Rebirth and Redemption

Chu Feng was woken up by the sound of the doorbell. Even if he was not angry, being woken up in his sleep would not be a pleasant thing.

He got up to open the door, and it was his own sister Chu Rou who came.Chu Rou's complexion was pale, without any makeup, her eyes were red and swollen, and they were full of bloodshot eyes, obviously she had just cried.

"Who bullied you?" Chu Feng frowned and pulled him in.He and Chu Rou have had a good relationship since they were young. He doesn't see Chu Rou being bullied in the slightest. Chu Rou is also as gentle and sensible as her name, and cares about his brother very much.

Chu Rou looked at Chu Feng with red eyes, and said hoarsely, "Rong Hong committed suicide."

Rong Hong... This familiar yet unfamiliar name to Chu Feng made him unable to react for a while.It was as if a hole had been ripped open in the distant memory, and the word Rong Hong was pulled out of it, with a faint pain, but the strange feeling was still there.

Seeing Chu Feng's reaction, Chu Rou lost her usual easy-going, grabbed Chu Feng's pajama collar with both hands, and her eyes filled with water instantly, "Chu Feng, you bastard! Have you forgotten him?! Are you Didn't you forget Rong Hong?!"

Chu Rou's tears fell on Chu Feng's hands in big drops, and the warm temperature made Chu Feng feel that it was not warm, but hot - he really forgot about Rong Hong, if Chu Rou didn't mention it, maybe He will never take the initiative to think of this name, this person...

Chu Rou shook Chu Feng uncontrollably, and cried, "You give back Rong Hong! You give me back Rong Hong! He promised to live...he promised..."

Chu Feng and Ren Churou shook him, not knowing how to react for a long time.

Chu Rou's shaking turned into beating, and the tears flowed faster and faster, "It's been ten years, and you have lived a very glamorous life, what about him? He has been tortured by depression for ten years like a gopher who dare not see the light. Chu Feng, what you owe him, you will never be able to pay it back for the rest of your life..."

Depression, this word was nailed into Chu Feng's heart like a knife - depression is not a terminal illness, but it can be fatal.

"Do you know, he has always liked you...has always liked you, but what have you done to him? Chu Feng, you are a scum! Why are you alive, but Rong Hong is dead?! Why?! Why... "Chu Rou couldn't go on anymore, she slumped and sat on the ground, crying hysterically.

Chu Feng felt a layer of numbness spreading from his fingertips, as if his blood had stopped flowing.A desolate atmosphere spread through the house like a tide, so damp that the sun never seemed to be able to dry it.Rong Hong's crying face was dug out from the memory, so real and so clear...

Every school has more or less a few monster-like characters, and when campus bullying was not taken seriously, these people became the main force of bullying incidents.Sometimes you don't even need any reason, just because you don't like the other party, you can beat the other party up.

Chu Feng was one of the devil kings in their high school at that time, and he was also their boss.It stands to reason that high school should be a time to study hard, but not all high schools have only the atmosphere of learning.Especially in the boarding high school, at the age when the secondary illness and the rebellious period were in full bloom, a group of rich second-generation and official second-generation who did not do well and didn't like to study mixed together, and became the school's bully.Bully this one every day, provoke that one... This is the high school life of Chu Feng and his "buddies".

Rong Hong is a very handsome boy. There were very few boys who grew up to be as handsome and good-looking as he was in high school.In addition, his academic performance is also good, and he is also kind to others, so he is very popular with the girls in the class.

At the beginning of the third year of high school, for some reason, rumors spread that Rong Hong was gay.When the corrupt culture first became popular, girls didn't care about it, but boys were somewhat repelled by it, so many boys started to walk around Rong Hong, as if they were afraid of getting involved with him and being regarded as the same kind.For a while, Rong Hong was pushed out badly.

It was a Friday, and most of the students had gone home after school.The relationship between Chu Feng and his father has always been bad, and he just got into an argument on the phone about his grades. He was upset at first, and was about to go back to the classroom to pick up his schoolbag and go back to the dormitory when he came back from the side door. There was a burst of cursing and ridicule.

