A Doctor's Zombie Feeding Diary

Gerald was stunned. Although his eyes were still focused on me, it seemed that his brain was still tied up in a mess, and he was panting and couldn't say anything immediately.

I smiled more cheerfully and softened, waiting patiently for him to come back to himself.

After a short period of silence, his panting gradually calmed down, but it seemed that he was still recalling the feeling just now, he stretched out the tip of his tongue and licked his own lower lip lightly, before speaking slowly: "Okay..."

"What good?"

"……So hot."

"This is a normal physiological reaction, don't worry." I stretched out my hand and put my palm against his side face, and sure enough, I felt a heat quickly cover my palm, "It will be fine in a while."

"I like this." Gerald tilted his head and rubbed his cheeks and chin against my palm, probably because he really felt comfortable. He even closed his eyes and breathed slowly. After telling me this, he called out again. My name, "Leotir..."

I felt that the beating of my heart seemed to be slightly stagnant at that moment, and it seemed that every time he called my name in such a soft and serious tone, I felt happy from the bottom of my heart.I slid my palms down the side of his face and the tips of his ears to the back of his head, brought him back into my arms, and at the same time put away my smile to stabilize my mood, and told him: "Gerald, this is not good for you. Saying it may be just a way of expressing love and dependence, but for me, there is no more worrying and difficult choice than this... My identity and what I am doing are enough to make us all roll Into a vortex that can never be escaped, if you always follow me like this, I can't even promise you that I won't have any accidents in the future, do you understand what I mean?"

Gerald rested his forehead on my chest, and after listening to me say these words, almost without thinking or pausing, he answered me: "I don't want to leave you...I won't let you get hurt."

"You are amazing, I know this better than anyone else." I couldn't help showing another smile, but I still couldn't hide the bitterness and unspeakable sadness in my heart, "But none of us know what will happen in the future. If you live through things that I can't solve by myself, you will also encounter things that you can't solve with your ability, and there are a lot of uncertainties in each of our tomorrows."

I asked him to raise his head to look at me, and his tone was full of rare seriousness and seriousness, "I can't force you to leave my side, but I also don't want to lose you in a more cruel way. We have worked hard for so long, I pulled you out of that chaotic state, and you are already capable of living alone, and you no longer need my long-term protection. I say this, do you still want to do this?"

"...I don't want to leave you." He stood up a little bit and looked at me with no fluctuations in his expression, but he still kept a peaceful tone and repeated it.

"I can't promise you that I will always stay by your side, Gerald." I sighed, although I didn't want to say these almost cruel words, but I also didn't want to hide too much from him , "You are already a part of my life, and I don't want to be separated from you - but I can assure you that I will do my best to keep myself safe and healthy, and no matter what happens in the future, I will never leave you alone Leave it behind."

Gerald looked at me and his eyes flickered for a while. He probably understood the meaning of my words, and he nodded slowly after a long while.

"Anyway, even if I want to exchange for your safety by leaving without saying goodbye, you will probably chase after me desperately... I almost have nothing to do with you, my ferocious little wild wolf." I used a slightly joking Said so in a calm tone, then rubbed his head, let him get up from me, and sat back on his bedside, "In a sense, you are much more stubborn than Ai Weilang."

After Gerald sat back on the bed, he still grabbed one of my hands and tugged hard, as if he didn't want to let go.

I didn't care about the pressure and pain he caused on my hand. I watched him for a while and said: "The experience in the Northern Research Institute is very dangerous, and our situation will only become more dangerous in the future. I don't know. How many people around us want us to disappear because we are stepping closer to their secrets. If something goes wrong, the first to suffer will be Jiali Miweier, and then you."

I frowned, looked at him with the same puzzled eyes, and continued: "Because although I don't know the reason so far, it is definitely a special case that you can wake up from the control of the HLM virus." I don't know if someone in your special case deliberately did this, or it was just an accident-if it was really just an accident, then your existence may be something our potential enemies don't want to see."

"why?"

