After breaking up the engagement, Slag Gong is really sweet to White Swan

He Mingfeng didn't speak for a long time, this reaction was tantamount to acquiescence.The secretary's chest heaved, and the worry and fear all day turned into anger, "Your behavior is capricious, ridiculous, and extremely selfish! What about your responsibility and belief in the empire?!"

"I'm sorry, but I'm not a machine. Before any identity, I'm an emotional, living person first...I don't want to shirk responsibility, but I really tried my best." Three hundred pages of handwriting He Mingfeng has accumulated a lot of manuscripts for a long time. Every time he fantasizes that he will die on the battlefield, he will write down a solution, "Where there is a war, there will be casualties. My life is not more valuable than that of soldiers. A mature army will not die because of anyone. Even if I die, the battle will still be fought tomorrow, and the sun will still rise."

"You are talking to the marshal of the empire, and I just want to give myself, as He Mingfeng, a chance to end the pain." The back of the wide chair began to tremble, and the trembling became bigger and bigger. The leather chair suddenly turned around, and He Mingfeng Half propped up, with blue veins on his forehead and bloodshot eyes, he roared in despair and despair: "If there is a bird that has been flying in the air for five years without landing, but can't find its nest, what will it do? Wouldn't it want to die? If one day, it finally saw its own nest and was rejected, wouldn't it want to die?!"

His calmness as if nothing had happened finally shattered, his wound burst due to force, boundless pain and the smell of blood spread in the room like a substance, as if the torrential rain filled the whole room, there was a suffocating sense of depression , the stunned secretary heard his heavy panting and whispering: "I know something is wrong with my emotions. I took all the medicine in that bottle, but it didn't work. I was sick, but those medicines didn't work! Every day It's too uncomfortable, I really can't hold on, I have had this thought many times before, but this time, I can't suppress that thought anymore... The child's parents and lovers are waiting for him to go back , but who will wait for me?"

"My mother died a long time ago, my father... ha! I wish I could take everything away from me to 'compensate' my 'good brother', they are the family. And my sweetheart.. ...I hope he doesn't feel sad for me, and imagine that he can shed even a single tear for me."

He Mingfeng fixedly glanced at the secretary, "You know how I have lived these years. Do you think I applied to be transferred to the front line because of my responsibility and trust?

read?I am for him.We were very happy, he used to... used to love me very much.But I was so dissatisfied and self-righteous that I ruined everything!The feeling of regret is too bad, so, I also want to... destroy myself. "

He slumped back on the chair as if exhausted, closed his eyes and said lightly: "If a person makes up his mind to die, you can't stop him, but you can rest assured that I will only be ridiculous this time. How ironic , As a marshal, life and death can be taken away, but I am not even qualified to die. Even wanting to end my own pain is selfish. I came back alive, and I will continue to suffer, continue to suffer, and continue to fly in the air until God makes me completely free That day—I wish it was sooner.”

Behind the glamorous and glamorous are all broken and thorny, He Mingfeng took out his rotten heart to show him, just a few words, the secretary was almost drowned by such hopeless emotions, he murmured: "Marshal, Your thoughts should not be so negative, in fact, many people admire you very much, you are the hero of the empire..."

"Hero? I am not afraid of death on the battlefield, not because I am brave, but because I am not interesting to live. How much of the image we present in the eyes of others is fiction, and how much is ourselves?" He Mingfeng was ugly He said with a wry smile: "I'm actually the most hateful coward. I didn't dare to admit that I loved him before, but now I dare not admit to losing him."

The secretary wanted to say something else, but He Mingfeng waved his hand wearily: "Save me some face, I don't need comfort, and I will continue to play the role of a brave and fearless marshal. You are the executor of my will, so it's good to know this , I will trouble you sooner or later."

"I really hope that I will never be 'troubled' by you..." The secretary closed the door, and he had a bad feeling. He Mingfeng said a lot of things that shocked him, but there was one sentence that repeated in his mind. It echoed in my mind - "If a person makes up his mind to die, you can't stop him no matter what."

