Summer thoughts

"Third brother, you are finally back!"

Getting on and off the bus, getting off and getting on the bus, and taking several buses to arrive at the school, Shi Nian was dizzy from the ride, and because he was away from home, he was not very energetic.Open the tightly covered bag, the sweet potatoes inside are still warm, "Eat it quickly, it won't taste good when it's cold." After saying that, he let himself fall on the bed, until his roommate told him to be lazy After dressing up and getting up, there are more than 10 text messages on the mobile phone, all of which are from Xia Ting. After reading one by one, it seems that they have been separated for centuries after only a few hours.

"I'm homesick." When the message was sent, Shi Nian felt that in front of him, his vulnerable parts were fully exposed, and Lele's sweet smile appeared in his mind. The whole family sat together for dinner, and took Xia Ting to the top of the mountain. ...Several feelings piled up together, and the chest felt tight. It has to be said that Shi Nian was used to the feeling of the two of them being free at home.

The text message came in quickly, "Me too." Not long after, another message came, "Let's rent a house outside."

Before Shi Nian could digest the first text message, he choked on the second one, "I have no money to rent an apartment."

Xia Ting's instinctive reaction was to input "I have money" into the phone, and after filtering in his brain, it changed to, "Let's go to work together."

"I don't want to work part-time to rent a house. I'm going to study by myself at night."

"I'll pick you up tonight."

"It's the same place as the library."

After the whole evening self-study, after opening the book, Shi Nian didn't touch it at all.He's not in a daze, he's thinking about how to calm down, otherwise the roller coaster mood won't fit into the book.

After leaving the library, Shi Nian knew that he would continue the unfinished topic in the short message, so he said first, "Forget about renting an apartment. We can say that we are still in the period of passionate love together, but being together is not just about liking. We need to adjust in many places, and it will take time to adjust."

"Living together can also be a break-in."

"We are two stones that have not been polished. If we put them together directly, there will be misfires. It is better to let the wind and rain polish ourselves before putting them together.

"But, with you."

"I think you're ..."

Xia Ting was provoked, "Do you believe that I am here now...?" It was like a devil staring at the flower girl.

"I don't believe it." Shi Nian said sternly: "You'd better think about it when you go back, add my thoughts into it and make a decision." After speaking, he put his schoolbag on his back and left first.

It’s just a month, and you will do it willfully. Do you regret it?Shi Nian shook his head. He thought of the spring day. In the bamboo garden, the bamboo shoots that had just sprouted were covered by the bamboo leaves that withered in the garden. A bamboo tree for the future.Now the love between the two is like this new bamboo shoot, very fragile, and the dream of growing bamboo will be lost inadvertently.

Shi Nian's words made Xia Ting who was lying on the bed feel unreasonable, especially the metaphor, the two of them wanted to live together, not to mention family, they needed to be honed in all aspects of diet, exercise, and entertainment. fit.

After waiting for a long time, the text message finally came in. Shi Nian had just decided that the text message would not come at 11 o'clock, so he called him to show his weakness, and fighting is not the way to solve the conflict.

"Respect your opinion."

Shi Nian smiled at the phone screen and quickly typed, "See you tomorrow, Myboy!"

Ever since Shi Yan saw that incident that day, whenever she thought about it, she would feel chest tightness and be in a trance.After learning about same-sex relationships on the Internet, she seemed to see her younger brother's bright future extinguished in an instant.

Over the past few months, Shi Yan has learned about this through various channels, but she still finds it hard to accept, imagining that day was just a game, but the game played by the two boys was "kissing"?Shi Yan still had a glimmer of hope, and sent Shi Nian a text message, "Xiao Nian, how are you doing?"

The text message came in soon, "Sister, I'm fine. How are you? What is Lele doing."

"Lele is asleep, are you in love?"

"Why do you ask this all of a sudden?"

"My sister is also gossiping, my brother is so handsome, there must be girls who like it, is there anyone else?"

"Sister, it's still early."

"Xiao Nian, you and Xia Ting..." Shi Yan gritted her teeth and clicked send.

The silent ellipsis made Shi Nian suddenly at a loss, his heart was beating like a bungee jump, his brows were furrowed like a peak.After establishing a relationship with Xia Ting, he is always planning for the future. He hopes that after the two of them are truly stable, they will enter the house together, explain the whole story to their parents, get their understanding, and then live a happy life.He found out how ridiculous he was, laughing at himself for talking nonsense.

Thumbs pressed tightly against the phone screen, tears kept rolling in his eyes, the wind on the balcony carried the cold color of dark autumn, "Sister..." her voice was hoarse.