"Who knows." I shook my head with a smile, not letting my expression look too serious, "If a certain person wants to accomplish something, no matter what the reason and motivation are, as long as If he succeeds, then it becomes the conclusion. What we have to do now is to try not to make the result of this matter look too bad."

I raised the hand that was held by him, and used the back of his own hand to block his mouth when he wanted to say something else, "Now, it's time for you to wash up."

Gerald moved his body back, grabbed my hand and put it down together, looked at my expression, and nodded.

"Don't worry," I pulled him up and gave him a slight push in the direction of the bathroom, "No matter what the situation is, tonight, it's not more important than you need to wash and rest now."

After watching him walk into the bathroom, I leaned back on the back of the chair, pressed the sigh that circled in my throat back to the bottom of my heart, and closed my eyes in silence. Some messy thoughts were centered on my personal desires and responsibilities. I wandered between my responsibilities, and in the end I couldn't come to a perfect conclusion.

Even with my words so vague and uncertain, there was no way of knowing what my final decision would be if something happened.I am reluctant to leave this little guy who has been with me for quite a while, but I can't even give him a promise that is so common and necessary in the eyes of ordinary people.

I feel the sourness in my heart that has been eroded for a long time is continuously flowing along my blood to every place in my body, running through my limbs and brain, but at the same time it also brings a feeling that I have never felt before. Sweet and warm.

By the time Gerald came out of the bathroom again, I had adjusted myself.In fact, things are not that complicated. I still have to do what I should do. I also have enough ability to survive on the battlefield. As for the accidents and unforeseen dangers that I can't touch the corners of in the future , It's useless for me to think about it now.

I stood up and put the terminal on the table. After making sure that there was nothing in the pockets of my clothes, I walked up to Gerrard and touched his wet hair, and shook my head helplessly, "You The habit of not drying your hair must be changed quickly, otherwise it will not be good for the health of the scalp surface, and it is easy to catch cold in this weather. Although your immunity is very strong, it is better to pay attention."

Gerald glanced at the hair dryer I was pointing at, nodded and agreed, but then complained quite unexpectedly: "...so troublesome."

"All you have to do is sit down and turn on that machine and place it near your head, slob." I took off my coat and put it aside, expressing my attitude towards his lazy behavior." I'm not going to blow-dry your hair for you anymore, just do it yourself."

After I finished speaking, I didn't look at his expression again, and walked into the bathroom directly.A lot of things happened today, and I feel somewhat tired. Cleaning can also relax the brain and dissipate a small amount of fatigue.

However, although Gerald hardly even bothered to say a word in front of outsiders, he was quite obedient in front of me.When I returned to the room, he had already dried his hair, put the dryer back in place, and was sitting on the edge of my bed staring out the window.

I cleaned up some clutter on the table, and after drying my hair, I sat next to him and patted his back, "Go to sleep, it's getting late."

"I'm going to sleep here."

"Okay." I agreed to him indulgently, and then turned over and lay down on the bed first, leaning against the head of the bed and just turning my head, I received a kiss from him.

I didn't deliberately control the smile on my face, and pressed him to the head of the bed to deepen the kiss.

Things in the capital did not seem to be as difficult to solve as I imagined, because Niyo returned to the base by aircraft in the afternoon of the second day.When Conordo told me the news, I was a little surprised, but I still followed him to the entrance of the medical center, and by the way, I could ask about the current situation.

When Niyo stepped off the aircraft, his expression didn't look very solemn, and he even revealed some relaxed emotions, probably because he didn't encounter any troubles, and everything seemed to be progressing smoothly.

I patted Gerald on the shoulder, telling him to stand beside Conordo without following him, then took a few steps forward, and smiled gently at Niyo: "Welcome back."

Niyo showed a bright smile immediately after stepping off the aircraft, probably intending to say hello to us, but after hearing what I said, his expression suddenly froze, and at the same time he took a step back with a little doubt, and asked hesitantly: "... Why are you so enthusiastic today?"

"It's just that I feel kind when I see you. I am now a member of the base. You have been in this base for so long, so you should do something to express your welcome." I kept smiling, and my tone was still calm under his horrified gaze. He said, "How about taking me to the practice field? Let's have a friendly exchange."