he became my love

No strength, no pain sensation, and his legs and feet started to twitch intermittently. Qin Yiming wanted to open his eyes to take a last look at the world, but his eyelids were heavy.

Goodbye, Mingyuan.

I don't know how my former 'friend' would feel when he heard the news of his death, would he feel regretful...or just disgusted and contemptuous...

In fact, from another perspective, Qin Yiming can also understand Mingyuan's approach, and believes that no matter whose father arranges his illegitimate child to the same university as himself, it will not feel good.

Therefore, whether it is a whim or a long-planned plan, a one-time "revenge" is also reasonable.

The seasons outside the window changed instantly, and the hot summer was as cold as winter, and I clearly felt the feeling of leaving my body when my consciousness left.

If it weren't for being desperate, extremely disappointed in oneself, and without the support to continue 'living', who would choose to saw his wrists with a fruit knife again and again, leaving many disgusting and horrible wounds, and could look at his own blood with a blank face Elapsed, spread all over the ground, and ended life by itself in the cruelest way?

I'm finally leaving this world, I can't hear the insults about "illegitimate children" anymore, I can't see those contemptuous eyes, and finally... I don't have to be hurt.

When death was approaching, only the word "liberation" lingered in his mind, as if...he didn't have much nostalgia for the 20 years he stayed in the world for a short time.

Qin Yiming, as a product of an extramarital affair without any blessings, is a lesson of "mother"'s ignorance when he was young, and it is also a crime evidence of "father" who is obsessed with ghosts.

He has been raised in his taciturn grandmother's house since he was born. Apart from having a good shell, his biggest advantage is that he is obedient.When I was young, I didn't ask many questions without the care of my parents. I only occasionally felt sad for my grandma whose eyes were red when she heard "illegitimate child".

Later, the older I got, the more I learned, and naturally I also knew how disgusting a "third party" is, and I also understood how disgusting the hat that has been put on my head since I was born...

But... It is said that there is no nostalgia, the second before the consciousness disconnected, Qin Yiming still couldn't control himself, and Mingyuan's handsome and flamboyant smiling face flashed in front of his eyes again.

Probably that person left too many ups and downs in his dull and gloomy life.

……

"I'm Mingyuan, and we'll live together from now on."

"Of course it's a gift for you, Qin Yiming, you...doesn't anyone celebrate your birthday together except grandma?"

"For the sake of your pity, it doesn't matter if grandma is gone. From now on, I will attend your birthday, and you don't need to be alone anymore."

"Yes, your father is indeed related to me by blood. Relatively speaking, I am the one who should apologize for this matter, but you are not innocent."

"Sure enough, every kind of lowly mother has such lowly son. Not only is it an illegitimate child, but it's also gay... According to your age, you should call me brother? My mother gave birth prematurely when she was pregnant with me because she knew about your existence. "

"It's not revenge, it's just a joke to pass the time. Who knows that you are so easy to take it seriously. After all, you are also receiving the old man's alimony. You are my half-brother. You are so good, how can I bear it?" playing with you."

……

After knowing each other for two full years, Mingyuan also agreed to his confession a year ago.

It seems that he finally has a stable life. If it was half a month ago, Qin Yiming would never have believed that the young man who let him feel the warmth again during college would personally push him into the eternal hell, let him In the city of new life, he was once again labeled as an "illegitimate child".

Add oil and vinegar and let it boil.

The whole school knows it.

……

"Well..." After falling into the bone-piercing ice, it was unbearably burned again. He was already in a state of severe water shortage, and the alternation of cold and heat caused Qin Yiming to struggle instinctively.

"...It's okay, it's okay, I'm back." A gentle and unfamiliar male voice suddenly appeared in his ears, and it was strange that he didn't feel any rejection in the close distance.

Someone's warm palm was covered on the forehead. Compared with the high body temperature, that hand felt very comfortable.

—Could it be, an attempted suicide?

