I was as innocent as you

After about two or three months, Qu Shen really realized the whole meaning of Zhai Yanghao's leaving him.

He didn't have much painting materials left, so he went to the painting materials store for a few times, and when he came back, he had to count the money again.His room is not big, and it is full of the smell of paint and glue. He will feel dizzy if he stays for a long time, and he has to open the window frequently in winter.He started to catch a cold, and then he started to have a fever. He went to the hospital, spent all the money for the month, returned home, took a look at the refund card that was kept in the studio, boiled a pot of hot water, and poured it on the bed.He was weak, not nourished enough to eat, not strong enough to resist.But at this time, he just remembered that matter. After he finished solving it, he felt a little empty. He found that he would still think about Zhai Yanghao's face at this time.He cleaned up his body, drank some hot water, buried himself in the quilt and fell asleep in the dark.

When he woke up, he found himself in the hospital. Zhai Yanghao was sitting next to him, his forehead was full of wrinkles, and when he saw him wake up, his expression softened for a moment.

But immediately turned black again.

"Why don't you go to the hospital when you're sick? Are you stupid?" Zhai Yanghao said.

"I'm going." Qu Shen argued, paused, and swallowed the rest of the words.

Zhai Yanghao suddenly realized that the problem probably lies in the money, and his heartache overwhelmed his anger, but he was still talking nonsense.

Qu Shen didn't speak, just looked at him.

He still looks good when he's sick.I haven't seen him for two or three months, and now that he looked over so quietly, Zhai Yanghao couldn't contain the little flames that kept rising in his heart, and fled after saying "I'll go buy you food".

He hadn't been going well in the past two or three months, and there were a lot of messes at work, and some people came to trouble him with Qiu Tiantian's derailment.He only blamed Qiu Tiantian for being careless, and he had to clean up the mess.Sometimes he doesn't really understand what's going on between himself and Qiu Tiantian, but he just seems to feel that marriage is really just a piece of paper, Qiu Tiantian has her changing enthusiasm, and Zhai Yanghao doesn't have a lifetime Uncompromising determination.Probably they are all the same people, there are so many temptations around, no one can tie the other, it's boring.It's still important to be happy.

Since Zhai Yanghao's career improved, he began to have other lovers, and some things just went smoothly.When Qu Shen was by his side, he didn't think of these people much, but when Qu Shen was no longer by his side, his life still had to go on.He was a little injured, but after two or three months, he felt that he could be relieved.Until I met a director of the Academy of Fine Arts during a social gathering, the other party told him that Mr. Qu had asked for leave, and he seemed to be sick, and the illness was not serious.Zhai Yanghao smiled calmly.He endured it all night, and started calling the next day. No one answered for the whole day, and then the phone was turned off. He finally couldn't help it, and went to the door. The doorbell rang loudly, but no one paid attention.Di Yanghao was so angry that he asked someone to unlock the lock, and when he rushed through the door, he found that Qu Shen was lying on the bed, already burned unconscious.

When I was sent to the hospital, I realized that it was not just a cold and fever, but it had developed into pneumonia, and there was also a long-term poor diet and gastrointestinal problems.

Arranged to be hospitalized to carry water, the doctor saw that he was carefully wrapping up the person on the hospital bed, and said very impatiently: "He has a fever, you wrap him so tightly, how do you cool down?"

Zhai Yanghao handed over the person to the nurse to take care of him, feeling extremely sad, thinking of Qu Shen's stupidity, not knowing how long he buried himself in the quilt, and burning him like this, it's really heartbreaking.

Thinking wildly in his mind, he drove to find a familiar restaurant, but couldn't even read the menu, so he asked someone to find a lighter diet to make a few more dishes, and brought them back to the hospital.

Qu Shen sat up by himself.

Zhai Yanghao opened the bag, took out the tableware, and asked him, "What do you want to eat first?"

Qu Shen said: "Thank you, I can just eat something myself."

Zhai Yanghao looked at him and asked, "Are you still angry with me?"

He was a little angry when he said this, Qu Shen didn't say anything, and lowered his head slightly.

Only then did Yanghao cheer up to see what the store made, yam porridge, shrimp egg rolls, tofu vegetable cup, straw mushroom fish fillet soup.The aroma and heat of the food made Zhai Yanghao's brows and eyes tender, and he brought up the porridge to feed Qu Shen.

After eating most of the porridge, a few mouthfuls of soup, and an egg roll, Qu Shen became more energetic. Zhai Yanghao pushed him back when he wanted to feed him again. After a few mouthfuls, he fed him the rest of the porridge while it was still warm.Qu Shen was fed a little too much by him, lazily tired, looked up at him and said, "Aren't you going home? Are you not going to work tomorrow?"

Zhai Yanghao shook his head, threw away the tableware and wiped his hands, reached out to stroke his hair, and said in a low voice, "Don't you want me to stay with you for a while?"

His voice is very pleasant and very magnetic. When he speaks in a low voice, he warmly touches his ears, which will trigger many memories that Qu Shen dare not think about casually.

Qu Shen didn't speak, and put a hand across to try to separate him.

Zhai Yanghao held his face involuntarily, stroked his brows and eyes with his thumb, and Qu Shen was forced to close his eyes.

The lips and teeth of the two touched, and Zhai Yanghao kissed very tenderly.

Qu Shen swallowed hastily, and accidentally choked, pushed Zhai Yanghao away and coughed.

Zhai Yanghao patted him on the back to help him calm down, and gave him a tissue.

Qu Shen coughed until his eyes were filled with tears, and Zhai Yanghao became furious, and leaned forward to kiss him again.Qu Shen wanted to hide, but Zhai Yanghao held him down with brute force.Qu Shen didn't know where the strength came from, he slapped him away, coughed again, and then he recovered, angrily said: "I'm going to be out of breath."

Zhai Yanghao smiled, put his arms around him and said, "Then don't be angry."

The liquid in Qu Shen's eyes seeped from the corners of his eyes, as if he was looking at him seriously.

"I do everything to make you happy. I'm not buying you, I really want to give you everything. I give you everything I can." His voice became lower and lower, and at the end it was almost ear-splitting. while whispering.

Qu pursed his lips deeply.

Zhai Yanghao watched carefully, a little afraid of his expression.

"I'm really not that kind of person. I grew up with you, and I don't think of you that way."

"Everyone has many dreams," Qu Shen said, "Every dream is a belief."

Zhai Yanghao looked at him, not knowing why.

"Once a belief collapses, it is impossible to rebuild it, and it is difficult to fully establish a second belief. It is like, if a person is always flying in a dream, if one day he falls, even in a dream, he will I can't fly anymore."

Zhai Yanghao gently held Qu Shen's hand.

"I've already fallen." Qu Shen said, the eyelashes were still stained with water.

Zhai Yanghao looked at him.He couldn't fully understand the meaning of these words, but he probably understood what Qu Shen meant, and he still didn't trust himself.This is also natural, even if Qu Shen doesn't know Yingying Yanyan beside him, at least he knows his married status, and knows that in such a relationship, the only person who can get out at any time without paying any price is him.He didn't know what to say, he just raised Qu Shen's face and kissed his eyes lightly.

Qu Shen's eyelashes were wet and he didn't evade.

Zhai Yanghao hugged him, feeling the intimacy between the two after a long absence.

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