I was as innocent as you

For Qu Shen's touring art exhibition named "Northwest" this time, the boss has been preparing for a long time, as if he wants to earn back all that Qu Shen owes him. In addition to the grand and complicated design of the art exhibition, he also arranged for Qu Shen. Lots of activities.Qu Shen naturally accepted everything indifferently, and was stuck in the company and couldn't get out.

Before the opening of the art exhibition, Zhai Yanghao hadn't seen Qu Shen for a long time, and couldn't bear it anymore, so he quietly ran to his work place to see him.

Qu Shen was taking pictures for the art exhibition at that time, and after changing clothes at the scene, he was a little confused when he realized that he still had to put on makeup.

"Do men also need makeup?" He couldn't help asking.

The make-up girl was amused by him, and said: "There is a gap between the photo and the reality, a little help to make it look more photogenic, it is not the kind of makeup that is called lipstick, blush, eyebrows, and eyeliner."

"Well, isn't it weird for a man to put on makeup like that?" Qu Shen was still telling the truth, and when he saw the makeup girl trembling with laughter, he smiled embarrassedly.

He stood in front of the set while the make-up girl made the final adjustments for him.

When Zhai Yanghao walked in, the two of them only exchanged glances, and Qu Shen concentrated on cooperating with the makeup girl again.

The photographer here also made adjustments, and called out to the makeup girl, who gave Qu Shen a final tidy up and ran away.

Qu Shen smiled thankfully at the makeup girl one second ago, and the next second the photographer asked him to look at the camera, and he turned his face slightly, the smile on his face was still on the verge of disappearing, and the photographer pressed the shutter.

Later, Zhai Yanghao saw Qu Shen's photo at the entrance of the art exhibition, and couldn't help but stop and look at his current appearance seriously.The greenness has faded, and the courage and charm that a man should have are already in full bloom, but it is still a clean face. There is no sorrow or joy, but the eyes seem to have thousands of emotions. Smiling, but there is no trace to be found upon closer inspection.Black and white photos, but like the texture of diamonds, clear and colorful.

Obviously they are people who have been with each other for many years, but at this moment, Zhai Yanghao is still too fascinated to walk when looking at this photo.

He remembered the master's comment.

"It's stunning."

Thinking about it now, he was not frivolous at all, and he sighed from his heart, "It's really stunning."

Qu Shen's art exhibition this time was very successful, almost to the point of sensation.

His painting has been at a high temperature for a while, and the boss is quite proud of it.Followed by, there are many rumors and criticism.

Compared with his paintings, in fact, more people are paying attention to his appearance, his sexual orientation, how many relationships he has had, whether he has broken up with others, or has he been broken up by others, and he seems to have a different relationship with his parents. Well, there seems to be a tendency to deviant, has he been in drugs, has he been to some ridiculous party, is he deeply religious, has he gone crazy.

Some people sneered at him, while others thought he was so charming.

There are also some people who have been following him since earlier.Some say he has changed, others think that he has always been like this.

People will definitely change.

There are a lot of changes that are trivial though.What kind of hairstyle you wear, what kind of style you draw, even if these have changed, it is not worth making a fuss about.

What he has not changed is painting and the state of mind of painting.

And more importantly, where he has changed.

Many times, he still feels that he is weak and incompetent, too sensitive, and easily swayed by emotions.

He still can't trust people, and his sense of despair at the inherent evil of human nature is still lingering.

But the only thing he figured out was that hatred came too easily to solve any problems.

Love and forgiveness are too difficult, but it is the only way to let yourself out.

He felt that the luckiest thing in his life was when only Zhai Yanghao was left by his side. At many joints, they might be separated, but Zhai Yanghao never let go.

Zhai Yanghao often called him stupid and laughed at his naivety.

Qu Shen felt that it was really hard to say who was more innocent, he or Zhai Yanghao.

Many years later, the little classmate gradually encountered the same problem as Qu Shen—under the perverted protection of the master and the education of the unconventional way, he gradually became an unconventional child, and it was difficult to be understood. Gradually, it is difficult to trust others, but my heart is not strong enough to accept everything.

But gradually he was worthy of being the master's son. When he came to Qu Shen to confide in him, he already had a set of theories, and he was even a little relieved.

"I feel that life is very dark, and I want to find someone to illuminate me, but no one can illuminate me all the time. If I can't find this beam of light in the world, I will make it myself."

Qu Shen was slightly surprised, because he vaguely remembered that he had also felt the same mood.

"But isn't this too naive? Is it possible that I can't do it?" He said slowly, then raised his head and looked at Qu Shen with bright eyes - he still retained this demeanor after he grew up.

"How can I become like you?" Slowly was very anxious, "Dad said you were terribly troubled before, but you are so good now, Dad said you are going to become a Buddha."

Qu Shen thought for a moment, couldn't help laughing and said:

"Buddhas are people from the past, and people are future Buddhas."

"I was once as naive as you."

The author has something to say:

It's over.I wrote the article for two full years, and it was also the time when I went from gloomy to peaceful.I am also going to embrace the next stage of my life, and it may take another two years to post a complete article next time.I hope that Jinjiang is also safe and sound. Even after [-], I can still come back and read my own articles. It is best that the reading volume is still increasing [bold smirk].In fact, writing articles is neither for making money nor for being popular. I feel that it is good to write freely like this, but when I look back and think that no one reads it, I still feel very angry... Now the work has left me, I left it in Jinjiang's drifting bottle is about to meet its destined person.