Twelve constellations proposed to me at the same time

In the afternoon, Yun Mengze went to the director, that is, his supervisor, to give himself psychological counseling.

Although you are clear about your own problems and can analyze their causes, self-treatment may be mixed with unobjective psychological factors, especially the fact that you did not want to admit or think about it in the past, which may become an obstacle to treatment.

Facing Director Fang with kind eyebrows and kind eyes, Yun Mengze peeled off layers of himself, confessing the past, without expressing too much emotion, just stating the facts.

After listening patiently, Director Fang said to him: "Since you are able to sit here and tell about yourself, you must have realized the facts that you have deliberately ignored. Now you are giving your mother medicine that is harmful to your body. Drugs, what do you think caused you to be sent to the hospital for rescue many times, do you hate her?"

Yun Mengze thought for a while, then shook his head and said: "I have never hated her, and I don't want to hate her. This should be the reason why I choose to close my heart and not think about these things. Now that I think about it, I think she is actually sick. I should have...should have thought of it sooner."

How can a mother with normal mental health enjoy the pain of her child's illness, how can she brainwash her child every day to make him believe that she is only worthy of living alone in this world.

The strange voices that Yun Mengze heard were all hallucinations produced by the psychological defense mechanism. He is a very sensitive person. Once he realizes that others have a good impression of him and want to get close to him, he will start to resist and reject him.Because of the stimulation of his mother's death, he further fell into hallucinations to convince himself to reject anyone's love.

Zhu Xiaonan is right. He is a doctor who does not heal himself. He has been blinding his eyes with illusions, forcing himself to believe that he has never been hurt by his mother. He is willing to live in the illusion caused by it and passively resist love and being loved. So much so that I missed the opportunity to reconcile with her and myself.

If Feng Dongyue hadn't come to him and woke him up from his false dream, he might never have recognized the truth.

Director Fang: "After knowing my situation, how do you feel now, relaxed, or still have concerns, will you feel panic and uneasy about the re-established interpersonal relationship?"

"Actually, I don't know the exact feeling right now," Yun Mengze said honestly, "I'm also looking for the answer myself."

Psychotherapy is the most effective way to cure PTSD. Since Yun Mengze has slight hallucinations, Director Fang suggested that he cooperate with medication.Yun Mengze also believed that the combination of drugs and psychotherapy was the best option, so he prescribed a bottle of Paroxetine for himself.

After eating in the cafeteria at night and returning home, Yun Mengze took the medicine and recorded the date of taking the medicine.He looked at Zhinao, and remembered that he should ask Feng Dongyue what he would like to eat tomorrow morning. As soon as he clicked on WeChat, Feng Dongyue sent a message:

【Eaten dinner yet?What's for dinner tomorrow morning? I'll go to the restaurant and go find you after I buy it. 】

Yun Mengze sat on the sofa and stepped on the coffee table, and replied: 【I have eaten dinner.I'll buy breakfast tomorrow morning, and I'll let you try the handicrafts of the aunt in the staff canteen.What do you want to eat? 】

Feng Dongyue sat on the sofa chair by the window, accompanied by the warm fishing light, and wanted to say "I want to eat you".But for him, making a fuss is at most a scratch in his heart, but the implementation in action is extremely cryptic:

[Do you have steamed dumplings? I haven’t eaten them for a long time, and I really miss their taste. 】

Yun Mengze replied: [Small meaning, satisfy you.Is there anything else in particular you want to eat? 】

Feng Dongyue: [As long as you choose, I can do it. 】

Looking at the words on the screen, Yun Mengze couldn't help laughing.It seems that a strange creature is born in my heart, like a plant, it grows a beautiful shape under the water of a certain wonderful mood, and like an animal, it rolls and plays in the same mood.

When I am in the virtual spiritual world, I must often feel such an indescribable feeling. Along with pleasure, there is also a subconscious sense of rebellious and rebellious pleasure from the mental abuse I received as a child.

