[Infinite] End Game

Tang Yu's understanding of the world was very shallow when he was young.

It is very good to have an orphanage in a remote town, so naturally it is not formal.Generally speaking, as long as the situation is not very special, the children in the hospital should help to do what they can after they are 5 or 6 years old.But even so, in the absence of donations and funding from well-meaning people, there will often be shortages of food and clothing, let alone education.

Therefore, in the long time of most of his childhood, Tang Yu's life was limited to the dilapidated gable wall in the orphanage, people pointing at him through the fence, and a small piece of sky, wind and rain as far as he could see. , sunshine and sunset.

Tang Yu sometimes fed the chickens with rotten vegetables and looked at the flocks of chickens pecking at each other, feeling that he was no different from them.

But that period of ignorance and ignorance, now that I think about it, other than being like a carefree little fool, it was actually not painful.

…until I slowly started to notice the difference as I got older.

In fact, the nanny in charge has always warned them that if they are not obedient, they will not be taken away.Especially when the children were mischievous or fighting for stuttering, the eyes of the nanny would become extremely worried, and the tone would become extremely severe.

Speaking of this, in the beginning even Tang Yu didn't understand why Nanny wanted them to be taken away, but one day later they all understood.

With the development of tourism in the county, people's lives have gradually improved.And after most people's economy became more relaxed, the orphanage gradually got on the right track with the support of the government. For a while, the children in the orphanage seemed to have grown some flesh, but more importantly, some students began to come into the orphanage as volunteers. here.

Tang Yu will always remember the stunned eyes of the young lady who taught them when the students who taught them literacy talked about their parents, and when he stood up and asked "what is that?"

And it was from that day that they realized that the children in the orphanage were different from normal children.

They have no parents, no brothers and sisters, no origin and no return, neither expected nor loved.

So although they sometimes still fight each other for a bite to eat, and roll on the ground for half an hour, all of them have the same wish tacitly.

They want to be taken away because that's the only way they can have a home.

But it is too difficult.

Tang Yu heard from the older children that the iron gates of the orphanage were not locked before, but then the children from the town almost pushed the children in the yard into the river and drowned, and several times the orphans went to the river to drown them. Stealing money from people in the town.

Since then, welfare has ceased to open, and people in the town have a different impression of the orphanage—the children there are reservists for thieves and scoundrels, and they will suffer disaster if they are brought home.

There are not many families without children in the town. Even if there are no children, the people in the town are more willing to adopt the children of relatives and friends, rather than go to the orphanage to pick a small trouble to go back.

"...Moreover, in our orphanage, except for me and a few girls, everyone is disabled."

Tang Yu lowered his eyes, and his slender eyelashes cast a gentle and sad shadow in the moonlight that came in.

Although the town they lived in was not big, it wasn't poor, so no one was willing to throw their children away.

And at that time, most people in the town still adhered to the old idea that only boys can pass on the family line, so almost all the boys sent to the orphanage were disabled.

Only Tang Yu was the only healthy boy. Not only was he different from those children with families, but he was also different from the children in the same courtyard.

Chang He also turned sideways to face Tang Yu, with his head resting quietly and casually on the pillow. Hearing Tang Yu's words, Chang He keenly guessed what, reached out and touched Tang Yu's cold forehead, and then rubbed it After rubbing the top of his head, he asked softly, "This difference is not good for you, is it?"

"Yes."

"I'm the only healthy boy. I'm smart and good-looking. If anyone wants to adopt me, they will definitely consider me first." Tang Yu smiled, feeling a little helpless, "So we often fight. Their bodies It's not very convenient, so several people beat me one at a time, but it's not that I'm at a disadvantage."

He really didn't suffer much in the fight, but it was true that he had been hostile all along, and many people were unwilling to talk to him.

Because of jealousy, mad jealousy and envy.

Chang He patted him lightly again, without speaking.