"Hey, Xiao Nian..." The moment Shi Yan heard the hoarse voice coming from the phone, she concluded that Shi Nian was crying. This voice was so familiar to her that she could recognize the pain and panic in Shi Nian's heart, " Xiao Nian, don't cry, don't cry, my sister is here." Shi Yan also had tears in her eyes, but she bit her lip to calm herself, "Xiao Nian, don't panic. My sister didn't tell my parents, let's communicate well, There will be a solution. Xiao Nian..." Shi Yan began to blame herself for piercing this layer of paper.

Shi Nian burst into tears, "Sister, I'm sorry."

"Xiao Nian, I'm not sorry. These days, my sister is also going to understand this aspect. I know the pain you have endured in my heart, and I don't mean to blame you. I am afraid that you will have more suffering in the future." Shi Yan is now She didn't start thinking about the so-called ethics, but when she heard her brother crying, she felt distressed.She should stand by her brother and solve his problems. "Xiao Nian, sister can understand your feelings." Suddenly, Shi Yan felt that as long as Shi Nian was happy, it didn't matter who she loved.

After hanging up the phone, Shi Nian's eyes were empty, the dormitory building opposite had no color, the small garden had no color, the students walking downstairs had no color, and the air became superfluous.Just standing there, standing like a statue, without thinking, not knowing about today and tomorrow, let alone what love is.

This call made Shi Yan more aware of what she should do than before, but she still carried it, thinking about her younger brother who was away alone.Shi Nian kept choking up on the phone yesterday, she knew he was enduring it, and she was worried after hanging up the phone.At dawn in the morning, Shi Yan went straight to his school with the things prepared for Shi Nian yesterday.

"Xiao Nian, I'm at the gate of your school."

"Sister, why are you here?"

"Come and see you."

"Actually, I'm fine."

"Where's Xia Ting?"

"He's in class."

"Is it convenient for him? Have a meal together."

"Then I'll ask him, and I'll show you around the campus first." Shi Yan never went to college, and when filling out the application for the high school entrance examination, she filled out the technical secondary school behind her back.She made it through high school, but two schoolbags were too heavy for her hands-on parents.If I finish my studies early, I can go to school with my parents when I work early.

"I've never been to college. That's awesome!"

With Shi Yan's support, Shi Nian suddenly became enlightened. Everywhere he went, he introduced them one by one. When he met a classmate he knew, he introduced her as my sister before asking who it was.

"Xiao Nian, take my sister to your dormitory, and my sister will clean up for you."

"No, no, I've packed it myself."

Xia Ting received Shi Nian's text message and stared at it for 5 minutes, "Ting, my sister is here and wants to have a meal together, are you free? By the way, my sister knows about our affairs."

"I've reserved a table, waiting for you!"

When Shi Yan was brought to the splendid hotel by Shi Nian, she couldn't believe it: "Xiao Nian..."

Shi Nian was also speechless, and he couldn't hold back Xia Ting in the text message, "Sister, Xia Ting has already made an order. He, his family, seems to be quite well-to-do." He hesitated, Shi Nian was afraid that his sister would not be able to eat this meal.

"Xiao Nian, ask Xiao Ting if he can change it, we are from the countryside, we will make jokes."

"He, he said that the food is ready."

Shi Yan didn't expect it to be like this, even if it is a man and a woman, they will be said to be inappropriate, "Xiao Nian, I really don't want to see you..." As she spoke, her eyes turned red again, but she held back, she couldn't give herself Brother lost face.

"Sister, it's okay."

"Sister! Xiao Nian." Xia Ting knew and understood, but as the host, and when Shi Nian's family came, he must not treat him badly, so he ordered a good meal and let the waiter serve it immediately.In the text message, Shi Nian said that he was coming soon, but when all the meals were served and there was no one there, Xia Ting became anxious and ran downstairs to have a look.

Seeing the two chatting in the hall, Xia Ting could guess well.When he ran to them, he ignored Shi Yan's red eyes, and warmly hugged Shi Yan, "Sister, when did you come? I said earlier that I could come to pick you up."

"It's okay, my sister will come to see you." Shi Yan's open-minded attitude made the atmosphere in the air instantly lively.

"Then sister stay a few more days, I will show you around."

"You're too polite. My sister has to leave after dinner, but Lele is still at home."

"Then I'll take you there later."

"No, no, you still have to go to class."

"It's okay, I don't have class in the afternoon. It's convenient to take the car there, you can chat with Xiao Nian for a while. Sister, come and eat more." Xia Ting didn't praise Shi Yan on purpose, he was moved by her acceptance, and he I have an extra sister.

"Do you have a car?" Shi Nian was surprised, he only now knew that Xia Ting had a car.

"Yeah." Xia Ting smiled flatteringly like a child whose secret had been discovered, "You like taking the bus, so I didn't tell you."

After eating, the siblings waited for Xia Ting to pick up the car at the door.Chatting, looking for passing cars from time to time, when an orange convertible sports car drove up, Shi Nian was going to ignore it, but he spotted the owner of the car, and the five flavors brought by the dinner just now became more mixed.