The two said some unnutritious things, and didn't say good night to each other until it was time to go to bed, and made an appointment to see each other tomorrow.

Yun Mengze had a good night's dream, woke up refreshed in the morning, changed the plaster for herself, washed up and went to the nursing home.He bought soy milk, millet porridge, steamed dumplings, deep-fried dough sticks, salted eggs and a few refreshing side dishes in the cafeteria, and carried them in large and small bags to his early morning appointment.

I thought it was already early, but when I got there, I found that Feng Dongyue was already waiting.

Feng Dongyue sat quietly on the bench just like the previous few times, focusing on origami.An ordinary thin piece of paper is changing its shape between his slender fingers. It is not known what it will look like until the last step.

Yun Mengze didn't doubt Feng Dongyue's feelings for him at all, but he was so sensitive and keen, he could always sense other people's affection for him, how could he be deceived by Feng Dongyue?

Only now did Yun Mengze think about why Feng Dongyue always folded paper in front of him. Feng Dongyue used this method to control his inner emotions and feelings, folded all the secrets into small papers, and handed them over to him. Give it to him, let him keep his own mind.

"Morning." Yun Mengze walked over, sat down next to Feng Dongyue, put the lunch boxes between the two of them, and opened them one by one, "Have you been waiting for a long time?"

Feng Dongyue: "No, I just came here."

He just sat there for nearly half an hour. He wanted to arrive earlier and see Yun Mengze earlier.He handed the origami in his hand to Yun Mengze, just like every time before.

The origami this time is a water bottle.Yun Mengze took it over and said, "Thank you, I think I'm going to achieve an achievement soon."

Feng Dongyue raised his eyebrows: "What achievement?"

"The achievement of origami integrating the twelve constellations." Yun Mengze smiled and handed him the chopsticks, "Eat it while it's hot."

The yard in the morning is very quiet, especially this corner shaded by trees.Neither of them is a talkative person, they only care about whether the other is eating well from time to time.Although Feng Dongyue was eating steamed dumplings, he was always paying attention to the people around him out of the corner of his eyes.

Maybe he was too excited last night, he didn't sleep well.Lying on the bed and flipping through the chat records between the two, Feng Dongyue felt that he had spoken the most nonsense in his life.Now that Yun Mengze is in front of him, he still doesn't know how to convey his unspeakable emotions to Yun Mengze.

Casual words and casual touches are not enough to quench his thirst. No matter how successful or great he is in front of others, his brain has already died in front of Yun Mengze, only his heart is beating hard, and he keeps pouring out his unreasonable thoughts .

He missed Yun Mengze's kiss, and his heart was running hot.But other than staring at Yun Mengze's lips, he didn't dare to act rashly, for fear of exposing the beast hidden in his heart and scaring away the gentle deer in the forest.

"You ate all the steamed dumplings?" Yun Mengze looked at the empty lunch box in Feng Dongyue's hand, and said regretfully, "I haven't eaten steamed dumplings in the cafeteria, and I wanted to try it."

Feng Dongyue didn't know when he ate up a box of steamed dumplings, he was only thinking about Yun Mengze.He didn't perform well on the first date, how could this embarrass Mr. Feng, who has always been very demanding of himself?

"I'm going to buy another one now."

Feng Dongyue was standing up from the bench when Yun Mengze suddenly grabbed one side of his collar and pulled him towards him.Feng Dongyue leaned down, and before he could react, he was caught off guard by a soft kiss.

Yun Mengze kissed him, brushed his tongue lightly over his lips, then tasted it seriously, and said: "I have tasted it, it tastes good, I will go to Moments to give a thumbs up to the cafeteria aunt in a while."

Feng Dongyue didn't hear anything, he went down.

Yun Mengze was amused by him, put down his chopsticks and said, "You've been staring at me, wondering if you're eating dumplings or me."

Feng Dongyue pursed his moist lips, and now that Yun Mengze had discovered him, he simply admitted sincerely, "I actually wanted to kiss you."

