I'll forgive you when you're crazy

"Brother...Brother...Angkor...Brother Tian...Let me go, they all say 'keep things in order, we will see each other in the future', you have to leave a way for me to survive, doing things too badly can easily damage Yin De, look at it What time is it now! What time is it? Are you a leopard in estrus? Can you be a little... a little bit like a human being? Hey-hey no...I don't mean that...I mean-you Listen to me, if you fuck me again, I'll jump off the balcony, believe it or not?"

Just when my meal was in vain, this guy Wu Tian frightened me up and down, and the last sentence finally calmed him down.

Wu Tian looked up at me and smiled coldly: "Do you dare? Don't forget that you are wearing a trousers now."

I took a deep breath: "Don't say that I'm still wearing a trousers top. If you continue to act perversely and bully me, a poor and white commoner, even if you run naked/running naked!"

Wu Tian was amused by my words, fell down next to me and leaned on his arms and said, "You said you would find a new love tomorrow to drive me away, but I want to see what new love you can find tomorrow."

My face darkened, and I hummed in embarrassment: "I just... just said that casually..." I rolled my eyes, if I could find a new love, would I have looked for it sooner?

Wu Tian also seemed to see through what I was thinking, and he chuckled: "Are you saying that you are a □□? You don't talk through your brain."

I made a movement of shutting my mouth, turned around, let's not talk, there are too many mistakes.

As a result, Wu Tian, ​​the big furnace, still wrapped me up and leaned against me.

Emma, ​​he used me as a pillow, I feel like a fucking cat, I'm uncomfortable but I can't escape!

Finally, when Wu Tian really fell asleep, I slowly turned him over, and then I fell asleep comfortably.

I have experienced too much this day, I can't sleep well, and I have a dream in a trance.

As a result, I even dreamed of having sex/dreams, and I was also drunk. If Wu Tian knew that I must be dissatisfied with my desires, but I didn’t know that in the dream, I felt like I was being QJ, and there was a face that couldn’t be seen The person lying on top of me moved around.

This feeling touches the depths of my memory. Sun Deben's words during the day and what I said to Qian Jiaxiang on the rooftop all brought out the memories that had been deeply buried like psychological hints.

In fact, the process is not important, but it is really nauseating when I recall it.

"You can come out to meet me, which means you have a tacit understanding..."

"Although I may have used a little trick, it's just for fun... Aren't you very happy?"

"They are all grown-ups, I think Wu Tian should be able to understand, do you think he is that clean? Do you believe it or not? Check it out? Hehe..."

"How stupid and naive are you? Do you think he will believe you if you explain it to Wu Tian? If you don't believe me, I'll send him the photo to see how he reacts?"

"Things that others have touched—even if I like it—I don't want—you get lost—"

I woke up suddenly, covered in cold sweat. In this dark room, I was awakened by the nightmare again.

I haven't thought of this nightmare for a long time. In fact, this shadow has been around me all the time in the past few years. Because of this shadow, I almost lost my original confidence and optimism.

Hearing the sound of Wu Tian falling asleep next to him at this moment was almost as incredible as a dream within a dream.

My slightly trembling fingers were inserted into my hair, my heart was still pounding, and I didn't feel sleepy at all.

Quietly got out of bed, put on clothes, stood on the balcony and smoked a cigarette. When I left Wu Tian, ​​I was heartbroken. It took me so many years to realize the reality, that is, when you fall in love with someone Time is to give him a weapon that can hurt himself wantonly.

No one in this world can hurt yourself, only you can hurt yourself, but when you fall in love with the other party, you also fall in love with the self who likes the other party, and when the other party no longer loves you, you feel that the self who loves the other party is not worth it loved.

So I used almost masochistic methods again and again to make myself forget, forget the self who loved the other person deeply, because forgetting that self is tantamount to forgetting that relationship.

I had already forgotten...

I couldn't help but look back at the dark bedroom, as if my heart was empty at the moment, the feeling of love has been forgotten, can I remember it again?

I finished a cigarette before I knew it, and I was going to sleep on the sofa. I am used to sleeping alone, and I am no longer used to the heat of two people hugging each other.

