I'll forgive you when you're crazy

My heart, lungs, trachea, and muscles in my body were screaming, and my whole body seemed to be on fire.

But as long as Wu Tian doesn't say stop, I will continue to run until the end of the run, I feel as if my soul has left my body.

I don't know how long I ran, but the calculation in my heart failed, and Wu Tian finally called a stop.

I put my hands on my knees and bent over, gasping for breath, sweat pouring down my body.

Today is a little better than yesterday, no vomiting.

But going back was even more embarrassing. I felt like I couldn't even walk, so I could only be carried back on Wu Tian's shoulders.

"Rest today, you stay at home well." Wu Tian said to me.

I nodded.

After finally returning to Wu Tian's home, I sat on the sofa and didn't want to move at all. My eyes were a little slack and I wanted to sleep, but my body was sweaty and sticky.

I took my pajamas and walked into the bathroom to take a shower. I had already changed into my pajamas when I came out. Before my hair was dried, I fell down on the bed.

Suddenly remembering what Wu Tian said just now, he slowly got up and turned to look at him: "Are you going out today?"

Wu Tian took off his shirt and glanced at me coldly: "Didn't my staying here make someone upset?"

I frowned: "I didn't mean that."

Wu Tian: "But that's what you mean. You don't even want to look at me. Being around you is a noisy source of noise. Don't you want to be alone, so please stay at home."

I looked at Wu Tian: "Where are you going?"

Wu Tian snorted coldly: "Are you still concerned about where I'm going?"

Of course I care, but I can only bow my head silently, no matter how good-tempered I am, I don't want to stay by the side of a dying person, right?What's the point of me caring where he goes?At that time, it will only increase troubles.

Wu Tian came over suddenly, raised my head, stared at me and said, "Look at me!!"

I looked up at Wu Tian.

Wu Tian kissed him suddenly, I closed my eyes, and at the same time put my arms around Wu Tian's neck and leaned back. self loathing.

Wu Tian put his hands on both sides and kissed very hard. I hugged him tightly and felt his hot body temperature.

After kissing for a while, Wu Tian looked up at me and said to me: "I know you have been wronged all these years, can you give me a chance to make up for it?"

Hearing these words, my heart was agitated, and I couldn't help reaching out to touch Wu Tian's face: "I dare not even dream about these words. They say that the best medicine for forgetting old love is new love, but I can't find it." There are people like you, because I don't deserve it, but you should easily find someone better than me, why are you always single?"

Wu Tian held my hand on his face and said, "That's because I don't think they deserve it."

I looked at Wu Tian in astonishment: "I'm worthy?"

Wu Tian suddenly kissed me again, and it took him a long time to separate from me.

"I believe in my vision. I don't care if others think it's worthy or not, as long as I think it's worthy."

My nose suddenly became sour, and I buried my head on Wu Tian's chest, panting heavily, a knot in my heart that I had always had was suddenly said by Wu Tian as if it was insignificant.

"Wu Tian, ​​why do you think your brother fell in love with a married man? Or a middle-aged man who is nearly fifty years old?"

Wu Tian was taken aback by my question: "Why do you suddenly care about this matter?"

I thought for a while: "You said just now that you think you are worthy. I suddenly thought of what kind of person is worthy of your brother? What you said just now made me feel relieved."

Wu Tian lifted my chin: "How dare you miss my brother at this time?"

Hearing the inescapable jealousy in Wu Tian's tone, I smiled slightly: "I don't miss your brother, but myself. How do you think I am worthy of you?"

Wu Tian: "Do I have to be so blunt? I thought you knew it already."

I smiled even more: "Look, this is the difference between you and me. You think I understand you, but I don't even know what you like about me. I just pretended to understand you very well to accommodate you." , you think you understand me, but you only want to know what you want to know, what you are not interested in, what you dismiss, you don’t even want to know.”

Wu Tian inserted his hand into the hair on the back of my head, and brought my face closer to him. He stared at me with flickering eyes: "How do I know if you don't say anything?!"

I shook my head and closed my eyes, tired of him staring at me like that.

Wu was in a hurry, and felt that he had punched cotton, no matter how he told me, he looked half-dead.

"What do you want me to do!!"

I heard Wu Tian's roar and slowly opened my eyes, stretched out my hand to hook his neck and kissed him.

Wu Tian closed his eyes and gnawed at me like a wild beast biting its prey. My lips were numb from his kiss, but I still didn't want to stop.

Let it out, let it hurt, let it torture you.

Kiss me painfully, I will never forget it.

The intercourse of soul and flesh is sometimes just a ritual and has nothing to do with love.

