Bit by bit

I have always disliked the word "farewell", but I have experienced many partings in my life. Today, another person said that he would not come to the tutoring center next semester, and he would not come if he did not come. Why did he tell me? Been thinking about it all the time.I still feel sad when I think about it, why so many things are not as expected.

I started trying to accept blind dates, and I don't know why I am like this, as long as I talk about it, I will definitely get sick and catch a cold. I am really uncomfortable today. This kind of thing is really ordinary, but I don't understand why I get sick every time I talk about it, and now I feel so uncomfortable at work!Maybe it's because I'm getting older, and some things have become sensitive and fragile.

Speaking of parting, what I can't forget most is that when I gave up those books, I really wanted to die like this. In fact, when I gave up those books, what I gave up was my self-confidence, my dreams, and the kind of sadness that made me feel sad. I think I will never forget it in this life.

Today I chatted with Aqiao, she talked about her love history, said that the boy was a general manager, eight years older than her, her parents didn't like it very much, some objected, I don't know what happened, I thought What's more, this is normal, as long as people really love each other, these are nothing.

I chatted with that Xiao Min a few times, I think he should be a good boy, we talked about our shortcomings, and suddenly felt that this kind of directness is better, and at the same time I was also very disturbed, I belong to the kind of boy who once fell in love with him For someone who is hard for others to extricate themselves from, the name Yoo Jae-seok gave Lee Kwang-soo "Yong Jin-ae" suits me quite well.Like today, I waited for a long time and looked at my phone for a long time. I really wanted to have a few words with him, so I sent a text message to ask him what he was doing. He replied like this: "Originally, this dinner is for him. The teacher went, but in the end he was asked to go on top, he said he drank a lot of alcohol and his head hurts, and asked me to talk to him tomorrow."The uneasiness in my heart is still very strong, I really hate waiting like a harem concubine, chatting with you when I think of you occasionally, and abandoning you like nothing when I don't like it.I want to regain my sanity as soon as possible before sinking.

A person’s life is actually very happy. Why do I have to turn myself into two people? I don’t understand. I just remind myself all the time, don’t fall in love with someone easily. Sad reminder, it's not a good thing to love something you like too much.