"In the future, no matter what thoughts or feelings you have, you can tell me," Yun Mengze paused, and added, "It's not the way a patient vents to a doctor, but to a lover who trusts each other."

Feng Dongyue held Yun Mengze's hand tightly and said, "Okay."

In fact, he really wanted to say the same thing to Yun Mengze, so that Yun Mengze would also open up to him.He wants to know everything about Yun Mengze, good and bad, including the nightmare that has been tormenting Yun Mengze all this time.But he was worried that once he spoke, it would destroy such a beautiful atmosphere and scare Yun Mengze again.

He can fold all emotions into origami, but he can't fold love into the desired shape.But even if Yun Mengze is an unknown, he is still willing to gamble everything and do his best.

A vast ocean of tenderness surged in his heart, drowning out all doubts about Yun Mengze's past, and only enjoying the present joyful mood.

Yun Mengze shook the hands they held together, and nodded towards the lunch box with his chin: "Hurry up and eat."

"Okay." Feng Dongyue was still reticent, but he didn't let go of Yun Mengze's hand, but picked up the chopsticks awkwardly with his left hand and continued to eat breakfast.After all, I am not my dominant hand, so it is very awkward to use chopsticks, and I always fall back when I get halfway through.

Yun Mengze couldn't help laughing: "When will you be full?"

"It doesn't matter," Feng Dongyue continued to try nonchalantly, "Just treat it as learning a new skill, and it will be useful in the future."

In short, he just didn't want to let go of Yun Mengze's hand.

Yun Mengze finished breakfast first, watched Feng Dongyue practice his left hand with great interest, and casually mentioned the social charity event in a few days: "Do you want to participate?"

Feng Dongyue was concentrating on wrestling with a piece of cucumber: "What exactly are you going to do?"

Yun Mengze: "Nothing special, just arrange some patients with mild illnesses to interact with volunteers, chat, wash clothes and cook together. Doesn't Diyue Group have related foundations?" , so I asked you if you want to show your face."

"If you're here, of course I want to participate." Feng Dongyue is not someone who likes to show off, he just wants to chat with Yun Mengze, wash clothes and cook.He finally defeated the disobedient cucumber slice, picked it up and brought it to Yun Mengze's mouth.

Yun Mengze smiled and ate the smashed cucumber slices.I finished all the breakfast, and there was only a little porridge left.Look at the time, it's time to end the secret date and go to work.The two packed up the lunch box and threw it into the trash can. After saying goodbye to each other, one went back to Area A, and the other went to the office building.In the opposite direction, with the same mood, there is a trace of smile that cannot be hidden on each other's faces, like a cat who secretly ate dried fish.

At noon, Yun Mengze was late again, but he didn't forget to praise the canteen aunt about her steamed dumplings.The aunt said proudly: "Of course, with my skill in making dumplings for more than [-] years, this is nothing. By the way, Dr. Yun is in a good mood today. Young people should always smile, it looks good! By the way , Do you have a girlfriend, my neighbor's cousin's niece just came from overseas..."

"Thank you, aunt, give me some stewed pork ribs with beans!" Yun Mengze hastily interrupted her kindness.

The aunt failed to arrange it successfully, and mumbled a spoonful of stewed pork ribs with beans, and slammed it on his dinner plate.The skill of cooking for more than forty years made Yun Mengze tremble all over, and he almost lost his grip.

He hurriedly found a place to sit down, and just after taking a bite of his meal, Bai Mo sat down with a XXXXL coconut milk tea in his arms: "Senior, you are full of spring, is there any happy event?"

Yun Mengze touched his face, is he that obvious?

Bai Mo narrowed his eyes: "I ran away in a hurry that day, and then I asked for annual leave, but I came back three days later to cancel the leave, and it became like this. Do you have clothes hanging in your mouth? Why are you so big!"

"Shut up." Yun Mengze picked up a large rib and stuffed it into his mouth, "I was looking for you, how is Jiang Min's situation?"

