Gu Nianruochu

Wei Siyuan had never been dated by Yin Xu before. They used to go out together, which can basically be summed up as "Wei Siyuan pestered Yin Xu to go out together, and Yin Xu had no way to force him to agree."

Yin Xu arrived downstairs at Wei Siyuan's house on time at nine o'clock in the morning. The outdoor temperature was still low at this time. He was wearing a white sweater that Wei Siyuan bought for him two years ago, a smoky gray woolen coat, and a dark brown scarf around his neck. A scarf with a dark check pattern, didn't drive, just stood outside in the open space and waited for him.

Wei Siyuan had already prepared, locked the door and went downstairs when he arrived. He was wearing a shirt on the inside, a thin camel sweater in the middle, and a thick black woolen coat on the outside. He was in a well-heated place in the building. I still felt a little hot and stuffy, and I shivered unconsciously when I went outside and was blown by the cold wind.

When he walked in front of Yin Xu, Yin Xu took off his scarf and gave it to him. He shook his head quickly and said, "I don't need to wear your clothes."

"A scarf is not counted as clothes. We will be walking on the road later. Don't wear down and don't catch a cold." Yin Xu still wrapped the scarf around his neck, sticking it to the side of Wei Siyuan's neck with his warm body temperature On the delicate skin, "Have you had breakfast yet?"

"En." Wei Siyuan nodded, and took the black coffee that was still smoking from him.

Yin Xu and him looked at each other for a few seconds, and couldn't help laughing, "Give me your hand."

"What?"

Yin Xu took out two gloves from the pocket of his coat, and waited for Wei Siyuan to give him his hands. Wei Siyuan hesitated for a moment, and gave him his hand with frozen fingertips. Yin Xu patiently put the gloves on his hands, Slowly push from the slender fingers to the wrist, and whispered to him: "You are the conductor, everyone should look at your hands, you must protect your hands, what should you do if they are frozen?"

Yin Xu put on the gloves for Wei Siyuan, and took his hand casually, not daring to hold hands with his fingers tightly. Although Wei Siyuan didn't hold his hand back, he didn't either. Take back your hand, let him pull it, and follow him.

"It's been a long time since we took a walk like this." Yin Xu shook Wei Siyuan's hand, turned his face and smiled at him, walking in the place where the streamer was pouring, Wei Siyuan's hair was illuminated with a light brown, which looked particularly soft.

"In the past, I held your hand outside and you threw me away, and you walked quickly on purpose." Wei Siyuan took a sip of coffee, licked his lips, and casually mentioned the past, without any emotional ups and downs.

"I was wrong, can I apologize to you, I was a jerk before, don't take revenge on me." Yin Xu clenched his hand a little bit, "Can you tell me about your life over the past year? You can do anything, tell me where you go, who you meet, and whatever you think of.”

Wei Siyuan thought for a while, and said, "I went to visit my grandparents in March of the previous year, and stayed with them for a month before coming to New York."

"Yes, I didn't expect that you would visit your grandparents first, and you would take me to visit them when we return to China. Where do they live and are they in good health?"

Wei Siyuan swallowed the phrase "Did I promise to go back to China with you?" and replaced it with an impersonal sentence, "They are very good. They are in Seattle, with a temperate oceanic climate and abundant rainfall throughout the year. Occasionally controlled by subtropical high pressure belts, it has Mediterranean climate characteristics, with dry and hot summers and warm and humid winters."

Yin Xu was stunned for a moment, and couldn't help laughing again. When Wei Siyuan wasn't angry with him, his words were still as interesting as before, "Are you memorizing your geography textbook?"

"They also asked me how you were, and I..."

"Ahhh, I don't listen to this sentence." Yin Xu interrupted him, and when he heard the first half of the sentence, he was flustered and anxious, afraid that he would hear some kind of breakup from him, and he didn't want to see him again, didn't like him, and didn't want to be friends. "Then you have lived here for such a long time, have you encountered any trouble?"

Wei Siyuan shook his head, "No major troubles, because all I met were nice people, the minor troubles were passing a stop in a car, walking alone at night on a busy road with bad public order and being scared by drunks all over the street, and When the classmate went out to eat, both of them forgot to bring their wallets, that's about it."

Yin Xu listened carefully, and the worries he had been accumulating since he couldn't find Wei Siyuan for more than a year finally dissipated completely, so he kissed his fingertips through the glove, "Then did you go to other cities during your vacation? Ever played?"

"No, the international students and classmates I know here go to play everywhere every holiday, but people like me have no money, no friends, and I don't want to make friends, and I don't want to hang out with new friends."

Yin Xu couldn't help but smile when he heard this sentence, Wei Siyuan's temperament is still the same as before, after solving troubles by himself for a long time, he has learned not to rely on others, not to seek unnecessary company, his temperament has always been cold, It's just that he was willing to warm him up in the past, because he himself didn't understand this kind of rare affection at the beginning.

"When I catch up with you in the future, let's go play together." Wei Siyuan turned around and glanced at Yin Xu, with no expression on his face, as if he didn't look forward to it, just listen to it, let's forget it if he gets what he wants, and then listen to it again Until he said, "I sent you a lot of WeChat messages after you left."

Wei Siyuan said, "I have listened."

Yin Xu looked at him in surprise, "Then why don't you answer me?"

Wei Siyuan was still expressionless, "Do you have an opinion?"

"...No, as long as you have heard everything, if you don't like to return, you won't return."

