The strongest agent [entertainment]

Yuan Jie moved again on the bed.

Chu Xu was taken aback, and quickly grabbed a box of cold medicine in his hand, hesitated for a while, and tentatively walked to Yuan Jie's bedside, and called out, "Brother Yuan, Brother Yuan, are you still awake?"

Yuan Jie didn't respond, turned over, seemed to be in a deep sleep, and snored lightly.

Chu Xu breathed a sigh of relief, then tiptoed out of Yuan Jie's room holding his breath.

The moment he left Yuan Jie's room, Yuan Jie opened his eyes in the darkness.

The next morning, while eating breakfast, Yuan Jie asked him suddenly, seemingly casually: "Xiao Xu, did you enter my room last night?"

"Ah... how do you know, Brother Yuan." Chu Xu was not surprised that Yuan Jie, who was a soldier, would find that he had touched his things.

Therefore, he was already prepared: "Yes, I had a cold yesterday. I remembered that there was a medicine drawer in your room, so I wanted to take some cold medicine. I saw that you were asleep, so I didn't have the nerve to wake you up."

He also asked slightly surprised: "Hey, Brother Yuan, how did you find out?"

"Oh, so that's the case. Then how is your cold?" Yuan Jie didn't show any strangeness, and asked with great concern: "I arrange my things regularly. Something moved."

Chu Xu hurriedly said: "I took the medicine last night and the pressure has been suppressed, you don't have to worry."

Yuan Jie didn't say anything more.

Chu Xu felt inexplicably flustered.

The pills in the pajamas were still there. After Chu Xu had breakfast, changed his clothes and bid farewell to Yuan Jie, he went directly to a doctor friend he knew well and gave him the pills from the vitamin bottle that Yuan Jie often took. : "Can you help me figure out what this is?"

"Where did you get this medicine?" The doctor friend and Chu Xu have known each other for many years. He picked up the pill, looked at it, smelled it, and immediately became serious, and asked rigorously.

Seeing his reaction, Chu Xu made a good guess about the result: "...my fiancé is taking it, and he puts the medicine in a vitamin bottle. Is there something wrong with this medicine? Can you Help me find out what kind of medicine this is?"

"Your fiancé? You changed your partner again, or a star? I told you to stop looking for a partner in this industry. It's stressful and you have a lot of work. If you ask you to find someone outside the circle, you just refuse to listen to me." The doctor Frowning tightly, she said to Chu Xu: "This is fluoxetine... If your fiancé is taking this food, there is a big problem."

Chu Xu finally got the answer, and instead of feeling relaxed, he became more and more heavy. He asked, "...Is it a medicine for depression?"

It seems……

What Yin Jue said was really true... Did Yuan Jie suffer from depression and commit suicide because of him because he broke off the engagement back then?

"It's not depression, it's bipolar disorder, which is worse than depression." The doctor friend shook his head and said so.

Chu Xu frowned in confusion: "Bipolar disorder?"

He has heard of depression, but he really doesn't know about bipolar disorder...

"It is a more serious mental illness than depression. It generally manifests as two extreme reactions of depression and mania in one person, and it is difficult to cure." The doctor said that this disease is extremely difficult.

Chu Xu listened in a trance, and after a long time, he asked: "So if you have this disease, may you have suicidal tendencies?"

"Not only will there be suicidal tendencies, but those with biased thoughts will get into the horns, and maybe they will also have the tendency to hurt others, destroying themselves and everything they care about..." The doctor frowned.

He paused for a moment, then asked Chu Xu: "Your fiancé has really been identified, can't you break up and change? This disease is very troublesome and serious, and it's hard to cure it. If it gets worse in the future... You are now a fiancé, if you really get married in the future, maybe you will be dragged down for the rest of your life, maybe he suddenly gets sick in the middle of the night, chops you up with a knife, it is also possible. The psychology of a patient with this kind of disease is It’s hard for normal people to fathom.”