But when I picked up the pillow and was about to leave, Wu Tian's hand suddenly grabbed my wrist.

"Where are you going?" Wu Tian asked in a deep voice.

I couldn't help being surprised: "When did you wake up?"

Wu Tian: "I woke up when you woke up with a start."

I couldn't see Wu Tian's face at all right now, but I could feel the heat of his wrist.

I think he would wake up when I touched his shoulder before, I really don't know if he really fell asleep.

Me: "Oh..." I didn't know whether to let go of the hand holding the pillow.

Wu Tian pulled me towards him: "Why didn't you explain to me back then?"

My heart thumped, am I still dreaming?When I was dreaming, I dreamed that Wu Tian questioned me like this, and then I explained it to him, but every time I explained it, there was no good result. In the end, he always scolded me very disappointedly, until I woke up from being so angry until.

So far, when I hear this "opening words" dream, I will wake up subconsciously, because I don't want to abuse myself again and again.

Every time I am in a dream, I feel wronged and want to cry, but in reality I can't help laughing.

"As I said, there's nothing to explain."

Wu Tian: "You suddenly vomited at Sun Deben's place during the day today. Is it a stress reaction? Why didn't you tell me back then?"

I wanted to pull my hand out, but Wu Tian didn't intend to let go. I turned on the bedside lamp, which illuminated my face and his face.

I looked at Wu Tian blankly, even I didn't expect that I would be so calm: "Did you give me a chance to explain?"

Hearing this, Wu Tian hugged me into his arms: "I'm sorry..."

I slowly pushed Wu Tian away: "Needless to say I'm sorry, you may have forgotten it now, but I haven't forgotten it, it's not just a matter of chance, you didn't love me at that time, even if I explain it, it doesn't make sense gone."

Wu Tian denied it excitedly: "No——I..." I reached out my hand to cover Wu Tian's mouth, and shook my head with a smile: "You don't feel it, I do, I don't know why you suddenly think of someone like me again , but I know that you didn’t have me in your heart at that time.”

Wu Tian became even more excited, grabbed my hand and stared at me and asked, "Who told you?! Who told you that?!"

I shook my head: "You really forgot, maybe your memory is self-beautifying? Or do you think you can really deny the past by denying it like this? I know that the people you chat with may be innocent with you, unlike I am so dirty that it is impossible to wash it clean, but..."

I squeezed out a smile, but I still felt cramped in my heart: "I can feel that you are more interested in chatting with other people than talking with me. Chatting with a familiar person who is no longer familiar is no longer fresh. I never look at your phone, but when I peeked at it on a whim that day, you couldn't imagine what chat records I saw, right?"

Wu Tian's face also changed: "I really have nothing with them."

I smiled brighter: "I know, I've seen it all, you may be frank, but do you think I'm blind? Can the care and tenderness between the lines cover up the purpose behind it with frankness? I don't believe it. You really don't feel anything...and..."

I raised my head and laughed while controlling myself not to cry: "It is the person I looked up to, who used to chat with people like a dog, and this kind of treatment is something I have never had, and I have never had it, because I am always as humble as a dog in front of you."

Wu Tian let go of his hand, and I also pulled it back.

"I've talked about this today, and we have a complete showdown, right? So this is not a question of whether I will give you a chance, you are not young anymore, let's be more mature, I don't know what you want to get back What, but the past time and feelings can never go back."

I picked up the pillow and left the bedroom. I lay on the sofa and found that the sky was bright again.

The author has something to say:

Last night, my friend asked me to code and said that the collection was lost. I smiled and said it was normal, but I didn't say that I didn't increase the collection at all. She said that as long as I don't get prostituted for nothing, I can only laugh and say nothing. Reminds me of the famous saying that some people are sad because they don't have shoes, but they forget that some people don't even have feet.

It may be the single-digit last click that supports me to write every day. As long as it is not 0, it means someone is watching, so I will continue to write.

If there is no recommendation, the updated chapter may not even increase the first point. I am afraid that there will be no recommendation for this data, but I will continue to write it well. No matter how many people read it, I want someone to read it. I am content, as for whoring for free or not, I may not be qualified to speak nonsense, my goal is also very simple, just finish writing, thank you all who have been following the article.