Along the way, there were only Xia Ting and Shi Yan's chatter, and Shi Nianan quietly looked out the window.

Shi Yan also noticed that the atmosphere had cooled down. He knew that Shi Nian had something on his mind, so he basically stopped talking.Wanting to mobilize, "Xiao Nian, why don't you talk?"

"Sister, enjoy the speed of the sports car."

"Xiao Nian, speed requires experience." Shi Yan made a pun.When they arrived at the station, Shi Yan told them to go back first, but the two had to be put on the train before they would leave.

When the long-distance bus started slowly, Shi Nian was still standing straight in the aisle seeing off the passengers, waving to Shi Yan who was sitting by the window.Looking at the two people standing shoulder to shoulder outside the window, they seem to be right in appearance, but the atmosphere just mentioned, I still opened the window and asked: "You two must understand each other!"

When the car drove away, the two turned around. Xia Ting habitually grabbed Shi Nian's shoulders, but this time Shi Nian shook his shoulders, "I'll take the bus back by myself."

"Then I'll sit with you." Shi Nian's strange expression made Xia Ting regret driving the car today, but he also wanted to open his world to Shi Nian as soon as possible.He can hide his wealth from the people around him, because most of them meet by chance.But Shi Nian is the person he wants to accompany, how can he not be honest with each other.

"I want to be alone."

"I will be in a car accident." This is the truth. Xia Ting is now very frustrated. If he is asked to drive back by himself, he will step on the largest size.

The two sat in the car, neither of them talking.The car drove very slowly, so slowly that only the breathing of the other party could be heard.

"read…"

"It's okay, I need time." Shi Nian's voice was very flat. On the way, he thought of the words his sister left, "Mutual understanding." Birth is not a choice, he didn't tell himself, it's not too late to tell now.So there is no reason to blame him.However, the reality gave him a warning, Xia Ting is very expensive, he is very cheap, how can gold be buried in the soil?

Falling into love, simplicity and complexity are always in one thought.For a whole week, no one contacted anyone.A week passed in a trance, but I didn't sort it out, but I was sluggish all day long.

"Brother, are you frustrated again?" Shi Nian also didn't bother Zhou Ziyu for a week, which was strange, so he quickly called.

"Brother..."

"No, how can a man be so shy!" Zhou Ziyu knew that he had guessed right as soon as he heard the voice, "If you don't want to understand, just say it, tell me and tell yourself."

Shi Nian activated the confidant mode, from Shi Yan's phone call until now, everything was poured out, it was empty, and he felt much more comfortable.

"Then you have been on the roller coaster for the past two days. In Yunxiao, when your sister came to see you, the rest were flying in the valley."

"Brother, stop joking."

"You're asking for trouble. A beautiful love has to be messed up on you. It's a mess!" He was like a pile of messy clothes, and Zhou Ziyu took care of it. Master's temper, I am considerate of you everywhere, to the point of making you into a master." She seemed to be complaining about Xia Ting, attacking Shi Nian on his behalf. "He has been thinking about you in everything he does. He knows that you will have pimples, so he would rather wrong himself to take the bus with you. It shows that he attaches great importance to you. But he also needs to show you to understand his side. I miss him It should be very contradictory now." Pause for a while, "Xiao Nian, you are contradicting, and he is contradicting because of your contradiction. He thinks about you, and you should also consider him. The material gap can be resolved with the tacit understanding of your thoughts. Defeat, and with your ability, the material creation will not be bad in the future, and the gap will be narrowed in society, and you won't even care about it."

"Brother, you mean that I don't need to worry about it."

Zhou Ziyu took a sip of water, "Sure enough, it's all right. If you don't like what he brings you, then don't accept it. He will definitely understand."

Shi Nian nodded at the phone, this time he passed out, he even forgot about Zhou Ziyu's chicken soup teacher, most of the black clouds dissipated after a phone call, and he had to figure out the rest.

She took the initiative to look for him, but she fell in love with her instead.Encounters in the dormitory, in the classroom, and on the field, these are all 300 taels of silver here.In the end, it is best to meet by chance on the road.

Shi Nian made sure that Xia Ting was out of class at noon, so he could "encounter" him on the cafeteria road, and everyone wanted to eat.

"Sir, are you going to eat?" Li Hongze followed, "Let's go eat together."

Shi Nian couldn't refuse either. Ever since he understood Li Hongze's intentions, the friendship between brothers in the dormitory is still there.But still avoid hooking the shoulders.

The two walked side by side, and most of the time it was Li Hongze who said insignificant words, and Shi Nian responded, accompanied by a few laughs at the right time.I was thinking about how to speak when I met Xia Ting, and I wondered if the finished manuscript would come in handy.