He didn't know everything between Yuan Jie and Chu Xu.

After only looking at the medicine Yuan Jie was taking, as a good friend, he no longer suggested that Chu Xu continue to be with this fiancé.

I really don't know where Chu Xu came to know such a difficult person to associate with.

Chu Xu listened silently, in a trance.

"I love him very much, I will not break up with him, I will marry him, and be with him forever..." Chu Xu sat in a daze for a long time, and opened his mouth to say this.

He never thought that Yuan Jie would suffer from depression and even commit suicide because of his breaking off the engagement. He never knew that Yuan Jie liked him so much. Jie and his attitude are the same, neither eager nor very resistant, dispensable.

he never knew...

He never knew that his willfulness would cause such serious consequences to Yuan Jie, and he even... At that time, his attitude towards Yuan Jie was once so bad.

Blame him.

It's all his fault, Yuan Jie is so good, so outstanding.

How can there be mental problems, how can there be mental illness... It's him, it's him...

He was the one who ruined Yuan Jie.

Chu Xu felt so guilty that he couldn't add more.

The doctor friend frowned in disapproval of his decision, and still tried to dissuade him: "You have to think clearly, this is bipolar disorder, which is different from depression, which only commits suicide and does not hurt others, isn't it Now that you have feelings, you can solve it. You want to marry him now, but people with this disease will get sick, but the six relatives will deny it. There are precedents for killing your own children and killing your spouse... If you are with him Marriage, not guaranteed. After marriage, he gets sick, goes crazy and can't control it, he can kill you with a knife."

"It was me, I ruined him, I got his illness because of me. I will marry him... Even if he is crazy, I will take care of him for the rest of his life. It's gone." But during this period of time, Chu Xu had made up his mind that he would marry Yuan Jie and take care of her for the rest of his life.

Everyone has their own responsibilities.

He was the one who harmed Yuan Jie, and Yuan Jie got sick because of him... There is a cycle of cause and effect. Now that Yuan Jie is his object, he must also take responsibility for him for the rest of his life.

In the future, whether Yuan Jie is crazy or stupid, or if he will really kill him, he will admit it.

The doctor frowned: "You'd better think about it..."

"Needless to say, thank you for telling me this today, and helping me with my medicine... I will treat you to a wedding wine some other day." Chu Xu interrupted him directly, his eyelashes flickering, as if he had made it in his heart Very big decision.

He has decided to live with Yuan Jie for the rest of his life.

******

Because of the recurrence of the disease, Yuan Jie would pick a time every week to meet with a top psychiatrist in the capital.

The psychological clinic played soothing music, and Yuan Jie sat on a huge semicircular rocking chair made of rattan silk, quietly pouring out his feelings to the psychiatrist: "...I think he may have discovered my Sick, he sneaked into my room last night after we rested, rummaged through my medicine drawer, and ended up taking three pills from my vitamin bottle. I treat bipolar disorder medicine..."

"The him you mentioned, if you guess correctly, refers to your lover. Are you in love recently? General Yuan." Dr. Liang listened carefully to every word Yuan Jie said, and communicated with him.

Yuan Jie nodded lightly: "That's right, I can never figure out what he is thinking, I am always suspicious, and when he is not by my side, I will think wildly, I really want to control myself, but I can't control myself I myself feel that I am really distorted and perverted... I am very scared, afraid that after he knows that I have bipolar disorder, he will leave me, and then I will do something uncontrollable. I don’t want to Hurt him, but I'm afraid I won't be able to control myself..."

"Sometimes, I think maybe it's best for me and him that we break up, but... I really can't bear it. Every day with him seems like a luxury to me."

"Maybe, you're thinking too much. He doesn't know anything at all. He really just took a box of cold medicine when he came to your room. He really has a cold."

"No, it won't... I watched him do all that with my own eyes. He thought I was asleep, but I was actually awake."

