die by your hands

An Tianming thought that method would be useful.

Speaking of which, if he had to, he could choose not to see the other party—even if it was the last thing he was willing to do in this world, at least he could do it for the other party.But it is useless to do so.Bai Wei, who couldn't see An Tianming, would only feel more panic. Because he didn't know where An Tianming was doing, he couldn't help but worry over and over again, guessing all kinds of possibilities, guessing the worst and most terrible situation.But now without Li Lang's company, An Tianming is even more worried about letting Bai Wei stay alone.So, he chose another option.

This is the craziest thing An Tianming has ever done.You know, Bai Wei had a thousand reasons to send him to prison, but he handed over the key to the other party with his own hands.It was as if he thought the other party would not send him to jail.

From the perspective of profit analysis, or in terms of investment theory, it is obviously stupid to do so.He was taking a huge risk, but actually only for a small profit - An Tianming knew from the very beginning that that USB flash drive would not help Bai Wei completely relax.But just to let Bai Wei get a little sense of security and feel that he is not helpless, An Tianming still does not hesitate to carry out those transactions deliberately and bear the risk of quite harmful consequences.

Bai Wei's action of sending back the USB flash drive did not surprise An Tianming - the only thing he regretted was that he failed to predict the details better and made the other party wait downstairs in the company for a long time.After that, he spent a lot of effort to convince the other party. When Bai Wei thanked him and accepted the USB flash drive, An Tianming hoped that he could see the other party relax a little bit - but he didn't.

In the final analysis, it is also useless to do so.

Even, the result of the matter was much more ironic than An Tianming imagined.

An Tianming himself doesn't like spicy or other strong food.In the process of communicating with Bai Wei in the past, he used to go to various restaurants with strong flavors for Bai Wei, who loves spicy food. He went to all kinds of cheap restaurants and even food stalls to fill his stomach, and never showed any dislike—probably until today, Bai Wei thought that An Tianming could not eat too spicy food as he claimed, but Just the kind of person who likes to eat.But then again, Bai Wei likes spicy food is something An Tianming is sure of.This evening, when An Tianming realized that Bai Wei had missed his meal in order to wait for him to go downstairs, he immediately took him to a Sichuan restaurant.

An Tianming's ordering has been a common practice since eight years ago. Today, all the dishes he ordered were spicy, none of which he liked. He just hoped that Bai Wei, who loves spicy food, could enjoy his meal.

At that time, he never expected that two hours later, he sent Bai Wei to the hospital.

The doctor recognized Bai Wei, obviously Bai Wei had seen this doctor not long ago. "I remember reminding you that you must eat lightly recently. Don't think that stomach problems are trivial, and maintenance is very important." The doctor casually scolded the patient for his lack of cooperation.

Only then did An Tianming realize the hesitant expression on Bai Wei's face when facing a table of heavy dishes.In fact, Bai Wei ate very little at first, and was worried that the other party would be hungry if he ate less because of his lack of appetite. An Tianming picked up vegetables and persuaded the other party to eat more.Bai Wei did not refuse from the beginning to the end, and did not mention a word about his recent stomach pain.

——He didn't even want to mention this kind of trivial matter to An Tianming, he would rather eat those foods that irritated his stomach.

During the whole process of seeing a doctor, An Tianming tried his best to keep calm and silent, letting the emotional surge in his chest be difficult to calm down.He accompanied Bai Weiyi to receive the medicine and left the hospital.Walking to the gate, he asked the other party: "Shall I take you home?"

Faced with this proposal, Bai Wei nodded without thinking: "If it doesn't bother you."

An Tianming finally couldn't hold back anymore.He knew that the self who was not trusted would not be treated sincerely - he deserved it - but at least he thought that Bai Wei would not be so careful about some small things.

"Actually, Xiao Wei, you don't want me to take you home, do you?"

This question made Bai Wei look up at An Tianming in surprise, and he paused in doubt: "Why did you say that all of a sudden?"

"I'm just so worried. You didn't even tell me about your stomach upset and you can't eat spicy food. When I said we went to a Sichuan restaurant, you didn't suggest another one. So, I'm worried every time you give me None of the answers are what you really want."

Bai Wei raised a smile, although it seemed a bit far-fetched: "Where to eat is just an unimportant matter, I don't think there is any need to make it so troublesome."

"Yeah, it's just an insignificant thing—you're so careful. Why do you think I'm too petty to mind your objection to such an insignificant thing?"

An Tianming unconsciously used a strong tone, which made his question sound like an accusation.He was used to this way of speaking, and the anger in his heart at this moment made him forget that the person in front of him was the only one he would pay attention to deliberately restraining his temper.