"Although I fought a lot at that time, I was not angry because I knew that they hated me because even they believed that I would be taken away and that I would have a home."

So he doesn't want to hate anyone, he just wants to leave the courtyard, and he just wants to live a life without the restrictions of fence gates.

Tang Yuhui gave Chang He a reassuring look, paused for a while, and then continued: "Later, I really met a couple who were willing to adopt me, and they were the parents of the little sister who often came to give us lectures. They are all teachers, and I was really happy when they told me the news."

"Then you were taken away?" Chang He asked.

"No." Tang Yu pulled up the quilt a little, leaving only a pair of eyes exposed, "Just before going through the formalities, the children who often fought with me went to the couple and said that there was nothing wrong with me but I was always No one adopted it because of bad conduct, saying that I often beat them and robbed them of their things, and I even stole money from people in the town before.”

Chang He stood up in surprise and looked at Tang Yu: "The couple hesitated? Did they believe what the children said?"

"Most people will believe it," Tang Yu sighed. "There are so many children crying, all of them young and disabled. Is it difficult for the couple to believe that these children are lying?"

"and after?"

"I had a fight with them, and the fight was very fierce. I pushed the leader down the stairs, and I was imprisoned for a long time."

"Confinement?" Chang He frowned, "Do ordinary orphanages allow corporal punishment of children?"

"I said it's not an ordinary orphanage. It's only been on the right track for a few years." Tang Yu explained: "And the so-called confinement room is a cellar that was dug before. It is very small and has only one ventilation hole. It feels like being buried alive in it. Disobedient children will be locked in, but usually they will be released after a few hours of detention, but that time, I was locked up for more than three days. When I came out, I knew that I was The child I pushed down broke his head, and Mammy stayed in the hospital for three days, but the child still couldn't be saved, and since then, I have been afraid of the dark."

Tang Yu's tone has always been very flat, and only when it is difficult, the speed of speech will become very slow, as if every word is extremely heavy, every word has to be hesitated for a long time, and it is impossible not to bring it when you say it. Those lingering darknesses are the same as suffocation.

At that time Tang Yu was only 12 years old, he didn't know what claustrophobia was, what was depression and anxiety, he was just afraid of the dark, afraid to fall asleep, afraid to stay alone in the room.

He would roll, howl, and rave, and would keep thinking of the dead child, the fight they had, and the expressions and eyes of everyone when Mammy stood in front of him announcing his death.

One, life.

Tang Yu clenched the soft flesh in his mouth. After all, he couldn't help turning his head and buried his face in the pillow. But soon, he felt the top of his head being rubbed by a hand, and he was silent for a few seconds. An hour later, Chang He embraced him through the quilt.

"Do not blame you."

Chang He kissed him on the top of his hair and repeated: "I don't blame you."

The author has something to say: Keke, thank you lovely fairies for watching, I am bald.

I need to explain here that the orphanage where Tangtao lives is actually a private orphanage in the town when Tutu was a child. The orphanage was managed by an old woman in the town. She took care of a dozen children by herself, but only Three or four boys were abandoned because of disabilities.

At that time, Bald was only about four or five years old. Because my mother was working, she was fostered at my grandmother's house. I can't remember many things. I just remember that a lame little boy would come to play with us, but one day Bald I lost 50 yuan (the 20 yuan 50 years ago is still very precious, it was left to me by my mother for emergencies). played.Not long after that, I heard that children from the orphanage fought with children from the town and fell into the river. There was a lot of trouble in the town at that time, but fortunately there was no serious danger between the two parties, but the orphanage did not let the children fall into the river. The child is out.

Later, Bald went back to the city to go to school, and never thought about it. It was not until I went back a few years ago and listened to the chats of the elders that I realized that the orphanage was closed after the death of the old woman. Transferred to an orphanage in another town. As for the little boy who used to play with Bald, Bald can't remember his name and appearance at all. I just hope he can live well.

Hey~ That's it~ That's all for today, little fairies want to be happy every day~