After breaking up the engagement, Slag Gong is really sweet to White Swan

For a person like Shen Liangyue, even sorrow can be drawn into a painting. His noble beauty has never been questioned, yet he would doubt and deny himself!The white swan actually envied the ordinary ugly duckling sincerely - all this is He Mingfeng's fault!

This seems to be a humorous joke full of irony. He Mingfeng stared blankly at Shen Liangyue's straight back, and couldn't believe what he heard. A creepy sense of absurdity emerged from the extreme unreality—like a hand holding A fool of gold, because he is afraid that the brilliance of gold will burn his eyes, he frequently looks at the clods of soil at his feet, until the gold is disheartened and wants to become a piece of soil!

"You...why would you think that way..." He Mingfeng felt indescribably uncomfortable, as if ten thousand ants were crawling and biting on his heart, the damage he caused to Shen Liangyue, bit by bit, pile by pile One by one, far deeper than he imagined.

"Yeah, why would I think that? Now that I think about it, it's kind of incredible."

"Liangyue, you are the best." He Mingfeng didn't know if this late confession still made sense, but he still said word by word: "Anyone...anyone can't compare with you."

"Thank you, I know." Shen Liangyue turned around and smiled at He Mingfeng, "I am the Moon of Empire."

At that time, all his emotional life revolved around He Mingfeng, Shen Liangyue could not see other people at all, and He Mingfeng's attitude surpassed the whole world in his heart.Now, he is no longer that immature boy who was in a mess because of a love fantasy. What he finds in the vast universe is not a complicated foreign object, but a pure self.He doesn't need canine teeth and dimples at all, if He Mingfeng likes those, he should let Alpha find them, Shen Liangyue will still be his own moon, and leave the moon's ups and downs to those who understand him.

In the painting is Shen Liangyue five years ago, and in front of him is the current Shen Liangyue. In He Mingfeng's view, they are so similar and yet so different.The former Shen Liangyue would never say such a thing, whether it was a straightforward question or emotion, or a calm and proud of a good name, it did not belong to that beautiful young man who seemed to be surrounded by mist.But now, he seems to have cleared the dark clouds and the bright moon shines brightly. No matter how many bright stars there are in the night sky, they are just his supporting roles.

He Mingfeng is proud and heartbroken. He is proud of Shen Liangyue's growth. The person he loves is always so beautiful and charming. At the same time, he knows that

All this is because Shen Liangyue no longer likes him.He hoped that Shen Liangyue had a good life these years, but he didn't want him to live a good life because he had completely forgotten him. This kind of mood was extremely contradictory, and it made him fall into an inextricable pain.

He was like a wind blowing dark clouds, almost making the moon lost in sorrow. He was supposed to protect Shen Liangyue from the haze, but in the end he put him in the mist of emotional pain with his own hands.Shen Liangyue is so lucky to be able to get rid of his influence, but He Mingfeng is so unlucky to still be immersed in the dream of owning the moon and cannot extricate himself!

"I'm sorry, I really didn't know, at that time, it would make you have such, such thoughts..." He Mingfeng put his cold and trembling hands behind his back, and when he thought of Shen Liangyue's mood at that time, he wished he could be in that picture. He committed suicide before painting, "I was really ridiculous, I really, really regret..."

He Mingfeng's face was pale and his expression was in a daze. Shen Liangyue didn't expect his emotions to be so fragile, and said slowly: "I just expressed my feelings, and I didn't mean to blame you. Just like what I said that day, those things are over. ...It seems that the battle on the front line is really tense, you should also relax more, and don't push yourself too hard."

"Yes, the pressure on the front line is really great..." He Mingfeng forced an ugly smile. Shen Liangyue didn't know why he was going to the front line, and she also didn't know that Alpha often imagined that she would die in the next battle. He Mingfeng even felt that, Even if Shen Liangyue knew, she probably didn't care, "...you sit down for a while, I'll serve black tea."

Shen Liangyue was sitting in front of the tea table with Xueqiu in her arms, looking thoughtfully at He Mingfeng's swaying back, and then heard the sound of cups and plates being smashed from the kitchen in the distance, he hesitated for a moment, whether or not Stand still.

