die by your hands

It was probably in the spring of his 20th year that Bai Wei became vaguely aware of his sexuality.

Before the age of 20, Bai Wei never had a girlfriend.At that time, he felt that this should be the cleanliness of himself as a pianist. His requirement for love was very pure, and he would not be tempted just because he saw a beautiful girl casually.Afterwards, An Tianming's words became the starting point for everything that followed.

That happened to be the "five thousand" and "next time" that Bai Wei said. Bai Wei and An Tianming came to the bar to watch the ball again.Bai Wei didn't want to understand why a beautiful woman suddenly came to strike up a conversation with An Tianming in this bar where people can watch football well.He was a little unhappy, probably because no beautiful woman had ever approached him in a bar, but An Tianming declined the other party without thinking, which made Bai Wei quickly forgive An Tianming's mistake of being too attractive compared to him.Then, Bai Wei became curious again. "That girl is quite beautiful, why are you so demanding, you don't even like her?" Facing Bai Wei's question, An Tianming answered a sentence that made Bai Wei think about it.

An Tianming said: "It's not a matter of liking or not, the main thing is that I have someone I like."

This sudden line made Bai Wei almost ask the other party who that person was on the spot. He really wanted to know, but at the same time, he didn't want to know at all.This kind of emotion, Bai Wei guesses, is probably like the best friend who grew up with you since you were young, who has grown up before you, entered the stage of voice change before you, and left you alone to grow up alone, making you feel betrayed... Especially Bai Wei has not climbed so far, and he can understand the pain in it.So, after a night of tossing and turning, Bai Wei decided to make a girlfriend and fall in love.

After formulating this plan, Bai Wei encountered a big problem.

Bai Wei stood for a long time in front of the school's men's toilet sink, looking incredulously at the face in the mirror that was clearly flawless.His good friend Zhao Xuan came over and patted him on the shoulder: "Xiao Bai, do you want to be so narcissistic and keep staring at your face?"

"No way, I think this face is pretty, and I can't help but want to see more." Bai Wei took it seriously.

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"Xiaobai, you are really a good person." Zhao Xuan praised with a serious face, "You are afraid that I will not have time to find a place to vomit, so you disgust me in the toilet."

Bai Wei stared at the other party unconvinced: "Why do I disgust you? Don't you think I'm telling the truth?"

"It's good-looking as long as it looks good, don't show it off. Besides, your good-looking direction is actually quite self-satisfied." Zhao Xuan replied after thinking for a while.

Bai Wei didn't notice the other party's subtle words, he was still immersed in his own confusion: "Xuanzi, you said that I am good-looking and I can play the piano well, so why don't girls come after me?"

Zhao Xuan replied without hesitation: "Of course, what girl would like to have a boyfriend who would compare herself to herself!"

Bai Wei didn't think about it: "Are you praising me or belittling me?"

Zhao Xuan wisely pretended not to hear it, and then couldn't help laughing because he remembered something: "Speaking of which, there are boys chasing you, so you have something to brag about."

Bai Wei was stunned: "When did a boy chase me? Why didn't I know?"

"That Li Lang!" Zhao Xuan looked at him like a fool, "He treats you to dinner every day and shows you courteousness, don't you say you don't know? Then again, didn't you reject him? Wasn't it because you knew he was chasing you?" You just refused?"

Bai Wei was dumbfounded, thinking that Zhao Xuan must be making something up.Speaking of which, Bai Wei naturally remembered Li Lang. Li Lang was a very friendly senior who helped Bai Wei a lot. They also had many meals together, but because Li Lang liked Western food, Bai Wei who liked Chinese food got tired of it. Afterwards, because of discordant tastes, I stopped making appointments with each other for dinner—all in all, there shouldn’t be any femininity involved?

Bai Wei met Li Lang on the road at the side entrance of the school.At that time, Bai Wei was a freshman at the school...a freshman who had never crossed the road alone——Bai Wei, who wanted to buy a bottle of water at the convenience store across the road, probably walked to the sidewalk steps, and suddenly realized that this situation.Usually no matter where he goes, there will be a driver to take him, and if he wants to buy something, he doesn't even have to go out by himself, so he can't be blamed for this.Bai Wei is convinced of this, and he doesn't seem to be very good at crossing the road.There are no traffic lights on either side of that crosswalk. Bai Wei has studied for a long time how he should find the right time to cross this road that seems to be full of cars all the time. In the end, he made up his mind to take a step forward...

——Unexpectedly, soon he saw a bicycle coming towards him.

Bai Wei looked at the opponent and tried to avoid it to the left - the opponent happened to also turn to the right - quickly turned to the right - the opponent turned to the left at the same time, Bai Wei didn't give up on this synchronization rate, it shouldn't matter if he simply wanted to be hit by a bicycle , Then, a person suddenly pulled him away forcefully.

