Xi-chan's dark circles tomorrow."

"But……"

"No buts."

Directly interrupting Miki Nozomi's words, even the sudden appearance of Alice has pushed open the door of the bedroom, allowing him to walk in unimpeded.

"Anyway, we don't lack time for this one night, do we? And this kind of discussion when it's time to go to bed, be careful and Xi-chan just fell asleep in the middle of it."

Having said that, Mori Ogai's eyes suddenly lit up, and his footsteps towards the bed stopped instantly.

"So I can take Nozomi to my room and sleep with me?"

Miki Nozomi: "..."

I know Rintaro, you are looking for a reason for me to go to sleep, but you don't think this reason...

There was silence for a few seconds, and he even stared at Mori Ogai with complicated eyes, but Miki Nozomi clearly saw the expectation in the other's eyes.

You expect a ghost! ! !

"I'm going to sleep!"

After hammering a few times, Mori Ogai finally put himself down regretfully. The moment Nozomi Miki landed again, he was one meter away from Mori Ogai, and unceremoniously gave the order to chase away.

"Rintaro, leave quickly!"

"I can help Xi-chan change..."

"Let's go!"

As soon as he heard it, he knew what he thought of Mori Ogai, and Nozomi Miki pushed the other party without saying a word, and pushed the other party out the door.

"Anyway, Rintaro, hurry up and go to sleep, good night!"

As soon as the voice fell, the door closed crisply and neatly, leaving only Mori Ogai standing outside, the expectant expression on his face gradually disappeared.

"My... Xi-chan..."

He sighed, his originally dark purple eyes became more dull in the darkness, making it impossible to see clearly, even creepily obscure.

Reason, emotion, girls, plans, feasible methods, remedies that can be achieved, final choices that cannot be completed, and even the optimal solution implemented.

Thinking in this way, Mori Ogai did not choose to go back to the bedroom, but turned around and walked towards another place.

No matter what, he needs to work on these things bit by bit, and start to care about them.

After preparing for the worst-case scenario, the first thing to think about should be how to break the "fate" that Xi-chan said.

No one else knew about this discussion. When the night faded and the sun filled the next day, Mori Ogai came to Miki Nozomi's door again.

He arrived later than usual, considering the time he had fallen asleep last night, but even so, the house was still silent.

Obviously, the child was still fast asleep.

Unexpectedly, within reason, Mori Owai pushed open the door and walked into the bedroom, but what came into view was not the little girl lying neatly under the quilt as usual, but separated from the quilt on both sides.

Mori Ogai was startled for a moment, and hurried to the bedside.

The cheeks were obviously abnormally red, the little face was flushed with heat, and the body seemed to be curled up in the cold, but the heat could be clearly felt.

Fever, or high fever!

Turning around directly, he found the medical kit that Nozomi Miki had prepared last time after he caught a cold. Mori Ogai quickly returned to the bedroom, not forgetting to call the little girl's name, trying to wake her up.

"Xi-chan? Wake up? Xi-chan?"

"Hmm...Rin Taro?"

After the little girl snorted softly, she said Mori Ogai's name in response, but her eyes were still tightly closed, and she was talking nonsense.

"It's a bit hot...is the air conditioner broken?"

Because of the fever, the soft voice was almost a whisper, with obvious weakness, like a dying kitten, which could only make a weak meowing sound.

"The air conditioner is not broken, but you have a fever."

Mori Ogai took out the antipyretic, and did not forget to answer calmly.

"Hold on, I can't sleep yet, drink the medicine first."

"Is the air conditioner working?"

Miki Nozomi, who was already burnt out, seemed to be still stuck in the last answer.

"What's broken?"

"Nothing is broken."

After pouring out the antipyretics that he could drink, Mori Ogai sat on the edge of the bed, lifted Miki Nozomi's upper body, let her lean against his arms, and coaxed her softly.

"Come on, open your mouth."

"……Oh."

Miki Nozomi, who subconsciously listened to Mori Ogai's words, drank the antipyretic medicine fed to his mouth in confusion, and felt himself being put back to the original place.

Ah...the familiar breath is gone...

Such thoughts flashed in his mind, Miki Nozomi struggled to open his eyes, only to feel that everything in front of him was blurry.

"Rintaro?"

have you left?

"I'm here."

Putting the thermometer on the little girl, Mori Ogai stared at Miki Nozomi whose eyes were full of bewilderment, and answered softly.

"I'm here."

It was obviously just a light response, but Miki Nozomi, who had been unable to control herself because of the fever, felt wronged. She raised her hand weakly to grab something, and felt her hand being held by something in the next second.

So, Miki Nozomi, who didn't even know what she wanted to grab, tightly held that existence.

"I feel a little uncomfortable..."

As if wanting to vent out the grievances in his heart, there were traces of sadness in those hazy eyes that were misty, and they entangled bit by bit, even through the eyes, entangled Mori Ogai's heart , with unprepared soreness and pain.

"Sure enough, it's about time?"

"But obviously... there are still so many things that haven't been done..."

As she said this, her voice became lower and lower, even softer, as if she was about to rise into the sky in the next second, and then drifted away.

"I want Kusaku to grow up healthy... I finally got a younger brother... Rintarou doesn't know how to teach children..."

"Dazai isn't reassuring either... But recently it's been better..."

"Ranpo and Akiko don't have to worry..."

"But...but..."

"I'm so sorry..."

At this moment, her eyes seemed to be about to shed tears, but it seemed as if something hindered her, and in the end, her eyes were only red, with only a faint glimmer of water in her eyes.

"Xi-chan..."

Mori Ogai wanted to say something, but found that even his words were pale at the moment.

Besides the so-called comfort, what else can I do?Even what the other party said at this moment was due to the confusion of thinking caused by the high fever.

At this moment, there was another voice resounding in Mori Ogai's ears, heavy reluctance and sorrow, which obviously rang in his ears, but seemed to fall in his heart.

Like a whine.

"I want to be by Rintaro's side..."

"I want to see Rintaro realize his ideal..."

"I'm really...too greedy, right?"

Who is it that is greedy?

The air seemed to become thinner, making Mori Ogai's breathing extremely difficult, so that even his heart ached, and flames were born, burning other internal organs, giving birth in an instant. The illusion of bending over and retching.

Yes, a greedy person... who the hell is it?

Obviously the most greedy, even greedy, should be him.

The one who is greedy and drags the angel into the abyss is him as a demon.

— is a dirty and cunning devil.

——It's a demon named Mori Ogai.

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