Chu Feng raised his eyebrows, he was very familiar with this voice - Gui Heng, his good friend who grew up with him.

Hearing Gui Heng's voice, he probably didn't know which classmate he was torturing.Chu Feng was already in a bad mood, and they made him feel even more irritated by their noise, so he walked up in three steps at a time.

"What's the noise?" Chu Feng asked angrily.Chu Feng is definitely a schoolboy in school, but this schoolboy's style evaluation is really not very good, only good-looking.If you insist on adding two more, it is probably because you are very good at fighting and playing basketball.

Seeing him coming, Gui Heng smiled and said: "It's okay, they don't like him, just teach him a lesson." That indifferent attitude is like saying that he ate rice porridge today.

Chu Feng glanced at the boy who was being pinned to the ground by several people, it was none other than Rong Hong.At this time, Rong Hong's face had already had a few gray marks, the corners of his mouth were also purple, his forehead was also bruised, his shirt was torn into pieces, and the buttons had already collapsed, revealing his fair skin. body and slender clavicle.The trousers were not spared either, being cut so thinly that they were almost naked.

Rong Hong's eyes were red, but he didn't cry, he just grabbed his unbuttoned shirt and remained silent.

Gui Heng nudged Chu Feng with his elbow, raised his chin, and said with a smile, "Have you heard about this kid? He's actually a gay."

Several boys on the side also laughed and said: "Brother Feng, what do you think this kid is thinking? He actually likes men, it's disgusting."

"He doesn't think he is a girl? I said, do you wear women's clothes at home?"

"My girlfriend also said that he is good-looking. What's so good about a man who is so delicate? Is it handsome to be tall and big like me?"

……

Chu Feng was annoyed even more by their noise, the original anger in his heart hadn't found a place to vent, and when he saw Rong Xun in a mess, he felt even more irritable, and his face was almost dripping with gloom.

One of the boys walked up to Chu Feng, with a smirk on his face, glanced at Rong Hong's direction, lowered his voice, and said, "Brother Feng, I heard that it's exciting to have sex with men."

Gui Heng was standing next to Chu Feng, and heard it too. He smiled and pushed him, and said, "Gun Gun, what do you listen to?" It's all just a mouthful.

Because of his family environment, Chu Feng often goes abroad to play, and he knows much more about this than his domestic peers.I don't know what happened, looking at Rong Hong, Chu Feng unexpectedly gave birth to an evil fire for no reason.

Seeing that Chu Feng's face became more serious, Gui Heng reckoned that the quarrel between Chu Feng and his father had subsided, and he was about to find a place to vent his anger. He didn't want to hit the muzzle of the gun at this time, so he greeted a few people and said, "Okay , let's go. In the future, when I see this kid walking around, be careful of getting infected."

A few people laughed mockingly a few times, and didn't stay long. After greeting Chu Feng, they left with Gui Heng first, as if nothing had happened.

The stairwell was quiet, only Chu Feng and Rong Hong were left.Rong Hong sat up slowly, his movements were very slow, as if he was seriously injured, he lowered his head and did not look at Chu Feng.

Chu Feng looked at Rong Xun whose clothes were so torn that he couldn't go out at all, the evil fire seemed to be burning more and more vigorously.Thinking about the dispute between himself and his father, and nothing going well recently, his irritability directly broke the table, and he just wanted to find a way to vent this depression and dissatisfaction, so he stretched out his hand to Rong Hong... …

Recalling that period of the past again, Rong Hong's begging seems to still be clearly in his ears, even if it has not been mentioned for many years, it seems like another day.Rong Hong didn't cry when he was beaten and humiliated by others, but he almost died of tears when he entered.

Until now, Chu Feng doesn't know why he raped Rong Hong at that time, but he is very clear that it must not be love, even though the disheveled Rong Hong is indeed very attractive.When he regained consciousness after his sanity collapsed, it was already after venting.He didn't even pay attention to Rong Hong, he didn't even take a second look, he tidied up his clothes and left.