"General Yuan, you have to know that you are a manic-depressive person. People with manic-depressive disorder sometimes have their own fantasies. Could it be that your lover didn't do anything and didn't know anything? Is it just your imagination?"

"I counted the number of medicines in the vitamin bottle... There is absolutely nothing wrong, but three tablets are missing." Yuan Jie was very sure of the number: "He took the medicine, he must have known that I have this disease."

Dr. Liang was so firm in his attitude that he didn't dare to press him, and pushed him too hard, so he changed the subject while taking notes: "...It seems that you love your lover very much?"

"I love him very much." This time, Yuan Jie replied quickly: "Every day with him is a luxury for me. After getting this disease, I never thought that he would be able to be with me one day." Together, I only thought that as long as I met him occasionally and intervened in his life as a friend and brother, I would be very happy and satisfied, and even one day he would be with someone else, and I would bless him. But I am always greedy. The more I get in touch with him, the more I want. From being satisfied when I see him occasionally, it slowly evolves into wanting to be with him. Really with me, I want him to live with me again, I can see him every day, but he lives with me, after I can see him every day, I am not satisfied again... I want to, and he will love me too, I hope that my position in his heart can become the most important, occupying his whole body and mind completely..."

He kept pouring out: "I'm really greedy, and I always want more. This is really terrible. I can't control myself. I'm really worried that if I continue like this, I will no longer be able to control myself." If you can't control yourself in front of him, completely exposing your greedy, distorted and ugly side will hurt him."

"This is really terrible doctor, please help me, help me control this twisted psychology... I really can't live without him, I can't lose him."

Dr. Liang realized that his situation was wrong, and quickly said: "Please calm down, please calm down, General Yuan. In fact, if you are in a relationship, this is very normal. It is not a psychological problem at all. If you love your lover, of course you will also hope that you Lovers love you, all people in love will hope that they are unique and irreplaceable in each other's hearts, this is normal, not a psychological problem."

"You have controlled it very well now. Your current problem is that you are too sensitive and too entangled in these things. It is normal for people in love to be suspicious and jealous. It's not that you are mentally twisted and cranky...you can Try to express these doubts directly to your lover. No one is perfect, and you don’t need to deliberately show such a good and perfect side in front of him. It’s unrealistic. Lovers should tolerate each other reasonably. All the shortcomings of the other party are not fake love, you should be comfortable with love, don't be too inferior, I believe your lover will understand you..." Dr. Liang tried to persuade him: "You Didn't you say before that he had had a lot of dating partners?"

Yuan Jie was very resistant: "No, I can't do that, he will definitely leave me and hate me..."

He didn't dare to show his bad and unreasonable side in front of Chu Xu.

"If possible, can you let me meet your lover? General Yuan, for your psychological treatment, you usually need the assistance of your family and lover, which is more beneficial to your condition...you and your lover The problems between them can also be greatly improved through me." Dr. Liang suggested.

Yuan Jie suddenly became excited, even more resistant: "No, I can't let you see him, I can't let him know about this..."

He didn't dare to let Chu Xu know that he had committed suicide because of bipolar disorder.

That's really scary, too cowardly and too inferior... That's not the man Chu Xu knew at all...

In Yuan Jie's view, committing suicide for the other party to break off the marriage contract with himself is just like a person who threatens suicide because he can't get someone to win the other party's sympathy. It is too abnormal and too unbearable. Tolerated, others will only sympathize with the threatened one.

He wanted to erase this matter completely. In order not to let Chu Xu know that he had such a past, he even secretly tried to let his family and the Chu family know after being with Chu Xu. The matter that Chu Xu was already with him, let Chu Songbai forgive Chu Xu and let Chu Xu go home.

He can't let Chu Xu know that he committed suicide, Yuan Jie's thoughts are very pessimistic and extreme.

Seeing this, Dr. Liang didn't dare to persuade him any more.

After Chu Xu knew that Yuan Jie was suffering from bipolar disorder and committed suicide for him, he immediately thought that Yuan Jie should be in treatment and had his own attending physician.

