If you turn into a butterfly, I will bloom

"This is the only bedroom in your house?" Mu Ming was surprised.

"Yes, what do you need so many bedrooms for?"

"Forget it, I'll go to the living room to sleep." Mu Ming said as he was about to walk out of the bedroom.

"What are you afraid of? I won't touch you again!"

"never mind."

"You're amazing, you can sleep here, I'll sleep on the sofa." Yan Fei pulled Mu Ming onto the bed and went to the living room by himself.

Mu Ming didn't refuse, but lay on the big bed, unable to fall asleep after tossing and turning.Calm down now, Ai Rong is all over his head.Simply standing by the window, admiring the rainy scene in the middle of the night, the street lamps on the street illuminated the accumulated rainwater on the road, and occasionally a car passed by, but it also roared past, as if unwilling to spend time on the street in the cold rain in the middle of the night Stay for half a minute longer.The windows were kept open, and from time to time a gust of cold wind would blow my whole body into a shudder.

"What is Ai Rong doing now? He should be asleep, right? Will he sleep well without his arms around me? Is he thinking of me? Will he forgive me?" question.If you ask yourself without an answer like this, it is better to ask Ai Rong yourself.Yes, if I don't contact Ai Rong, I'm afraid I won't have to rest all night.Thinking about it, I groped into the living room.

"Yan Fei, are you asleep?"

"Huh?" Yan Fei's voice was a little sleepy, but he probably wasn't asleep yet.

"I want to borrow your cell phone to call Ai Rong."

"To Airon?"

"Correct."

"Why don't you call your girlfriend? Didn't she have an abortion today? You should care more about her."

"Ah? You... How do you know this?"

"During practice today, Liu Yu came back from the outside and passed by the stadium, and asked his roommates to have dinner together. They asked Ai Rong to go with him. Ai Rong said it was good to go home and eat, so you cooked for him." Yan Feidun After a pause, "Liu Yu said, you probably didn't cook, because I just saw you accompanies your girlfriend to have an abortion."

Mu Ming remained silent, but he was muttering in his heart, "How come it's such a coincidence, this Liu Yu, you have cheated me to death!"

"Hey, I think you were very proficient just now, maybe you learned it from your girlfriend," Yan Fei teased.

"Hey, stop talking, give me your phone."

"I'm sorry." He said and handed the phone to Mu Ming.

The phone was never answered, and Mu Ming only dialed this once, because he knew that one call was enough.Although he didn't answer the phone, his heart calmed down a lot, or when he dialed, he even hoped that Ai Rong would not answer it. I don't know why, maybe he was afraid that Ai Rong hadn't rested so late because of himself.

"How long have you lived with Ai Rong?" Yan Fei asked.

"Well, it's been a long time."

"How about others, why do you think he doesn't like to talk?"

"Can it be better than you not talking?"

"I think I'm fine."

"You're fine tonight, it's not like that at school."

"That's because some people are so stupid that they just can't be bothered to talk to them."

"Like?"

"Well, like that Liu Yu."

Mu Ming just smiled and didn't speak, even at this moment he felt that Liu Yu was a little bit, calling him stupid was a bit too much, but saying he was not smart was never too much.You can't blame him entirely, who told you that you really did this.

"Does Ai Rong have a girlfriend?" Yan Fei asked again.

"Eh..." Mu Ming didn't know how to answer.

"What's the matter? If you have it, you have it, if you don't, you don't. Why are you hesitating?"

"It seems there is."

"I guess so. Sometimes I envy you all. I haven't had any feelings for women since I was a child. So up to now, I can only find someone to play with, but I can't find a true love." Yan Fei sighed, and never He sat up on the sofa and lit a cigarette.

"One?" Yan Fei asked.

Mu Ming took it and put the cigarette in his mouth.Yan Fei didn't see Yan Fei holding the lighter, but brought his own cigarette over, facing the cigarette, and lit it.

Mu Ming thought in his heart, this move is very interesting, he has never done it with Ai Rong, he should write it down, and give Ai Rong the same next time.When I think of Ai Rong, my heart tightens, and I don't know when there will be a next time.

Yan Fei smoked silently and didn't speak anymore, as if he was remembering something.

"It's okay that you like men, but you can't conclude that you can't find true love." Mu Ming spoke first.

"There are eight hardships in life, and I just cannot get what I want, and I can't let go. Because I don't want to suffer from love and parting, and complain for a long time."

"You mean, even if you get it, you still have to endure the pain of parting and the pain of resentment?"

"The family won't allow it. And...the family is an important company in a certain field, so I'm destined to be a pawn in their business marriage strategy." He shook the burnt cigarette butt in the ashtray.Quite a tone, like a middle-aged man who has experienced vicissitudes of life, telling the sorrows of the first half of his life.

"Aren't you willing to sacrifice everything for love?"

Yan Fei was silent for ten seconds. "I would."

"Then it's over."

"There was such a fucking person before, he said: If loving me requires you to give up everything, I would rather let it go.

"Then he probably really loves you."

"Is it?"

"Small love lingers, big love lets go."

"Thank you."

"what?"

"You are willing to let my memory have more understanding and less hatred. You are very kind."

"what are you saying?"

"No... nothing."

There was another silence.This period of silence was quite long, and Yan Fei asked a question when his second cigarette was almost exhausted.

"Do you think people like me are worthy of true love?"

"It turns out that Yan Fei is such an arrogant person, because he likes men, he will become humble and question his right to true love. In fact, the stronger he is on the outside, the weaker he is on the inside. But I can't tell him the truth. I don't want to tell him that I'm actually the same as you, because I don't want to cause unnecessary trouble to Ai Rong and me." Mu Ming thought to himself.

"I will find it." Mu Ming replied coldly.

Yan Fei looked at Mu Ming and felt that he was weird.

"Yan Fei, you will definitely. You will."

"Let me borrow your good words."