Drifting

When Cheng Sidu returned home, the lights were all off.

He fumbled for the switch on the wall, turned it on with a click, thought for a while, then turned off the light, turned on the phone's own lighting, went into the kitchen and drank a cup of hot water, then went back to the room to take a shower and go to bed.

Cheng Sidu couldn't sleep well, took half a sleeping pill, and fell asleep in the middle of the night.

The next day, Cheng Sidu ran into his old college classmate during his consultation.

"Hey, why are you here?" Si Du laughed.

"I passed the civil service exam." The man smiled.

"Very good, sister-in-law and daughter are here?"

"Yeah." The man smiled tenderly, which shows that his family life is indeed happy and happy, perhaps because he is so happy and a little middle-aged.

"What's wrong with coming here this time?"

"I've been suffering from knee pain for a while, is it rheumatism?"

"Let me see."

After prescribing a few externally applied medicines, Cheng Sidu returned the medical record card to him, "Pay attention to protecting your knees, and wear long johns in winter."

The man accepted it, thought for a while, and asked again: "Sidu, there is something I wanted to ask a long time ago, you and your junior boyfriend..."

"Divided." Sidu's voice was very calm, and he laughed, "It's been many years."

"Oh, when I was in senior year, I saw that you were old and moved back to the dormitory, but I didn't have the nerve to ask."

"Well, it's all over."

Cheng Sidu just felt like a lifetime away.

This half day passed in a muddle again, and when he left the consultation room, he was even more distraught, and was stopped several times by the little nurse, reminding him if he was not feeling well.Sidu shook his head, took his bag and went home.

Walking to the hospital lobby, I saw the man selling medical equipment, who had been haunting Cheng Sidu for more than two months, and his ghost was lingering.

Cheng Sidu wrapped his face with a scarf, but he was still recognized by him, and he chased after him, "Doctor Cheng! Doctor Cheng! Wait!"

Cheng Sidu started to trot quickly.

The man carried a medical device and chased him for two streets. His physical strength was amazing, and he was about to chase into the subway station. Panting for breath, Cheng Sidu couldn't help but stop, and scolded him: "If this happens again, I'm going to call the police!"

The man stopped resentfully, and said with a naive smile: "Doctor Cheng, I support my family, there is nothing I can do. Look, this..."

Cheng Sidu ignored it, turned his head and left.

Sitting on the subway, Sidu looked at the billboards, jewelry, cars, stars and high-tech products that flew past quickly outside the car window.Sidu thought of the salesman's face, and suddenly thought, did Tan Qing ever go begging someone with a smiling face like this?Maybe more than that.

Sidu and Tan Qing had suffered a lot.

Sidu had to admit that Tan Qing was much more miserable than him.

He let out a long breath, slowly closed his eyes, and was wary of sitting too far.

Then he sat and stood.

Sidu got off the train wanting to cry without tears, paid for his ticket, walked out of the subway station, and prepared to walk back slowly.

The sky was gloomy, leaden clouds hung low, and the top of the distant building had been hidden in the clouds.

Storm is coming.

After walking and running back home, my mother and her boyfriend were sitting on the sofa, discussing the honeymoon address after receiving the certificate.

"Sidu, come take a look." His mother greeted him.

He sat on the armrest of the sofa and said everything he saw, which made his mother tease him: "You will get married later, and if your wife asks you that, how dare you answer it?"

The mother suddenly fell silent, and seemed to be talking to herself, "Sidu will marry a woman, right? Certainly."

Cheng Sidu had a splitting headache and sore eyes, so he had to coax his mother, "Mom, Mom, I think Maldives is pretty good. Take another look, and let me know when you're sure, and I'll go to the travel agency to book tickets for you."

Cheng Sidu returned to the room, and when the door closed, he felt like he was back in the cage again.

After lying down for a while, I received another call from the hospital, saying that a patient had been brought in with a broken patella, and the condition was serious.He immediately put on his clothes again and took a taxi to the hospital.

After working until midnight, he came out of the ward with a very bad complexion, his narrow nose was covered with fine beads of sweat, and was helped by the nurse to hang the water again.The needle was hit on his left hand, and he can still order takeaway with his right hand.

When the bottle of normal saline was hung up, it was inconvenient for him to rest, so he took a ball of cotton to press the needle hole, passed by the hallway to pick up takeaway, and took the elevator back to the office.

Sidu passed by the office, and saw a very eye-catching man sitting in the director's office, wearing a long black coat, with clean hair.

The man turned his face, it was Tan Qing.

Sidu seemed to be caught peeping, looked back timidly and awkwardly, and was called into the office by the director.