Everyone in the mansion was kicked out by He Mingfeng. He had learned how to make tea in advance, and wanted to make a cup of black milk tea for Shen Liangyue to taste.But when he was holding the gun, his rock-steady hands didn't listen to him, and he broke several cups one after another, leaving only one pair of rose bone china cups in the set.

He took a deep breath, took out the cigarette case from his arms with trembling hands, and lit a cigarette. He desperately needed nicotine to soothe his emotions that were on the verge of collapse, or he could only touch the inlay on the silver cigarette case. the moon.

If we talk about the previous meeting at the banquet, Shen Liangyue had to put on a calm disguise to meet him because she had to be wary of everyone's gaze. Now, in this private space with only the two of them, he can hysterically accuse He Mingfeng of his mistakes and vent his anger. stagnant dissatisfaction

and anger, but Shen Liangyue still didn't.After five years, he has really stood on the other side of the past, calm and calm on the outside, but He Mingfeng is still lingering on this side, like a lonely ghost with nowhere to reincarnate.

He took a few puffs of cigarettes, but nicotine could give him little comfort. He Mingfeng simply untied his military uniform, and pressed the cigarette butt directly on his shoulder.The flesh/body pain and the smell of burning made him heave a long sigh, and he found that this kind of self-punishing pain was the only numbness that could relieve his grief—but it was just numbness.

The black tea was soaked in hot water, and the aroma of the tea covered the smell of smoke. He Mingfeng fastened his clothes and walked back to the hall with the tea tray.

"I've been waiting for a long time." He was placed in front of Shen Liangyue with milk tea, and said cautiously, "Do you... still like to drink this?"

"I like it, thank you." Shen Liangyue took a sip of tea naturally, and He Mingfeng looked at him straight. After knocking up a few times, he thought about it and said, "Should we... want to talk?"

He Mingfeng was shocked, and said in a low voice: "...Did I make you uncomfortable?"

"No, I just think that you don't have to blame yourself like this. I didn't lie to you against my will. I really hope that we are all well." Shen Liangyue put down her teacup and smiled lightly, "After we separated, I thought about it a lot. In fact, what happened back then , I can’t blame you entirely, I also did something bad, I was too young and heavy-hearted at that time, maybe it caused you a lot of trouble..."

"Why do you say that?" He Mingfeng subconsciously pressed his hand on the wound on his shoulder, and said in a muffled voice, "You didn't do anything wrong, the worst thing you did...is liking me, I don't deserve your liking at all."

Shen Liangyue shook her head and said: "Maybe what I like is just my own fantasy, and I imposed this fantasy on you, which caused us both pain. Since I was a child, my fantasy about love is you, I can't accept that you don't love I... I was so stupid at the time, I didn’t know that emotions are also fluid, and I pursued a kind of paranoid eternity, but I didn’t know that in this world, only change is eternal.”

"I want to be unique in your heart, but I didn't realize that everyone is unique. This special preference does not need gifts from others. So I worry about gain and loss, depressed, and when I think about it, a lot of pain is not given to me by you. Yes, but I imposed on myself, I am too thin-skinned, many things are endured by myself..."

Shen Liangyue let out an almost inaudible sigh, at that time he thought

Forbearance and maturity are just the most boring tricks. He hopes that what He Mingfeng sees are all his good and the beauty of this relationship, but he just ignores the most important and basic honesty and truth in the relationship, so that they The feelings of love are like a gorgeous mansion that has been eaten away, the foundation is too flimsy, and it will collapse into a pile of rubble when the wind blows.

Every word Shen Liangyue uttered was like a needle piercing He Mingfeng's heart. Although he had been reviewing his childishness and innocence, He Mingfeng once again realized with regret that what he destroyed was such a perfect Flawless and pure and sincere feelings are the undivided and single-mindedness that everyone dreams of.

He Mingfeng suppressed the turbulent emotions, and murmured: "The so-called growing up sometimes just has to accept incompleteness. It is finally knowing that the world is not as perfect as imagined, so throw away the fantasy and walk into reality. I wish you were always a child. , so that I can always take care of you and take care of you, but in the end I became the cruelest person, the culprit who forced you to grow up..."

