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Chu Fan thought of something before going back to the house, and explained to Douglas the special equipment that needs to be prepared, and heard the diving equipment Glass say: "The entrance is in the water?"

"Yes."

"Understood, is there anything else?"

Chu Fan thought for a while, then shook his head.

"I'll prepare as soon as possible, you go to bed."

"Good night."

"Good night."

Lying on the bed, Chu Fan forced himself to fall asleep as soon as possible. His lack of rest brain was heavy, and he fell into a light sleep after a while, but he woke up again after a short sleep, and couldn't fall asleep no matter what.It was not yet dawn, the surroundings were silent, and for some reason the moonlight was particularly dim tonight. Chu Fan habitually stared at the opposite building in a daze, and random thoughts flashed through his mind one after another, but none of them remained in the end.

After a while, he turned around, changed his sleeping position, closed his eyes in an attempt to cultivate sleepiness, but failed in the end.Sighing silently, he stared at the door frame until dawn broke.When the light golden sunlight climbed up to the pillow through the window, Chu Fan heard the movement of Douglas getting up in the living room. The other party obviously controlled his movements to avoid making noise. He quickly closed his eyes, and the door opened a few seconds later. Breathing, pretending to be in a deep sleep state, the other party did not suspect him, confirmed that he was still asleep, and closed the door.

Until the sound of the door opening and closing came, Chu Fan opened his eyes, lay there in a daze for a while, and finally got up from the bed suddenly as if he had made up his mind.Pretending to be good, he went out and went straight to a place that was in his heart just now.

The undeveloped mountainous area still retains its original flavor, probably due to the lack of visitors, the track of the road up the mountain is not very clear, and the footprints of the last visitor can no longer be seen clearly, but Chu Fan is familiar with the road, less than half hour to the top of the mountain.Looking far away, one side of the mountain is a modern city made of steel, and the other side is rolling mountains, layer upon layer spreading to the end of the field of vision.

Chu Fan faced the mountains for a long time, Yaoyang gradually rose from obliquely in front, and the light fell on his face without any hindrance. He squinted his eyes in the dazzling halo. He didn't know whether it was stimulated by the sun or what, the eyes suddenly Two lines of tears were left behind, but he didn't rush to wipe them away, but closed his eyes in the wrapping of the light curtain.

He knew that one day he would be separated from the people around him, and he was ready from the day when he suddenly realized that he was abandoned by his parents.

He thought so.

Chu Fan lowered his head and let the tears fall wildly.

Just this once, he wanted to stop and look back, at the people who would never open their eyes.

He stretched out his fist against his heart, and said softly and slowly: "Although I have walked through the valley of the shadow of death, I have no fear in my heart, because you are with me."

"I will keep going and never stop."

He opened his eyes, finally looked towards the end of the mountain, turned and left resolutely.

"...AE99 detector, medical bag, these are enough." Chu Fan said, zipped up the zipper of the marching bag, pulled it up and carried it on his back, "The weight is no problem, and the breathing mask is carried with you. There are miasmas in some places."

Douglas couldn't concoct the checked marching bag on his back, and then tie the breathing mask around his neck in advance.

Seeing the other party's unskilled movements, Chu Fan reached out to help him: "This is the rope here, tie it like this, and then hide the end of the thread here, yes... That's it."

After tidying up, the two boarded the spaceship that had already been prepared.

There were only the two of them in the huge cabin, and no one spoke during the journey. Douglas closed his eyes and slept lightly. Chu Fan knew that he had not slept well for many days, so he carefully helped clear up the overload perception, so that the other party could sleep more comfortably.

After entering space, there was only the sound of machinery running in the cabin. Chu Fan looked out the window in a daze. The blue capital star gradually faded away, and the boundless darkness became dominant. After some time, Douglas’ slightly hoarse voice sounded: “I’m asleep How long?" In fact, he rarely asked this question, and he always knew it in his mind, but today it was a little too much.

Chu Fan said: "Two hours and sixteen minutes."

Douglas rubbed his forehead: "The jump is about to start?"

"Yes."

Douglas paused, then turned his head to look at him.

Chu Fan looked back suspiciously: "What's wrong?"

"It's all right," Douglas said.The other party's condition is much better than expected, a little strange, he thought, but the excessive fatigue made him not delve into it, and closed his eyes again, "Call me before the jump."

"it is good."

Lofister is located in the Jiaer star field and needs the spaceship to make two jumps. Chu Fan wakes up the other party before the first jump, and the two cheer up.They will reach their destination soon after two jumps with a short interval, and they must prepare in advance.

After tacitly completing a series of preparatory work, Chu Fan suddenly asked during the transition: "Do you like water?"

Douglas replied: "Yes."

"That's good."