Wu Tian seemed to be deliberately rough today. I was afraid of pain at first, but this time, I suddenly felt like a martyr.

But I was really sleepy, and suddenly I was floating in the sky, and suddenly I fell into hell again. In these two extremes of love/desire hell, I fainted.

I had another dream. In the dream, my classmates had a reunion, but Wu Tian didn't come. I didn't know why I expected Wu Tian to come. It was as if I had traveled to the past now. My mood was completely different from that time, but what happened was completely opposite.

This contrast almost made me collapse, the feeling in the dream was so real, I couldn't help but want to confirm whether I was dreaming, because I have always suspected that everything after I met Wu Tian was my hallucination, but why? What about the day of the party all over again?

I really don't understand, the more anxious I am, the sadder I feel, so sad and hopeless.

If I hadn't experienced all this and I was still the original me, then I wouldn't be so sad, but tell me that all of this is my fantasy, as if I thought Wu Tian was crazy in my heart, and I had hallucinations when I thought about it, but But Wu Tian wasn't there at all. I even picked up the phone and wanted to call him, but suddenly found that his phone number was no longer in the phone book.

I don't know when I have deleted all contact information with Wu Tian.

I was heartbroken at the time, I had lived in vain all these years, I finally thought that I had forgotten Wu Tian, ​​and I could live a strong life alone, but now I seem to be more obsessed with Wu Tian, ​​and I am more eager to return to him.

But Wu Tian doesn't want me anymore. Even if I try my best to find his contact information, I still have to say whether he can see me at that time. If he does, what can I do?Maybe Wu Tian was already accompanied by someone.

This familiar nightmare recurs in my mind again and again, how can I completely let myself go and forget Wu Tian?

I hate myself for being so attached to Wu Tian, ​​I hate myself for not being able to forget the past and look to the future.

Every time I wake up from such a nightmare, I feel like I have lived again. Fortunately, I didn’t become what I dreamed. Fortunately, I didn’t go to Wu Tian. Fortunately...

Just when I felt that I was about to be suffocated by this pain, I suddenly woke up with a deep breath.

I opened my eyes and got up slowly and looked around, it was Wu Tian's home.

I breathed a sigh of relief and fell on the bed again. In any case, I am grateful to God Wu Tian for returning to me.

I think I should cherish the present moment instead of dwelling on how much wronged and pain I have suffered in the past. If I keep dwelling on the past, the present happiness will be missed and turned into misfortune.

I checked the time on my phone, it was already close to noon, I passed out from running in the morning to doing "vigorous exercise" with Wu Tian, ​​and I haven't even had a drop of rice yet, when I woke up I felt hungry and my eyes were black , Stomach throbbing.

The curtains in the room were pulled up by Wu Tian, ​​and the sunlight outside could not come in at all. I looked around and found that Wu Tian was not at home. I remembered that he seemed to be going out before, and I don't know why.

I got up and opened the curtains, and saw that it was cloudy outside, and the sun was covered by clouds. It wasn't cloudy, but the sun wasn't very bright either.

The curtains in the room were pulled up by Wu Tian, ​​and the sunlight outside could not come in at all. I looked around and found that Wu Tian was not at home. I remembered that he seemed to be going out before, and I don't know why.

I got up and opened the curtains, and saw that it was cloudy outside, and the sun was covered by clouds. It wasn't cloudy, but the sun wasn't very bright either.

I wanted to call Wu Tian to ask where he was, but as soon as I picked up the phone, I saw an unread message: [When can I return my umbrella? 】

I clicked to open it, and it was indeed sent by Anci.

I was a little panicked for a while, I almost forgot about the umbrella, and now I was reminded.

In fact, I feel that this is not a matter of whether an umbrella is not an umbrella. After all, no matter how valuable an umbrella is, can it be made of gold?Even people like me vaguely feel that this is a bit of a "drunkard's intentions not to drink".

But it's not good to just refuse directly, it doesn't make sense in terms of emotion and reason, I have no ghosts in my heart, but I don't know what I am hesitating about.

After thinking about it, I'd better give it back to others. No matter what the meaning is, seeing a handsome guy is also very seductive.

The most important thing is that Wu Tian is not at home now, and he doesn't know when I go out. When I come back after delivering the umbrella, as long as I don't say anything, it will be as if nothing happened.

After settling my mind, I replied a message: [I just saw the text message, return it to you now? 】

An Ci replied: 【Okay, I'll wait for you at the gate. 】

I gave an OK gesture and got ready to get dressed and go downstairs, but I’ve been running and doing “vigorous exercise on the bed” all morning, and I haven’t even taken a drop of rice, so I’m really dizzy and my eyes are black. Walking is floating.