Bai Wei flinched subconsciously, unable to speak for a while.

For a long time, facing An Tianming, Bai Wei has been unable to hide the horror in his eyes like a small animal caught in a trap, but other than that, he has always used as natural behavior as possible to protect his face and protect himself from being too angry because of being too angry. Embarrassed by being too weak.He rarely showed fear of An Tianming in actual actions, but now, he was so at a loss that he didn't know how to answer An Tianming.

"I'm sorry, Xiao Wei." An Tianming, who had a harder time accepting the current situation, choked up before he apologized, "I'm not asking you. I don't have the right either."

"Don't say that. No one needs any special power to support it." Bai Wei smiled nonchalantly.

"Can I send you back?" An Tianming raised the question again, before Bai Wei could answer, he added, "Xiao Wei, do you still remember the day I gave you the stock code, you asked me to leave first, and then I Really gone - I still have the ability to do what you want."

He just wanted a sincere answer.

If he couldn't even get any real thought or any real reaction from Bai Wei, then all his efforts would be in vain.He would rather hear Bai Wei express his rejection clearly. He is not afraid of being rejected, but only afraid that the other party will not even give him the rejection.

however--

"Of course I never doubted your ability, but if it doesn't bother you too much." Bai Wei answered him like that without changing his expression.

An Tianming, who drove Bai Wei home, was thinking about what he should do next.

Bai Wei didn't want to see a doctor, so An Tianming simply went to consult a psychiatrist himself.Because there is no direct contact with Bai Wei, the psychiatrist can only give general advice.An Tianming tried his best to undo the sword of Damocles hanging in Bai Wei's heart... But in the end, he still only got the insincere words from the other party as usual.

It was he himself who destroyed all Bai Wei's trust in him, so now that he cannot be trusted, he can only accept the reality.But no matter what, he needs to help Bai Wei get rid of the already sick psychological shadow.

If this is his last resort.

If he has no other way.

...he really has nothing else to do.

"Xiao Wei, if I tell you, to be precise, I want you to promise that I will never take the initiative to appear in front of you again, will you believe me?"

The car stopped outside Bai Wei's apartment building, before the other party got off the car, An Tianming suppressed the bitterness in his heart and spoke.

In fact, he had already made up his mind once.When he really wanted to match Bai Wei and Li Lang, there was so much jealousy in his heart that he was unwilling to promise, but anyway, he finally did it.Therefore, this time, no matter how much he worries about, he will definitely be able to do the same.

"I know you won't believe it right now. But time will tell. Maybe in a year you will, or in two years. As long as you get through it, you won't be so scared anymore. "

For a while, Bai Wei looked at An Tianming probingly with puzzled eyes.The latter hopes that the former can see his truest mood in his own eyes.His hopes were dashed.

"I don't know what you're talking about, but you know that I have nothing to be afraid of except lizards, right?" Bai Wei deliberately interrupted the topic with a joke.

The most difficult promise in this life was just ignored and not taken seriously at all. An Tianming felt so tired of the powerless feeling that he thought he would never experience.

Bai Wei in the passenger seat opened the car door at this time. "Thank you for taking me home. Goodbye." He got out of the car, thanked An Tianming with a natural smile, then closed the car door, turned and walked into the apartment building.

An Tianming stared at Bai Wei's back until all he could see was the dark door.He didn't know how long he had been watching like that, and he didn't know what he was looking at. He didn't know what he was looking at, what he was waiting for, and what he was hoping for.

That day, An Tianming didn't drive back until late at night.

In the following days, An Tianming began to concentrate a lot of energy on his work.Sometimes he would think that if he shifted the focus of his work overseas again, it might be able to make Bai Wei feel more at ease.For Bai Wei, it is natural that the farther away An Tianming is, the better.But at the same time, the biggest distance An Tianming can bear is the current situation. Once he leaves this city full of his and Bai Wei's memories, he will really have no "home" of his own.

This is different from the situation when he left four years ago. At that time, his departure was more like escaping, so hasty, like a bereaved dog, at the moment when he should be the winner.But anyway, at that time he knew in his heart that he would come back sooner or later, so he would buy the auctioned main house of the Bai family.But this time it was different.This time, if he left, he knew he would never come back—because even if he didn't leave, he would never come back.

His abilities are limited.He can't save himself, he can't save others.

It didn't matter if he couldn't save himself, because he was hopeless in the first place.And he can't save Bai Wei, because he is not worthy to save him at all.