That person is Li Lang.Li Lang is a sophomore in the school next door.Not to mention that this place is a university town, on the contrary, because the location is too expensive, there are only two schools nearby, so Bai Wei thinks that even if the other party is not the senior of his school, they are quite destined.Mainly, this neighbor senior is also very friendly.Bai Wei himself didn't think much about repaying the other party's life-saving grace-it's a big favor without saying thanks, so just pretend it's nothing-but Li Lang took care of Bai Wei very helpfully.Bai Wei reminded the other party several times that he was not a freshman at the other school, and he didn't know if it was because he didn't enjoy being a senior at the orientation meeting before. Li Lang corrected Bai Wei's family prejudice while actively teaching Bai Wei how to skip classes or Techniques such as shouting on behalf of others.In the first half of the freshman year, Bai Wei became Li Lang's follower. They ate together when they had nothing to do, and sometimes Li Lang would accompany Bai Wei in class. In one big class, the teacher asked Li Lang, who studied international finance, to introduce Chopin's Story, Bai Wei laughed for a whole week afterwards.

Generally speaking, making friends is a lifetime thing for Bai Wei. However, because of his eating habits, Bai Wei has slightly reduced the number of times he goes out to eat with each other.Once when Li Lang asked "why" when Bai Wei refused an invitation, Bai Wei was embarrassed to say that he disliked the other party's dining taste, so he answered "my taste is more popular".In fact, Bai Wei felt that if the other party wanted to cheat in the exam, he could help the other party take the exam in English and so on. If they didn't eat together, they would do something else together, but for some reason, Li Lang became busy afterwards , and their relationship became a little bit alienated.

As far as Bai Wei is concerned, he will do his best to help Li Lang ask him for any help in the future.However, he also had a feeling that Li Lang probably would not take the initiative to contact him again.So, making friends is sometimes a matter of time.So far Bai Wei regrets that Li Lang is not a friend who can maintain friendship, but no matter what——

"Li Lang and I are just a pure man-male relationship, Xuanzi, how unhealthy do you think your thoughts are?"

Zhao Xuan glanced over suspiciously: "In a pure relationship between a man and a man, you ride around the campus on the back of Li Lang's bicycle?"

"The school is so big, isn't it normal to ride a bicycle?"

"Didn't you see that people ride their own bicycles?"

"I don't know how to ride. If you want to talk about riding a tandem bicycle, that's an idol drama. It's normal for Li Lang to take me for a while."

"Leaving that aside, you still always go out to eat together, right?"

"Every time I call you and Kang He, you don't go."

"Of course we are consciously aware that we shouldn't be light bulbs."

Bai Wei couldn't help sighing, he felt that the world was going downhill. "In this world, is it that men and women can't accept it? Can we still retain a little integrity and purity?"

Zhao Xuan finally turned his head and looked Bai Wei up and down seriously: "Xiaobai, are you really pretending to be stupid?"

"I'm such a smart person, can I act like a fool?"

"So," Zhao Xuan pondered and deduced, "Are you homophobic?"

"No." Bai Wei felt that he had been wronged so innocently.At most, his thinking is relatively normal, which is different from the wonderful thinking that men like men is a common and natural phenomenon.

Zhao Xuan continued to look at Bai Wei thoughtfully: "Let's not talk about the rest, let's assume, let's assume, Li Lang likes you, what will you do?"

"Of course I declined, but I'm still willing to be his friend." Bai Wei is a man, so he naturally likes girls. Besides, even if he wants to like men, he must like An Tianming first and not Li Lang...

Bai Wei suddenly stepped on the ground and almost fell down.

Zhao Xuan hurriedly supported Bai Wei: "How did you miraculously achieve the miracle that almost tripped you when you stood upright?"

Bai Wei felt that the whole world was in a daze.

"Xuanzi..." He was stunned for a long time, "...Do you think it is possible for me to like men?"

"It's as if you might like girls." Zhao Xuan blurted out as a matter of course, "You don't even take a second look at Megan Fox's breasts."

——But in fact, Bai Wei has seen a short video of two girls "together".Even with his best friends, he can't reveal this kind of thing, and he actually likes to watch it secretly.Bai Wei thinks that he likes girls, and usually he can fantasize about a woman's sexy body without hindrance... But if it's An Tianming...

Zhao Xuan's frightened tone sounded——

"Why do you suddenly have such an expression of spring heart? Didn't you suddenly realize that you fell in love with Li Lang? I advise you to forget it, Xiaobai. Li Lang is the lover next door. He is so proud. After hurting my self-esteem, I will definitely not look back."