Bai Mo tried his best to gnaw off a piece of meat, took the ribs out of his mouth, and said, "I talked to him and his mother again, but there was no progress, and it was still the same. Maybe she is too fragile. I asked a little deeper, she Just shed tears. Hey, you also know that I have no resistance to sex, especially such a beautiful and weak one..."

"You must always remember that you are a psychiatrist, and control your messy thoughts." Yun Mengze was silent for a few seconds, and said seriously, "Is it possible that Jiang Min's mother suffers from surrogate Meng Qiaosen? "

Proxy Munchausen syndrome is a type of Munchausen syndrome in which a person with this disorder fabricates, exaggerates, or even deliberately contributes to physical, psychological, behavioral, or psychiatric problems in the care recipient, especially Children, juniors, siblings, and other caregivers are often the most complex and deadly form of mother-to-child abuse.

After feeding unclean food, poisoning, and injecting lethal drugs to the care recipients, they will fight to save them.Gain the praise and attention of others by taking care of and rescuing the care recipients, and then enjoy the feeling of being recognized by others.

Because people with this disease are often the guardians of the victim, they can hide their behavior well, and it is difficult for doctors to detect it, so this disease is also difficult to confirm.

Yun Mengze analyzed his opinion of Jiang Min, and Bai Mo pondered: "Maybe she seems to be a very competent mother, I have never doubted this, but I just think she has a slight anxiety disorder, which will have an impact on Jiang Min Hearing what you said, it's not impossible."

"By the way, where is Jiang Min's father?" Yun Mengze asked.

Bai Mo shook his head: "Every time he is mentioned, Jiang Min's mother will be very sad, saying that he abandoned their mother and son and never visited them. But once Jiang Min accidentally said that his father actually visited him at their house , but was stopped by his mother and he was not allowed to enter. The matter of divorced families is very complicated, and this alone is not enough to judge what is wrong with her behavior."

Yun Mengze thought for a while: "During the free time in the afternoon, you take me over to have a chat with him, maybe I can find something you didn't notice."

Bai Mo: "No problem, but the intern is coming, do you have time?"

A group of students from Xingdu Medical College will come to practice for a period of time. They will report in the afternoon, and Yun Mengze will also bring a few students.He looked at the time and said, "If you don't mention it, I almost forgot. Let's do it tomorrow. I will build trust with Jiang Min first, and I won't talk too much in depth."

Bai Mo bit the straw and nodded in agreement, the two of them went off to their own business after dinner.

In the afternoon, the interns from Xingdu Medical College came to report, and many of them were familiar. When they met Yun Mengze, they were more enthusiastic than each other, and the professors kept shouting.

Among them was a boy named Ling Yu who always called him teacher.There is nothing wrong with the title itself, but it is more problematic for him to deliberately use a different title from others to highlight his own particularity and attract Yun Mengze's attention.

Seeing Ling Yu's eager eyes, Yun Mengze's ears buzzed, and the familiar voice began to stir again.He secretly took a few deep breaths to relax himself, turned his attention to work arrangements, and told them the daily routine of psychiatrists from morning to night, and the matters that need attention when contacting patients.

But after all, they are a group of energetic and inexperienced big kids, who raise and create many problems. Several doctors including Yun Mengze have to continue their normal work, deal with patients' emergencies, and I have to solve the problems caused by the interns like my parents, and I spend the whole afternoon wandering around.

It was when Yun Mengze was about to leave work that he remembered to submit Feng Dongyue's diagnosis report.After he finished his work, Ling Yu and several interns came to him and said they wanted to have dinner with him.

Yun Mengze did not refuse, some of these people were his students, and now they came to practice again, so he invited everyone to have a meal together in the cafeteria.

Young people are lively together, chatting and chatting during the meeting, someone asked if Professor Yun is single, and said that there are many girls in the college who have a crush on him.Yun Mengze said with a smile that even if he is not single, he does not engage in teacher-student romance.