There were some things that Chu Xu didn't dare to ask Yuan Jie face to face.

So, he thought, maybe he should contact Yuan Jie's attending doctor and have a chat with him first.

When they confirmed the relationship, Yuan Jie turned on his personal terminal function for him. Chu Xu could use his personal terminal to look through all the information in Yuan Jie's personal terminal except military secrets and some encrypted content.Yuan Jie has very little encrypted content other than military secrets.

Chu Xu had never been curious before, only that the content inside was also related to military secrets, but it was not encrypted with military secrets.

But after learning about Yuan Jie's condition, Chu Xu became curious about it.

His Internet skills are very good, which is something that even his parents don't know.It took Chu Xu an hour to decipher Yuan Jie's encrypted message except military secrets.

Sure enough, they found Yuan Jie's psychiatrist's contact information and medical records inside.

Chu Xu took a special time to visit the capital in person, entered the top psychological clinic in the capital through Yuan Jie's personal terminal authority, and knocked on the door of Yuan Jie's attending physician.

"Hello, who are you?" Dr. Liang thought it was Yuan Jie coming again when he saw the prompt on the terminal, but he didn't expect to see a stranger when he looked up, and immediately frowned suspiciously.

Chu Xu asked: "Excuse me, are you Dr. Liang? You have a patient named Yuan Jie here, right?"

"You are..." Dr. Liang did not dare to reveal too much patient information.

Chu Xu directly showed Dr. Liang the display of his personal terminal bound with Yuan Jie: "I am his boyfriend, he may not want me to know about his condition, and I dare not ask more, but I I thought... I should talk to you."

"Exactly, I was also looking to talk to you about Mr. Yuan's condition. It would be great if you could take the initiative to come to me first." Dr. Liang checked Chu Xu's personal terminal display and confirmed that he and Yuan Jie are really lovers After getting in touch, he quickly asked him to sit down and said this.

"Mr. Yuan, do you know that he committed suicide more than ten years ago because of his ex-fiancé's engagement with him?" Dr. Liang asked as soon as he sat down.

Chu Xu smiled bitterly: "I know, in fact, I am the ex-fiancé who broke off the engagement with him more than ten years ago."

"So it's like this. You guys got back together recently, right? No wonder Mr. Yuan is so worried about gains and losses... His condition has basically stabilized, and there is no tendency to commit suicide or murder, but he is very insecure and in front of you. self-confidence..." Dr. Liang took out the notes he had made for Yuan Jie, and talked endlessly.

Chu Xu chatted with him all afternoon.

From Dr. Liang, Chu Xu learned a lot about Yuan Jie, after reuniting with him and after he ran away from home... The shocking files made Chu Xu feel like a sinner. Yuan Jie's illness was entirely caused by him, and when he was not around, Yuan Jie recovered very well.

Chu Xu's mood was extremely complicated and solemn.

He felt extremely distressed towards Yuan Jie. How much do you have to love someone to choose to commit suicide after the person who doesn't care about you chooses to leave?

Chu Xu couldn't imagine it, but felt extremely guilty and distressed.

I can't wait to go back to that time and beat myself up in the second year of middle school.

On the way back to Xidian from the imperial capital, Chu Xu drove the suspension car very fast, but it was still close to eleven o'clock before returning home. When he got downstairs, Chu Xu saw that the convenience store was still open, so he chose to go in and buy something , just went upstairs.

The lights at home were on, Chu Xu pushed open the door, and Yuan Jie was sitting in the living room waiting for him without saying a word.

If it was in the past, Chu Xu would definitely not feel that there was anything wrong.

But now when Chu Xu saw him like this, he thought that Yuan Jie must have been restless and waited for him all night...

"Xiaoxu, you're back, why did you come back so late today?" Yuan Jie stood up and looked at him, completely unable to tell that he was a severe manic-depressive patient who had committed suicide.

He's actually very nervous...