Since then, Chu Feng has never seen Rong Hong again. Some people say that Rong Hong has dropped out of school, and some say that Rong Hong has gone abroad... In short, Rong Hong just disappeared.Chu Feng didn't pay much attention either. To him, Rong Hong was no different from his classmates who had been bullied by him before, and he had nothing to feel guilty about.Maybe he would still think of such a person at the beginning, but after a long time, he gradually forgot about it.

Chu Rou was crying so hard that she was exhausted, she managed to calm down, and stood up while supporting the sofa.Then he took out four thick notebooks from his carry-on bag, put them neatly on the coffee table, and said in a hoarse nasal voice: "This is Rong Hong's relic. You are the least qualified to take it, but... And the only one who can take it."

Chu Feng's numb body regained some consciousness, and he turned to look at the notebook on the coffee table.The sides of two of them have already started to turn yellow, bearing some imprints of time.

"Chu Feng, I will never forgive you, I will never..." After finishing speaking, Chu Rou picked up her bag and left with vain steps.

After standing there for a long time, Chu Feng sat down on the sofa and began to flip through those few notebooks.

This is a handwritten novel, written by Rong Hong, and the protagonists of the story are exactly him and Rong Hong.A very simple love story, without too many twists and turns, but the love is very real, and the delicate writing seems to have endless emotions.In the novel, Rong Hong did not encounter campus bullying, but just grew up, loved, described and managed their life and love according to the original track.In the story, he and Rong Xun started dating in high school, walked through university together, and stepped into society... Rong Xun is an author who makes a living by coding, and he is not an actor, just an ordinary office worker.The life of the two is very ordinary, but it is like a cake exuding a sweet smell, soaked in sweetness everywhere.

Although Chu Feng in the novel took two completely different paths from Chu Feng in reality, Chu Feng knew that the person in the text was him, regardless of his appearance, personality, preferences, habits... he was no different from him.Where he didn't know, Rong Hong actually knew him so well.

By the time Chu Feng finished reading all these, it was already dark.

Through these words, he can clearly feel Rong Hong's feelings for him, which are so strong that people feel sad, but also so humble... Some people say that words can only express one-tenth of emotions, because many feelings cannot be expressed in words Expressed, they can only be hidden in the author's heart.

At the end of the last book, there is an epilogue, Rong Hong wrote——

He is the person I shouldn't love the most in my life, but love is not always what you can say.I met him at the best age, but got the saddest result.My depression wasn't all about what he did to me, it was just a trigger.

I wrote these things in a self-deceiving way. I originally wanted to give myself a motivation to live, but the happier the love in the writing, the deeper the sadness in reality, so it didn’t heal me, it just put me in a dream.

I promised Chu Rou that as long as she doesn't tell him about me, I will try my best to live.But this time, I'm afraid I'm going to break my promise. I'm too tired to live. It seems that I am soaked in the potion called "negative" every day, and my bones have been soaked.Chu Rou is a good girl, and I thank her for visiting me often, but I can't love her.

Goodbye, Chu Feng.I think you will never know that there is a person who is hurt by you, and even death cannot escape his love for you.

At some point, Chu Feng was already in tears, and when he realized it, the tears had already dripped onto the notebook, blurring out a dot.

Chu Rou didn't scold him wrongly, he was just a scumbag, ruining Rong Hong's life just like that.He also understood why Rong Hong was crying so badly at that time. It is one thing to be in love with the person he has a crush on, but another thing to be raped by the person he has a crush on. The latter would break down for anyone.

Rong Hong's feelings for him moved him, but he would never have the chance to make up for it.

Having not eaten all day, Chu Feng was a little dizzy, but he still had no appetite.After getting up and drinking a glass of water, Chu Feng sat back on the sofa, stroking his skin with his fingers, as if stroking Rong Hong's face.After an unknown amount of time, Chu Feng suddenly fell on the sofa and lost consciousness.

When he opened his eyes again, it was obvious that it was no longer his home.Chu Feng was stunned for a moment, then sat up suddenly, and the distant and familiar environment really appeared before his eyes—this was the high school dormitory where he lived for three years.

Chu Feng's mind was a little confused for a moment, and he punched the wall. The coldness and pain let him know that he was not dreaming - he was reborn, and he returned to his high school days!