Like a detective, Ling Yu grasped the key points in his words, and asked nervously: "The teacher said 'even if you are not single', does that mean you are not single anymore?"

The others glanced over, and Yun Mengze said frankly in the focus of their eyes: "Actually, there is someone I like a long time ago, but the relationship was only confirmed recently."

Amidst the sound of "wow", Ling Yu showed a disappointed look in his eyes.After all, he was still young, so he couldn't hide his emotions, and he ate listlessly after the meal.

Yun Mengze thinks this is good, the sooner Ling Yu stops thinking, the less damage he will suffer.

After dinner, everyone chatted for a while before they left. Yun Mengze went home and went straight to the bathroom, soaked in the bathtub and listened to music. A WeChat message popped up from his brain, which was sent by Feng Dongyue:

[I heard that an intern came over today, will you be very busy these days? 】

Yun Mengze sent Feng Dongyue the photo of the dinner at night: [Hmm, I feel like a kindergarten teacher.You should be busy too, right?Don't wear yourself out too much. 】

Every time Feng Dongyue merged his memory, he would fall into a state of frantic work.

After a few minutes, Feng Dongyue replied: 【It must be very busy, busy thinking about you. 】

Eight characters and two punctuation marks took four to five minutes to type.Yun Mengze laughed for a long time before realizing that his facial muscles seemed to be out of control.He slid down the edge of the tub until he spit a few pink bubbles into the water.

After talking clumsily all night, Feng Dongyue discovered for the first time that he could be more happy and relaxed than origami and work.Until he was about to fall asleep, he rubbed the screen hesitantly, wanting to ask Yun Mengze how he was feeling now, but felt that this kind of temptation was a bit inappropriate.After thinking about it for a while, she still didn't ask, but just told Yun Mengze to go to bed early.

The two said good night to each other, and each fell asleep.The next day was another busy day, and Yun Mengze was not idle the whole morning. After the morning meeting, there was talk therapy, followed by a formal meeting for the interns.

I had a simple rice bowl at noon, and group therapy in the afternoon.After three o'clock, I had some time to go to the activity area.Bai Mo told him where Jiang Min was. He walked across the lawn to the reading room. He had just entered the gate of the activity building and walked a few steps. When he passed the corner, someone grabbed his arm and dragged him into the narrow aisle next to the stairs.

Yun Mengze was startled, before he could react, he was pressed against the wall and kissed.He opened his eyes wide and was relieved when he saw that it was Feng Dongyue.

Feng Dongyue pressed him hard and kissed him as if he was dying, as if they had been separated for many years.Yun Mengze felt that the oxygen in his body was being sucked out, and he was about to be out of breath, but Feng Dongyue refused to let him go, and the tip of his tongue was aggressively asking for it in his mouth.

The domineering and brutal kiss made Yun Mengze almost suffocate, and then he felt something hard poked on his leg.He was hot all over, and his legs were a little weak. Thinking that someone would pass by here at any time, he hurriedly raised his hand to touch Feng Dongyue's cheek, signaling him to calm down.

But Feng Dongyue seemed to be doing it on purpose, the more he felt that Yun Mengze was nervous, the more he teased him.Yun Mengze heard voices coming from not far away, and pressed hard under his ribs with his thumb, and Feng Dongyue let out a muffled groan, and then stopped with still unsatisfied meaning.

Yun Mengze straightened his collar quickly, pretending to be nonchalant, and didn't really relax until the people who approached strolled past.He looked at Feng Dongyue and said in a low voice, "You're not afraid of being seen!"

Feng Dongyue's shirt was unbuttoned at the collar, and it was opened casually, revealing a patch of wheat-colored skin.The corners of his mouth were slightly raised, and he was staring at Yun Mengze intently. His already beautiful eyebrows and eyes were even more charming because of their affection.

He licked his wet lips, reminiscing about the good taste just now, and said with a arrogant smile: "Why am I afraid of being seen, if anyone has any objections to this, I will tell him to shut up."