The two talked all the way, walked for about half an hour, and came to a small theater. Yin Xu came here specially after finishing his speech yesterday, and told the manager in charge of running the theater that he would rent it for a day, and planned to come here for a date with Wei Siyuan.

The venue of the theater has been set up a long time ago. In fact, there is no need for any decoration. It is just an empty theater with a conductor's seat and many chairs arranged according to the arrangement of a symphony orchestra.

Yin Xu pulled Wei Siyuan to the first row of the auditorium, let him sit down, then took off his coat and put it beside him, and went up the stage from the side stairs. The stage was lit with warm yellow lights, and one of the chairs had a Take the violin.

Yin Xu picked up the violin to test the sound, paused for a few seconds, and began to play Regret, which was slower and more melodious than the version at the concert that day, like a gentle and sad drizzle suddenly falling in the middle of the night, in the dawn dawn When I was there, only a faint trace of water was left to imply that it had existed, because the miss has become a fact, so the regret is always so pale and powerless.

This is a song he wrote for Wei Siyuan alone, so at the beginning, he hoped that one day he would be able to do this, let Wei Siyuan be his audience alone, and listen to his regrets.

Yin Xu finished the last note, looked down at Wei Siyuan who was in the audience, and waved to him, "Siyuan, come up."

Wei Siyuan stood up and walked onto the stage, saw him pick up a sheet of music from a position, leaned over to look and found that it was the symphony he wrote, "This is the chord of the violin part."

"Well, I asked the band you directed for it." Yin Xu looked into his eyes, took his hand, and slowly pulled off his glove, "I also want to play the piece you directed, It doesn’t matter if you’re not the principal violinist, if your band is short of people in the future, just put me on the sidemost position, as long as I can look up and see you, I’m satisfied.”

Yin Xu hugged Wei Siyuan's shoulders in a vain manner, and let him walk up to the command seat. After Wei Siyuan stood up, he was a little taller than him, and turned to look at him with downcast eyes, asking with his eyes.

Yin Xu raised the corners of his lips, reached out and touched his cheek lightly, and said to him: "Siyuan, you are my conductor, you direct me, and I will do whatever you ask me to do."

As he spoke, he sat on the chair near the middle on his left hand side, and put the piano score on the piano stand. Wei Siyuan didn't bring a baton, but one pair of hands is enough to direct one person. He raised his hand slightly, Putting his hands flat, Yin Xu clamped the violin on his collarbone, and held the bow with his right hand.

Wei Siyuan has engraved every commanding action of this piece of his in his heart. After he put his emotions into it, the plain look in his eyes is completely different, and the eye contact with Yin Xu has become frank and direct, which can even be regarded as It is turbulent, with a very absolute control posture, this kind of Ling Ran's kingly air makes those who look up at him involuntarily want to submit.

Wei Siyuan finished neatly, took a deep breath, and exhaled slowly. For some reason, there was a smile on his lips. He looked down at Yin Xu with a faint smile, and watched him put down the violin and walk back to him. He opened his arms, "Hold me."

Wei Siyuan stood quietly, making eye contact with him, but did not respond. Yin Xu took another step closer, laughed, and took out a one hundred dollar bill from his trouser pocket wallet, "Look at me For the sake of your courage, the world has confessed to you, so give me a hug, give me a hug."

Wei Siyuan also went to take out his wallet, found him 90 yuan, and said in a low voice, "Only for one minute."

"Do you have to be so cute?" Yin Xu stuffed all the money into his hands and looked up at him again, "As long as you say, don't make it look like a power-sex transaction."

After finishing speaking, Yin Xu hugged Wei Siyuan, and the breath that made him never forget was finally firmly embedded in his breath. I don't know whose heartbeat is faster, anyway, when the two people's chests are pressed against their chests, the heartbeat gradually It jumped into a synchronized rhythm.

Wei Siyuan's arm was hanging by his side, but after thinking for a few seconds, he put his hand on Yin Xu's back lightly, and was immediately hugged even tighter.

Yin Xu used a little force in his hands to hug him off the conductor's seat. When he spoke, his warm breath brushed against his ears, and his voice was low, "You are standing on the conductor's seat, Mr. Wei Siyuan, the conductor, come down." It’s just my own Siyuan.”

Wei Siyuan's cheeks flushed slightly, his heart beat a few times like a twitch, and when he was about to push him away, Yin Xu suddenly said to him, "I won't leave you again, I won't give you a chance to leave me again. I understand how it feels to lose you. It doesn't matter if you don't want to accept me now. I still have a lot to make up for you slowly, so I don't need you to make a decision now, you You don't need to feel pressured by it." He let go of Wei Siyuan a little bit, and looked into his eyes, "It's not uncomfortable for you to stay with me, right? You don't feel like you don't want to see me anymore, do you?"

Wei Siyuan was stunned, then shook his head, and finally expressed the question in his heart, "Why do you have to find me? It's not like you can't like others."

"I used to be so stupid, I know it's irresponsible for me to say that, but I used to be a stupid and bad person, that's why I kept making mistakes to disappoint you and make you lose your trust in me. I'm not smart enough now, so I still can't find a way to make you truly forgive me, but I have experienced life without you, I know you are indispensable to me, so it has nothing to do with me, I can only see you , only care about what you think."

Wei Siyuan bit his lip quietly.

"If you don't like me, then you don't like me, as long as you don't let me get close to you, and occasionally you smile at me when I do something right, like now, I will be very happy when you see me smiling at me, at least Let me know what kind of efforts are in the right direction, is that okay?"

Wei Siyuan blinked his eyes slowly, his pupils were suffused with a layer of soft water, and then nodded lightly.

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