Bit by bit

No one has seen how humble I am at this time, I have been waiting foolishly, I don’t know what’s wrong with me, maybe I’m used to the messages he sends me at this time every day, yesterday’s words were not speculative Afterwards, I kept checking with my phone to see if there was any new information. It seemed that I was being sentimental again.I said to myself that if he doesn't message me today, I won't have any hope.

I want to say that other people's emotional roads are also so tortuous?At least I am, if I let others see how I am waiting now, I don’t think I will be able to stand up in this life. It turns out that the relationship before the failure was so on thin ice and so uneasy.Xiaohong, you can't go on like this, maybe this relationship is not suitable for you.

While waiting, I thought of Xin Yiwu's novel "I'm Waiting for You in Memories", and I thought of Situ Jue's waiting behind time. She originally wrote "I want to find the former Situ Jue, and tell her, I must Don't fall in love with that person." But later she changed it, writing "If anyone met a man named Yao Qiyun in the past, please tell him, on July 2001, 7, until the last second of that day, I'm still here waiting for him", but at the last second, Situ Jue chose to slow down her watch by an hour, she thought, as long as she waits, he will still come!Situ Jue trembled uncontrollably during the long ringing of the bell. She thought she would cry, but she didn't have a single tear. She just woke up from a big dream.She was so ashamed of her madness and self-deprecation just a moment ago, as if possessed by the most hideous ghost, and the name of this ghost was "loved him".

And what I'm waiting for right now is a boy I haven't even met face to face, maybe he chatted with you on a whim, maybe who knows if he is also chatting with another blind date at this time, these are all unknown.I only know that I am really like Situ Jue at this time, which is why I have always liked her books so much, because there are too many shadows of me in them.

If I don’t have any news today, I won’t wait anymore. I have put in too much energy for this unknown relationship, and I am a little tired. I will go home tomorrow...

Speaking of going home, I remembered another interesting thing. Today, there is a parent whose child I have been tutoring for. She asked me yesterday when I would go back. I said it was the day after tomorrow. Today she sent a message to ask me "What's Mr. Li's plan for tonight?" The first thing that came to my mind was whether I was going to be invited to dinner, and my heart skipped a beat. After learning English, I just laughed.Xiaohong, you always like to be sentimental.I just replied, "The English test is over, and we have a holiday at noon today." Don't you think it's funny?