Yun Mengze glanced at him in surprise, feeling that Feng Dongyue was a little weird today: "Although I know about your situation, others don't. They will think that I have violated professional ethics as a doctor. Taking advantage of you in an unclear state. Do you want me to be blamed?"

"I'll see who dares!" Feng Dongyue's tone was not joking, "If there are people who accuse you, I will not let anyone go."

Yun Mengze smiled and said, "I'm here to prevent the passing of time. What are you doing here, are you going to read a book?"

"I want to see you." Feng Dongyue looked deeply at Yun Mengze, his deep eyes released a strong possessive desire, "I want to see you all the time."

Is this still Mr. Feng who takes three to five minutes to send a subtle love message?Normally, Feng Dongyue kept everything in his heart and didn't say anything. Once the memory of a certain personality came online, the abundant emotion couldn't be hidden.

Yun Mengze helped Feng Dongyue tidy up the messed up clothes, and said softly, "I have important work to do now, can we talk later?"

"What job is more important than me?" Feng Dongyue took his hand and kissed it on his lips, "I miss you."

Yun Mengze smiled and said, "I'm right in front of you now, am I not?"

"Even if I look at you, I still miss you." Feng Dongyue gently rubbed his lips against Yun Mengze's fingertips, and murmured, "Don't you miss me?"

Yun Mengze took out his hand, rubbed his head, and said patiently: "Of course I miss you, but the work still has to be done. You are the most responsible and dedicated person to your work, you must understand, right? Then Many patients are still waiting for my treatment, I can't leave them alone. But I promise you, I will secretly miss you while I am working, how about it?"

Feng Dongyue felt bad from the bottom of his heart, he was dismissive of any patient or job.Yun Mengze should only have three places to go: stay within his sight, stay by his side, and stay in his arms.

But Feng Dongyue knew Yun Mengze well, if he was asked to leave his patients and work alone, he would definitely feel uncomfortable.Feng Dongyue didn't want Yun Mengze to be in a bad mood.

He said helplessly, "I may not be saved."

Yun Mengze asked puzzledly, "What's wrong with you?"

Feng Dongyue lowered his head and kissed Yun Mengze's lips lovingly: "I can't do anything about you, no matter what you say, I can't refuse, even if I don't want you to go away from me at all, I still can't Say 'no' to you. Do you think I'm hopeless?"

Yun Mengze pursed his lips and smiled, promised Feng Dongyue to send him a WeChat message later, and prepared to go to the reading room.

After walking a few steps, Feng Dongyue grabbed his wrist.Facing his questioning gaze, Feng Dongyue said inexplicably: "You don't have anything, do you want to tell me?"

Yun Mengze said blankly, "What are you referring to?"

He explained what he was going to do and promised to miss him when he was working. Yun Mengze didn't know what else Feng Dongyue wanted to hear.

Feng Dongyue's deep gaze was like a night without stars and moons, and there were endless mysteries hidden in the darkness.He stared at Yun Mengze for a while, as if he was looking for something, and finally just smiled lightly: "It's okay, just ask casually."

Yun Mengze said goodbye with a smile, and quickly walked into the reading room.He found Jiang Min who was reading a book, and sat down beside him.

Feng Dongyue also entered the reading room from another door, and under the cover of a row of bookshelves, he unscrupulously attacked Yun Mengze with his eyes.

He remembered Yun Mengze's betrayal of him clearly.

Yun Mengze had no idea what kind of life he was living after he left.He couldn't forgive Yun Mengze for abandoning himself in the past, and he couldn't forgive Yun Mengze for not even giving him an explanation now.

In his eyes, the generosity of the previous personality was cowardice.He wanted Yun Mengze to repay the debt he owed, and let Yun Mengze pay for what he had done.

Thinking of this, Mr. Feng clicked on an accounting app in his brain, which contained the "debts" that Yun Mengze owed in the past that he sorted out overnight.He quickly and forcefully poked the first article of the day with his fingers:

Think work is more important than me, bad review!