He knew that Chu Xu had taken his medicine, but he didn't know whether Chu Xu already knew what was wrong with him, whether he would find him scary, whether he would ask him about it, and how he should answer.

But he still didn't show anything on his face.

Chu Xu suddenly stepped forward, walked up to Yuan Jie, and hugged him tightly.

Yuan Jie was taken aback, before he could say anything.

Chu Xu leaned close to his ear and blurted out: "...I love you."

He knew that Yuan Jie had no sense of security, so he would try his best to give Yuan Jie a sense of security...

Yuan Jie was stunned on the spot. It was the first time Chu Xu said such words to him after they had been together for so long. , What did you just say, can you say it again?"

"I love you." Chu Xu spoke again without hesitation.

Now in his eyes, there is nothing more important than Yuan Jie.

Whatever Yuan Jie wanted to hear, he was willing to say it now, as many times as he wanted.

Yuan Jie suddenly hugged him back tightly, couldn't be tighter, Chu Xu let him hug him, and hugged him back tightly, the two of them were tightly entangled, as if they were welded together Can no longer be separated.

The two of them didn't know how long they hugged each other before they let go.

Yuan Jie stared at him, and began to kiss him again. Chu Xuyu never refused to Yuan Jie's requests, and responded almost enthusiastically.

One kiss.

Both of them were a little out of breath.

Yuan Jie glanced at the time, stopped asking him, and said instead: "It's getting late, let's go back to our rooms and rest. We have to go to work tomorrow morning."

He thought, he wanted to take a cold shower and press himself.

No matter whether Chu Xu knew it or not, as long as Chu Xu didn't tell him the truth, it would be fine to break up with him.

"I'll go to sleep in your room." Chu Xu suddenly grabbed his hand and said firmly.

Ever since he knew that Yuan Jie had bipolar disorder and committed suicide, he couldn't let Yuan Jie sleep alone.Because, he didn't know what Yuan Jie would think or do alone in the room... He was afraid that Yuan Jie would be overwhelmed, even though he was in the room next to Yuan Jie.

In the entertainment industry, there are too many depressed stars who find opportunities to commit suicide under the noses of their lovers and spouses.

Yuan Jie was taken aback, not understanding why Chu Xu made such a decision: "Ah?"

"I want to sleep with you." Chu Xu repeated again irresistibly.

Yuan Jie never refused him very much, so he just said blankly: "Okay."

The two of them had hardly shared the bed with others, and it was the first time that they shared the same bed as adults. The other's clearly audible breath came into the ears together, and after lying down, the two of them were even closer Don't dare to move.

I thought that this first night, both myself and the other party would not be able to sleep much.

But to my surprise, the two fell asleep very quickly, soundly and deeply.

Chu Xu had an incomparably sweet dream, and woke up very early the next morning. When he woke up, he felt something pressed against his buttocks. He moved, and felt that there was someone beside him who couldn't help being frightened. jumped.

He turned around and just remembered that he was sleeping on Yuan Jie's bed, and the person lying next to him was Yuan Jie.

And what came to him...

It is probably Yuan Jiechen Bo.

Yuan Jie was disturbed by his movement and opened his eyes, and the moment he saw Xu clearly, he immediately woke up.

The two looked at each other for a while, and realized that they had morning bosoms, and Yuan Jie, who was tightly attached to Chu Xu's body, was instantly embarrassed: "I'm sorry..."

It was the first time that Yuan Jie, who had grown up and slept alone, had encountered such a thing.

Chu Xu looked down at his personal terminal, and found that the time was only five o'clock.

Today is February [-]th, Valentine's Day.

Chu Xuding looked at Yuan Jie beside him, and suddenly remembered the things he bought in front of the building last night, but he forgot because he was not in the mood yesterday, and quickly made a decision in his heart.

He inadvertently touched Yuan Jie's hard part, and found that he also had an erection, and said straight to the point: "I want to sleep with you."