The conversation was a little strange, but Douglas didn't have the habit of asking questions, so he didn't care. Soon, he knew why Chu Fan asked.

In Lofisite E9 area, the relative air humidity is as high as 98%, coupled with the special terrain, every breath feels like choking on water.Just looking at the data and on-site experience are completely different things. Douglas followed Chu Fan to check his equipment for the third time. He had to say that some of Chu Fan’s suggestions before departure were extremely useful. 1.5 times or more.

After confirming that everything was correct, Douglas instructed the pilot to park the spaceship at a hidden location, and he followed Chu Fan deep into the rainforest not far away.

During the execution of the mission, Chu Fan usually seldom speaks, and all actions are instructed by gestures. This kind of action is extremely efficient. The two quickly passed through the planned area A and headed for the more dangerous swamp area B.

The difficulty of crossing the swamp is finding the way. If you choose the wrong direction, you will get lost, and if you step on the wrong foot, you will fall into the mire. Moreover, due to the long-term climate, the swamp is filled with thick miasma, which increases the difficulty of crossing.In this kind of place, Chu Fan didn't dare to trust others, and was extra cautious, and the efficiency of his actions was greatly reduced.Fortunately, Douglas was not a professional agent, but an excellent sentinel, which greatly increased the error tolerance rate of this operation.

The two spent nearly six hours in the swamp area, took a short rest, and continued to move forward.

"It's almost there." Chu Fan suddenly said after walking through the swamp area for less than 10 minutes.

Douglas nodded.

Chu Fan led people to the nearby waters, and after some investigation, they came to the edge of a pool: "This is it."

Douglas looked at the area of ​​the pool. It was impossible to find such a place without someone leading it. No matter how precise the positioning was, it was useless. He did not doubt the other party's judgment at all. He changed a batch of equipment with the other party and dived down after getting ready. .

Chu Fan groped at the bottom of the Tan, and after a while, he pulled out a hole and got in first. Douglas was bigger, and it took some effort to squeeze in. Only then did he discover that there was a barb-shaped irregular hole hidden in the pool. The round hole is about the size that can accommodate three people, and the upper part is not filled with water because of the pressure.After thinking about it for a while, he realized that this was a hole dug by some kind of insect unique to Star Lofister, and it was used to avoid flood disasters during the rainy season.

Chu Fan started to search around as soon as he entered the cave, and Douglas also started to search the other side after standing still.

After a while, Chu Fan pulled out a stack of bound papers that had been waterproofed from the mud wall, and the cover was a letter.He paused for a moment, carefully dug out the thing and held it in front of his eyes.

The searchlight on the forehead illuminates the writing on it.

[Captain, I'm sorry to tell you everything in this way, but I believe that I will not be here when you see this information. 】

The handwriting at the end of the first sentence is very heavy, as if to show the inner feelings of the writer, Chu Fan's breathing became heavier unconsciously.

[At this point, I don't even know how to speak.I'm guilty, very guilty, Captain, I've been wondering for so long, if I told all I knew in the first place, it's going to be different now?

But no if.

They died, in front of me, and I watched it happen when I knew they were going to die.

All because of my cowardice.

After learning the whole truth, I chose to escape. At first I wanted to take Giselle away with the evidence at hand as a threat, but Giselle was taken away before I was ready. I was so stupid that I really thought that we can escape.When Giselle was taken hostage I knew I was going to die, but I was foolish enough to think that it would all be over and my sister would survive.

I thought I was the only one who would be eliminated, but the moment I saw everyone on Star Leon, I finally woke up.I think it's the same for Bonnie, she understands everything when she sees each other's eyes when they meet.

I have always thought that death is terrible, but at that time I thought death was the easiest punishment. I watched my teammates die like brothers and sisters, but I had to calm down and think of a way to escape... I don’t know what Bonnie proposed. Did you have the same thoughts as me when I let you live, we are not strong enough, Captain, we chose to let you live with everything on your back.

Isn't it ironic that Bonnie's preparations just happened to be enough for two people to escape?I'm going to live on, atone for my sins, prepare everything and tell you the truth.This way is cruel, I know, I'm sorry, Captain, I'm sorry.

It's hard to gain Dempsey's trust, I've done a lot of things against my will, but I have to, you know, Captain, every night I close my eyes and they stand in front of me.I knelt before the statues of gods I never believed in, and prayed every day, but to no avail.Only by thinking of you, thinking of you being alive, can I force myself to sleep and continue to keep my eyes open the next day.

Death is not terrible, what is terrible is loneliness.

Captain, in the end I selfishly chose to let go. I will apologize thoroughly below. It doesn’t matter if they don’t forgive me. I can finally fall asleep with peace of mind, forever.

I wish you all the best, if you are still willing to listen to me, a sinner, Captain, I hope you can be happy. 】

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