This was not the heaviest injury He Mingfeng had ever suffered, but it was the slowest one to heal, not fully healed for a whole month.The secretary made an appointment for the treatment room for him, and He Mingfeng went there very cooperatively, but the wound burst open again after entering the treatment room!

Blood flowed all over the floor, and amidst everyone's exclamation, He Mingfeng blinked at the secretary nonchalantly, as if to mean "it's really not my fault". Alpha's body was sounding an alarm. Years of injuries and overdrafts had damaged his originally strong physique like steel. This injury was like a trigger, bringing back all the old diseases.he

It is true that he did not seek death intentionally, but his body has reached its limit, and his life for the past five years is no different from slow suicide.

At the same time, the front is still advancing. He continues to work all night without sleep. His whole body is visibly haggard, but his spirit is getting more and more excited. The day of liberation.

"The root cause of all illnesses is mate-seeking syndrome. I haven't had a good night's sleep in five years, and Iron Man can't handle it." The doctor accompanying the army sighed and said, "The marshal still refuses treatment?"

"His omega rejected him. As for other people with higher matching degree," the secretary shook out a list, "I went to the gene bank to check the candidates two years ago, and one of them has even been sent to his command room , but he refused—this kind of thing, how can I force him to take off his pants?!"

"Do you know? In fact, it is very strange for a top alpha to get this disease. Whether it is physical strength or pheromone attraction, no omega can refuse them. Even if he is not willing to force his omega, just find A person with a better pheromone match sleeps, overwrites the influence of his predecessor, and heals up quickly, wouldn't it be too ridiculous to die for this?"

"...Maybe he felt that that would betray his omega."

The doctor was stunned for a moment, "Is it considered betrayal to save lives? What era is it now, and who else has only one bed partner in their life? The pressure of combat is so high, and the energetic second lieutenant has three or five lovers. How can the marshal be so romantic?"

"If he doesn't love his omega, he won't have partner-seeking syndrome."

"That's true, to be honest, I think biologically, alpha fidelity is really fighting instinct sometimes, and most people lose it. Look, we don't even have a cure for mate-seeking disorder There are too few alphas who will get this disease, and everyone feels that there is no need for drugs at all.”

"So, now he just has to wait to die?!"

"Although there are late symptoms now, as long as he takes enough omega pheromones and rests for a while, he will recover soon. Why don't you find his omega? With the power of the marshal, who can't invite him?"

"Do you think the omega that the marshal fell in love with would be an ordinary person..."

Before the secretary finished speaking, a piece of important news suddenly appeared on the hospital's electronic screen. Gu Yunshen and Shen Liangyue walked out of the Royal Hospital. The king officially passed the throne to the crown prince today.Shen Liangyue's face flashed across the screen, and the doctor couldn't help admiring: "It's no wonder the crown prince's support came back when the Duke returned.

He is so beautiful...Look at him, live ten more years! "

The secretary has mixed feelings in his heart. Some people are living ten years longer because of him, while others are dying because of him.

He Mingfeng was also watching this news. He paused the scene where Shen Liangyue appeared, covered Gu Yunshen's disgusted face with a file, and stretched out his fingers to trace the outline of his longing eyebrows.He leaned over and kissed Shen Liangyue's cheek lightly, and said in a low voice: "That's great, you don't have to get engaged to him...at least your fiance is only me."

When the secretary walked into the office, he saw He Mingfeng lying on the table and seemed to be taking a nap. He knew that the marshal was hard to fall asleep, so he waited beside him for 10 minutes before going forward to wake him up—but no matter how much he yelled, He couldn't wake up He Mingfeng anymore.

作者有话要说：感谢在2020-07-0723:59:32~2020-07-0902:46:23期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel who threw the landmines: 1 snows from the old city;

Thanks to the little angels who irrigate the nutrient solution: A12 bottles; Xiaobao does not advise 2 bottles;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!