He Mingfeng walked up to Shen Liangyue and knelt down on one knee, his hands were as cold as ice, tentatively covering the back of Shen Liangyue's white hands on the table, like a drowning person exhausting all his strength, trying to struggle one last time: "Liangyue, I really I hope you can forgive me and...give me another chance..."

Shen Liangyue didn't pull her hand away, nor did she answer immediately - in fact, there are many things that have nothing to do with forgiveness or not, but forget it.Shen Liangyue could not forgive him on behalf of the child who had no destiny to come to the world, nor could she forgive him on behalf of herself who was in pain and despair, a light forgiveness could not erase the harm that had already happened.It's not forgiving or understanding, nor is it continuing to care about, it's just forgetting, it's just the past, it's just throwing everything to time.

Shen Liangyue turned her head and stared at He Mingfeng's mournful and deep light brown eyes. After a long silence, she said quietly: "I have already said that that is all in the past... let yourself go .”

"Just like this cup," he held up the black teacup with exquisite roses in his hand, "if it has been broken, even if it is barely glued, it will be full of scars, we will inevitably stare at these broken marks, thinking It hurts to wake up.”

Shen Liangyue let go of her hand, and with a "snap", He Mingfeng watched the cup shatter into countless porcelain pieces in front of his eyes, "Why bother to be persistent? You can definitely get a new one."

He Mingfeng trembled a bit, the sound of shattering seemed to be louder than the bombs on the battlefield, he looked at the irreparable pieces of porcelain all over the floor, as if he was watching himself

It is also impossible to have a complete heart.The other black tea cup is still on the table stupidly, it has become the only orphan in the world of this tea set, and it will never be matched for a lifetime.

Shen Liangyue's communicator turned on a few times, and he gracefully pressed the corner of his lips with a wipe, and said softly, "I should go."

He Mingfeng was still kneeling slumped, when he heard this, he raised his head as if waking up from a dream and stammered, "You...do you want to take Xueqiu away?"

"No." Shen Liangyue became ruthless, picked up the snowball that had been lying on his lap and kissed her, and said slowly: "Goodbye."

He Mingfeng felt in a daze that Shen Liangyue's "goodbye" was not only saying to Xueqiu, but also to him.Shen Liangyue, who has always been precious and beautiful, regretted the shameless "fleeing away" back then. He wanted to give this relationship a formal ending, and finally made up for the unspoken "goodbye" five years ago today.

He Mingfeng stood in the empty mansion with Xueqiu in his arms, like a wandering soul who didn't know where to go. He finally hoped that Shen Liangyue would come back, but he still only had Xueqiu, because both he and Xueqiu belonged to the past and both belonged to the past. Something that Shen Liangyue no longer wanted.

Snowball had at least one farewell kiss, and he had none.He Mingfeng stood there for a long time, then suddenly stretched out his hand and knocked down the only black tea cup left on the table to the ground—the missing porcelain cup has lost its meaning of existence.

The author has something to say: In fact, I still hope that everyone can look at the front [cover your face]

For example, cats, paintings, black tea with milk, Gong’s illness, his tendency to self-destruct, and what is going on with their relationship. Many details have appeared before, and it is interesting to compare them.

(Of course, only recommendation 233)

Regarding the "cup theory", you can combine the following passages to deepen your understanding 233:

"Scarlett, I was never the type to patiently pick up a piece of debris, put it together, and say to myself that the repaired thing is as good as new. When something breaks, it breaks— I'd rather remember it as it was at its best than mend it. Then live my life looking at the broken places. Maybe if I'd been younger—but I'm too old to believe that pure It is an emotional statement, saying that everything can start from scratch. I am so old, I can't live in the disillusionment of seeming dignity with the burden of lies all my life." - "Gone with the Wind"

感谢在2020-07-0223:56:35~2020-07-0401:14:23期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel who threw the landmine: the old city farewell to the old snow, the fox at 1 pm, and a leek box;

Thanks to the little angel who irrigates the nutrient solution: 10 bottles of waste food due to choking; 5 bottles of small copper coins;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!