"Xiao Cheng, haven't you eaten yet?" The director smiled.

"Well, I just saw a patient." Sidu hid the takeaway behind his back.

"what to eat?"

Sidu whispered, "Double meal with char siew and pork chops."

"It's a good meal." The director nodded to Tan Qing again, "Mr. Tan stopped by to ask for follow-up information. You can take him to the archives room to find Xiao Li tomorrow."

"Okay, okay." Sidu agreed.

Tan Qing got up to thank him, followed Sidu, and walked out the door.

When he reached the elevator entrance, Sidu stopped, pressed the elevator for him, and said very businesslike: "Tomorrow morning or afternoon, it's convenient for me."

"Then I'll come over this afternoon."

"it is good."

"Software or something, is it going well?"

"Ah."

"Very good." Sidu watched Tan Qing enter the elevator, no one pressed the door close button, he smiled sincerely and said: "Tan Qing, I wish you success, I wish you great fortune forever, I wish you Forever lucky."

Both of them recalled the past in unison.

Sidu once asked: "Tan Qing, will we always be so poor?"

Tan Qing said with certainty: "No."

Tan Qing's face changed a little, and he looked at him secretly, like looking at an old friend, like looking at an old lover, or looking at a stranger.

"Cheng Sidu." Tan Qing called out his name, feeling contemptuous and disgusted, "I'm not worth it."

The elevator doors closed.

Si Du walked and thought, with a thousand thoughts, but he couldn't figure it out.

Back in the office, there is a high-end gift cup and other electronic gadgets on his desk. The word "Hua Ke" is printed on the porcelain white cup.It is a gift cup from Tan Qing Company.

Isn't this his heart to punish?

Cheng Sidu opened the takeaway, and suddenly found that the pinhole in his left hand was no longer bleeding. He buried himself in the rice, until he rolled the last grain of rice into his tongue, and realized that he had cried at some point.

The next afternoon, Cheng Sidu received Tan Qing in the hall.Tan Qing didn't seem to be afraid of the cold, wearing a cashmere sweater and a cashmere coat, without a scarf, and was on the phone at the door. When talking, the hot breath from his mouth turned white like frost.

"coming."

"Ah."

After the data handover was completed, Cheng Sidu sent him out, but he said, "No, I know the way."

"Oh, you have a good memory." Cheng Sidu smiled, "Then goodbye."

Tan Qing thought for a while, "Because of emotion and reason, I should treat you to a meal."

"Didn't you eat it?" Cheng Sidu looked at his collar, and changed his words abruptly for some reason, "Well, how are you today? Are you free?"

Tan Qing said: "Yes."

Tan Qing took him to eat Cantonese cuisine, Cheng Sidu stood in front of his car for a while, looked at the empty co-pilot, smiled, and then sat in, "Do you want to turn on the navigation?"

"There is car navigation."

"Oh."

When they arrived at the place, the two of them entered the box and ordered food for dinner.

Cheng Sidu even ordered wine.

When Tan Qing carried Sidu into the car, Cheng Sidu suddenly reached out and hugged Tan Qing, his face showed pain, he couldn't tell where he was hurting, heart, lungs, limbs, he said in pain: "Tan Qing Light, Tan Qing."

Tan Qing carried him into the back seat, sat in herself, and patted his back like coaxing a child.

"Do you have a boyfriend? Or are you married?" Sidu couldn't keep his mouth shut, and poured out all his thoughts, "Are you really happy leaving me behind? Do you feel happier when I'm with you?"

Finally, he asked: "Tan Qing, I still love you, can we try again?"

"How to try?" Tan Qing felt amused.

Cheng Sidu looked at him, hugged his neck tightly, and kissed him tenderly and painfully.

He felt that his tongue was bitter, and he was afraid that it would reach Tan Qing, but he was also afraid that it would not reach Tan Qing.

Sidu's lips sucked Tan Qing's upper lip, and then kissed Tan Qing's lower lip. With the tip of his tongue, he slipped it in, slippery and sweet, and silently and desperately exchanged a lingering kiss that was close to death.

Memories slipped through my mind frame by frame.The mosquito-scented first kiss on the construction site under the moonlit night, and the dilapidated single apartment in the north of Hangzhou University City. They had quarreled, quarreled, and shed tears during the cold war, but their love has never been so sure.

Tan Qing remained motionless, as if waiting for Cheng Sidu to finish. After 3 minutes, he took the initiative to bite Sidu's bright red lips, and asked hoarsely, "Are you on the night shift today?"

Cheng Sidu shook his head.

"That's good." Tan Qing stared at him sullenly, then laughed at him, "Go to my house."