Opening his eyes with difficulty, he wondered if it was because of the high heat of his body that his vision was very blurred, and there were even some double images.But even if he couldn't see clearly, Qin Yiming could still tell that it wasn't his bed or his room, it seemed... It wasn't his body either?

"Are you awake? Are you better? Drink some water. It's lukewarm water. The millet porridge will be out of the pot in a while. You have a fever now and you have to eat."

Very patiently exhorted, Qin Yiming was supported by the man sitting in front of the bed and half sat up and leaned against the head of the bed, still in a trance.

He obviously chose to end his life in the rented apartment, but now he wakes up in another room.Subconsciously stretched out his hand and touched it, not to mention bandaging, the right wrist that was almost sawed off with a fruit knife so hard was now intact.

"Hello, Qin Shen?"

The man stretched out his hand and shook it in front of his eyes, but there was no response. The next second, his drooping jaw was slightly lifted, and Qin Yiming was forced to look up at the man: "Are you still angry? Didn't I explain it to you last night? It's really something wrong with the company, when you recover, I will make it up to you, how about it?"

The man was born very handsome, aged between 25 and 30, not yet [-] years old, dressed in a neat suit, with a sharp face and bottomless eyes, it is not difficult to judge that this is a very serious person, but he looked at himself That look in his eyes is really...too gentle.

There was no reply for a long time, and the very spacious bedroom fell into a dead silence. Qin Yiming stared blankly at the man in front of him, unable to react to this weird situation for a short time, but in the next second, the man took advantage of his posture and leaned down, raising his head He raised his chin, and kissed him lightly on his lips.

"Well……"

Stiffness greeted the warm and soft lips, until he felt the wet tongue trying to pry open the tightly closed jaw, Qin Yiming began to fight back, pushing away the man who approached dusk when he lost his sanity.

When I was at a loss for the weird scene at the moment, and guessed that this might be a warm dream before my death, my mind was instantly filled with many images, all of which were about the man in front of me.

...The clear pictures can be spliced ​​together completely. The complete plot of the first vision is not as simple as pure imagination, it is obviously a series of complete memories.

More and more pictures, collected and supplemented into a story, told Qin Yiming that what was in front of him was not a dream at all, let alone a delusion before death, but that he had entered other worlds and entered other people's bodies.

……

"What's the matter, you suddenly resisted me? Sure enough, you're still angry." With the finger on the chin retracted, the man stretched out his hand to support Qin Yiming's shoulder, pressed him back on the bed, and leaned over to press him again, exuding a dangerous aura all over his body. With breath, he pressed his lips together again.

"Stop making trouble, Rong Qiao!"

Sure enough, it wasn't his body.

The hoarse voice clearly came from his own throat, and it sounded very strange.

Put your hands on your chest. People who have just experienced and felt life and death are extremely sensitive to the touch of others at this moment.In desperation, Qin Yiming called out the name that was entangled in the memory fragment.

Sure enough, the person on the body stopped obediently after hearing this, and only put his hands on the head of the bed, looking at himself.

Inexplicably stared at by those bright black eyes, Qin Yiming pulled the quilt over his face, not daring to look directly at Rong Qiao: "I... still feel bad, so, so..."

"What are you thinking? Sooner or later, you will be my people. I'm not in a hurry, I just want to test your body temperature."

Because of the lovely reaction of the subordinate, he sighed amusedly, Rong Qiao flicked Qin Yiming's forehead, and saw Qin Yiming's slightly frowned brows before he said with satisfaction: "I'll get you some porridge, don't try to seduce me until you're healthy, Greedy cat."

Get up and leave.

Gently closing the bedroom door, blocking the warm yellow light from the living room, the spacious bedroom fell into darkness, as if that too long sleep, so long that it would never wake up.

……

Qin Shen, male, 27 years old, has a small career, is the design director of a communication company, and grew up in an orphanage.Rong Qiao, who is both a childhood friend and his lover, the two of them started living together the day before...

Therefore, Qin Yiming didn't die, but traveled to another world strangely, became a person named Qin Shen, and mastered his general memory, which is the real meaning - soul wear.

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